#plus i have to get my bloodwork done bc i haven’t dont it in like 3 or 4 years and im supposed to get it done every 4-6 months | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

achilleslyre · 2 years

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gawd my dysphoria has been so bad lately but not for any outward appearance but literally just the fact that i still have my ut*rus uhm GTFO!!!!!! GET OUTTA HEREEEEE NOBODY LIKES YOUUUU i literally don’t even get affected by it anymore bc of hrt but the fact that it’s just in there makes me so sick and disgusted like LEAVE just rot away and die!!!! GRRRRR GET OUT. i think i’m gonna start looking into getting a hysterectomy because i think OHIP covers it at least partially? i’m gonna start looking into it anyways bc it’s literally been keeping me in a deathhold these past few months like. it’s always on my mind it’s debilitating.

#RAAAAAAAAAAA knawing my arm to keep me tamed down #fully crying in my room because an unseeable thing is inside of me #i think when its out i could be normal #< a lie i would become more of a freak #but in a good way! :D #im gonna start very srsly looking into how i can get it done bc! i can’t take much more of this!#plus i have to get my bloodwork done bc i haven’t dont it in like 3 or 4 years and im supposed to get it done every 4-6 months #and they’re gonna stop refilling my t viles now bc i havent done it in so long #oopsies! i’m just genuinely scared of doctors bc they treat me so bad all the time!#sooo if i have to be brave and deal with 1 doctor i may as well start inquiring about other shit while i’m at it #get that ball rolling or w/e ppl say #ugh ugh #srry for the rant i’m just!#so uncomfortable rn #and talking it out to myself helps me solidify my actions and choices #and make sure i’m doing the right thing

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