#so here’s hoping it’s not dndnsnsnsn

[shaykai]

Durge questions 10, 11, and 15!

10. What motivates your Dark Urge to either embrace or resist the tadpole?

He’s somewhat hesitant at the idea of it initially, but quickly finds the appeal and power in abusing it (not that it happens very quickly- as a drow with really high intimidation, most everyone in act 1 just lets him do what he wants)- that, and his Dream Guardian is Tonia (his adoptive mother) He doesn’t remember her, but he does immediately recognize her as a comforting presence that he wants to listen to. She says to use them for both his own safety and power, and he feels inclined to listen.

That being said, he doesn’t take it well when the Dream Guardian turns out to be a Mindflayer and he straight up refuses to use the astral tadpole. (Like. Stomps on it and everything)

11. What motivates your Dark Urge to embrace or resist the Urge?

He’s pretty self indulgent and finds he enjoys the power trip murder provides- he also finds it to be soothing, both in the sense that he personally enjoys killing and because it keeps the Urge itself from being overwhelming

He also feels a deep anxiety at the idea of trying to resist it- like something terrible would happen if he did. (He later recognizes that as a fear of angering Bhaal. Fear and trauma that transcend amnesia, babyyyyyy)

15. What is your Dark Urge’s greatest fear?

Disappointing and or angering Bhaal. He can’t remember specifics, but he knows that everything in him tells him to not let it happen again

Bonus points because he also hates being alone, which will inevitably happen every time he chooses Bhaal over his own interests (the only time he doesn’t is in the Good Timeline TM where he’s accidentally put onto the path of being a good person and taking his own autonomy back. He ends up screaming at Bhaal before he dies :>)

Buuuuut he gets to have Sceleritas around, so that helps a little!