#ryan if you're around i'm sorry but i am merely a human being okay i have many faults and this is just one of them!!!!!!!

[greatbigstorm]

listen I KNOW i'm not supposed to give a shit about chris anymore. i know he's not a good person and he would only bring me down but oh my god i miss him!!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss him i miss him i miss that stupid boy so fucking much!!!!!!!!! i wanna slap him in the face and kiss him right after and i wanna yell at him for being a fucking idiot bc all he's good at doing is ruining his life and trying to ruin other people's lives in the process and i hate him but i miss him!!!!!!!!!

i'm not dumb enough to reach out bc ever since i got that bail bonds call i have forced myself to avoid him like the plague but why won't he reach out to me????? what is he doing that is so much more important than being with me????? why is he so fucking dumb like there's millions of guys out in the world and i gotta pick this fucking dumb ass to be whining over???? 😭