#pure and utter unadulterated vexation

[alkalineleak]

While im rewatching mcd, ive made a few notes for my own rewrite:)

the first episodes of mcd are very self referential and have the 4th wall/audience as a character and as a normal fic/project, i don't think the media im using will mesh well with that, so im gonna veto the "villages are unaware but aphmau is -> aphmau becomes detached from the 4th wall and becomes part of the story" thing. This means i have to actually come up with backstory for aphmau and phoenix drop.

Personally ive never liked her being Irene with amnesia. In rebirth, i didnt like how clueless she was and in the original, i didnt like how detached she was from the world. Instead ive been playing around with her being a shad descendant or an irene descendant (leaning towards shad). With the ro'meaves and levin and other characters with such heavy family ties, i feel like being a descendant is a lot more powerful bc itll implement this theme of family defining you.

The reason why im leaning towards shad is because theres a lot of other descendents from the divine warriors (garroth, travis, etc.) for example, levins a descendant of irene, which makes him a target of kidnapping, but he's one of hundreds ykn? meanwhile theres not many of shad? Or at least in the text there isnt. This would also make it so aphmau would have destruction and violence in her blood, and instead she's a force of good. I also think that being a descendant of shad would be really good as blackmail? Like if the public found out, theyd villainize her, or maybe zane could put her in a bind later on when he's introduced in season one.

Now to actual episode by episode notes, my current idea is her being a hunter. She's lived secluded in the woods for some time for Some reason i havent come up with yet, which gives her reason to be able to do carpentry, farming, identify edible foods, and fight on her own. Also, with her amount of isolation, she's fairly paranoid and scared to be rejected. This means that when she arrives in phoenix drop, she's afraid of being kicked out, so she helps out in exchange for staying there (she's the only one who thinks this is a debt ). I think this state of mind will make her connect with zenix a lot more later on. ALSO her paranoia makes her hard to interact with, explaining why emmalyn didnt like her...

That's all i feel like explaining rn :33

[dragxnfall]

@flashofyellowlights​ asked:  ♡ Our muses almost kiss, but are interrupted. For Genji. ;P         

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﹝﹝in the peak of the anger, the pure unadulterated vexation and constant scorn that fills every fiber of his being during ever conscious moment, sometimes there are times when he can feel something else, that lone emotion: exhaustion. he’s nearing his fourth day of sleeplessness, overstimulated by his fight or flight senses stemming from the last blackwatch mission that had almost costed mccree’s life. that bit genji didn’t particularly care about, but rather, the fact that the mission was just barely successful when all signs had inted at complete and utter failure.

failing: it was something genji had grown to detest, a bitter and biting remembrance of all the times he could not even dream of being in league with his brother who bested him at anything, regardless of it being something genji considered a skill unique to him. just once, genji longed to hear words of praise for results of things he’d done, but he doesn’t think he’s ever been graced with the privilege.  

despite his fiery disposition, he’s too tired to care to fight to save face in the medic’s presence, genji slumped tiredly against her shoulder. his mask had been confiscated for repairs, the plating dented and his face forced to breathe. it’s quiet in the late night, the cyborg keeping her company as she busies herself with pouring over the paperwork. it’s oddly soothing here for his soul long gone primitive, but he behaves as the medications injected into him finally begin to numb the buzz of both phantom and physical pains. he can’t quite read her handwriting from this angle beneath the dim desk light illuminating her occupied hand, but the steady scratches of ink marring paper lulls him into a drowsy fog. heavy lids begin to fall closed, his vision dancing between the mundaneness of reality and the beckoning temptation of blackness. 

even though he’s just barely dawdling off into the verge of sleep, there’s a certain fever dream that consumes him. in his haze, he sees angela’s hand stop, feels a gentle rock of his head as she shifts, then the sight of plush, rosy lips crane into view. genji is helplessly enamored by this delusion, feeling his body move into her pull, his heavy head mustering the strength to raise itself as thin, scarred lips slowly move towards hers. in this obscure yet tantalizing dream, he swears he can feel the puff of her breath against his mouth, feel the softness of her lips against his when they brush against one another. the cyborg moves, tilting his head forward to seal it all until a loud noise sends her lurching away from him, her attention immediately directed towards the door and genji nearly tumbles to the ground before catching himself, haphazardly dragging himself to sit upright in the chair.

the soft gentle eyes of crimson are set alight at the sight of mccree standing at the doorway, bandaged and obviously in no condition to be moving but here he is, smug demeanor stinking up the air as he leans against the frame, grinning at the medic. genji is beyond furious, immediately looking for the closest weapon and it just so happens to be the medic’s pistol.  genji shimada will be damned if he fails yet again.﹞﹞

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for something relatively low rank ? And this guy became a teacher and kept it a secret for like 5 years. I totally believe you (hes lying)

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WAITTT what if villages cant communicate e them but werewolves can bc of their transformation into nature and the elements and they have a similar connection to nether portals w them? In how they r treated anyways. Guys

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realizing having Sludge be Inserted into ur respitory system will have long term health side effects when not immediately treated due to fluid build up. there was emts at the site righttttttttttttttttt If Not i must see this accordingly

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