#reva.spks

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a perfect birthday (at mudumalai national park, south india)

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Feel like eating fruits so I'm gonna buy some oranges and grapes soon ...maybe figs too

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Note to self: salsa thecha combo -> savory oats

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wish I was a little branch on a tree . would luv to sway with the wind

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Gotta get better gotta get better gotta get better

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loooove waking up early and getting glammed up just to study and work on my internship before i walk to office

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Sometimes I think boy do I smoke a lot of weed and then realize that it takes me 2-3 days to finish a joint if I'm by myself

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Let's give it up for the girlies who retreat into their shell and say a million sorrys the moment they feel the slightest bit unwanted ....yeah

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hello friends in my phone ...it was past midnight and I was bored so I made chai flavored baked oats and it smacked ...I love my mind <3 now I'm gonna go to sleep with my new bonnet on goodnight besties

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The boyfriend just left to go to his hometown :( my days of bliss are over

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Every time I read posts that people put up for their mothers I feel so conflicted and I wish I could put my feelings and thoughts into words properly. Somebody I follow put up a very heartfelt post about her mother who passed away and it's so touching but I feel so uneasy because what will it be like when my own mother dies ? How will I feel and how will I deal with it ? I am sad just thinking about it because my mum and I don't get along and for most of my life I've felt that she hates me or doesn't like me. There's always tension and I never know when she is going to go off. I know she is abusive and I don't shy away from that word but we have also had our good moments when we've laughed and danced together and I've slept next to her hugging her. I already have so much trouble dealing with our relationship, how am I meant to deal with the grief when she's not here anymore ? How do I deal when I've had such bad experiences and thoughts about her and how will I forgive myself for those ? Even though I know my feelings were warranted in that moment because she was being abusive.

I don't even know where I am going with this. But every time I am at her house I feel this profound sadness. I want to have a good relationship with her but we only have a good relationship when we're far from each other. How do I deal with all of this knowing that there might be a day when she's not here and we might not have come to a point where we have a good and healthy mother daughter relationship ?

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Americans are so crazy what do you MEAN you don't wash your rice before cooking it ??!!!

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I have been away from my boyfriend for just a bit more than 48 hours and I miss him already ....I'm gone for a month how am I to deal with that 🫤

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That post about going through cycles of rotting and becoming god ...I have been in my rotting cycle and I feel like logically with me having major changes in life, things are going to start looking up. Logically. But my god what if it doesn't

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I'm going to end up having a crush on this guy am I not ....😐🫣

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Inshallah I get this job 🤞🤞🤞🤞