#pls i need other ppl to have hope or i’m gonna spiral

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hello lovely people!!! so after talking to @keeper0fthestars and an irl friend last night, i finally feel confident enough to post this lol!!! @ everyone who regularly posts HOW THE HECK DO YOU DO THAT SHARING FIC IS SO SCARY AHSJFKDHFJK anyways uhhh this is a similar vibe to the other obi fic i wrote, and i did write this while i was Going Through It, so ya know, heavy feelings n stuff and if that’s going to upset you pls feel free to skip this!! it is a comfort fic though, so it ends on a good note and obi is there just being his best. uhhh also gonna tag some ppl who seemed interested based on my last fic, but obviously there’s no obligation to read this!!! thank you to everyone who has been so supportive of my writing!!!! also i’m actually like really proud of this one 🥺 anyways enjoy!! this is for anyone who needs a lil comfort in their life <3

pairing: obi wan kenobi x gn!reader

words: 1091

content: another mental breakdown, lots of bad thoughts, again obi wan is the sweetest man alive and just wants you to feel better because he loves you

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You felt him before he even opened the door. Under normal circumstances his presence would make your heart sing, but these were not normal circumstances and all it did was add one more thing for your brain to worry about. A part of you knew it was silly, for he’s nothing but kind and caring and gentle, all the things you need when you feel like this, but you should have been asleep hours ago and you know yourself well enough to know that at this hour, it’s easy to feel like everyone hates you. Too bad your brain can’t do anything with that knowledge to change how you feel.

He entered so quietly, and because everything else was already going wrong and it might as well get worse, his consideration to be quiet because he assumed you were asleep made you tear up. Why was he so kind?? How is he everything you wish you could be, and everything you need? You squeezed your pillow tighter, hoping that maybe that would help hold back the sob that was quickly rising in your throat.

He immediately knew something was wrong the minute he stepped in. your apartment had never felt so…hopeless. And while he had no idea what had happened to cause your force signature to so strongly upset the vibe of your home, he immediately wanted to be there for you, to provide you comfort and softness and all the things he knew your brain would be refusing to give you when you were in such a state.

You took a deep breathe just as he stepped into the room, and everything seemed to freeze. You froze because you were unsure whether you could pretend to be asleep or to not even bother, and Obi froze because he was worried any sudden movement might just be the tipping point for all your emotions. After a beat, Obi began to slowly, oh so quietly make his way over to your bed, and very gently sit on the edge. You were lying on your back, eyes closed, and taking such slow breaths that Obi could barely see any movement from you at all. But he knew. He knew you were trying to pull yourself together, because you always tried to be so strong, even in front of him, no matter how many times he would tell you that it’s alright if you didn’t or couldn’t present yourself as perfectly composed, especially in front of him. He was always so gentle, why was he so gentle, and how had he learned to treat you so gently when you couldn’t even do it to yourself? You heard the gentle rustle of his robes, and if you hadn’t detected his scent when he came in the room (although you had), you could definitely detect it now, the unmistakable warm scent that conjured images of autumn leaves, warm tea, and sitting together under a cozy blanket, as his hand very gently came to just barely cup your cheek. Despite how soft the touch was, you shuddered hard and a short, almost hiccuppy breath escaped you without your permission, and then you were falling, falling into his hand and his scent and his warmth and everything flooded out of you and if you hadn’t been so upset you might have laughed, because the irony of everything was that today had been a good day, like actually a good day, but near the end of it you started getting caught up in your head and things spiraled so quickly that you couldn’t catch yourself before you were slipping down that terrible slide of overthinking and over-worrying and over-criticizing and it hurt but now Obi Wan was here and he made everything slow down and that was somehow a relief and utterly jarring at the same time, and the minute you attempted to get some sort of apology out of your mouth he was already shushing you and saying things like you never have to apologize for feeling, dear, and you know I’d rather you tell me when something is wrong so that I can make sure you’re not alone and he was so kind and so gentle and the universe may hurt so bad but the universe also gave you Obi Wan so you suppose that the universe can’t be all that bad. And when you had finally started to calm down you noticed that Obi Wan had shifted himself so that he could lean back on the headboard and hold you so close that you were practically in his lap, and when you could finally breathe again, he was right there in front of you, closer than you could possibly comprehend. And crying everything out had left you so drained and so empty, and all that empty space in your head gave you the room to realize that he had always been right there. He had been there every single time you were overwhelmed by sadness, or anxiety, or hopelessness, or self-despair, or anything that had left you weak and unsteady and unsure of your place in the world. And he had been there for the good parts too, for the silly dancing in the kitchen, for the late night stargazing on empty rooftops, for the evening diner trips for nothing else but milkshakes, for the rainy days on the sofa quietly enjoying each other’s company, and for every other little moment that reminded you what it was like to be in love with being alive. Obi Wan ran the back of his fingers against your cheek and you blinked, and after a deep breath you gave him a small smile, and you could’ve sworn that Obi Wan’s eyes lit up even in the pitch black room as he returned the sentiment. Obi helped you shift down back under your covers, in a more suitable position for sleeping, and then he was leaning all the way back in and pulling you close to him again, and as he kissed your forehead and whispered I love you as you intertwined your hands together, you took a deep breath and realized how much lighter your heart felt even after everything. This kind, gentle man took such good care of your heart and he was always there to brush it off when the weight of the world tried to crush it, and you knew that as long as you had the physical embodiment of all good things in the world by your side, you were going to be just fine.

tag list: @kaminobiwan @drinksomecoco @scribbledghost @corellians-only @icanbringyouincold @/keeper0fthestars (don’t wanna clog up your notifs by tagging you twice! <3)

[smallestclowninthecircus]

Tma season 2 notes baybeee

I made myself take several breaks so I could give my frie d who is listening to it at the same time as me a chance to catch up. Honestly just posting them so I have them saved somewhere but whatever.

ep 41: real graham wrote keep watching before he was replaced. Jon feels like he's being watched. But they werent replaced by things related to the eye. It's the web that's on the box that replaces them. Endless hallways and doors to nowhere. I bet nicholas will have ideas what entity this relates to. If it even does. They're like the tunnels in the one with the builder guy. Tunnels closing in etc. Also like the cave diving one. He's assuming it's just one

ep 42: so 100 gecs? (IM SORRY I LIKE 100 GECS BUT LMAO) so there's some entity related to music right? There's the piper episode and the 27 w/ the calliope. Ah yes, this season is gonna be the season of Paranoid!Jon

ep 43: section 31? fucking books. god no. smashed lights? cult lady did that. covered the lights too. she mentioned a spooky clown doll. thats not random.

ep 44: is this that same circus that got mentioned before? it is! the pipe organ! pop off organ! pipe off! mouth on the stomach! yes! mouths in unusual places my beloved!

ep 45: antiques! like that one ep!

ep 46: every time books get mentioned i sigh. hhh sus smells. it got brighter. I get the vibes occasionally that the dark and the eye are sorta at odds with eachother. GRRR BARK BARK LEITNER. ayyy ex altiora. entity go brr. which entity do we thing it is? my guess is The Dark. The book buyer's name is Mike. He has scars? Electricity? The childhood friend of the guy who got it later on perhaps? The Vast? its formatted like an entity idk. This happened before the other one. He got trapped in the wood carving. a win for the web lol spiders go brr

ep 47: did i hear spiral? ITS THE NOT THING FROM THE EPISODE WITH NOT GRAHAM "it didnt move, it shifted" is like the exact same sentence as before. ay john's starting to remember. the laughing woah thats weird. is "michael" one of the entities? "you make it seem like theres a war" supports my theory that theres a struggle between a couple of the entities. I said i thought it was the eye and the dark i believe but im not sure. its whatever entity michael is vs the worms? what did nicholas say the worms were again? The Corruption? still dont know which one michael is tho.

Had to take a break after that episode. smth about the quality of michael's voice makes me feel like im gonna slip into one of those states where it feels like nothing is real, so i got a nice cold glass of water.

ep 48: jesus ok this one's kidna corny. you're telling me love made the crowd go away come on now. Ur losing it big J. also shouldnt it be more sus that "sasha" is so unaffected by the worm incident/ finding of gertrude's body

ep 49: haven't we heard hector's name before? oh is he the crime guy? fucking jared... so it's a throat? chompa chompa. (it's just a little bit hot) the good part about these episodes is that we know whoever's telling the story isn't gonna die. even if it's a close call, they're not dead. hotworth? ok not jared keay. it bothers me how theres so many repeated names, can they not come up with other names? "sasha"'s computer is breaking... sus. Elias our favorite weed man! jon ur so paranoid lmao

ep 50: robert smirk, at it again. this is like that one episode with the old dude who locked his door. who said idle beforehand? was it smirk? fingertips. thats so weird lmao. bahahah tim

ep 51: simon fairchild. im sure jon will mention the name at the end i cant remember where we've heard it. this is just like the cavediving episode. a hand? there was a hand in the last one right? the scalpel! and an eye thing. she's trying to throw them off.

ep 52: thats the guy from before! with the hearts! god i hate this guy writing the statement hh. lights blowing, and brackish water. we know how this ends but its still tense. rainer? reigner? rain man. we've seen him before

ep 53: pls not a leitner. oh boy mans scratched out his eyes. rip skelly. why would gertrude have had this statement off the books? jon stabbed himself?? bruh im? big man are you okay

ep 54: cockney boys! ayy its our favorite delivery men. she cut out their eyes. she knew that the eye was a thing?

ep 55: oily residue like the retirement home!

ep 56: worms? no. spiders?? bruhh. aaah yelling :(( aww martin anyways yeah i called it about paranoid!jon he needs to take a nap and drink some hot chocolate and calm down for once please

ep 57: just remembered, i think theres an entity called The Lonely?? This feels pretty lonely idk. fairchild, lukas/ lucas, some spooky place in norway idk. "sasha" knew he was recordinig hmm suspicious cmon jon figure it out. Sasha and tom. hm sus. for records sake i feel liek i should note here that I did have it spoiled to me simply that that's not sasha, but thats really all. i assumed it was like the thing that happened to graham in S1

ep 58: i feel like i recognize the name eustice (?) wick. someone please tell me im not just watching jon's descent into madness over the course of this podcast. im hoping it isnt so but, (and pardon the dsmp reference) im getting real wilbur vibes from this one.

ep 59: oh dear ok account from the fielding house. swirling designs? Spiral time? oh boyy. oh wait! 6 inch hole in the middle! is it not a spiderweb type design on the table? thats what i had assumed but that description sounds more like a spiral thing. cobwebs is a Web thing. ayy nicholas was right! the box goes in the table! the place that she kissed him was burning. Raymond is an avatar of The Web and agnes is the burning one. Lightless Flame! Why did she save him? i guess she was against this guy eating ppl or wtvr but why was she at the halfway house then? I think she's like michael.

ep 60: the eye go brr

ep 61: breacon and hope once again. tom. sasha's boyfriend. vampires sleep in coffins. the guy just walking in seems similar to the mind control of the vampires

ep 62: bones! its that one leitner. is this mother keay? the mom of gerard? this is what happened to her right? her skin was found on hooks? oh yeah thats what i thought the pages are made of skin. yeesh. The End!! sounds like an entity. phrased like one, and i think i remember it. are the people trapped in the pages? or... kept?

ep 63: eaten by the darkness! cavediving episode! (just like eaten by the sky) did my brain make up one called The Vast? it feels like it should be one, and all these episodes have some similar description about their feelings when they do whatever chosen hobby they have. ok now this one kinda feels like the dark. lights going out and all that. ok so not really a The Vast thing, its more of a Dark thing. feckin smirk gah.

ep 64: dice! the death guy! the death game thing! the person tricked somebody else into becoming death and then they were immortal? but if the egyptians wanted to kill him or punish him or whatever couldnt they just kill him? it worked in the end when he had the person giving the statement stab him, that did the job and actually killed him

ep 65: finally jon is actually acknowledging something is wrong.

So we know Mary Keay was revived most likely with the book by gerard.

Gertrude was way more aware of the entities than Jon. mary keay referenced The End openly and she cut the eyes out of her magazines and all that which makes me think she was aware of The Eye

ep 66: please not buried alive pleeaase not buried alive. lukas of the tundra? didnt we hear the name lukas before? she wanted it to be difficult to find important files because that way bad people couldnt find them?

ep 67: agnes... the girl in the hilltop house? agnes poppin off!! he's really not gonna question how she knew where he lived?? oh no D: the tree. were they the ones working on the house? aww they kissi- OH DEAR. why did she kiss him? it seemed like she cared about him? also she could kiss that other dude on the cheek and he was fine, but maybe it was cuz she was younger? lightless flame go brrrrr.

ep 68: oh god books. yup its bitchboy leitner. mans said "this seems supernatural, its a werd book!" bruuh.

ep 69: heh nice. aw cmon jon listen to martin. gahhh spiders. is that the class we heard about in the other doctor one with the teeth apple? some kind of psych class? oh dear. fucking spiders. aaaah. web do be goin brr. it's like the girl in the homeless shelter! who made the guy leave and she took his bed.

ep 70: is this gonna be the book that mary keay had? Most likely a leitner no matter what. Oh boy latin. Why did it start in latin then become old English? I'm guessing people put them in the book? He cant burn it. Phrophecies go brr. He says eh it's a decade in the future it's fine. Its gonna have changed. Ayy called it. Just accept it, it's a magic book. His death is getting closer. Leitner didnt make them but just collected them? Gertrude burned the book! She burned them down there so no one would know.

ep 71: oh boy tunnels. Our favorite thing /s. is The Buried a thing? Idk this seems pretty buried. Oh dear he's trapped here isnt he. "Not enough space to move, never enough to breathe" is that from the computer episode? With the guy who uploaded his consciousness? Somebody living down there. Hmmmm. Guesses: tom, sasha's boyfriend. Gertrude herself? (Though I doubt it)

ep 72: sweeney todd moment. Meat. The slaughter? Idk we'll see what the supernatural part is. Meat is meat. Similar to the slaughterhouse episode. Is it fucking Jared I swear to God it better not be. Hooligan teenagers, you know how it is. Meat is me lmao. Is the kid gonna be in the freezer. Ok that's good. OWW. Oddly textured candles. Made from people? Human fat or smth? Tom from the meat processing plant!

ep 73: outer bay shipping. Bet it's a subset of breacon and hope delivery. The Dark go brrr. Uh oh mans is gonna die. Leo or whatever. Cult ppl go brr. The people's church of the divine host. Who is the divine host? Is it reigner or whatever his name is? I dont think Jon can quit tbh. Probably an anonymous tip but from who?? One of the entities?

ep 74: fucking teeth hhh. I dont know which entity is related to teeth. Spiral. Isnt the spiral an entity. It feels like it could be related to many things idk. Yeah this sounds like the spiral. Heart attack at 29? Jesus... michael! That's kinda what I was thinking. Sasha goin in the tunnels. Hmm sus. They move the floor. Wack. Bet its tom.

ep 75: Man with a lightning scar. Has one of the leitner books. The childhood friend of the one who first introduced us to leitner. Oh my god that sounds terrifying. Michael crew.

ep 76: scalpel? Hmm spooky. NotSasha... think jon think.

ep 77: another double! NotThem, The Stranger. Not related to the table?

ep 78: what was that at the beginning? Question mark?? Oh boy more NotThem. Decker... what is the deal with the table. Does it contain the creature? Fucking Michael. Bitchboi himself.

ep 79: yes pop off martin. Ugh fucking Michael just leave man. I hate that dude. New person. Hmm. No idea who it is.

ep 80: shitener himself! Ok sir tell us the entities. Ayy The Spiral. Ok we know what that one is. The Eye is the beholding! Oooh. The Stranger. Did elias just kill leitner? Popping off honestly.

[obeymematches]

Hello! May I request for a matchup?

I am a bisexual, Demigirl ENFP-T personality type.

I'd say I'm somewhat independent but would love to have someone by my side to happily live with, I find trust as something that is very important and due to past reasons it can be difficult to earn my full trust. I try to always be a reasonable and mature person, but I can get irritated at a few things (like LGBTQ+ discrimination, racism or plain asshole stupidity) that can tick off a temper, but usually I'm a person of patience, though if I do get really angry then I'm gonna also end up having a mental breakdown later -. I'm fine with waiting and am usually very forgiving. Religiously I'm an atheist, technically ex-christian due to family reasons. I come from Estonia, so I'm bilingual with English and Estonian but am also learning Russian and German. (Thinking of learning Japanese one day too)

I'm a rather fidgety person, fingers always have to be doing something, I can also have rather terrible memory sometimes with things and can forget.

I have low self confidence and self worth, usually struggle to be optimistic and can be rather emotional, also often an absolute empath when it comes to fictional characters for example.

I can be a workaholic and can be terrible at taking care of myself, I easily lose track of time and can forget to eat at times, also have a fuzzy appetite so sometimes I might not want to eat anything at all. I care alot about other people's well being though, for me appearance doesn't matter, I care for the personality and think everyone is beautiful in their own way. I am a short chubby brunette with a boy haircut and brown eyes, my hair is often thick and poofy and sometimes hell to take care of, due to some health reasons I have an itchy scalp and have to often scratch my head. My fashion depends on just if the clothes are comfortable to wear in the moment, that's it. I wear glasses due to a bit of a negative in my sight.

I sometimes struggle to have a balanced sleep schedule and am often stressed.

I hold a strong love for animals and the nature around us. I especially love cats and reptiles and own a cat and a leopard gecko who I would die for.

Fiction is an important part of my life, the moment I get interested in in some show or franchise you can expect me to become an absolute nerd for it, (good example is Pokemon.) I am the type to analyze characters and really care about everything. Books, shows, movies, theatre, anything goes. I really also love music, 60% of the time you can find me listening to music somewhere, maybe even singing, I multitask alot too. My music taste depends on what connections I make to fictional media, especially that of my own, aka stories and characters I've created. My mind is always going like a 1000km/h with all types of thoughts, my own fictional universe only keeps expanding which I wish to share with the world. My dream is to become a writer one day, which I'm very passionate about, and another thing I really want to do one day is travel the world. I also do some art and animation, but intend to keep it as a hobby on the side.

I'm an ambivert, shy and hesitant around new people especially those of higher authority and importance, but incredibly outgoing with the people I'm familiar and comfortable with, never getting tired from them. Affection starved, expect lots of hugs, not that much into PDA tho. For me first impression matter, on my part, I am quick to think that people hate me or are annoyed with me.

Even with my fuzzy appetite I do like food, especially of strong flavour, I tend to seem to like asian or Italian food alot. I'd say I'm decent and cooking but not very good at baking.

Minimalistic, not very demanding when it comes to anything, it's basically like "Better than nothing." would be the type to live in a rather small house one day. Somewhat organized in my own way, sometimes I can act a little OCD though when something is out of place in a manner that it's just - no.

I can be rather talkative, when getting in a conversation with me expect to talk for hours about all types of things, wherever the conversation goes. Even better when it's over a cup of tea or a long walk somewhere outside.

I usually try to be as polite and kind as possible, though I sometimes struggle, I always try to have hope for the world, despite my incredibly pessimistic mindset.

For a partner, I look for someone I can geniuenly be happy and comfortable with, someone I can be open with and not worry about being lied to. I would be incredibly loyal to them and I'd hope them to be as well, of course, I don't get jealous or worked up if they're hanging out with friends. I want them to also be happy, someone I feel like I could spend the rest of my life with. Someone who'd be okay with traveling and seeing the world with, someone I can just have a moment to relax with, sometimes just talk and listen to eachother. Like stated before the appearance for me doesn't matter, it's the personality- what's inside that does. I shall note, the harmless teasing can get to me. Someone who's a geniuenly good person despite whatever flaws they might have.

I hope this is long enough ^^

Hi my dear patient anon! 

guess what time it is!✨

i put a read more because it’s one long post! 

OK so as I read through your request I had Levi, Belphie, Beel and Satan on my mind. Though Belphie is out of the picture fast since you have low self-esteem and if anyone then he probably would take advantage of that. Satan too I think. (I know in general he is viewed as an overall good boy but i feel like he might scare someone with low confidence levels when he is at his worst. also he can be manipulative too if there is a situation)

wait- damn- Simeon also exists (also Mammon? though with him and you it’d be a very rough start)

so after some elimination and comparison between dynamics including Simeon, Levi and Beel I decided to match you with Levi but I highly encourage befriending the other two!  ✨ Simeon because of the similar interests + excellent cooking and Beel because he is a mom-friend + you’d always have something to eat too if he is your friend! 

phew it wasn’t an easy decision but here it is! 

Okay so let’s see Levi

Okay first things first I think we need to change your level of confidence my friend. Which means starting off this relationship as friendship - honestly he is on the same page as you regarding this for similar reasons so you two can relate to the other. But once you gain a healthy amount of sense of self-worth + confidence I think this friendship could develop into a very loving and healthy relationship! 

Just because he is a demon I don’t think he would use you, lie to you, manipulate you or anything similar to that. I mean you have similar interests and in canon Levi shows just the bare minimum of interest to someone whose lifestyle + likes aren’t similar to his. Also you’re his only friend besides Henry so why would he treat you bad I mean come on!!! he’s not stupid!! 

Since your relationship is based on being friends trust will come in time, do not worry! Levi is also picky when it comes to ppl so again as you are in the same boat you understand the other deeply. 

I mean Levi can be serious when the situation calls for it but in general you being with him would give you a nice balance with your maturity. He’s not childish but he has different approaches! Meaning he could learn from you but you could also learn from him! 

Tbh i highly doubt he would ever tick you off either or purpose or not. He is mostly annoyed by stupid ppl (like Mammon) and normies but since you are also into anime you’re safe!  

You having an interest in languages is something he will find fun! if i recall in the devildom there’s only one language? (they speak human for you though) so finding out about human world lore like that through you is going to be fun! also pls learn Japanese with him! (pretty sure he already knows so he could help you practice)

Okay so he can also spiral down due to lack of self-worth + self-love but as his friend you’re not supposed to let that happen!! 

well he also tends to forget about himself but on a side note he is very caring about you and your health so he is faster at taking care of you than himself. That’s why you have to look after the other especially at first when both of your self-worth levels are so low. 

pls tell him he is beautiful he will be flustered for the rest of the day but it’s worth it trust me

he absolutely finds glasses cute af he just has to look at you and !!!  

He’s not big into fashion either, though he would love to cosplay with you so hopefully you are ok with wearing cosplay sometimes!

Also your workaholic tendencies might get to him sometimes? like i’m not saying he is lazy but for sure he could do better. Thanks to your influence he will do better! 

the two of you gushing over fictional characters is just so cute;; think about that!! 

ok he is your #1 supporter of becoming a writer!! pls let him be your beta reader aaaaa

well both of you are passionate so the emount of encouragement happening in this relationship is to die for

him being a shut-in means he’s not very big on traveling, but if he could go with you he’s quick to change his mind! 

he also has trouble balancing a healthy sleep schedule but that just means you two can spend more time together so it’s a win-win situation

pls leave your cat with Satan when you visit Levi’s room because of Henry :( your gecko is more than welcome though!!! 

okay he is also affection starved af but he would never initiate to save his life so here you being an ambivert is helpful!! also it leaves you space to tease him which is always fun! 

regarding food you have a nice balance going on, he is more of a baker and you are the opposite! though cooking/baking with the other is always fun!! when he notices your lack of eating he will make sure to order/bake delicious food from the human world for you! 

well he isn’t the messiest so hopefully your OCd wouldn’t kick in when you spend time in his room. I like to HC that he is actually very clean. If anything is out of place in his room it is because it was meant to be there. Or he was in a hurry. 

about long walks outside you’d probably have to nag him a bit but soon he will realize that it’s actually not so bad.

bby is one of the most loyal demons out there so no worries you’re safe!! however he can be jealous easily so it’s nice that you are also loyal! just make sure to clear boundaries before establishing a relationship! 

he’s not one to tease you but he is very into you teasing him, so that’s that

overall i don’t think this relationship would have huge conflicts - sure, you have to nag him about going out but he is not going to protest once he learns that it’s actually. fun. to go out sometimes. i’m more concerned about the two of you’s self-worth and confidence levels, but again it’s about what you do for growth and it’s not something that can’t be changed if you want to change it. besides these i think it’s a very healthy relationship and you both can be yourselves!  

[star-puff]

i just LOVE the fact that he has long hair.. I LOVE GUYS WITH LONG HAIRDJJSJE can’t wait to get him and put him in my teapot😎 HAHA pls don’t be scared to ascend worlds!! it’s rlly not that bad? i leveled up to ar 54... frighteningly getting closer to ar 55 helpjdjd

AND FINALLY TOO JFC- i’m that person who will pull for new characters that i want but don’t have the materials to ascend them?? MY PROCRASTINATION IS SO BAD PLSDJJD I NEVER FARM- but that’s not the case for baal! (i’m lying😟 i only have the amethyst crystals? gemstones? idk??? and some of the handguards... i only have ONE crown.. yeah i’m totally ready for baal) razor will always be my one and only <3 on my profile he’s the only character i’m showing LMAO i’m so proud of his damage😌

OKAY SO ABT THE EVENT BANNER... on my sec acc, i pulled sayu on a single wish, AND THEN on my other one (i like making new accs okay leave me ALONE) i pulled keqing?? and on my main acc i got xinyan and i think ningguang? (i already had them so now i have xinyan c1 and ningguang c3! does anyone want them LMAO) as for my primos, i actually have 3194! i finally stopped being lazy and explored inazuma, did the spiral abyss, did world quests, did commissions, all that stuff.. i have 19 wishes😎 not a lot but it’s cool! that’s how much i had when i pulled for kazuha and xiao! usually my second pulls turn out to be rlly good!! (i rlly recommend using a luck subliminal before pulling!! that’s how i got so lucky hehe- but i was RLLY lucky when i got xiao and kazuha since i didn’t use one)

i also use diona!! rn she’s not doing so good since i haven’t used her AT ALL- but she’s at c3 so😔 i’m sorry bennett ilysm!! i’m pretty sure some ppl r gonna manage to make dps kokomi possible tbh- like how they made barbara a dps?? i’m still gonna try to get her idc i love her design COME HOME KOKOMI PSPSPSPSP

yes i did do the seelie event! i picked the purple one because.. hello?? it’s pretty?? not to mention i can imagine it as razor next to my xiao-

(y did u cross out ‘future’?? don’t cross it out ur definitely gonna get hu tao🙄 also i’m SORRY THAT I TALK A LOT I HOPE U DONT MIND)

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HHHHHH i think i need to go emergency artifact farming huhu i am seriously unprepared for the world level increase T.T also my artifact drop luck is literal shit JFKWLFK is it so hard to get a good pale flame flower around here TT.TT (also i need to go mora leyline farming HAHAH im so broke this is so sad for me)

your dedication to razor is admirable djkadksk but good luck on baal!! im not gonna be pulling for the next few banners cause i'm saving up for the hu tao banner that will come in the Distant future but i hope u enjoy our resident electro archon 😌😌

oooo that's about how many primos i have (sans a few crystals that my dear mutual friend gave me for a grad gift huhu i love her)! i haven't done spiral abyss yet since . well . [looks at my ar] . but we will get to it i promise JFJWKFK. and oo do you have any recs for luck subliminals :o it seems i only ever get the characters i Don't want T.T c3 diona .... 😭😭

"KOKOMI COME HOME PSPSPSP" JDJSKDLQ HELPP 😭😭 i can't wait for those videos to come out where theyre like "bullying the pyro flower with dps kokomi" LMAOOO. and omg good choice on the purple 😌

HHHH I SURE HOPE I GET HU TAO ... I WILL BE HEARTBROKEN IF I DONT SJSKFKWK I WANT C1 .... I WANT C1 HU TAO SO BAD 😭😭😭 im skipping out on Three (3) of the new character banners to get her she better come home T_T i'm pretty sure i will be dyinf in uni by then so mihoyo give her 2 me as a little sanity reward .... 💔💔💔 AND AHAHAA NOOO i rly like how much u send in hehe it makes me feel like a friend :> a trusted confidante if u will

DID U SEE THE 2.1 UPDATES THO OMG .... LA SIGNORA !!!!!!!