#rest darling . these red camellias are for you ▓ ▓▓▓▓ SOUKOKU . RAVERTIA

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chu ~ stands on his tip toes to kiss dazai's chin cause its the only thing he can reach -.-

  je t’aime, mon cher. ▓ ▓▓▓▓▓ @ravertia

            ❝ —𝐎𝐇, 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄, ❞ he says with laughter spilling between the words. with ease, dazai lifts chuuya by securing a hold under his thighs. ❝ give me ONE MORE ?? ❞ he leans in to brush his nose against chuuya’s cheek. lips just barely touching.

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  CONTINUED. ▓ ▓▓▓▓▓ @ravertia

           𝐩𝐚𝐥𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭 𝐩𝐢𝐭𝐡    unto which their currents aline — seraphs strung like stars amongst the moonlight.     ENTERPRISE OF ORISONS !     how he felt like a FOLLOWER of the other’s mere ambition.     these     VIOLET DESIRES     that evoke such warmth to spread from fingertips interwoven together.     such intermingling that their souls partake in ;     RECKLESS TEENS     that fall in step.     as if mere inklings of abandoned grief treading light yet forgotten like fallen ash.     mindless now to having TEMPTED THE BEASTenough to sneak out.     HIS BLOOD , HIS CORE     devoted to the mafia — but HIS HEART , how it only bled     CRIMSON     for the other.     a trail he couldn’t help but break the rules for.

           apprehension.     HOW IT COATS AMONGST HIS TENDER FRAME     sappling that ages with each step.     chaos unbeknowst to the spider veins of DAKRNESS that weigh upon his body.     TRUST that radiates far greater than the core of what killed icarus.     this     FEAR OF COMBUSTION     only an amount of the weight of red that grows only at the gain of vantage , across pale cheeks.     visage of appraisal that widens azure.     it’s SHOCK that fogs his mind , a soft     GASP     leaving the confines of his throat.

           dashes of colours that mingle alike     HALLUCIONGENIC HAZE     bold fixation of VAN GOGH’S RELIEF.     for truly did he swallow hues of yellow to brim with such glee at the depiction & sounds that wafted from the crowded fair grounds.     AN ODE TO THE HOLIEST NIGHT     the sounds of happiness that overwhelmed his senses.     clogging them with mixtures of feelings he could never understand beyond his time spent with the other.     CALL IT BOLD OR A MOMENT OF WEAKNESS     but did his strong visage fall only to one of CHILDLIKE WONDER.     his steps merely faltering as he took in the beauty of it all , feet carrying him forward and twisting him so until he met gazes with the other.     he didn’t care with how his pages unfurled to show his TRUTH to the other within the moment.     it merely flustered him so ,     THE ADORATION     that sparked within his joyous flare.

           movement so sure — so partial to the moment with how he — WITHOUT A CARE TO WEAKNESS — grew closer to the other , quickly leaning up with slight difficulty to connect their lips together.     HOW TIME SLOWS     as he applies pressure , keeping the kiss soft with how he wraps his arms around the taller’s shoulders — pulling ever slightly downwards so he wouldn’t topple over with how unsteady he was on the tips of his toes.     breaking the kiss only to rest his forehead against dazai’s ,     “     your so shitty …     ”     a soft grumble , eyes rolling as he leans back ,    “     doing something so … SWEET like this.     it’s so infuriating.    YOU’RE so infuriating.     ”

           THERE’S TENDERNESS WITHIN HIS TONE     gaze caught with staring so LOVINGLY into the other’s eye , relying heavily on the other to keep him upright as he detaches one of his arms.     fingers trailing softly along the skin beneath his bandaged eye , moving his hair away from the gauze only to lean in once again — straining slightly as he raised once more to press his lips gently against the soft material.     IT QUICKENED HIS PULSE     allowed him to feel so FREE with how open his actions were.     DEAD CENTER!     within a populated area that boomed with laughter — an     EPICENTER OF MERRIMENT     that JUST MAYBE the two could partake in     TOGETHER.

           he withdrawls , cheeks bright with colour that blends so complimentary to his hair.     actions shy yetSURE with how he interlaces their fingers , pulling the other as he guides them further into the carnival.    INSTANTANEOUS LIVELINESS     at the iridescent glow of humanity surrounds them so.     a smirk seemingly worms its way on to his face , gazing at the other with CHALLENGE evident across his features.     “     I’m going to kick your ass at ALL OF THESE GAMES , you know that right ?     NO WAY     I’ll let you cheat this time!     ”     his tone so CONFIDENT despite the war waging within his chest —     THE LITTLE DRUMMER BOY     playing a melody so loud that sparked nerves beyond his omnipresent facade to keep them at bay.

          𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐈𝐒 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄------- there is no denying it. dazai feels a rush of warmth swell up inside. it pushes at the inner walls of his rib cage. IT’S A BEAUTIFUL KIND OF ACHE. he realizes he’s never truly known the meaning of ‘ having your breath taken away ‘ until now. because he forgets to breathe while watching chuuya come to L I F E && radiate with such . . . joy. wonder. light. dazai reaches out to tuck a stray lock of red behind chuuya’s ear. fingers linger as they caress the side of his face.

          like the GRAVITY chuuya manipulates with such grace && ease--- it’s an invisible, yet tremendous force that draws dazai in closer to the other boy. his arm wraps around the young mafioso’s waist. as chuuya pulls him in for a kiss, dazai meets him halfway. his heart aches once their lips touch. never has he felt such IMMENSE GRATITUDE for BEING ALIVE. if he can spend the rest of his life with THIS BEAUTIFUL BOY . . . then maybe he can put his meticulously crafted plans of death aside for a while. as they kiss, dazai’s lips curve into a smile. his other hand runs through that red hair he adores so much. ❝ mmhm-- i’m terrible, i know, the absolute worst, ❞ he murmurs along with chuuya. soft laughter laces his words. ❝ but you-- you’re just---- ❞ he’s breathless. the genuine smile that reaches his exposed eye shines brightly. ❝ -----lovely. ❞ 

          the smile falters only out of silent shock as chuuya touches the bandages. TENDERNESS is a language he never knew until this boy. if it was anyone else that dared to get near his bandages, HELL HATH FURY upon their souls. but when it’s chuuya--- dazai leans into the touch. for the concealed damaged to be graced by those fingers is already more than he deserves. but when the bandages are blessed with a KISS---- is it the trick of the iridescent lights, or is there a glimmer of tears in dazai’s eye? in spite his usual eloquence, the boy can’t find the right words to articulate what he feels. so, he takes chuuya’s hand to kiss it gently. even brushes his cheek against the back of it.

         easy laughter spills out of him. what a delight it is to see chuuya like this--- free. innocent. happy. THE PORT MAFIA thrives in the dark. claims ownership of it, even. but when it’s just chuuya && himself---- dazai gets a chance of seeing what living in THE LIGHT may be like. at his partner’s enthusiastic challenge, dazai chuckles.

        ❝ KICK MY ASS, huh ?? but can your foot even reach my knee ?? ❞ of course, dazai isn’t going to miss out on a chance to poke fun at chuuya’s height. it’s all in good nature though. ❝ if you win, it’s only because i LET you win-- so that you can win me a plush. maybe i’ll even name it after you. ❞ truth is that dazai’s never owned a plush in his life. or had anyone win him something. or go to a carnival with him. it’s always a seemingly endless list of FIRSTS with chuuya.

       dazai takes chuuya by the hand, letting the boy take first pick at what they play. he doesn’t rig any games. but--- he’s got a whole new set of ‘ creative tactics ’ on how to get the advantage. such as distracting chuuya with kisses. or whispering sweet nothings into his ear. for once in his life, dazai doesn’t care about WINNING THE GAME. he’s not even trying to distract chuuya anymore. he’s simply giving soft kisses && words because he wants to. dazai nuzzles against chuuya && murmurs: ❝ ---be mine forever, mon cher ?? ❞