#saturns adventures in php

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hiii all, how is everyone? i'm open to any questions

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How are you feeling?

in school time but just fucking around which is what everyone does <3 based of is to be honest. I'm actually vibing! OH! i need cool braceet ideas I got permission to have my headphones as a sensory aide which is great and also i'm figuring out my dislikes list bc they keep trying to give me cheese :( hel on earth. we made cupcakes earlier which was fun! and had biofeedback where i fucked around on my phone. Oh, and i had a EKG but it was just routine so it was p boring. Waking up for weights and vitas sucks bc it's at liiterally 5 am but it's fine.

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How have things been, Is everything chillin? having just a fantastic time? popping off And slaying?

I hope you have a marvelous day!!

I was like really sad last night but i talked with a mhc who is my favorite forever and ever and now i'm normal. also they say i could be out and back in school in three weeks!

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haha lowkey might be top of the wait-list for super fun exchange program (i exchange my house for the place you go to for residential treatment) so that's fun

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playing the "can i get them to give me an autism evaluation" game at my PHP

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Theoretically I could be discharged after april break!

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tuesday we not only do weights and vitals but blood work baby! ugh also i need to keep my heart rate down bc if it’s over 100 they try to give me gatorade

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getting a poppy bagel

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today sucked i had sensory overloaad and cied under a table but the one staff member who sucks ass was "running" that group and only yelled at me when i ried to leave the room and then didn't notice me being overwhelmed. also she gave 0 meal support which was like... girl.... i am just not eating snack now and have to do stupid carryover

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can't decide if i should lie my way out lol

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update on PHP

-everyone there is queer -it's pretty chill actually -but also i had panic attacks at every meal so the vibes are weird yunno -feels like a different world kind of tho? like seperate from everything -the groups a all were kind of Nothing and we didn't do anything and then dbq we did group therapy instead

lots of compliments on my jacket -they're understaffed rn bc of school break -idk, any questions on how normal teen summer camp went?

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GIRL JUST SAW MY CLINICIAN FROM PHP WHILE IN THE BAGEL SHOP ON AN PUT OF PROGRAM PASS. SHE WAS IN SWEATS. WE TALKED FOR LIKE SEVEN MINUTES BJT IM STILL REELING.

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i <3 biofeedback <- just playing on his phone

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i talked to a great mhc last night and she was the best ever and i’m normal now

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yesterday was... fun. a lot of "if you don't eat by dinner we are going to the ER" and "you were put back on the residential waiting list yesterday. this isn't a threat. anyway, do you think this will motivate you?" so that was all great

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when i discharge (re: which might be a bit aswhen we split into two groups for lunch i am currently put into the room where we don't get to watch a show because "none of us eat" or whatever) i am totally making my mom give me 15 dollars so i can sign up for Jenna's patreon and ask her about Unions in DIgital Media lol