#pride and duty. and inadequacy. and fear. and longing. and internalised homophobia and AGH-

[thecptn-arch]

some things I want to do...

the captain's initial reaction to dying. I want his first meetings with the other ghosts. I want his first attempts to leave the grounds — he's probably trying to follow after havers. and oh, god I want to explore the feelings he has around that. being reunited after the war, only to have it ripped away from him in death, and all the things he couldn't have said to the man he loves. and having to let that all go. </3 </3

similar but different — more weddings. I loved how excited he was about it all, how eagerly he tried to help alison in redding weddy. I want to expore his reaction to more queer couples. to see two grooms, two men celebrating and expressing their love for each other in a way that he could have never had. it would be both soul crushing, but also ?? there would be a strange melancoly, a comfort in knowing that while james couldn't have that, there are so many other's who now can.

some of his old files, or old personal effects being found / dug up around the house.

he watches so many war documentaries, so... it seems plausible that lieutenant havers might crop up in one? and it's been so long since the captain has seen him, but oh dear god has he missed him. and he makes alison pause it, rewind it, just so he can see havers' face again.