#ps even his clothes are shitty af

[mossmx]

listen I'm trying really hard to get something out of this, but no one has any character??

I need more psychological pare

[boyiega]

haha jokes on you you ARE getting questions the first half for scott and willa and the second half for max and fangs do it coward

fine! maybe i will!!!!!! under the cut because this got long oops

(ps: ty ilysm even though i’ve been called out for being a coward)

1) Who rocks the Ferris Wheel seat and who flips out and begs them to stop?

Willa rocks it, like the little shit she is and Scott tries to act v tough at first but is actually terrified at the prospect of the whole ride breaking and he really doesn’t want to be the person who died because his girlfriend decided to be a dumbass. 

2) Who is always horny and will have sex at any time, at any place and at any time?

I wanna say Willa again, but Scott is very lowkey about it and is the one who drags her into the most obscure places to have sex lol

3) Who is more into taking showers/baths together? Who tries to make it relaxing and who tries to make it sexy time?

Scott loves how intimate baths can be and Willa just thinks baths in general are gross, but she does it because it makes him happy. Willa is also the one who tries to make it sexy time because she also might as well get something out of it if he’s forcing her into sitting in her own dirty water

4) Who likes to walk around the house naked and who tells the other to go put some clothes on?

Willa walks around naked, Scott blushes a little and tells her to get clothes on. Somehow, he always ends up without clothes on in this scenario

5) Who sleeps on the couch when they get into a fight?

Scott, but at some point she’ll drag him back into bed because she gets cold and misses her mini radiator

6) Who takes photos of the other while they sleep?

Scott takes photos of Willa that she almost rage deletes every time she sees them (she’s not a very graceful sleeper)

7) Who said “I love you” first? and who ends their arguments in a fight with “Because I love you”?

Scott said “I love you” first and was really upset when she didn’t say it back right away, but he never gives up on her for it because she knows she’s not good at articulating her emotions or even comprehending them. When she finally does say it, she never wants to stop, so she’s the one who ends their arguments with “because I love you.” 

8) Who likes to wear the others sweatshirts?

Willa wears Scott’s sweatshirts, but there’s totally this one flannel Willa has that Scott will steal every so often because it’s the comfiest thing he’s ever worn

9) Who wakes the other up in the middle of the night to tell them a cool dream they had? Who has the most nightmares, and who sings them back to sleep after?

Scott gets very enthusiastic about his cool dreams and Willa will half-listen to them and think that the conversation they had was a fever dream when she gets up in the morning. Scott also has the most nightmares, but it’d be an even worse nightmare if Willa decided to sing him to sleep. So she’ll usually just sit there with his head in her lap and rub his back until he falls back asleep. 

10) Who is more likely to cheat?

Willa is kind of flighty, so I think she’d be the most likely. Honestly, though, they’re both so in love with each other, I think something extreme would have to happen for her to even consider doing that!

11) Who makes fun of the other for having a crush on them, and who has to remind them that they are in a relationship?

Willa makes fun of him, Scott reminds her they’ve been dating for a while

12) Who starts a food fight in the kitchen?

Scott because Willa made some snarky comment and she really deserved that face full of flour

13) Who initiates duets? and who is the better singer?

Willa initiates, and Scott is better by a long shot lol

14) Who starts the hand holding? Who grabs the others butt? Who slides their arm around their waist? Who likes to put their fingers in the belt loops?

Willa starts hand holding, Scott grabs her butt at the most inappropriate times, Scott slids his arm around her waist, and Willa puts her fingers in his belt loops to pull him behind her or into her

15) Who likes writes the others name on their wrist?

I don’t think either of them would do that, I just don’t see them as people who write on their body unless it’s to remember a meeting time/get a phone number and they don’t have their phone handy!

16) Who is more seductive when they are drunk? and who is louder in bed?

Fangs has a whole different side to him that comes out when he’s drunk and Max thinks it’s hilarious and also hot af lol and Max is the louder one

17) Who is more protective?

Fangs, for sure! 

18) Who talks to the other while they are sleeping?

Max! She’s very tentative to say I love you and definitely didn’t want to be the first to say it, so she always does it when he’s sleeping (although there’s one time that he isn’t actually asleep)

19) Who drives and who has the window seat?

Max doesn’t have her driver’s license, so Fangs drives her everywhere and she’s just chillin’ looking out the window

20) Who falls asleep in the others lap and who carries them to bed?

Max falls asleep in Fangs’ lap and he’ll carry her to bed

21) Who cuts the others hair?

Max cuts Fangs’ hair! She made the mistake of letting Fangs trim the ends of her hair one time while Sweet Pea was over and it just ended very, very badly for her lmao

22) Who is super bad at sexting? and who sends them encouraging messages throughout the day?

They’re both good at sexting👀👀 Fangs will send her encouraging texts throughout the day, but Max will do it, too, when she knows he has a big exam or something else he’s stressed about

23) Who thinks they are not good enough for the others love? and who’s more afraid of loosing the other? Who thinks they keep messing up, only for the other to tell them they don’t need to worry?

Max thinks she’s not good enough. Fangs is so scared to lose her because there are so many aspects of their relationship that are just so murky. They’re an oxymoron - they just logistically do not work together for so many reasons, but they’re both too stubborn to try and live without the other. Because Fangs is so worried about their relationship, he always thinks he’s messing up, but she’s always there to reassure him that everything is okay.

24) Who starts random slow dancing with the other in the kitchen? Who holds the other just above the ground and kisses them?

Fangs for both of these! 

25) Who says shitty puns and sex jokes just to see the other giggle and blush?

Fangs will whisper them in her ear when they’re around their friends just to fluster her 

26) Who kissed first?

This is weird, but I actually haven’t decided this yet. Like I know when their first kiss is gonna happen and how, but I have no idea who’s going to initiate it, so we’ll see what happens there I guess!

27) Who orders take out at two in a morning? and who wakes the other up at three in the morning to go downstairs with them to get a glass of water because it’s too dark?

Fangs orders take out at two in the morning (usually when they’re both coming back from a night at the Wyrm). Max wakes him up to go with her to get a glass of water and they’ll usually end up sitting in the kitchen talking until the sunrise. 

28) Who writes poems/stories and love songs about the other? Do they sing the songs the write for them?

Fangs writes these beautiful poems about her, but never shares them with her. She actually ends up looking through his backpack for some extra paper one day and accidentally stumbles across a few of them and doesn’t stop smiling for two days. 

29) Who does some crazy stunt to try and impress the other and who ends up driving them to the emergency room after it backfires?

Fangs does a crazy stunt to impress her because SP insisted that it would impress Max if he did it. Long story short, Max had to learn how to drive that day. 

30) Who is embarrassed when they have to wear their glasses and who thinks they look super cute?

To preface this, Max is practically blind, but was too stubborn to go to the optometrist. Fangs had enough of her squinting at things one day and takes her and wow! look at that! the world is clear again! After that, she primarily used contacts.However, being the dumbass she is, she forgot to order new ones before she ran out, so she had to wear her glasses for a week. She was so embarrassed about it, but Fangs thought she was so cute and kept reassuring her about them.

[aharris00britney]

ASKS 09

random stuff, some facts about me, some sims questions, video requests, hair sneak peaks, umm and other stuff too…. also I am 10 candies from being able to evolve that dumb fish so wig

Anonymous said: Do you have a car?

Nope!

Anonymous said: Hi wcif the shirts in your coming soon in June update ps I love your cc x

hey! for any WCIFs for that stuff, I am probably going to wait until the posts for the hairs are up because I know that people won’t check when the hairs are posted for my old wcifs.

@angelamariacalle​ said: you could make a WIP the eyes that you use in your post with ice cream?     

i have no idea what you were trying to say ;-; the eyes I used are my default ones which you can download here

@ayoshi-sims​ said: Once you get this SHARE 6 facts about yourself and send it to your 10 favorite blogs ✨

I still play pokemon go (fight me)

I think that pop music was the best in 2007-2011 (One of the Boys, The Fame/The Fame Monster, Circus/Blackout, Animal/Cannibal, The best damn thing)

I am a super middle child! (two older siblings, and two younger ones as well)

I keep all my kpop albums on my dresser, with my Red Velvet one hanging in a red/white flower crown I own :)

My favorite food to snack on is either a tuna kit, or pickles

I am a bottom XD

Anonymous said: When you get this, please respond with five things that make you happy! Then, send to the last ten people in your notifications anonymously. You never know who might benefit from spreading positivity!

aaaaah okay um

my kpop girlies i stan

my angel rocky (my old af pug)

my friends (irl and online <3)

the concept of love is always something that makes me happy omg i know that is cheesy but like… imagine finding someone that is perfect for you will always be there when you need and like just GOD I NEED A MAN NOW

charli xcx music umm yeah it’s 5 in the morning

Anonymous said: Hello, I was wondering if you have your sims on the gallery? Thanks for your time. :)       

Yeah! I have a few sims for download on my origin which is SPOTHARRIS I also have them for download on this page

Anonymous said: Hello!! Just wondering wicf the freckles from the discontinued model in your older posts (e.g. momo buns) thank you!!! BTW I love your stuff soo much! :)

Hey! I no longer have that file or even know where I got them from :( Here is an OLD af wcif I answered of them though

Anonymous said: Where are you from?

I am from Virginia, which is on the east coast of the United States :)

Anonymous said: Hi!! I feel like this is such a silly question but oh well I’m a noob. If I use your Quartz eyes V2 will they be inherited in the next generation if my sims have kids? Same with your hair colors as well?

I honestly have no idea how any of that stuff works :( I’m sorry! I assume it should but also maybe not? ;-; again, sorry!

Anonymous said: omg the hair with the flowers in it! *-* i love!! will you also make a version without the flowers? I also wanted to say I’m really happy your life is going well and congrats on the 30k followers

thank you so much!! and I the hair will obvi have no flowers :P the flowers should be accessories if everything works out. There are some clipping issues rn but I think it is fixable :) here is a pic without the flowers. If you guys have any recommendations about then pls send them my way

Anonymous said: Would you ever consider doing really long curly hair like the singer Sza’s?

I personally don’t like super long hair in TS4, it just doesn’t look well with most clothes and has clipping/weight issues :( I’m sorry!!

Anonymous said: Do you know what happened to SimpleSimmer?

I don’t, no. But I am sure she is fine :) sometimes people just take breaks

Anonymous said: Hi! So, i really love your sim with the dark brown hair (for your hair cc) and i was wondering if you could ever share that sim! Because she has a beautiful face. Also i am wondering which skin overlay (etc) you are using! You can find me in the gallery under the name: xThisGirl (if that is an easier way for you to respond :)

Hey! You can find her download here, along with all my other sims :) I am glad you like her <3

Anonymous said: Hey! I know you probably won’t read this as fast but I wanted to ask, how do you shift the hairline to the side or any of that? Like your daisy hair, briana hair, and that one wip you had in a tutorial video of yours! I really want to do that but I just don’t know how :(

I will maybe record something for this! No promises bc I have to get someone to edit the videos for me and I don’t wanna bug him but I will see if he can edit it for me if I film it :) It is pretty simple to do once you get the hang of it

@sims4storiesandstuff​ said: I just wanted to say, your hairs are the shit! Absolutely stunning. I rarely use the EA hairs anymore! I think you deserve every follower you have.            

Thank you so much!!! I really appreciate stuff like this <3 I don’t play the game myself much so it makes me happy knowing that my hairs make other peoples games so much more enjoyable uwu

Anonymous said: hello can you make please a video when you make a hair and upload it?

I would like to! I just do so many random things while doing a hair like showing pictures to friends and getting their advice. So I will have to see, would you guys mind if the video had conversation stuff in it? As I said earlier, someone edits the videos for me so I don’t wanna get him to do more work for it by editing them out :( I will look into it for sure though!

Anonymous said: That hair wip in your lil video tutorial is absolutely beautiful!! Can’t wait until it’s released !! 🧡🧡

thank you so much!! Here are some more pics of it:

Anonymous said: are you korean? If not, how can you like kpop if you dont understand it?

I am not korean haha, but music is about more than understanding. It is about the feelings it vibes you get from it and the moods it puts you in. People love screamo music even though it is hard to understand, and music like instrumentals and dubstep heavy are just… what the music makes you feel. I listen to ‘normal’ pop, kpop, instrumentals, artists like grimes that mumble their songs a lot with production heavy stuff. I think that as long as the music is something you enjoy, you shouldn’t be judged for liking it. I know you aren’t trying to be rude with this ask so don’t think I am attacking you please! I am just trying to give you some insight into why different music interests people :)

Anonymous said: I’m so happy to see that you’ve made a patreon account! you really make amazing CC and that’s such a gift to the community, I’m happy that now I get to feel like I can give something to you haha :) have a great day/evening!

thank you so much! and thank you for supporting <3

@lesyatim​ said: Hello,  it’s not ask. I only want to say that you make very beautiful hair and  THANK YOU! I Love You💕💕💕💕💕 P.S. I’m from Russia and I don’t now English very well♡)

thank you so much!! Спасибо большое (that is suppose to say thank you in german lmao)

Anonymous said: When did u make a skin?

it is a hidden gem :P It is mainly to fix the collarbones bc I use multiple skin overlays so I that is why is was never posted :)

Anonymous said: Congratulations i hope you have a happy family 😄

ummm?? I GOT IT I GOT I GOT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT

@dangerouskindofmind said: I actually don’t have a question! I just wanna say you are one of my favorite sims 4 creators out here. Your hairs; snatched. Your clothes; beautiful. Your sims; amazing. And your personality looks just as good lol. I’ve probably downloaded like 99.9% of your content and I just wanna say thank you for all you do to make my sims 4 experience loads better. I also hope you’re having a great day

thank you so much!!!! I appreciate it a ton, I love that my content makes people love this game more <3

Anonymous said: Just wanted to say that literally all of your CC is beautiful and from what I’ve seen, I absolutely adore your personality. Keep it up my dear, you’ve got crazy talent. Much love <3

thank you, thank you!!! My personality irl is kind of shitty lmao I am really shy and like reserved ;-; and it is just memorizing how to do some editing to hair meshes, not much talent involved <3 thank you so so much again though!! I love getting these kind of messages

Anonymous said: Are you gonna make an outerwear cc pack when the seasons expansion pack releases?

I don’t make much clothing CC so I highly doubt it. I am working on a swimsuit that I might post later this month though! We will see what happens though :D

Anonymous said: thank you very much for a playlist that you shared with One Shot,Two Shot,I’m totally in love ur the best

yesss BoA is such a queen, listen to the full mini album if you can! It is one of her best releases in my opinion.

Anonymous said: aharris00britney awnsered me,cuz I remember my question and it’s on the asks recent post AND i’ll shake this print in all my enemies face thx,I asked about the patreon and I’m doing it right now bby <3            

hehe thank you!! <3 you show them enemies

– just so the eating ass juicy booty ask so yep that is all I have gotten in the past month that I can answer :P

[baronvonriktenstein]

Uhm...... Okay so in case you were wondering what my OCs look like, here’s most of them: Here, but Ryu the redhead has an updated hairstyle that doesn’t suck as much ass here  I got more on my old DA account but that shit’s all shit yo

PS, insights on Eien are a little bit of insight on me. especially on these two topics. (insight you might already have)

Anyway...

Alcohol/Cigarettes:

Eien is not super into alcohol or smoking. She has some paranoia about alcoholism and being a mean drunk. For some reason, though, she still insists on trying most drinks just to know what it tastes like. She’s relieved she hates alcohol taste. It’s unclear why she still tries. As for cigarettes, she doesn’t like the smell, so she refuses. She thinks fictional characters with cigarettes are sexy af sometimes, even though she hates the habit.

Mugen straight up refuses to drink. He doesn’t mind that other people do it, but he’s personally against it. He gets anxious around new people drinking, because he doesn’t know how they handle it, and so doesn’t know how to handle them. He smokes like it’s going out of style. He has to step outside to smoke since his roommates don’t like the smell. He knows it’s a bad idea considering how terribly he sleeps, but it calms his nerves and gives him something to do with his hands. 

Kolya isn’t old enough to drink. But if he was, he would drink so damn much just for the sake of having fun. He’s young so he wants to enjoy himself. He wants to try drunk-gaming, too. And he would drink, anyway, but Eien who is ONLY TWO YEARS OLDER THAN HIM, HE REMINDS HER, will play concerned Mom and lecture him. “I can drink back in Russia.” “Well, fuckstick, you’re not in Russia and I’m not letting you get in trouble. :T” As for smoking, he thought about it. But he doesn’t like the smell that lingers on his friend’s clothes. One of his sisters also smokes, and he just finds it unpleasant.

Kagame doesn’t really smoke. She has, occasionally when offered, but it’s not her habit. She drinks too. Usually dark red drinks like wine and idk maybe some mix drinks. It’s purely for THE AESTHETIC. She knows her limits too, so no one’s ever seen her drunk.

Subaru is also not old enough to drink and he has no interest in doing so. Smoking doesn’t appeal to him either. He’s a good kid :P

Ryu is a social drinker. One or two drinks and he’s good. Otherwise he might get sick. As for smoking, he doesn’t do it but his boyfriend does so he’s gotten quite fond of the smell of it, if the smoke isn’t being blown in his face at least.

Reho is a casual drinker. He’s got a vicious personality that in other stories would probably make him a raging alcoholic, but no. Drinking usually puts him in a contemplative mood but he’s at least pretty calm when he drinks. He smokes pretty casually, at least compared to Mugen. He smokes inside with the windows open. Ryu complains a little that it turns the ceilings yellow, but he doesn’t really mind. If the place is aired out before guests stop by, it’s fine.

Video Games:

Eien likes video games. She’s not good at them. She’s probably finished playing like four games total, and most of them were online (:P Undertale, Eversion, Yume Nikki, and also Yu Yu Hakusho for the GBA). She also plays things like bejewelled and mindless puzzle games online for no fucking reason until she gets sick if she has nothing else to do. She adores watching people play Indie Horror games and horror games in general, and gets caught up in the lore. She also likes watching platformer games like Super Mario World. She’ll try her hand at a game if she gets really into it but she’s not very good at playing and is usually too embarrassed to play with anyone else.

Mugen doesn’t play video games but he’ll do mindless things like Tetris and Pong for hours. He enjoys when someone’s playing a story-heavy game because he gets to listen to/watch it like it’s a film. Sometimes it helps him sleep. He’ll listen to Kolya play too, but if Kolya’s doing shooter games online, the guy gets loud as hell. Oddly, Mugen usually finds this relaxing too. Eien doesn’t agree.

Kolya is a huger gaming fanatic. He loves RPGs and FPS and Platformers. Current and old games. Whatever, if he can play it he’ll do it. He gets really competitive online and will cuss people out in Russian. Or Japanese. Sometimes English. If he’s playing by himself or with friends though, he’s actually really relaxed about it. He’ll have fun even if the game’s bad, as long as the controls aren’t so shitty that he can’t do anything. He feeds Eien’s LP-watching addiction by letting her sit with him when he does stuff.

Kagame’s not a gamer really. It’s just kind of juvenile for her. However, a few times while visiting the 3 roommates ^, she’s seen Kolya playing and he is so fucking involved. He introduced her to some horror stuff. She personally enjoys murder mystery-type books and Horror movies. So he showed her games that centered on psychological horror, but also violent gore-fests. After a while, she got into it enough that violent horror games are on her list of calming activities (along with tenderizing meat, beating up the punching bag in her basement, and reading).

Subaru looks like the kind of kid who prefers reading to gaming. Or, if he liked games, it’d be depressing shit. He’s actually really invested in games like Pokemon and SMW or Super Mario Sunshine. That kind of thing. He and Kolya talk about them with a lot of enthusiasm, and that’s pretty much when Subaru looks the happiest. He’s really happy when he gets to talk about that sort of thing with Kagame, because he knows she doesn’t have interest in the topic, but she’ll listen to him and make an effort to get involved with it. :) Best big adoptive sister, 10/10.

Ryu’s exposure to games is mostly through Eien. He has more of a fondness for game music, though. He has quite the collection given to him by Eien. He enjoys watching other people play too, since they’re so passionate about it. And he admits that the stories can be quite interesting.

Reho doesn’t have any interest in video or online games. He knows stuff here and there but it never really caught his attention. It’s probably because he’s easily frustrated.

[grabcock2]

birthdays are not my thing

WOW what a weekend I don't even know where to begin. I guess friday night?

Friday night I went out to the bars with my fam. It was actually a great time and I loved every second of it! I ended up drinking way too much and I was almost blackout. We got back to the house at 2:45 but on the way home I can't remember exactly what the conversation consisted of but Lindsey said I wasn't gonna end up with Chris, Laura said I wasn’t gonna end up with Chris and Savannah said she could see it going either way. That literally made me so upset. I got home and I called Chris and I honestly can't remember everything that was said. Essentially it consisted of me saying things along the lines of ~I want to be with you for a long time~ ~Why would we still be dating if there wasn't a future in sight~ and I was hammered so I only remember a few of his replies. There were quite a few silences although I’m not quite sure how long/awkward they actually were lol? BUT he insisted that he loved me very much and couldn't wait to see what the future holds. I think. Lol @ me i suck a lot. So then I puked my brains out and went to bed. I woke up the next morning and went to the gym still drunk ha. I hate birthdays quite a lot. I spent most of the day hungover as shit. I tried to take a nap and that didn't work  but then I got ready to see my parents because they drove in! They came and we sat in my room and just talked and it was really nice. Then we left and I got Chris. 

Things werent exactly weird but I’m overthinking like crazy at this point. It was scary I thought I fucked it up a lot. Idk talking about futures is really scary and it was honestly too soon to say things like that. I guess its just the same age gap as lauren and I forget that sometimes. Lauren and I are in very different stages in our lives and I’m at a more mature one so I think that Chris is in that more mature mind set too but then I forget that he is literally just a freshman and I need to chill af. I need to go somewhere this summer I need to give him space. I don't need space, I want to spend every waking second with him but he is still a freshman boy and he's not even 19 yet. He needs time to be a freshman boy. 

OK i ranted enough there. SO bottomline I'm overreacting and overthinking at this point. We get there and have an awesome time I really enjoyed it! ps chris looks adorable with a tiny child on his shoulders. i was dead i died he looked so hot wtf. so then we left and then it seemed a bit weirder but again... probably me overthinking like crazy oops. 

We get to Chris’s room. I asked Ben earlier in the week if it was alright that I slept over with Chris. He had 0 problem with it. So we get there and ben and vikash are in there watching basketball and its fine whatever. I think Ben got the hint the first time and he and vikash talked about making plans. EVENTUALLY  they got up and went to smokey’s. i swear to god 30 minutes later Ben texts chris saying “hey I'm coming back”. We were literally “after sex snuggling” without clothes on, i was about to kill ben. Chris asks when he’ll be back and he goes “I just parked, on my way up”. WAS LIVID. Ben came back up and sat back down in his room and his friends came in. Never mind that there are 3 other rooms in their suite that he could've invited his friends into. So I'm sitting on Chris’s bed wrapped in a blanket evaluating the situation. Chris goes to the bathroom and I realized how shitty this was and decided i wasn't dealing with it because I was pissed. Chris came back in the room and i told him i was gonna leave. Low-key i think he wanted me too. When ben was on his way up Chris said “Well it'll be a night of him yelling at the tv and me eating a calzone if you still want to stay”. but Chris walks me to my car and its silent. We get to it and he says “I’m getting in” so he gets in and asks me whats wrong. I immediately shed one tear and then it doesn't stop for the rest of the night. For a solid 20 minutes he kept asking me what was wrong and to talk to him. But i had no explanation of why I was so sad. The ben thing was so petty. I don't get that upset about things like that. I’m a tough cookie!! But i eventually figured that I would start with why i hate 20 so much. 

disclaimer - i’m going off on a tangent. 

I hate being 20. Your entire life is supposed to happen in your 20s. These are supposed to be the best years of your life. But I am in constant fear of failure. What if I'm gonna be a bad lawyer? What if I don't get into Law school? What if Chris and I break up and my plan is ruined. What if i don't have a good job. what if I have to find someone else to marry? What if i can't get pregnant? What if I can't get a job? I don't know whats going to happen and thats terrifying. I don't want to be a failure and I’m so terrified I’m going to be. SO yes i hate turning 20.

Ok back on track. So I told him that ^^ and then we talked more and other reasons I was upset i.e. i always cry after i see my dad because i miss him so much all the time and my brother forgot to text me and I hate Ben for ruining the rest of my birthday. Then I freaked again about being a failure and then Chris tells me his philosophy on life. He's so optimistic. He wants a little William running around and a wife he loves and a job he loves. Even if his job isn't the best it won't matter to him because he's making money to sustain his beautiful family and thats what matters to him. ( He made a slight innuendo to me in the future but it was very small and confusing so I’m just not gonna think about that lol) But then he stopped talking and i was looking out the window and I look over and he's crying. He's so excited for the future that he was crying about it. That boy is too wonderful I am too lucky to love someone like him. He's amazing and so inspirational. He makes me want to be a better person. 

BUT he ended up getting out of the car and I went home still sad. I woke up the next morning and he texted me “I’m pissed”. apparently Ben never came home that night. He didn't FUCKING tell anyone he was sleeping somewhere else. LET ALONE HIS ROOMMATE OR ONE OF HIS BEST FRIENDS??? ON THEIR FUCKING BIRTHDAY?? AFTER HE WATCHED THEM LEAVE THE ROOM VISIBLEY UPSET, HE DIDNT EVEN SAY GOODBYE BTW. I WAS FUCKING PISSED. HE IS SO SELFISH AND INCONSIDERATE? HE RUINED MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY HE IS THE REASON I CRIED. HE IS THE SOLE REASON THAT MADE ME LOSE MY SHIT AND BAWL MY EYES OUT ON MY BIRTHDAY I HATE HIM SO MUCH I WILL NEVER FORGIVE HIM FOR THIS. All i wanted for my birthday was to spend time with Chris and I couldn't even do that because of his selfishness. I hate that inconsiderate, egotistical son of a bitch. I spent the day with Lauren and Allison and it was a little better but I still feel a little weird about things but in time they'll get better. 

Jesus yes that was my birthday and thats why i hate birthdays. 

well... peace. I need sleep. 

Jan 29, 2017