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milo-is-rambling · 4 months

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Weight talk tw I guess idk how to describe the post sorry im a little high

It’s so weird being around people who talk about weight problems (IOP) and like idk it brings up weird shit in my brain almost anxiety that I should feel bad about myself somehow like I’m doing this wrong being confident idk. Weird self doubt thing that happens when you’ve loved yourself (hmm. Rephrase. I don’t care about being fat. let’s say that.) and then you’re in a room full of people having a group discussion about how they avoid living their life in happy ways because they don’t want to become like you. But you love yourself. But everyone in your life since you were little has been dieting and talking about weight and specific numbers (someone was anxious about gaining seven pounds! SEVEN. If they saw my scale they would shit themselves. I put on seven pounds taking a big bong rip Jesus fucking Christ seven pounds. I wanted to rip my hair out.)

Next time weight issues come up in IOP I’m stepping out of the room. Like idk how to explain it cause it’s like not a trigger but I guess it is ? But it’s just so weird like the way I’m triggered makes me want to cry why does the world hate me for being fat what the fuck !!!!

#me when I gain weight issues through thinking about my own body in a group setting #ughhh #whatever fuck it #taking an anxiety med chavas at work Levi’s on a train (EXCITED!!!!) I’m gonna take my little sedative friend and try to take a nap bc six #and a half hours after the last two days I’ve had is fucking nothing. going to nap city will fix me.#also taking my morning med. I haven’t done that yet I need to eat *stares into camera* to take my meds gahhhh I hate having a human form an #intestines just take the med with one cracker and not get sick what the fuck body I’m so sick of heart burn I want to burn down the world #and now that I’ve had a med increase I get fucking withdrawal symptoms if I miss a morning dose which I found out bc I left my meds at home #accidentally on Monday when I was so overtired and forgot to put them back in my bag for IOP (cause they have food at IOP so I take them #there once I’ve eaten) and then I had a headache for like half of the day and I was so overtired I was crying on the drive home cause I #wanted to sleep so bad and then I got home and my brain wouldn’t shut the fuck up even on the sleep meds until I talked to kath and she #calmed me down just existing the little sweetheart god I love her okay anyways babble over I’m very overtired and a little cranky and my #brother has been in a very bitchy mood recently idk what’s got him on edge but everything is setting him off into little fights like not #just with me he was fighting with mom this morning he’s just kick to getting worked up recently which leads to me being angry wanting to be #rude which means do the opposite which means show extra compassion woohoo coping skills 🗣️🗣️#anyways. post panic attack sedative nap (my beloved) or perhaps work on editing my vlog #I’m high I forgot you can’t hit comma on tags. edit my vlog. vacuum. (I always spell vacuum with two c’s and not two u’s and I think #autocorrect should not correct me on that one bc I think I am right in my soul idk why #there’s another word I’m like that with but I forget what it is . okay bye thank you for listening to my type words goodbye goodnight mwah #it’s nap time babyyyyyy #idk if I have to trigger tag this ? someone let me know if I do please

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