#so by not being interested in engineering or coding or meteorology or patterning or math or physics that got equated to being stupid | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

playingplayer2 · 9 months ago

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Something I love (sarcasm) having to remind myself is that I am smart. That despite everything I heard from teachers and peers growing up, I am smart. I don't have to be a genius, I don't have to be spectacular or brilliant- but I am fucking smart. and fucking hell it took so, so, so long for me to be able to understand just because my interests and abilities didn't, and still don't, line up with that of family members doesn't make me stupid.

#venting #no sleep #genuinely thought i was stupid as a lid because i have trouble spelling and pronouncing words & i am directionally challenged #like struggling w/ left and right and north/south/east/west etcetc #turned out that i'm dyslexic and number-dyslexic word that i don't know how to spell #wheeeeeeeeeeeee #(how tf did my schools not make me get tested very very very obvious post-sorta-diagnosis)#(the doctors told us I'm dyslexic but really didn't want to put it down ADHD got brought up but not addressed)#(they were actually doing a cognitive test to see how i was doing post-severe concussion and kinda refused to discuss anything else #including scheduling seperate stuff for the dyslexia (bc my mom didn't hear the adhd stuff bc the docs were talking “out of hearing range”#aka: behind a half closed door they had me sitting just outside lf))#and #gokng back to the thought i was stupid thing #my tastes in literature and interests are predominantly different from the rest of family #enough that to smol-me i was *too* different #so by not being interested in engineering or coding or meteorology or patterning or math or physics that got equated to being stupid #which #weong conclusion to get to but i was like 10 and it's been like 12 years q'd i'm still struggling lmfao #ramble

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