#plus a shitton of work 😔

[stareesm]

life has been insane i just cried infront of my violin teacher 😔

[bishiglomper]

Owie owie oww

Went shopping out of town for moms family birthday outing. Hit up Joann's because mom wanted me to do a blanket for her birthday. Lucky for us fleece was on sale for $5 a yard. All the fleece! So I got the shit I needed for mine too. Because of the sale we were saved from paying $130. 😳 price was like $68 for... 12 yards? Plus a yard of satin. 👀

I found 2 pairs of pants that will actually fit me and i was excited so i went through like 3/5 of my pants drawer when i got home. Got rid of half. Theres still a few left to try on though. I have a shitton of pants. I'm glad i have a big stack to keep, im still not convinced im gonna keep/lose more weight. I kept the shit that wont immediately fall off my butt. 👀 I had to stop tho cause i got tired and hurty.

But i was excited to try to figure out my stripey situation for my blanket. And mom brought over aunts sewing machine for me. I got bored of shitty results so i started mom's blanket.

It was a pain and I'm disapointed because the fleece was in pieces and i had to sew it together to get blanket size. I tried to line up the pattern but i forgot to take into account the fact that the seam would eat up space. So i cut like 8 inches off for no reason(to reach the nearest pattern overlap) and theres a seam off center. 😬😬😬

If i could start over i would. 😣

I pinned it 3/4 if the way but i needed a break. The pain of the day is catching up.

Then i was like fuck it it's midnight. Mom and sissy are being productive but i havent any spoons left. Even if i took drugs for the pain I'm still too exhausted to function. 😭

Im useless

Why did i use all my spoons on unnecessary things

I hated it when they were doing that so now I'm a hypocrite. OTL

I really just wanted a nap but I doubt they'll still be working at 4am so.. 😔 guess im just going to bed

I just hope im not knocked out all day tomorrow 😥