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heartshattering · 6 months

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Me: idk, maybe I'm not stable enough for grad school, my life feels like too much of a mess and I know it's probably only for people who have their lives in order and know how to cope well enough to handle it...

Me after looking at "grad school memes" where everyone talks about using substances, never sleeping, and constantly feeling a sense of imposter syndrome: Oh wow, maybe I actually will fit in after all

#grad school #I'm not accepted yet or anything #I haven't even applied #I... probably *can't* go tbh (at least not yet)#because my mom still needs full-time help and can't be left alone #but I still come up with hypothetical situations in my mind #like “if I *could* go... would I make it or would I just freak out and make an embarrassment out of myself in the first week?”#and so on and so forth #plus at one point I actually was basically doing (unpaid) TA work for my university lol #and if I'm just going insane in my room anyway why not go insane while doing a degree so at least I get something out of it in the end?#idk #sometimes I like to think I'm not that bad but other times I feel like a failure who isn't going anywhere in life so who knows honestly

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