#she walks in starlight in another world

[violentdelightstheseviolentends]

Like most days recently, Kili had found himself by the lake. He didn't really feel that drawn to it, just that it was calmer there then anywhere else in town. At this point he didn't know what else to do, he didn't really understand the thoughts in his head anymore, and he wasn't sure he wanted to either. Instead he was opting to skim stones on the water, mindless perhaps, but it was a nice distraction.

Hearing footsteps, he shook his head, trying to focus on reality. He could hardly admit that his mind felt between this world and a dream. "It's a beautiful evening, didn't think anyone else would come up here though" he said aloud, hoping it seemed normal enough. "I mean, I don't mind, just surprised" so much for seeming normal.

@ivycovestarters

[book-boys-are-my-guilty-pleasure]

Imagine: Being in love with Kili, but he falls for Tauriel instead of you.

Request: @nekodemon73 “Can I please request a Kili x reader where reader loves/likes Kili but he still falls in love with Tauriel and is oblivious to her liking him.” 

Warnings: BOTFA SPOILERS! Angst, violence, etc.

A/N: Also, sorry if the final scenes are not accurate, I didn’t watch them properly during the movie because I was dying and I refuse to rewatch them.

You’re locked in the same cell as Fili in Mirkwood, and you watch Kili flirt with the beautiful elf woman who saved you from the spiders, Tauriel, “Aren’t you going to search me, I could have anything down my trousers.”

You groan and roll you eyes, sinking down to the ground, as Fili chuckles at your misery. You had been crushing on the youngest Durin for months now, and it was obvious to every single person in the company except Kili himself.

A few hours passed and Tauriel came back down, inspecting the cells, you don’t think much of it, until she stops by Kili, “The stone in your hand, what is it?”

“Why does she care?” You mumble, causing Fili to laugh at you once again.

“It is a talisman, a powerful spell lies upon it, if anyone but a dwarf reads the runes on this stone, they will be forever cursed,” He says, instantly pointing the stone at Tauriel. You let out a soft chuckle; okay...maybe he doesn’t like her.

“Or not,” He quickly adds, stopping her from walking away. You sink back to the ground, sighing, or not...

He proceeds to tell her the story about how his mother gave him the stone and you try your best to tune them out. You get back to up a few minutes later to look at them, Kili has a genuine look in his eyes, he definitely likes her.

Fili notices the sadness in your eyes, and he gently places a hand on your shoulder, “Get some rest Y/N.”

You nod and make your way to the other side of the cell, eventually drifting off.

You’re staying back in Lake-town with Fili and Kili while the rest of the company headed off to Erebor. You sit next to Kili, holding his hand in attempts to comfort him, but you know nothing’s going to help at this time. You and Fili keep exchanging worried glances, you can tell he’s thinking the same thing as you, Kili has to make it through this...

Before you know what’s happening, Orcs are surrounding Bard’s house and you, Fili, and Bofur are trying everything you can to keep them away from Kili and the children, until suddenly Legolas and Tauriel come in, eventually succeeding in driving the Orcs away. Legolas leaves shortly after, but Tauriel decided to stay behind.

As much as you want Kili to be alright, you wish it was someone else healing him, anyone else. You and the others hold him down as Tauriel begins singing some chants, holding the medicine to Kili’s leg. He stops struggling and he stares dreamily up at her.

You walk to the other end of the room as Tauriel finishes covering his wound. His voice suddenly catches your attention, “Tauriel...”

She stares at him kindly, “Lie still.”

“You cannot be her, she is far away, sh-she is far far away from me. She walks in starlight in another world. It is just a dream,” He reaches for her hand and it feels like he’s tearing your heart out, “Do you think she could love me?”

You feel a sob choking your throat, and you get up and walk out of the house. Fili quickly follows you, “Y/N...?”

You bury your head in his neck and finally let your tears flow.

Smaug has been defeated and you are making your way to the boat that will lead you to Erebor, when Kili suddenly stops and turns to Tauriel.

“They are your people,” She says as Fili calls his brother, “You must go.”

Kili stops her again, “Come with me.”

You take a sharp breath, urging yourself not to cry again, “I know how I feel, I’m not afraid. You make me feel alive.”

Your heart races and your heart begs you to stop eavesdropping. Tauriel turns away from him once again, “I can’t.”

He reaches out to her, “Tauriel, armalime.”

You let out a choked sob, but try to cover it up with a cough. You finally turn away, having heard enough, and wishing you hadn’t heard any of it.

Kili eventually joins you back in to boat and you refuse to look at him, knowing you won’t be able to hold your tears back if you do. You keep your eyes focused on the water, oblivious to the sympathetic looks Oin, Fili, and Bofur keep shooting you. Kili finally takes a break from rowing and sits next to you, “Y/N, are you alright?”

“I’m fine,” Your voice comes out more bitterly than intended.

“Aw come on,” He nudges playfully. Mahal, just stop Kili! Leave me alone, please, “Where’s that adorable smile?”

“Shove off Kili,” You enunciate, irritably. His face falls and he decides it would be best to leave you alone.

The battle is in full force and you realize what Azog is planning. You rush up to the cliff where Fili’s fighting against the Orcs. The Orc is about to stab your best friend when you push him out of the way. The sword grazes the side of your stomach and the two of you tumble off the cliff, landing in front of Kili.

“Fili! Y/N!” Kili kneels next to you, and helps you two up. He touches your burning side, “Y/N, you’re bleeding...”

“I’m fine Kili,” You mutter.

The three of you fight side by side; Tauriel eventually joins you as well, while Legolas helps Thorin. You see an Orc sneaking up behind Kili.

“NO!” You scream, pushing him out of the way. The Orc stabs you, deep enough to cause an incredible amount of pain, but not enough to damage any vital organs.

“Y/N!” Fili and Kili yell, Fili kills the Orc and Kili rushes up to support you.

“I’m fine, I’m fine!” You hiss, pain spreading through your body.

You continue fighting, watching as Thorin gets Azog under the ice. He’s following the Orc’s body and you realize that he’s making a mistake. You rush down the cliff you’re stand on and make your way to help Thorin. Azog stabs his foot and comes out from under the ice, and comes face to face with you, “Get out of the way girl!”

You stand your ground as he steps closer.

Kili’s POV We’ve finally managed to kill of all the Orcs around us and we’re standing frozen in fear as Azog approaches Y/N, she lets out a gut wrenching scream just as Uncle stabs Azog from behind. Azog falls and Uncle looks back at us victoriously. Fili and I let out a cheer, and I see Y/N smiling painfully, her hands are clutching her stomach. Suddenly she falls to the ground and Uncle turns to her, rush up and kneeling next to her.

Fili and I exchange a look and run down to her. A smile crosses her pain stricken expression when she looks up at me. She brings a bloody, shaking hand up to my face, “K-Kili...”

“Shh,” I cradle her in my arms, “Don’t say anything Y/N, you’re going to be okay. The eagles are coming, just keep your eyes open.”

“W-will you let me...let me speak f-for once,” She laughs painfully, “Kili, you-you’re finally home. Promise me that...that you’ll be happy, p-promise me that you’ll take care of yourself.”

“Y/N please-”

“Promise me Kili,” She whispers.

I nod and take her hand, trying to hold back my tears, “I promise.”

“Kili...? C-can you kiss me...?” Her question breaks my heart. I instantly lean down and gently press my lips to hers, when I pull back she smiles, behind the tears, the happiness is clear in her eyes, “I love you Kili, I’ve always loved you, and I will always love you.”

She closes her eyes and her body goes limp, no, “Y/N?! Y/N! NO Y/N STAY WITH ME!”

I shake her body, trying to wake my best friend, “Y/N please! Look Y/N, the eagles are here! You’re going to be okay! T-the eagles...”

My voice breaks and the sobs take over my body, knowing there is nothing I can do anymore. She’s gone.

End.

Masterlist // Rules List // To-Do List

[violentdelightstheseviolentends]

tauriel & kili ❛ i thought you’d like some company. ❜

"Are you sure?" he asked, before realising how it sounded. "I just mean... well you have to know what's going on here. Doesn't seem like it's very easy for you" she had recognised him, and known his name. He had remembered her, but he hadn't known why, and he hadn't known her name. He hadn't even really believed she was real until she was standing there. If this was confusing enough for him, he couldn't imagine what she was going through.

@sunshiinefades

[violentdelightstheseviolentends]

" you're not very good at keeping conversation, are you ? " [ from eurydice ]

"Aren't I?" it wasn't really a question he supposed. Once maybe he had been better at it, but times changed and he too often found himself lost in thought. Today it had been about the mysterious people that danced across his mind, but then when wasn't it about them? "Sorry, I used to be better... I think. I just... am not really with it at the moment" and it wasn't a good explanation, he knew that to. "Sorry, what were you saying?"

@pennedfairytales

[violentdelightstheseviolentends]

“am i that easy to forget?” tauriel & kili

"No" it wasn't as simple as that. Perhaps it would be easier if he didn't know who she was. In truth, he didn't really know who she was. All he knew was that he knew her, and that he'd loved her, and then nothing. It hadn't been here, he knew that, so none of this made sense. "I remember you... I just... I don't remember why" he knew he hadn't met her here, but then what else made any sense?

@sunshiinefades

[violentdelightstheseviolentends]

It had been a mistake to open the package, something he had now realised. Nothing had been making a lot of sense before, faces he knew, but no memories truly attached to them, now he seemed to know his own story, and it made even less sense. It was just confusing, a life he had no memory of living but clearly must have because he remembered the people there.

He just wanted to keep his head down, that was until he rounded the corner and almost straight into someone. "Sorry, I... you?" oh that was rude, he had to be loosing his mind. "Your from Middle Earth... aren't you?" and his headache was back.

@signcfthetiimes for Aragon

[violentdelightstheseviolentends]

tauriel&kili ❛  i would never lie to you . to others , yes , but never to you .  ❜

"Why?" was that too blunt? It felt blunt, but he had to at least try and ask, try and figure out just what was going on right now. "I know my memories aren't helping me right now, but I feel like I'm forgetting something important here" or maybe he knew but just didn't know how to put it into words. If only he could remember.

@sunshiinefades

[violentdelightstheseviolentends]

woah! was that KILI DURIN walking down main street? i heard they’re not actually from ivy cove but come from THE HOBBIT/LORD OF THE RINGS. they’re 77 and live in CORDOVA GROVE but watch out because they can be RECKLESS + ARROGANT but are actually OPTIMISTIC + CARING. despite them HAVING SOME memories, you’ll always think of FIGHTING FOR A HOME HE’D NEVER KNOW, RARELY SEEN WITHOUT HIS BROTHER, EYES FULL OF STARLIGHT AND FADING HOPE when imagining them.

Once Upon A Time

Kili was born after the dwarves had been outed from Erebor. When his uncle put forward a plan to reclaim it, he and his brother joined, longing to see their home. The party met in Bilbo Baggin's home, and he was the youngest there, the others having memories of their long lost home. It was Mirkwood things took a change, where as a prisoner he talked for a long time with a female elf, a sworn enemy, and started falling for her. However in their escape, he was hit with a poisoned arrow. As they entered Laketown his condition worsened, and he was unable to continue their quest, his brother stayed with him.

As Smaug descended on the town, they were able to escape, eventually re-joining their comrades in Erebor. As the gold sickness came down on their uncle, they entered into a battle against the humans and elves. Although not in agreement with his uncle, they remained loyal, though when a bigger battle started outside, the group eventually joined. As Azog appeared, they went after him. Kili watched his brother die, before rescuing Tauriel at the cost of his own life. He died believing his uncle lived.

Ivy Cove

Kili was living a happy enough life, however seemed to have some mysterious illness. After the mayor was murdered, his health suddenly improved but his memories didn't come back... sort of. He remembered the people, but he couldn't remember Middle Earth itself, or what had happened.