#popping out a little gremlin to continue the bloodline

[veronicathegoddess]

just saw a tik tok by a nurse on the anatomy of a c-section and that was is enough birth control for the rest of my life

[southernfriedchicken803]

The Big Empty

Today was my emancipation day

Track really did save my ass

I only signed up to get up over

My ex-girlfriend

Instead

 I found the man in the mirror

 since we have practice over spring break

My guardians finally opened the gates

to the real world

Reality

swallows me whole

I am Free

Free

yes free

Free To be a plastic bag floating in the wind of society’s masochistic barren wasteland

Otherwise known as the world

I walked for hours on end today

Carrying my little drawstring bag

Throwing it from arm to arm

After one tired out

My first stop was my liberator

Track

The run should have been easy today

simple 45-minutes

No stops

but, I needed to use the lavatory

 a quick 15-second whiz was what I needed

I tried to call up my blood-related cousin

since they reside in the area

But they dismissed my call twice

I struggled to continue running 

So quickly, I stopped and tried to

Release the pressure into a bush

But the fear of someone seeing me in this vulnerable state

Forced me to pull up my bridges and continue my run

Only afterward would my “cousin” return the call only to laugh at the situation

Along with my other blood-related gremlins

The sad clown of the family

that's who I am

and my balloon

it's popped

I can’t paint a portrait of my family like Francis Ford Coppola

But to sum it up 

My family is like the Corleones in Godfather 3

 I’m Michael 

An old, tired, 

Fool

After practice was over

I still needed a release 

like a cardinal needs red

So I loaded up the google maps satellite

And walked my two blistered feet to the library

I whizzed

Picked up some past century DVDs

And waited for my guardian to pick me up

It wasn’t a big deal

But they were unable to due to other matters

So I made the trip back to my shelter

Singing the folks songs of Blind Melon for strength

I returned and watched 

the Godfather Part 1

The beauty of Michaels's descent

The majesty of the family's  chaotic relationship

The morals of Godfather Don Corleone

Honor, Masculinity, Family

This film is a stunning masterpiece to behold

even the fourth time around

However, within this very adventure today

I realized something

I’m alone

loveless

Despite the interconnected spaces of the internet

The humongous and wide yet small world

I remain alone

The love of my life

my angel

 stuck a dagger deep into this rotting lobotomite

and left 

only to continue cursing pitiful rolling stones like me

My real brothers 

my brothas from another mother and father

are too far away for me to ever see again

I’m the black sheep of my bloodline’s herd

I’m the outcast that suburbia sweeps under the rug

Yet

I continue walking

Because 

My god is the sun

And even though not every day shines brightly

The sun still rises

So I will as well

for any fellow nomads

Queens of the Stone Age fans

or internet junkies

you rise to 

because

Every dog has their day.