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dontwanderoff · 9 months

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so like, i think my nana has definitely forgotten me now. like, mum said she couldn't remember us grandkids on a phonecall once, but also she's said that nana had later asked about us and her memory has been really inconsistent the whole year, but even knowing all that it was just weird sitting next to her at lunch today when she was so distant and just, different with me

#like i think she was pretending that she Hadn't forgotten me? that's the vibe i got #and its not her fault obviously. whatever is happening in her brain is what's happening.#but its just. not good.#and i feel weird about it bc im not very close to her really bc they moved 2 hours away when i was so young #so nowadays its one to two times a year max we make the journey #but i still have nice memories of when i was little with her??#from their old place and then when i was still young but we visited more often??#and god. she didn't look good today. she was so skinny and.... old??? it's fucking weird.#so yeah. i feel. sad. it is what it is but im just. bit sad about it all really.#probs a sign i should sleep bc earlier me was handling this info a lot more chill than sleepy me is handling it #anyway. that's my sad rant for the day. stay tuned for tomorrow when it turns into a stressed christmas rant.#ive not updated the runsheet for the new things that have emerged so. it'll be an experience.#my post tag

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