#saezuru

[keiko-chan]

Y: Is it good?

D: I don't know it's sweet and bitter... It tastes like you.

[ryan566t6]

Color on.

[danmeibrainrot]

Doumeki is finally touching Yashiro's hair 😭🎉❤

[twitteringthings]

As soon as I saw this scene I was like “-oop, D HIT. THAT. SPOT.” XD

Yashiro is so lost in ecstasy while Doumeki’s like “I told you *thrust* that I want *thrust* your body *thrust* to crave only ME!” *THRUST*

He’s so focused too LMAO, rawr.

[akoo9]

Ch1 reference "he smiles when he's MAD"

Yashiro is truly upset here

He's still smiling, but turning into defense mode(attack and challenging is best defensive mechanism)

Still smiling, but d making him see the truth without actually telling it....truth is bitter hence the bitter smile and d is mean for that in Yashiro's pov

Getting back to the original upset/mad smile......bcz d is more defensive than him, and not allowing him to get answers he was expecting....and now it's only about yashiro and his impo issue

Finally a smile but filled with pain.... The smile were all masks tumbled down...his injured heart is crystal clear on his face....&it's like he's no more understand himself too....from completely denying to almost want d to understand the storm inside his heart with this short tricky/desperate reply (i do)

[novabl]

Just some important research ✍️

Volume 5 to Volume 9

[ogata77]

That bittersweet taste now and always 💘

[noniedarkmeki]

My babies 🫣🤍🤍

https://x.com/bs_garden/status/1772551313890652558?s=46&t=SeKJqqSmmAxkqw5nj2YoDQ

[artemisrisen]

I think a key to unlocking yashiro’s anxiety with intimacy is for him to see doumeki’s enjoyment in sex come through. doumeki has kept himself in tight control this whole time; clinical, like it was described. with good reason, but it’s not allowing yashiro any room to breathe from the scrutiny. he’s trying but I can’t imagine this makes things any easier for someone so private with his emotions.

but when he sees doumeki’s expression as they position into missionary, he actually laughs and touches the other’s face - he relaxes! he sees doumeki isn’t unaffected! it’s the one part of the chapter where there’s nothing complicated about his reaction.

what I’m saying is, he needs to flick doumeki’s sensitive nipples (as noted in the 2007-2017 fanbook by sensei) or lick an earlobe and watch doumeki’s face contort or moan, and think - oh, I can do that to him. he likes it. and I think this will be a catalyst.

[benvey0]

don't look

[ilovesaezuru]

Thinking back to how Saezuru began, and following the narrative thread until the last chapter, I have the feeling that the ending of Saezuru will be very similar to its beginning, with the two protagonists separated from the world around them. The path and all the changes undergone seem to lead to an exchange of roles between Y and D. Y seems to distance himself from the Yakuza over time, D, on the contrary, feels very at ease. Saezuru is a healing journey that aims to rediscover oneself through love. Every step forward brings us closer to the origin, to the true identity of the protagonists. Unlike D who deliberately chooses to be part of the Yakuza world, Y has always felt trapped in this world. So, I wonder, will it be possible to see them together in the end? It's hard for me to imagine an ending that isn't a goodbye. Maybe I'm to pessimistic.

[everything-poetic]

Yashiro being bitter

Then a few minutes later he's sweet again

And..

Sweet and bitter is the perfect description for yashiro😭

[danmeibrainrot]

They're in love your honor

[twitteringthings]

I want to thank everyone who makes Saezuru accessible to those of us who are unable to purchase the actual magazine/books. To all of the translators and people who make sure to keep us updated on Yoneda Kou news, you are appreciated!! Thank you! This is a great group of people <3

[keiito09]

Doumeki showed more facial expressions in ch. 56 than in his entire life

He smiled 😊

He was surprised 😧

Serious/Angry 😠

And of course that one when he want to do it really bad 😏

[novabl]

Chapter 57: the Sex

So I am having some feelings about this chapter and I apologize if I start rambling and writing too many posts but I have some things on my mind lol. Lately I like breaking up my analysis instead of doing one large one because I feel like it makes me able to focus on one aspect of the chapter. Right now, I want to talk about the sex and how Yashiro and Doumeki are feeling about it. Yashiro admits to himself that he wants to run away when faced with gentle touches but he is also captivated by them. We see a self awareness that that Yashiro has ignored for decades come into play here. There is indication that he wants to run away throughout the sex but then he promptly gives in. Doumeki seems to be aware of his resistance and even tells him he can throw up if he wants to. When I first saw that line, it threw me off because it seemed cold and almost uncaring. But looking at the greater details of Yashiro pushing Doumeki away and still resisting that gentle treatment, I think Doumeki is acknowledging that Yashiro isn’t ready for lovemaking. Since there were flashbacks to volume 5, I wonder if Doumeki is remembering the aftermath of what happened the last time he pushed Yashiro to accept his gentle treatment. Doumeki is still very much reeling from how Yashiro treated him then. I think Doumeki needed some space in the end too and I am not sure what he meant by telling Yashiro he’ll come back. I think the sex and feeling like he is forcing Yashiro into is wearing on him and even in this sex scene, though he was passionate, he still had his cold, hardened exterior. I don’t want to say this was a test but I think Doumeki tried to push the limits and saw that Yashiro isn’t really ready for loving sex let alone a loving relationship. What this means for Doumeki can only be a guess but he doesn’t have much time to dwell on it since he now needs to focus on his yakuza tasks and there will be no Yashiro to distract him. Yashiro, on the other hand, has made the first steps towards understanding himself and what he really wants. He knows he hates the cruelty and he knows he is scared of the gentleness but likes the feeling of it. This chapter did feel like there was a loss of progress but I think it is realistic. Yashiro is starting to set the stages for him to understand and fight for what he wants. Doumeki cannot be the pursuer anymore as he has other duties expected of him so now I think it is time for Yashiro to fight for them.