#posts that maybe shouldve stayed in the drafts

[sp1resong]

i'd be so good at playing the narrator from razia's shadow

[rubarb69]

The problem with mass effect is that you cant fuck kaiden with a gun against his head...

[rainy-daze1]

Taiko no taco bell

[maskedteatime]

Why didn't it work?

this is actually extremely old and i forgot to post it maybe it shouldve stayed in the drafts

[gramarye]

its so crazy how japanese artists get the inherent yuri of judaiasuka and asukas crazy girl fail autism like actually im so serious. this is an old doujin but id still rather not show all of it publicly out of general respect but its truly crazy the expressions. are crazy

the whole gist of it is asuka literally trips judai up and grabs him and asks him on a date which has judai insanely confused and scared but he just goes with it and talks with manjoume about it like "idk man im confused too, maybe she invited you too ^_^''" (she didn't.)

then they go on the date and the date is just them getting draw bread and she makes him draw them and his luck SUCKS and there is like zero romance just to be clear. manjoume is watching them and asuka gives the terrible breads to him (and he is like shoujo bubbles happy about it)

then judai and asuka sit down with their not-so-bad breads and judai is like "ok really though what's with the date" n asuka's like "what do you mean what's with the date" and he's like "i mean it's WEIRD there's something up with you. why would you ask me?" and shes like oh well because i like you. and hes like. Flabbergasted. and asuka gets kinda mad at him like "wow you cannot read the mood at All" (girl what mood u were strong arming him in the cafeteria thinking its a date!!!)

its soo funny like i need people to understand... asuka autism... judai girl creature ism... its really good. this shouldve stayed in the drafts like my post shouldve

anyway. extras

[reco-obsessed]

9, 12, 18, 25 for alice, and 3, 25, 26 for reko

9. Could you be roommates with [Alice]?

karma for my shinalice craigslist au i see. i could probably survive. my technique of staying in my bedroom with the only exception being my crepuscular eating schedule is pretty widely applicable, i think. because im so avoidant it wouldnt be very interesting. "im rather fond of moisture" vs "not a big fan of moisture" if you will ( <- reference)

12. What's a headcanon you have for [Alice]?

i have multiple but i think ive posted about them all before- namely, him being a history nerd and being bi/pan but completely oblivious about it. mentioned this but more vaguely- i think he'd like video games and be really into dnd, was probably a theater kid at some point. hes kind of a geek in general. probably read a lot of stuff as a kid but not so much anymore unless its nonfiction.

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?

oh boy.

i mean, theres the obvious one- the way him and reko interact is very interesting to me and i really like their strained, doomed dynamic like any well adjusted person (<- lying). platonic longing with hints of codependency? dont mind if i do. besides that, i obviously think his way of interacting with shin is both funny and interesting, despite how little of it we get.

25. What was your first impression of [Alice]? How about now?

i didnt really have a strong first impression of him surprisingly- if one at all. something ive come to realize from these kinds of ask games is that i dont really have strong first impressions of characters or people in general. i think the closest thing i had to a first impression with him was "man, this minigame is kinda finicky and annoying" (the interrogation minigame). but that wasnt really about him. its kinda funny looking back on it- in spite of his strong personality, he was still just kinda there to me. i dont think i started having any coherent thoughts on him until id already gotten through most of the info on their backstory. now... i think hes amusing. he has really strong reactions to things, which makes him an entertaining character to play around with. i really like the dichotomy between his overconfidence and how easily frightened he can get by things.

3. Least favorite canon thing about [Reko]?

oo, this is a good question. so good i went on a huge rant i ended up storing in the library that is my drafts which must be checked out upon request. heres the summarized version: i dont like how she was written in chapter 3-1. i think nankidai really dropped the ball with both the yabusames, and it disappoints me to see how their arcs got rushed / completely side stepped in favor of other plot points. alice honestly got the shorter end of the stick since he shouldve been way more involved, but i obviously noticed it with reko first. i barely even consider the way theyre written in chapter 3-1 as canon because they so obviously got ignored by nankidai in favor of making sure their dialogue was similar enough and that whether or not you have reko or alice doesnt effect the plot in a major way (even though it really should).

25. What was your first impression of [Reko]? How about now?

similar as with alice- i didnt have strong initial thoughts on her, despite her appearance and how she spoke. i think maybe one of the first thoughts i had about her was when sara has to admit she lied in the bar hallway- i recall thinking that the way reko addressed her feelings ("Sara, look me in the eye. …Don't sit there an' brood over crap / Talk to me. Or are you just not listenin' to what I say? / Cut it out! Don't say that shit!") seemed like it would have the opposite effect, at least on me. though obviously that wasnt enough for me to not end up liking her, because by the start of the second chapter the obsession had begun. now... now.... we dont talk about now

26. What's something [Reko] has done you can't get over? Be it something funny, bad, good, serious, whatever?

hm. i mean. cop out answer but i feel like this entire blog is a culmination of me not being able to get over anything shes done. its pretty difficult to pick one specific thing. however. im not a coward. so ill pick one. maybe two. even if thats not entirely true

ill say its her interactions with kai in ytts, and the scene where sara sees how hard rekos been pushing herself to take care of everyone. i really like kai and..... definitely probably not reko, so i really enjoyed getting to see them together especially when they ended up having such a funny and unique interaction. the second one is pretty self-explanatory- its a very explicit demonstration of the apex of rekos character, and one of her main and most admirable character traits.

[fishandshesmygills]

casifer to me is just misha collins

[blodeuweddschild]

*cracks your dick like a glowstick*

[tenderlyrenjun]

fics plan ... maybe, idk yet, we'll see:

arrival (renjun atla au; i really like this idea actually)

bambi (renjun based on baekhyun; biker au; forgot whatelse this was titled)

darling (kinktober fic, maybe, idk)

grocery store girl (kinktober fic, very hesitant)

trick or treat (also kinktober fic, extremely hesitant)

heart (seventeen fic; i'm literally not going to post this but i like working on it)

hot girl bubble (hockey au; mostly finished; could probably be posted next month if i actually commit to the smut part; no prequel, we die on the hill without the chlamydia party like men)

jaemin kinktober fic (will not be posting)

jaemin baseball au (i've actually been working on it; i could technically finish it by new years or end of next week if i wanted to)

inescapable (renjun star wars au)

know how (baseball au)

new axis (baseball au; i'm so hesitant whether i will ever post this but i really, really fucking love the twist and the end scene but that's just me; it's ........ actually pretty boring)

ok (baseball au)

the one with the roommates (yangyang part four; it's supposed to be funny but idk; i need to rewrite it to remove people and change some stuff - it also continues the chenle fic and the renjun fic but those didn't really gain traction so i need to delete more scenes and stuff)

plane au (not the jaemin ldr one; this is a different thing that i will not be posting here)

reverse married au (it's like mostly done and dips more into their college lives; jeno pov)

sorry heart/my first (renjun again; i like this au, sorry)

she's dreaming (baseball au; mostly done actually, i just need to finish a few scenes and figure out how to end this)

she's not afraid (doyoung x jaehyun's cousin)

signature (renjun museum curator au; aka shouldve couldve wouldve)

rrr/sorry heart (renjun au again; i think this one is neat and it fits the candy theme - i also have a completed candy fic based on baekhyun's candy but that's staying in the vault; peope did not like it when i posted it)

secret santa tell me (renjun; this one makes me cry lmao; it's structured like 500 days of summer btw but over the course of, like, 3/ish months, more like 2 weeks though)

taean tulips (renjun dad au)

research assistant (teacher's assistant part two; smut ver; i like this one a lot actually; it's cute)

three (jaemin, married au; i like this one)

and I think those are all my current fic ideas - if i tried hard enough, i could actually get most of these to 15-40k and finish all of them by maybe may (it takes me about two weeks to write and edit/ish 35k fics)

i also have the kinktober drabbles; like the jeno day 1 one is currently the thing that i like and jaemin day 5 is neat and haechan day 2 is great and i like the other renjun ones - actually, all the renjun drabbles are finished and formatted and just sitting in my tumblr drafts to be posted; jeno day 1 is currently just a thought but because its supposed to be a drabble, meaning that i write it in one sitting (it takes like 2 hours to write and complete a 1k drabble), but, like, yeah

[partiallystar]

long but not negative, rambling abt planning under the break

ok genuinely im leaving now + i have to .. lets see. correcting the spanish comps. should probably go first? then the review packet? yeah that sounds right. i just ate lunch so i should give it till 12 before i coffee ?? and i have a few sips of water here so that should be goo.d. my exam is in uh. 25 hours. and if the exam is at one i should bbbasically try to replicate today?? sleep by (well hopefully before 1 am but if i stay up till 1 painting and not on pocket camp thats better for resting) sleep by one, up around 9, outta the house by 11?? that gives me an hour on campus to eat and review. then after my spanish exam i can reread and finish my amado essay, then saturday and sunday can be Diane Days -- i would love to be able to finish that so my last couple days are stress free! packing and art! enjoying my space! ( i wonder when peya’s going home. ) i should also try to fucking put in a work order before break so the tile putty or w/e will have plenty of time to dry 

academics: 

-correct 2 comps -review packet -focus on: reflexive verbs, subjunctive, did really bad on that section last test -polish polish polish amado essay fri-sat -finish diane, rework sat-sund (have till wednesday! but would be ideal to not need it.) others:  -need supplies -blick run @ some point to stock up on white paint -find a nice mason jar for william, pour fresh water into it, give squish and relocate  -pack for break (clothes and blankets)  things that can go in backpack -- laptop (for peace of mind) and squomp are the only things that come to mind ??

consider post surgery clothes - pajama pants and sb shirt are both still dirty, need to do a final load of laundry before leaving (also need to add fway cash to card so i can do that.) 

anything else???

oh i need to [spoilers] but that’s not due till after break

ALSO HAVE TO REGISTER FOR ANOTHER CLASS. (maybe tonight?? maybe.)

ok that’s.... everything?? that’s enough for now. i am going to log out and i am abs the fuck lutely not allowed back till i finish at least one of my spanish comps (the 75 should do first coz itll take longer.)

side note. i just pulled my spanish comps out of my folder and i was.. really upset when i got a 75 on the comp2 draft1 but i got a 63 on the com1 draft1 and even when i revised it i only got it up to a 74?

i havent been doing the studying i shouldve been for spanish this semester but im still improving. and i worked really fucking hard on comp3 draft one and before any revisions whatsoever i got an 87. 

huh. what do u know. it feels good to improve

[fishandshesmygills]

deanlisa only “works” (lisa letting some random serial killer she had a one night stand with 9 years ago move into her house) because lisa is the protagonist of her OWN story. this is her lana del rey moment this is her bad boy with a heart of gold this is her manic pixie dream boy this someone who can help parent her kid while she in turn works on fixing him and that’s what she wants. blue jeans, white shirt, walked into the room you know you made my eyes burn...