#sincerely I am in tears

[lilflowerpot]

hello flower! i’ve never submitted an ask to tumblr before, but i just wanted to say this.

(btw, everything in this post is true. it’s kinda an unbelievable story)

i’ve been a fan of LB since it’s publish! i’m pretty sure i discovered it in mid 2018, so i’ve been here for a long time!

i’ve been following ur writing for years and watched you improve annually. i fell in love with your story and writing extremely quickly, and i always looked forward to your new chapters. i distinctly remember feeling ecstatic when keith finally revealed his face !!

however, in 2019, i suffered a catastrophic head injury whilst skiing, which caused me to lose most - if not all - my memories. in truth, i should of died or been in a coma, but i escaped with some critical injuries instead. a broken neck, fractured skull, broken eye socket, the whole shebang lol.

luckily, i was not paralyzed, and i can say now that my recovery has been well! i’m back to being fully functional (sometimes) except for a couple motor control issues.

but the real problem was my memory, i could remember my family and relationships, but i forgot practically every fundamental fact about myself, including my middle name. additionally, i suffered a lot from aphasia and neuro problems which made me struggle to understand sounds coming from people if that makes sense. to cure this, my mom and dad introduced me to (guess what!) voltron. they knew it was my fav show before the crash, so in a sense, they tried to reignite my memories and help work on my sensory processing ability.

i fell in love with the show - again- and watched it during my recovery. probably the only reason i can talk today is because of vld! i find it a little ironic that despite losing myself in the crash, i came full circle. and u can probably guess what happens next!

in 2021, i rediscovered ur fic whilst in the voltron tab. it kinda shocked me to see “Visited: 309” under the fic because i had no recollection of ever reading it. the person i was before must’ve loved it, so i gave it a shot! (btw, me before crash and me now i consider different ppl)

so, i began to read, every word from start to finish. and, as cheesy as it sounds, i think i fell in love again. my recovery has been endlessly difficult and was particularly rough 2020-2021, so this kinda supported me in a way. seeing the growing number of how many times i visited LB reminded me that i had existed the day before.

to give context, every morning i woke up, i would forget almost everything abt myself. eventually that got resolved, but it was jarring. so, seeing that number rise, and reliving the joy of reading LB for the first time gave me hope.

LB means so much to me for this reason. sometimes when it felt like i was losing my humanity to depression and pain, it reminded me that, out there, the previous versions of me were hoping to read LB again. in a sense, i was motivated to read the new chapters as an ode to my previous-day self if that makes sense.

now, 7 months after successfully waking up and remembering the previous day, i am writing this with tears in my eyes. i am writing this with a smile, and i’m writing this with the hope that it reminds you that your literature has saved me, and i’m sure countless other people.

in a way, i view LB as the sunrise. even though there’s the chance that tomorrow never comes, the sunrise serves as a reminder that the previous day existed, and that there are more sunrises to look forward to.

and, to be honest, i think that if i woke up forgetting everything everyday, id be okay with it because i get to read your fic for the first time - again. also, the humor in it is 10/10 haha!!

(also, if u were wondering or worried, i’m also okay with waking up with no memories do to other things and not just LB. incase u were worried that i’m strictly dependent on LB, which i’m not LMAO)

i would’ve submitted this a couple months ago, but i couldn’t put it into words. i don’t think i can possibly explain what you and your fic means to me, so the sun over the horizon will have to do.

even if you think that it’s cheesy that a goofy voltron fic means so much to someone, i hope you find it in yourself to treasure your talent and skill in writing.

i’m so excited for the next chapter, and the next sunrise i get to see <3

here is a pic of the sun i took this morning. thank you for writing, and reading this really long ask. there’s no pressure to respond, although it would be cool to see, but i hope you read this nonetheless. btw u can publish the response if u were wondering.

sincerely,

D <3

I have been trying quite desperately to compose an answer to this one since it first appeared in my inbox, and at this point I don't know that I'll ever be able to do you justice, but two months is far too long for you to have waited for something of this magnitude, so please bear with me while I endeavour to do my absolute best.

First and foremost, I am so sorry for everything you've been through (though I can only assume you've heard that sentiment ad nauseam, so do forgive me if you're sick of it), but more than that I am distinctly and unbelievably proud of the grace with which you seem to have taken such catastrophe in stride. I couldn't possibly claim comprehend the true scope of all that you've endured, but I hope in some small way it might give you,,, comfort? a sense of camaraderie maybe? to know that aphasia is something I'm intimately familiar with as a recurrent symptom of my migraines, due to them being hemiplegic in nature, so I know the frustration of being unable to comprehend sounds you know you should recognise- being unable to articulate your own thoughts- feeling half trapped inside your own damn skull- all too well, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone, least of so sweet a soul as yourself.

My darling, I'll say again: I am //fiercely fucking proud// of you, for not only enduring but in truth overcoming all that you have. Though we do not know one another, this message alone bleeds with such admirable strength of character that I cannot think you anything less than a remarkable and resilient individual, and to know that my writing could in any capacity support you through such an ordeal is both an honour and a privilege.

All my love,

lilflowerpot ♡

[pussyeater8000]

6th graders are scary as fuck actually. The girl im tutoring just manipulated me into telling her i have a gf and then immediately guessed who it was

[deltaruminations]

what if gaster in a future chapter calls out the audience for speculating so much about him. the guy canonically has some amount of access to Real Life Social Media. like i started this mostly as a joke but there are definitely some real metanarrative opportunities for a character with recklessly curious impulses, and possibly a fragile sense of self, having nearly limitless access to streams of debate over whether or not he’s a bastard. rude to talk about someone who’s listening etc

[felizusnavidad]

the great war is still my song

[comfortless]

oh my gosh where did you all come from!!!!!! can we go wander around a lavender field and hold hands….

[cashweasel]

Me: I’m not sad about Valen today

Also me:

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

Hi, uh, I normally don't ask anything or say anything to authors, normally its just me reading and continuing with my life. But I just wanna let you know that the way you write your stories is so... genuine and gives me emotions only a married couple for 30+ years should feel. The details you add when it comes to describing and telling how the character feels or explaining the aesthetic and scenery......holy. There are hundreds of thousands of books and stories on this app, and all I can think about is yours. You're extremely talented, and honestly, the way you write leaves me feeling desperate when I see any of your stores come to an end. The talent you have at your fingertips leaves me almost begging for more, and man, how I wish I found you sooner. So, thank you for constantly raising my standards on stories and books and leaving me with a sense of fullness. Thank you for showing me that a book is 100% capable of making me feel loved and desired. Have a wonderful day, month, year, and rest of your wonderful and needed life. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

hey so this ask actually floored me i feel a little insane? a little ill? this is so genuinely heartfelt im??? i teared up I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN I MIGHT BE A LITTLE INCOHERENT BECAUSE IM SO FLATTERED I COULD EXPLODE BUT ;;;;;;;;

first of all!!!! from the bottom of my heart: THANK YOU SO MUCH <3333333 🥺🥺🥺 like ohhhh i dont know how to properly verbalize how happy this message made me but please know that my heart is just. brimming w love for u i am picking u up & covering u in kisses <3333 im so touched that u took the time to write this out???? ESPECIALLY since u dont do it often like that means so so much????

ack. just. every little thing u said is so incredibly sweet and kind and it just makes me feel so fortunate 😭😭 really!!!! i feel so so lucky when it comes to interactions on this blog and it’s messages like these that give me motivation to write, i save each & every one of them!! aaaaa i cant tell u how happy i am to be able to make u feel something w my writing….. :’3 i think that’s everything any writer could ask for tbh!!! knowing that my fics could make u feel loved & desired is the greatest feeling ever, im so so glad!! u deserve it!!!!

wahhhh just 😭😭 tysm. u are sosososo sweet and im gonna read this ask over and over again whenever i start to doubt my own writing <333 it’s so kind of you to take the time to write this out, i honestly couldnt tell you how much it means!! thank u again my beloved <333 i hope u have the most wonderful day and month and year and life too!!!

[corkisms]

thinking abt 'if alcohol makes duke invincible what would coffee do' from this post

[13eyond13]

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[vvitchy]

love u guys 😙💕

[fuckdamn]

mcgill. james mcgill.

[godshitgirl]

"Oh don't worry it's fine I can handle a little criticism😁"

Me later, on the floor, sobbing violently as I write in my diary, tears drenching the pages: EEGHEAUGHEEUUHHGGGEUUGHH

[felizusnavidad]

i am so stressed out today i wanna throw up, this means european dates are coming our way

[trashbatistrash]

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[yeojagroup]

really need to find more holistic ways to manage my stress. i'm starting to freeze and get to the point of exhaustion where i don't want to communicate anything complex or difficult because i feel like a broken record. and so, so angry.

[nebu-luna]

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