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whimsycore · 9 months

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I think what people don’t understand about having a narc parent is how isolated you are and how they make you feel on the daily. I had major oral surgery today and I woke up in a dark house tonight.

She literally raised me with the belief that she’s terrified of a completely dark house. And because of that I would make sure a light was turned on for her. Whether she was inside the house yet or not. This woman left one light on and it’s where she was today before she left.

The entitlement and inconsideration is part of daily living with her. But I’m supposed to stay with her because she’s scared to be alone. I’m supposed to not want anything for myself. I’m supposed to not DO for myself because she doesn’t. Imagine your entire life they make you a caretaker and they complain every minute of every day about you to someone so you can’t even trust other adults in your life. And you can’t count on your parent either because they let you down often but expect the world from you.

#like and sometimes other adults will ???? at the them for the way your parent treats you but then they bombard them with how ‘bad you are’#this woman never celebrated Mother’s Day but literally told her friends she was hurt me and my sister gave her nothing like she didn’t raise #Us for 20 years telling us that and birthdays were haram #she coincidentally went out to buy jewelry on her birthday and would always do something for her birthday #and completely ignore all three of her kids. she even ignores one of her kids deaths. she ignores the day every year #it’s not even just how inconsiderate she is it’s the fact she ALSO had a single parent in the 60s who #literally provided for her in ways only white woman at the time got pampered #it’s the fact she reminisces about celebrating Christmas with her family and still is focused on Christianity #it’s her deep fear of everything that gave me CLINICAL anxiety #and I’m overreacting #when you have CPTSD from your parent they also think all you are and all your worth belongs to them #she also would cry to me when I was at college because she was alone #but when I needed her she hung up on me because ‘it was too much’ but didn’t forget to tell her friends abt it :3

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