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jacqcrisis · 8 months

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My brother apparently got a call from our mom apologizing about some of her behavior when we were kids. He said she was sincere and said I hope I get some apologies myself. Problem is...

I'm past the point of wanting apologies. I've had them from her before. They always come with some backhanded 'but actually it's not my fault for how I acted, I did nothing wrong, and the fact that you are upset by it is hurting me more than I ever hurt you so how dare-'. Or it's followed by her hurting me emotionally and mentally in some new way in the following few months, never actually following through and changing her behavior.

I'm realizing I don't want apologies anymore. There's no apology she can give that I could believe at this point, not it ever matters. I don't want this constant cycle of 'oooh I'm so sorry but actually I'm not and will never change teehee'.

I just want her to leave me alone.

#jacq life #im sick of her #im sick of who she is as a person #if she wasnt my mom id never talk to her #she isnt someone id want to or even do want to be around #she literally just told me she refused to change her niece's dirty diaper (because the niece didnt want to potty train) for two hours #to the point the neice got diaper rash. because my mom neglected her out of her own pride #shes just a despicable person and there arent enough apologies in the world that can make up #for who she chooses to be as a person and for everything shes done to me and the people i love #im genuinely assuming shes on the apology tour because my aunt found out about how she treated her kids #anyways i needed to write this out for my out mental health

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