#playing this for her because sb else started a different stream but like

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The Darkness (2007) sure has aged like it's almost 20 years old.

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Your Relationship Is Revealed After You Breakup ~ BTS Reaction

Jin:

Your heart pounded as you heard Jin’s voice on the other end of the line for the first time in weeks, staring down at the article that you had in front on me. “I can’t believe you sold a story on me Jin, what’s wrong with you?”

“It’s not like they tried to make out,” he quickly tried to defend, “they had the photo already, if I didn’t comment, they were going to publish regardless.”

You let go of a heavy sigh, “they’ve painted me out like some sort of monster, when we’re not even together anymore. I’ve had to deactivate everything, I’m not even at my house anymore Jin.”

“I’m sorry,” he whispered, running a hand through his hair. “I promise that I’m going to try and find a way to fix this, this isn’t fair on you when we’re not together.”

“How can you ever put this right Jin?”

You could hear him groan on the other end of the line, “just trust me, I’ll make a statement, shout from the rooftops, whatever it takes. I still think that you’re an incredible person Y/N.”

“Do you really think that’s enough for your fans to listen?”

“I’ll make sure that it’s enough to keep you safe.”

Yoongi:

Words failed you as you read through the statement that had been put out by his company to announce that the two of you had broke up. “We never made anything to say we were together,” you told your friend beside you.

“But if they’ve put out one to confirm a breakup, surely you have,” she tried to understand, “are you sure you’ve forgotten about it now, you’ve broken up?”

Your head shook instantly, you remembered exactly what you agreed. “I don’t know if he’s trying to play a game or what, but now everyone knows, and it’s not like we’re even together anymore.”

Call me,” she encouraged, “or the company, whoever it takes,” she added, passing her phone across to you. “You can’t let your name be dragged through the mud.”

“It’s a little too late for that.”

Her head shook, placing your free hand over the phone too. “It’s hard but call him. He’s got a lot of explaining to do if this has even the slightest bit to do with him Y/N, I’ll get him.”

“And what if this has absolutely nothing to do with Yoongi?”

“Then someone else will be explaining instead.”

Hoseok:

When your friend text you to turn on SBS, you instantly had a funny feeling on your tummy, noticing that a BTS interview was on the screen. “Hobi, we understand you had something that you wanted to say,” the interviewer smiled.

“It might come as a surprise to some, but I want to publicly apologise to Y/N,” he spoke, staring directly down the barrel of the camera. “I hope she’s watching.”

Your head shook in slight disbelief as Hobi began to tell you specifically about how regretful he was about how he ended things with you. “Why are you doing this?” You whispered to the screen.

“Sorry won’t do the trick, but I hope by speaking about this here, it will help you to realise just how regretful I am,” he continued, smiling weakly at the screen.

“Do your fans know about Y/N at all Hobi?”

His head shook, “we always kept things private, that was one of the reasons why we ended, but now that I’ve lost her, I want to scream it from the rooftops that I want her back in my life.”

“Well, let’s hope that she’s watching this and listening then.”

“Oh, I’m most definitely listening to you Hobi.”

Namjoon:

Once you finally opened the door, you quickly tried to shut it, but a foot in your doorway prevented you from being able to slam it. “Don’t just shut me out, this hurts me just as much as it’s hurt you that they know.”

“They know because of you Namjoon,” you vented, “who talks about their ex on a live stream, you have no idea how hurt I am about all of this.”

His hand brushed through his hair, scuffing his feet against the ground. “Sorry probably isn’t enough right now, but I thought coming here face to face would prove that I want to make things right Y/N.”

“Why were you even talking about me?” You questioned him, “why haven’t you just forgotten about me like you told me you would when you broke up with me?”

“Because it’s not as easy as that Y/N.”

Your eyes rolled across at him, “well, you’ve certainly made that obvious Namjoon. I don’t know what you get from coming here, but please just leave me alone for a while, I need it.”

“Just tell me that you at least accept my apology Y/N?”

“Right now, I don’t know if I do or not.”

Jimin:

As soon as you saw Jimin’s name come up on your screen, you picked up the phone, hearing a commotion in the background. “Y/N, I’m so glad you picked up. There’s been a terrible mistake that I need to tell you about.”

“You mean where your company accidentally posted a photo of us?” You asked him, “it’s already been posted, and sent to me thousands of times.”

You heard a loud groan come from him as he realised it was too late. “Look, I know we’re not together, but is there any way I can meet up with you so that we can talk about this properly?”

“What’s there to say?” You challenged him, “your company messed up, and so have you. Seeing you will only make things worse; I need to make sure I lay low for now.”

“I want to help Y/N and try and fix things.”

Your head shook as tears threatened to spill. “The damage is done Jimin, and it’s all down to you. You broke up with me, so let me stand on my own two feet. And have a word with your bosses too.”

“I hope that you know just how sorry I am about this.”

“I’m just sorry now that I ever got with you.”

Taehyung:

Your eyes widened as your friend stormed into your bedroom, throwing a magazine down on your bed. As you looked down, you noticed that Taehyung was the front page, and you, the tagline. “He’s spilled everything.”

“Why?” You stuttered, slowly turning the pages to see what he had to say. “Why has he chosen to bring up my name now Y/F/N?”

Her shoulders shrugged, sitting down beside you on your bed. “I don’t get what his game is, or what he wants to achieve. The fans never knew you, and now there’s millions who do know you.”

“What do I do?” You asked her, “it’s not like I can ask Taehyung to help me anymore, he’s thrown me into the sharks, so how can I possibly bite back now?”

“Release your own statement and tell the truth.”

Your head shook back at her, “no one will believe me if I start bashing him. It’ll just make things worse, he always warned me about his fan base, and now he’s told them all about me.”

“We can’t let him get away with this Y/N, we’ll do something.”

“I just don’t know what the answer is.”

Jungkook:

You let go of a groan as your phone rang yet again, reluctantly answering it without checking who was on the other line. “Jungkook, when will you get the message that I don’t want to talk to you?” You snapped down the phone.

“It’s me Y/N,” you heard a different voice responded, recognising Taehyung instantly. “He’s as gutted as you are about this Y/N.”

Your head shook, refusing to believe him. “If he’s gutted, why has our relationship been made public when we’re not together anymore. How does he even plan on resolving this Taehyung?”

“We don’t know how it got out,” he continued to tell you, “but we’re trying to find the solution. Jungkook is heartbroken, please don’t take this out on him.

“Who else is to blame? Who else knew about us?”

He frowned softly, “I wish I had the answers, but you know that we all love you, and all still want the best for you. We’d never do anything like this to intentionally hurt you Y/N.”

“Just tell Jungkook to sort it out, and not contact me again.”

“If that’s what you want, I’ll pass it on.”

---

Masterlist

[junker-town]

What Hannah Storm and Andrea Kremer have learned as the NFL’s only all-women broadcast team

A conversation with Storm and Kremer about their careers in broadcast, and their advice for young women broadcasters.

Hannah Storm and Andrea Kremer made history in fall 2018 when they partnered with Amazon to call Thursday Night Football and became the first ever all-woman NFL broadcast team.

The two were well-prepared for the role with more than 70 years in combined broadcast experience. Storm is perhaps best known for hosting ESPN’s SportsCenter after joining the network in 2008, and has also hosted live coverage of tennis and the Olympic games. Kremer has worked as a correspondent for ESPN, the NFL Network, and the CBS Sports Network, where she hosts the all-women weekly sports show, We Need To Talk.

The pair is in the middle of their second season calling games together, and spoke exclusively with SB Nation about the job, including the hardest parts about live commentary, and what it meant to make history in a male-dominated profession.

SB NATION: You all have been calling games together for almost two full seasons now. What were some of the hardest parts about doing this for the first time?

ANDREA KREMER: For all that Hannah and I had done in our long and storied, respective careers, this was not one of the things. So there’s so much to learn in terms of the mechanics of doing it, and really getting a feel for each other because there’s a reason you’re called partners. You really have to work together.

HANNAH STORM: Even though we were very experienced broadcasters, it was just very terrifying at the start in terms of doing something completely different. Using muscles that you hadn’t used before. So maybe it is like a QB who hasn’t played a lot under center going to the NFL, I think that’s probably not a bad analogy.

KREMER: When we started this season, I said to Hannah, ‘We know we can do this.’ When we called our first practice game last year, we didn’t know that. It was funny because I remember our first practice game, halftime, I turned to Hannah and I just looked at her and I go ‘we can do this.’ And again, because it was just so new you really had no idea until you start getting some reps under your belt

STORM: I think that literally, with each game, the learning curve was so huge, and now I think that we feel extremely comfortable. I would say game by game there has been a big learning curve, and we always go back and assess, ‘What can we do better?’ Go back and watch the tape, go back and self-critique, figure out everything from in-game mechanics to how are we preparing the most efficiently, how are we organizing that information — all of those things that go into it.

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SBN: I imagine there have to be some nerves before calling a game — how do you all channel those into a broadcast opening?

KREMER: I always say butterflies, nerves, whatever you wanna call them — it’s not bad thing. If you have them, it’s because you care about what you’re doing. It’s how you utilize them. If you let them paralyze you, bad thing. If you let them motivate you and kind of fortify you and energize you, then that’s a good thing.

STORM: I’m a pretty energetic person by nature. There are times when I get nervous. I wouldn’t say [that I do] before these games anymore because I think I’m so prepped up that I’m more excited than anything. Like, ‘Lets get this thing going.’ Everybody will tell you when they’re preparing so long for an event like this over the course of so many days, that clock ticks very slowly until kickoff.

We started something that I think was really great which is, we just start talking over pictures before we get on the air, we just start kind of riffing on different subjects, and we do a whole warm-up. And I just think that’s great because when the game kicks off, you’re kind of in that mode. So that’s one way that we deal with it.

SBN: You two had never worked together before, so what’s that been like getting used to working together professionally?

KREMER: You really need to get along with your partner, the audience senses it. It’s great when I hear, ‘Boy you and Hannah just sounded like you were finishing each others sentences.’ And that truly happens a lot. We’ll be sitting there doing interviews, the respondent will give their answer and then Hannah and I will literally have the same exact follow-up, and it comes out of one of our mouths. And we are often times scarily in sync with our thoughts, and it really pays off.

STORM: I knew that when Amazon said, ‘We want you and Andrea Kremer to do this together, and if the two of you don’t do it we’re actually not going to do it. This is the tandem that we want. We want the two of you to launch this stream.’ And I think knowing it was Andrea and really knowing first-hand what her work ethic was like I immediately was like, ‘Oh yeah, I feel really good about that.’ That for me was like a given.

SBN: To make history as the first all-female broadcast booth to ever call an NFL game is obviously a huge deal. Did you all ever talk about that aspect of calling games?

KREMER: The historical nature of our broadcast booth was obvious — nobody needed to remind us of that. I think the way that Hannah and I are built is, I’ll just speak for myself here, there’s no way that anyone or anything could put more pressure on me than I’m going to put on myself to be the best that I can be, and the best at whatever I set out to do. So we were cognizant of the historic nature, of course, but I think the word is more pride, we had pride in it.

STORM: I think that we both felt a great deal of responsibility that even if there was negative reaction — which there was initially to the announcement — that we had to do it. And I always said to Andrea, ‘If it’s not us, then who? If we don’t say yes, if we don’t take this opportunity, if we don’t take this chance to push ourselves at this point in our careers, how do we know that somebody else is ever going to get this opportunity down the road?’ You have to see it to believe it, you have to have people seeing that we’re doing it understanding that it can be done and wanting to achieve that as a career option. But if it’s never being done, it’s very, very hard to visualize that.

Let’s get this thing going!! Big game for both teams #DALvsCHI #tnfonprime @Andrea_Kremer pic.twitter.com/RG9ubLdRfH

— Hannah Storm (@HannahStormESPN) December 6, 2019

SBN: What have been the most fun or interesting games to call over the last two seasons?

KREMER: You want the games that are really meaningful, and certainly our last game of the season last year, Chargers-Chiefs, had major playoff implications and the Chargers hadn’t won there in so long, and it was a game that really, really came down to the end. That was so thrilling and so exciting. You want the games to be meaningful. I think that’s really the key.

STORM: There are times when bad things happen and you have to excel during those times, and I really felt like with the Browns and Steelers [Myles Garrett and Mason Rudolph] fight, that was something. Listen, the game was over, we’re saying goodbye, we’re giving the credits — ‘Hey see you next week’ — and all of the sudden all hell breaks loose. I think it was quite a bit, it was a lot of video, it was a lot to unpack, it was a lot going on. And I’m actually really proud of the way that she and I handled that.

It’s interesting because I think I have a very good big picture understanding of how to put things in context and my news background is very helpful, and I think covering and hosting a lot of big events gives me a perspective. But I think Andrea being in the trenches for so many NFL games, she understands so many of the nuances of what happens with coaches, with communication, with injuries, with personnel on the field, with detail.

KREMER: You learn that the worst time to evaluate your game is as soon as the game is over, because we tend to focus on if there was one thing that didn’t go the way you wanted. So you should never do that right after the game. There’s just this kind of feeling of, there’s a big exhale but there’s so much energy and so much excitement that you had calling these games. I just remember last year that stood out to me with that one game [Chargers-Chiefs].

SBN: What have been some of the biggest surprises or storylines from the league this season that have stood out to you?

KREMER: It’s the evolution of the young quarterbacks, that to me is the theme of the season. The fact that you’ve had so many signal callers 26 and under that have thrived. Not just doing backup roles, but it’s truly a changing of the guard year, and I think that that’s been really interesting to watch.

Obviously the flip side of that has been a lot of the officiating issues, which you never want that to be bigger than any of these games but something that was intended to clean some things up. I mean you just had to know it was going to open Pandora’s box, and it has.

STORM: Lamar Jackson, he has been a revelation, and the way that Harbaugh has tailored the system to his strengths, I think that what Jackson has done is put an exclamation point on a trend that we’ve been seeing for years in the NFL.

A few years ago we were lamenting, ‘Oh my God all these quarterbacks, all these spread offenses and air raid, they’re not going to be under center, they’re not comfortable in a pro style offense.’ They said that about Dak Prescott, too. And now what we’ve seen is the NFL has adapted to the talent of quarterbacks. Now that is totally flipped, where rather than having the quarterbacks adapt to the league, the league has adapted to the quarterbacks.

KREMER: These are the quarterbacks that are coming out, and then your job as a head coach is to look at your talent and build a system around them that rakes advantage out of those skills. And that’s what you have, so this idea of the pure pocket passer, Eli [Manning] and [Drew] Brees and [Tom] Brady and Philip Rivers to an extent, it’s not just their age, it’s a different kind of offense that we’re seeing out there now. Obviously defenses are hamstrung in a lot of ways — particularly defensive backs, at this point it feels like you could call holding or PI on virtually every play.

So it really really opens up the passing game and I think that it puts a lot more of a premium on these defenses. Teams are just going to run it until you stop it. I want to see longevity. That to me is always a key because you can get certain schemes that — I wouldn’t call them a fad. But to an extent what we’ve seen with the Rams in terms of they were unstoppable, and then give coordinators around the league an entire offseason to break it down and you see what happens.

Looking forward to supporting my friend & ⁦@PrimeVideo #tnfonprime partner ⁦@HannahStormESPN tomorrow night as⁩ I’ll be serving up some food and fun at the #HSFCelebrityWaiterNight tomorrow night benefitting the @HannahStormFdn! Come join us! pic.twitter.com/sCwB1H34hz

— Andrea Kremer (@Andrea_Kremer) October 29, 2019

SBN: What advice would you give young females wanting to call games?

KREMER: Never never never accept ‘no’ for an answer. Because it’s the easier thing for somebody to say no, because if they say yes they have to take another step, so you always want to be, as I like to call it, ‘pleasantly persistent’ in trying to self advocate for yourself, which you need to do.

But understand that reputations are very easy to build, very hard to tear down, and especially being a female in this business that’s everything, it’s really your reputation. I know people want to be liked, and that’s something that’s great to aspire to, but you really want to be respected.

STORM: I always tell students to make sure you know how to write, I think that’s critical. In my job I write all my ‘SportsCenter’ [broadcasts], and I write all my interviews. I understand how to organize thoughts and put stories together. And I think if you [have to] really understand organizationally what’s important and how to prioritize.

Radio, I thought that was really good prep for TV. I know a lot of people that are the greats, that have become TV announcers, have come out of radio. I think it’s a terrific medium. Obviously now when I say ‘radio’ that could be anything — podcasts or what have you. And I think covering as much live work as you can. Not just doing features, not just doing scripted things, I think as much live reps as you can.

KREMER: If you’re passionate about it, and you really have a dream, and you really want to accomplish something, then you have to believe that you’re going to make that happen. You can’t let anybody take that away from you.

To an extent you always have to have some blinders on. Blinders to naysayers and blinders to negativity, and just keep focusing on what it is that you really want to accomplish.

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‘TRANSMILITARY’ DIRECTORS ON THE AWARD-WINNING DOCO

Gabe Silverman and Fiona Dawson discuss the origins and impact of their powerful documentary, and its connection to the controversial Trump administration ban on trans people serving in the military.

“Here we were with an original documentary about two trans service members in a relationship, in the military who were coming out publicly for the first time, and it just kind of hit like gangbusters.”

Gabe Silverman is as pleased as anyone that his and co-director Fiona Dawson’s 13-minute film chronicling the United States’ ban on transgender personnel serving in the military has become a fully-fledged documentary garnering awards across the world.

When former Washington Post journalist Silverman, and his wife, Transmilitary writer Jamie Coughlin, formerly of USA Today, quit their jobs to start a production company, one of the first calls they received was from The New York Times. “They had licensed some material from an activist, Fiona Dawson; she was an advocate and they wanted to pair her with a journalist to produce what at the time was going to be a 3 to 4 minute film.”

“This short film ended up on the front page of The New York Times and was really making waves; we knew the story was unfolding and needed to be told,” said Dawson, who appreciated working with Silverman on the project. “The combination of our backgrounds really meant that we had different skill sets and experiences to bring together to make something potentially different.

“Filmmakers often have different primary motivations for making something. I’m an advocate who wants to use the power of film and television to change hearts and minds. I really wanted to use this as an advocacy piece to reach people that wouldn’t typically look at a trans story.”

“We have this opportunity to tell a really complicated and interesting story that intersects with many different issues, so we followed it and we thought there’d be one of two endings – that the ban would be lifted and we would have a kind of celebratory ending or the ban would not be lifted,” said Silverman. “But we never thought there’d be this third ending where we’d lift the ban, everything is hunky-dory, and more than a year later a new Commander-in-Chief decides to reinstate the ban.”

“Just a couple of months ago the Supreme Court did say this temporary ban could go into place,” said Dawson of the new ban, a final judicial decision on which is pending subject to several lawsuits. “Our prediction is that it will end up at the Supreme Court by next year.

“It creates a cultural climate that says that top leadership doesn’t actually really want trans members there, so any leaders beneath them that have an inclination to discriminate in some way kind of now have licence to do so. Of course it now means if you’re trans you can’t join the military.”

“What happened was that Trump tweets about it,” added Silverman. “The Supreme Court then decided that they would lift all the injunctions until it plays out in court. So now the ban is back in place. There was over two years between the time when the ban was lifted until April 12 of this year.

“During that time trans service members continued to serve openly and with the ban lifted there were zero incidents reported, no negative effect, and now it goes back into effect, it’s absurd. It’s the same thing you had under Don’t Ask Don’t Tell where you can be gay or you can be a lesbian but never tell anyone about it, never act on it, never live as your true self.”

Transmilitary premiered in Australia at the Veterans Film Festival in Canberra last November before screening at Queerscreen and LGBT-centric film festivals across Victoria. This author was a judge at the Veterans Film Festival where Transmilitary was awarded the Red Poppy Award for Best Film. The win was in no small part due to the filmmakers’ ability to adapt to the rapidly changing political environment to tell a compelling story and the intimate, moving access they were granted by those trans service members who are not able to fully express their identity in the country they defend.

“They were willing to do that because they knew if they didn’t do that then the next line of trans service members and trans kids wouldn’t have the type of representation that they didn’t have growing up,” said Silverman. “We wanted to make a very personal documentary which yes is about policy, but also, what is the weight of the policy on individual service members and their families? They knew they were risking their careers.”

Dawson and Silverman developed strong, ongoing friendships and relationships of trust with the subjects of their documentary. This included Logan Ireland, a transgender airman who, serving as male, has been deployed in the US military, and Logan’s partner, Laila Villanueva. Laila was assigned male at birth and she has served in the military as an Army Corporal.

Silverman cites one moving moment in particular. “Logan got a message from a mother in New Zealand who had an 8-year-old trans son who did not know how to deal with it. She’s a single mother, there’s not a lot of trans people in her community. She finally saw not only what her trans son could look like, but Logan’s mum, who is nothing but supportive, nothing but loving, and what that model does to a trans kid. When you unconditionally love them just like any other child, they thrive like everybody else. It became this amazing pen-pal relationship between Logan and this trans kid in New Zealand. They’d send each other gifts and letters, they still talk. It’s really cute.”

“At the end of the third screening we hosted at South By Southwest there was this one person whose gender presented very masculine,” said Dawson, who together with Silverman won the Best Feature Documentary Audience Award at the Texas festival. “When they came up, they said to me in a very whispered voice, ‘Just two weeks ago I retired from the Army and I actually identify as a trans woman. I haven’t started my transition yet, but I need you to know that this film is really going to help me explain who I am to my family,’ and I just got chills.

“Hopefully this film will stop a new ban, but if it doesn’t, but helps people come out as trans to their friends and families, I will be very satisfied that we completed part of the job.”

‘Transmilitary’ is streaming now at SBS On Demand

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