#plus i’m just sensory-wise a bit overwhelmed so i don’t want to be in crowds or | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

abowlofpetuniasandawhale · 2 years

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i wish i could just handle someone being a little thoughtless and rude without it getting under my skin and poking at my wounds so much like. it’s so frustrating that the most inconsequential things just have me spiraling dramatically

#like i’m on vacation. why can’t i just take a fucking chill pill #i got so upset this morning over something that was completely valid but just not worth the energy or negativity #and now i’m just so tired and i feel like i have no momentum or motivation to actually do stuff #plus i’m just sensory-wise a bit overwhelmed so i don’t want to be in crowds or #in the bright ass sun and that basically means not leaving the hotel room and im just so upset because i want to want to go and do things #i want this day to not feel like a total waste #i’m so frustrated that taking my meds would 100% salvage the day but i’ve been smoking so my choices are mixing stimulants and depressants #or writing off essentially the entire day to recover from being triggered by something that would not have triggered me in the first place #if i had been doing my grounding and mindfulness exercises and being aware of my #emotions and not instead experincing the mental equivalent of the bouncing dvd logo screen

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