#so i havent been feeling great but i'll be around tonight after work and this weekend }

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[blxetsi]

armin arlert, mikasa ackerman, and eren jaeger polyamorous headcanons (modern au)

armin arlert x gn!reader, mikasa ackerman x gn!reader, eren jaeger x gn!reader, mikasa x armin x eren x gn!reader

warnings: uhh fluff, this is very long, reader has a gf b4 getting w ema,

this is like my first post since feb that isnt a request 😍😍😍 how did i pull this out of my ass

- obv eren, mikasa, and armin have been besties since childhood so its no wonder they all got together first 🤩🙏

- and theyre all hot so why wouldnt they wanna date each other

- i think armin and eren wouldve gotten together first, and then invited mikasa into their relationship

- the three of them have been officially going steady for like over a year now, and its going really well

- they didnt really expect you to drop into their lives tho

- youre an old friend of historia's and you two reconnected after you moved to the city, securing yourself a decent paying job working as a writer for the city paper

- you usually get the boring stuff, never able to get a good story to write about, focusing your time on heartwarming stories in the community or the sports column

- its boring but it pays the bills

- you were thankful when historia called you during your lunch and asked if you wanted to get drinks at a bar with her and a couple of other friends

- of course you said yes

- so historia and her girlfriend ymir picked you up after work, having dinner with them after a long week was the best, but you were a bit nervous to meet all of their friends

- thats how you met eren, mikasa and armin

- at first you were sure that mikasa and eren were dating, seeing as mikasa had her head on the taller man's shoulder, while his arm was wrapped around her

- but when armin leaned down to give mikasa a kiss before heading off to the bar you werent so sure

- ymir pulled you away to get more drinks and explained to you what the situation was, while commenting on the way you gawked at the three of them before

- you were embarassed to say the least but they didnt bring it up that night so you hoped the throuple didnt notice (they did)

- you really hit it off with all of them though, especially sasha and jean, and were constantly talked about among the friend group

- because of your demanding job dealing with writers block and deadlines you couldnt really meet up with all of them often, usually just having sleepovers at ymir and historia's apartment, the three of you drinking while you wrote on your laptop

- after a couple months of casual hangouts with historia and ymir and their friends, you kinda became one of them too which was nice

- you were added to the groupchat, you all followed each other on social media, and a certain brunet had taken a liking to you

- eren didnt know why exactly he was so attracted to you but he was, maybe it was your hair, or how pretty your skin looked even when oily or with breakouts, maybe it was your smile or your body or your sense of humor or you kindness or maybe it was all of it

- eren jaeger would always stay faithful to his boyfriend and girlfriend, but maybe they could add another person into the mix, more to love right ?

- he had only known you for a couple of months though, he didnt want to jump the gun and bring this up with his partners so soon, especially if they didnt feel the same way he did

- and it would be a bummer if you turned out to be a bad person or smth

- so summer rolls around with lots of memories being made with your new friends, as well as friends from work, and you get a girlfriend ??

- shes not really your girlfriend you two have only been out on a couple of dates and she kisses you a lot but, you havent talked about labels

- one night you, along with your friends are back at the same bar where you first met them

"so, tell us about the girl youre seeing." ymir says, smirking over her beer.

eren's ears perked up at the mention of you seeing someone. "girl ?"

historia nodded. "mhm ! y/n's been talking to someone recently, they've gone on dates and kissed and stuff."

"and stuff, jesus tori you make it sound like we've had sex." you sighed.

the blonde just laughed, leaning her body onto her freckled companion.

"well ? what about her ?" eren asks. armin slapped him on the arm, already having suspicions about eren's interest in you.

your shoulders sagged. "well, she's great and everything, truly..."

"but ? is there a but in this ?" connie asked. sasha started laughing at connie's use of the word but, while jean slapped the girl on the arm because of her reaction.

you shrugged, swirling what was left of your fruity cocktail in your glass. "well, i'm not sure. she's very lively, and sweet. but i don't know, i just don't see myself being able to be in a steady relationship with her."

"so you're gonna end it ?" eren asked. you thought he seemed a bit too eager about your failure in the love department.

"why do you care so much ? you like the thought of me being lonely ?" you shot back, before downing the rest of your drink.

"no i just-"

"i think what eren means is," mikasa intervened, her smooth voice calming you as she looked at you with a smile on her face. "is that there's no point in staying with her if you can't see yourself with her. don't lead her on."

you nodded. "you're exactly right my friend. which is the plan for tonight because i," you quickly checked the time on your phone. 8:17. "have a date with miss molly at nine, so i will be taking my leave."

the group engaged in a chorus of boos for leaving so early, while you chuckled and took the lighthearted insults thrown at you by sasha and connie with ease. grabbing all of your things you put down two twenties onto the table. "i'll see you guys later, have a goodnight." as you walked off you heard jean yell "have a good time you heartbreaker !" making you shake your head

- the date with molly went less then well. she yelled, and cried, and even tried hitting you at one point. your walk back from the park was spent blocking her on every form of social media you followed her on, and when you got back to your apartment you spent the night in a hot bath before retiring to bed

- meanwhile, armin and mikasa were trying to pry the truth out of eren, who was constantly denying his attraction to you

- finally mikasa took one for the team "eren, you aren't alone with the way you feel, i do too." this made eren more willing to open up to his partners

- armin doesnt say anything about you, only saying how youre kind. he doesnt feel the way that his girlfriend and boyfriend do, but he knows that may change

- soon enough, more time flies and christmas rolls around, with you all deciding to have a secret santa get together.

- historia invites everyone to her home on christmas eve, with ymir begrudgingly allowing it

- bertholdt and annie come too, reiner not being able to make it due to going home for christmas, while everyone else decided to stay in the city

- you picked out your secret santas at the beginning of november so you would all have enough time to find something for each other, you hoped whoever picked your name gave you something good

- after hours of games and karaoke and drinking you all decided it was time to open the presents

- ymir got socks from bertholdt, connie got an ugly beanie from ymir, historia got new pens from mikasa, mikasa got knitting needles from annie, annie got a dumbell from eren, jean got a not so appropriate t shirt from connie, jean gave sasha more comic books, armin gave new stationary paper to bertholdt, sasha gifted you that new biography you've been wanting to read and you gave armin your old copy of frankenstein by mary shelley

- he was surprised but very thankful, "how did you know i needed a new copy ?" "well i remember you said eren spilt water on your old one, and the pages just stuck together so i thought you might as well have mine"

- it warmed armin's heart that you remembered something so insignificant, and opened him up to the thought of being with you

- the rest of the night was spent with hugs and thankfulness, cheering when the clock struck 12 and it became christmas day

- after getting things cleaned up everyone decided it was time to leave, with armin, eren and mikasa offering to give you a ride home

- a ride where armin straight up kissed you in the backseat

- you stopped him of course, thinking that it was weird he would cheat on his partners right in front of them, while they were shocked all on their own for different reasons, armin who didnt have feelings for you KISSED you

- and surprisingly armin took the lead in explaining how he felt, why he kissed you, an apology for doing so, and an offer to start dating all three of them

- your heart was pounding in your ears and your entire face felt hot, it was probably the alcohol, or the way his lips felt so soft when they touched yours, so you said yes.

- its not smooth sailing from there

- youre kind of awkward

- this is your first relationship where you really feel like you could love these guys (you already do) but its also your first relationship with multiple people

- the trio start inviting you over more often, soon for sleepovers, and start inviting themselves over at your own place, mainly eren

- he just comes at random times, sometimes when youre not even there and waits for you, or stays and cleans up a bit before leaving

- armin and you share a deep love of literature, and you often find yourselves in hot debates about whatever youve read (mikasa and eren have to pry you two away before things get physical)

- mikasa likes to cook with you, she shares recipes that her mom taught her, and her and armin love to cook dinner together whereas eren is the breakfast maker of the household

- the first time you slept in the same bed as them you were so nervous your whole body thumped to the tune of your heartbeat, you were convinced armin could even hear it as he was laying beside you, but eren wrapped an arm around your waist, pulling you into his large chest before whispering "youre as stiff as a board, relax honey"

- eren snores, mikasa drools, armin has those dreams where you fall and then violently wake up before you hit the ground

- slowly but surely you stop thinking about your relationship as the trio and you, but as all of you together, and that really helps you come out of your shell a bit

- you may still be in the honeymoon phase, and there may be bumps along the way, but you like being with armin, eren, and mikasa. they make you so happy, it feels like the happiest youve been in a long time

- you like watching eren and armin dance in the living room while you and mikasa cuddle on the couch, before the boys pull you two up as well

- you like when armin reads to you, his soft voice reciting the words of the great gatsby

- you like it when eren can just tell youve had a rough day, and pulls you into a hug like hes protecting you from all the bad things in the world

- you love being with them. you love them. and you think that theyre it for you

i rushed the ending bc im fucking tired but i kinda wanna do a poly!series with like sasha, connie and jean, or annie, bertholdt and reiner, or any other poly ships u guys may request !

so yeah pls give me feedback it rlly helps me figure out whether you want a polyamorous series (or just like what i write in general), and it would be my first series ever which would be super cool anyways

yeah requests open for poly!ships anyways

[barnesandrogersfanfics]

Home - Part 1

Summary: Fresh out of a divorce, Y/N moves to Sun Valley for a fresh start, a house left to her by her aunt and a new job as a nanny.

James 'Bucky' Barnes owns a law firm and has been left with three kids after his wife died giving birth to their youngest.

Bucky is nervous about leaving the kids with a nanny but he cant keep finding babysitters and the kids need someone more permanent around.

The Barnes kids were great, we hit it off straight away and i settled into a new routine with the family. Brooklyn and Alice were at school for most of the day so it was just me and Rosie. While Rosie had her afternoon nap i'd do the house work and make sure everything was done so that James didn't have to worry about it when he got home. Once that was done it was usually time to pick the girls up from school, on the way home we'd stop off at the park for half hour before we headed home. When we got home id sort out their dinner and put something together for James for when he got home, when that finally happened id give him a quick run down of our day and head back to the farm house.

After spending all day with the girls, the farm house felt so big and empty with just me there.

It was a friday morning and i had just arrived at the Barnes residence ready for my day when James came strolling in carrying Rosie and greeting me with a smile.

"Morning Y/N"

"Good morning, where are the other little monsters?"

"They insisted on dressing themselves for school today"

"Oh god help us" i chuckled, this was gonna be funny. Brook would probably be okay but Allie? I could already picture her wearing bright colours and a tutu!

"Oh my.... dont you girls look beautiful" James said suddenly with wide eyes.

As i thought.... Brook was doing okay, she had on jeans and tshirt with her converse sneakers but Allie?..... she was wearing a stripy pink and purple sweater, pink tutu and red cowboy boots.

"Y/N!!" Allie said called happy when she saw me and run into my arms "i missed you!"

"I missed you! But i havent been gone that long" i chuckled "and what are you wearing today?"

"My favourite boots and my tutu! Daddy said i can wear what i want"

"Well you look so pretty!"

"I tried to tell her not to wear the tutu" Brook rolled her eyes as she took her seat at the table. Allie went and took her seat next to Brook and i held my hands out for Rosie "i'll sort miss Rosie out while you have your breakfast" i said to James, he smiled and handed her over.

"Thanks" he winked before sitting at the head of the table and pouring himself a cup of coffee while i set up Rosie in her high chair and gave her her breakfast.

"Y/N, i might be late tonight. Ive got a big case coming up and there's still so much to prep..... would you be okay staying?"

"Yeah sure, thats fine"

"Thank you! I dont know what id do without you"

"Its not a problem, i was only going to be at home watching TV anyway" i shrugged.

"How's things going with the house, you more settled?"

"Not really, I'm gonna be getting rid of some of my aunts furniture this weekend, I've ordered some stuff more to my liking. Im sure it'll be better once its more me....you know?"

"Yeah, it still feels like your aunts house having all her stuff there"

"Exactly, i feel like i shouldn't be there" i shrugged "doesn't help its so quiet, its been a long time since I've lived on my own and then after spending all day here with the girls...."

"I can imagine" he nodded taking a mouthful of his coffee "so who did you live with before coming here? Friends? boyfriend?...."

"Erm....husband actually" i told him shaking my head "but that is a story for another time, when there's no little ears around" i smiled and turned my attention back to Rosie.

After dropping the girls at school i headed to the store with Rosie to get a few bits, i thought it'd be kinda fun to have a girls movie night being as James was working late. I grabbed some popcorn and some chocolate and saw the cutest pyjamas! They were pink with unicorns on in both kids and adult sizes so i grabbed us all a pair (my treat).

After the store we went back to the house and had lunch, Rosie sat watching cartoons while i cleaned up the kitchen.

The afternoon flew by and i was soon stood out the front of the school waiting for the girls to come out. Brook was out first i gave her a hug before taking her school bag and hanging it from the handle of the push chair.

"How was you day Brook?" I was asking as i looked up only to see Allie running towards me. She crashed into my legs holding tight.

"Woah, Whats wrong Allie?" I bent down to her level so i could talk to her properly.

"Mrs Harper was mean to me about my tutu!"

"Who's Mrs Harper?"

"Her teacher" Brook replied for her sister who was still holding onto me.

"Well Mrs Harper obviously has no fashion sense sweetheart. You look so pretty!"

"Mrs Barnes??...." i heard a woman call out heading our way.

"Thats Mrs Harper!" Brook rolled her eyes at the woman.

"Mrs Barnes, can i have word?" The woman marched over "I'm Mrs Harper, i just wanted to talk to you about Alice's attire. Its not appropriate for school...."

"Im sorry, Mrs Harper was it?? Whats the big deal?? I'm not seeing the point of making a big deal out of this??"

"It makes the school look bad....."

"Shes 5! Who cares what shes wearing! If Allie wants to wear a tutu and cowboy boots then thats what she'll wear"

"Your okay with her wearing that?"

"Why wouldn't i be?? she's a kid, they like to dress up. Im sure by Monday she'll be back in jeans and t-shirt, but if she wants to wear a tutu and cowboy boots then thats what she'll wear! She's not hurting anyone"

"Maybe Mr Barnes would have different opinion...."

"Feel free to call him, I'm sure he'd love to hear your opinion"

"So thats all you've got to say on the matter??"

"No actually..... if i hear you've upset my kid again?.... you'll regret it" i said quietly to her so the girls couldn't hear.

"Come on girls lets go home".

When we got home the girls had an early dinner, while they were eating i thought id better call James and tell him about Mrs Harper just incase she did call him.

"Hey, everything okay?" He answered on the third ring.

"Hi, yeah everything's good. I just thought id tell you about what happened at the school this afternoon"

"Okayyyy...."

"I may have gone on the attack a little at Allie's teacher...."

"Mrs Harper huh?"

"Thats the one. Allie came running out upset saying Mrs Harper had been mean about what she was wearing, low and behold out came Mrs Harper asking to speak to me. Told me Allie's attire wasn't appropriate and made the school look bad!" I told him.

"What did you say that?" He asked sounding amused.

"I told her that no one cares what a 5 year old is wearing for school and that if Allie wants to continue wearing her tutu and cowboy boots then she will! Thats when she said that maybe you would have a different opinion on the matter.... i told her to feel free to call you, that you'd love to hear her opinion"

"Oh i want her to call me!" He scoffed "i'd give her my opinion alright"

"Well she might call you to complain about me more than anything.... she asked if thats all i had to say on the matter.... i told her if i hear shes upset my kid again that she'll regret it. Im sorry James but she was pissing me off! How dare she!"

I was expecting him to be mad at me for kinda threatening Allie's teacher but he started to laugh.

"You dont need to apologise, id of done the same"

"Even still i thought id give you a heads up incase she did call you"

"Thank you, how are the girls?"

"Their great, their just having dinner then we're gonna have a girls movie night"

"Sounds fun! I wish i could join you guys"

"No boys allowed sorry" i laughed "well i'll let you get back to it"

"Okay tell my girls i love them and i'll see them in the morning?"

"Of course, bye".

[tamiddyinyourcity]

My boyfriend didnt text me after work and i assumed i was getting plowed..........i kinda wanna cry?

Still a great day. He got me earrings, he looked damned sexy today with those FINE ASS EYES AND SMILE of his, and we had a nice time at the movies today.

So i guess admittedly im only disappointed since once i got home after our sweet "hes holding me, im crying over past traumatic family incidents, and he hugs and cools me down until i finally smile again", i was like "that was really nice.... i really like this guy. and surprisingly im not irritable about parting ways or anything."

Until i guess he mentioned overtime and wanting to see me tmrw, i was like "awww dont worry you can see me tonight or maybe early tomorrow morning! text me after work!"

....and that was at 8:12pm.

....its now 1:15am.

And i feel like i have blue balls, since i really was ready to put it tf on him tonight.

My pussy went from "time to clean and wind down comfortably for the rest of the day, knowing my boyfriend cares about me, and that hes now safe at work and busy but we can talk some other day...."

To "OH WAIT HE WANTS TO SEE ME AGAIN SO SOON???? IM ABOUT TO FUCK, I AM READY TO FUCK HIM, YES PLEASE, I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO FOR LIKE A WEEK".

to "oh....... he hasnt responded and its past midnight...... he.... probably doesnt like me.... after all????????"

But to stop myself from re-awakening the insecurities about how I'm perceived by a significant other, I decided to put on the nice dangly pair of earrings he gave me today.

Theyre nice. I havent worn dangly earrings in forever. He seemed openly nervous since I always wear stud earrings, but I thought, "Nah bro, the fact that you even got me anything at all is whats making me smile rn."

Plus, cool iridescent abalone shell earrings.

I'm not sure when I'll wear these, but tonight seems like a pretty good start. I feel likke a nice pretty little chandelier, or a wind chime I guess.

If anything, its just a nice feeling of knowing that he does like me.

I got a little nervous.

It was kinda empty during Thanksgiving, but his arrival was already nice of "hey sorry i was depressed as fuck and took 40 minutes or more to leave the house, since i also still wanted to be cute and not bare minimum when you first see me again!!!"

Then "oh damn he looks good, i missed his face and personality", to ....

Oh holy shit, he got me something?

People think about me when im not around?

Oh dear.

And long story short.

I was blushing like fucking hell even when holding the box itself. My cheeks felt hot, and seeing these cute iridescent spiraks made me feel so damn appreciated.

Thanks Patrick.

God bless, peace out yalls, and if youre reading this, talk to joe for me

[citycfangels]

text: raquel ⇄ charlie

Raquel: note to self and to you: best steak dinner really is at maestros. Even if it was like really expensive.

Charlie: was that just a note or just a way to tell me we're going there at some point?

Raquel: no, I don't want to go there ever again. It's way too stuck up and it's like every table has people whose life mission is to be an asshole. Really I just thought I'm here and my mom is probably going to pay the bill so why not go for the 100 dollar steak

Raquel: but then she said we should split the bill. So I guess my plan backfired in a way.

Charlie: sounds like that place is filled with people like your mother, for example

Charlie: i'm sorry for the 100 dollars steak, btw

Charlie: i'm just asking this because i have to, but you don't have to answer. do you want to talk about your dinner with your mom?

Raquel: yep all the reptilian people with no souls go there.

Raquel: it's okay. But maybe it wouldn't be so bad if I could get like a to go order of that just so that you could try it.

Raquel: I don't know. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel.

Raquel: it's like no matter what I do, I'm not good enough. It's like she just can't be happy for me. And she always has an opinion on something and I know she is my mom and I have tried so hard being a good daughter and a good person and no matter what it doesn't matter because the bar she sets just keeps on moving. I don't know what to do.

Raquel: and her personal opinions are all completely wrong. I don't know how I came from a person like that or how one person can just be so frustrating. And how can I still want her in my life? It's crazy. But she's my mom.

Charlie: we can go and get steaks for less money and do them at home, babe

Charlie: am i allowed to say she's a shithead?

Charlie: what did she say? what does she want from you now?

Raquel: I would be completely okay with that. The less interaction with that restaurant the better. I was surprised they even let me in.

Raquel: Other than saying she wants to be a part of my life I don't know. She thinks she has a right to have an opinion on everything I do and what my life should look like and I just can't stand it. And I know I'm crazy for wanting her attention and approval but she's all i have other than you.

Raquel: maybe I was better off not having her in my life.

Charlie: yeah, we better not go to a place where the reptilians meet.

Charlie: who cares about that? you're on your way to making it big and you're happy, that's what matters. you shouldn't really care about what she thinks.

Charlie: look, i've been lucky in the parents department and i'm glad neither of them was like yours, but shit, i haven't met her and i don't like her.

Charlie: maybe, but that's up to you. don't people say that family is not necessarily the people who share your blood?

Raquel: promise that if I ever get even a tiny bit diva like that you'll tell me and make sure I never become "that" person.

Raquel: I'm extremely happy. You make me happier than I have been in so long.

Raquel: trust me you aren't winning any points from her either. But that's the one thing I told her I do not care about

Raquel: I guess you're right, that is what they say.

Charlie: i'll tell you and if i have to snap you out of it, i will. i won't let you become your mother

Charlie: you're welcome. you make me really happy too and it's been a while since i was this happy, babe.

Charlie: wait, what do you mean with that? did you tell her about me?

Raquel: Thank you.

Raquel: well good because I plan on making you happy all the time.

Raquel: She asked about Nathan so yeah I told her about you.

Charlie: i like the sound of that. i intend of doing the same

Charlie: so i guess she doesn't like the idea of you being with a poor bartender while you could have Nathan as your fancy boyfriend, right?

Raquel: please don't do that. You're so much more than just a bartender. You're a future business owner and you know i don't care about Nathan. I don't care about money and yeah nathan had a lot of it but that didn't make me happy. My mom is materialistic and vain. Of course she wants me with Nathan, but none of that matters.

Charlie: i know you don't care about the money and shit, but that's what i am right now. i'm broke, i'm a bartender and until i get my chance to get a business that's what i'll be.

Charlie: but i appreciate you telling me i'm more than that and all that shit doesn't matter, i really do

Raquel: I just don't want you thinking that's what I see you as because I don't.

Raquel: did you ever think money did matter to me?

Charlie: i don't think that.

Charlie: nah, money is a nice plus but i never pegged you for that kind of girl. otherwise you'd be with Nathan and not with me, not even like the way we are right now

Raquel: what does that mean? Even the way we are now?

Charlie: we're still lowkey because you haven't broken up with him, right? unless... you did and i didn't get the signs, which wouldn't surprise me.

Raquel: babe, I broke up with Nathan a while ago. I told you I'm all yours and I didn't just mean that emotionally. I meant that completely. There's no more hiding this.

Charlie: are you serious? like, you're being serious right now?

Charlie: now i feel dumb for not seeing the signs.

Raquel: I thought you had already picked up on it.

Raquel: I thought that's why you told me what you did.

Raquel: you're really cute when you're clueless. i just want you to know that.

Raquel: wait so yesterday when we were at my house the whole time I was getting ready where did you think I was going?

Charlie: apparently, i didn't

Charlie: i don't think i'm cute when i'm clueless but thank you?

Charlie: until you mentioned it was with your mother, i was pretty sure you were going to have dinner with Nathan

Raquel: that explains a lot.

Raquel: you can stop thinking that now.

Raquel: You don't have to worry about me dating someone else now or about hiding what we have or about thinking I'm choosing someone over you because I chose you.

Charlie: so, now we don't have to hide, any ideas of where to go?

Raquel: is that your way of saying you want to show me off?

Charlie: that, bc i'm proud of you, and because i want to go out with you now we're not hiding anymore

Charlie: unless you want to take things slow, even if we fuck a lot already, which is the opposite of taking things slow

Raquel: I want to take things at whatever pace you want to take them. I am all for going out. I want to be the one to show you off.

Raquel: let's just do the whole slower thing when we're actually in the bedroom and even then we won't do that every time because most of the time I just need you.

Charlie: so i guess we're going out. are you free later? i have a night off so if you're also free we could, i don't know, grab dinner somewhere.

Charlie: babe, it's impossible for us to go slow in the bedroom, or i'm speaking for myself at least

Raquel: I actually have to work tonight :( how about after I come over to your place and we can just sleep. I have Sunday night free.

Raquel: It's not impossible. Maybe I just have to teach you how to go slow.

Charlie: :(

Charlie: that sounds like a good plan. you can spend the night here, i'd love that

Charlie: then we'll go out on Sunday. think about places you want to go, babe

Charlie: you think? because as much as you can teach me, you know i can't keep my hands to myself around you, and it happens to you too.

Raquel: me waking up next to you sounds like a great plan.

Raquel: I already know where I want to go but I won't tell you until then.

Raquel: I think there is a lot I can still teach you. Even if you can't keep your hands to yourself. I can keep my hands to myself but like the cheesy Selena Gomez song I could but why would I want to when I have the hottest, sexiest and most caring boyfriend?

Charlie: good. i'll stay home and finish one of the books with a drink in hand. if i fall asleep, you know where i keep my spare key

Charlie: oh, surprise me then

Charlie: oh really? what you have to teach me that i haven't taught you already?

Charlie: don't keep them to yourself on my account, you know i like it when you don't do it

Raquel: If I havent said it recently I am so proud of you for sticking with your reading. I'll try not to be too late but don't wait up.

Raquel: you'll be surprised on Sunday.

Raquel: There is a lot I have to teach you. Going slow is just one thing but I have to think of other things for my lesson plans.

Charlie: you say it every now and then, but you don't need to say it. thank you, and i'm very invested in this, which was your idea in first place and you encouraged me to go for it, so i have to thank you for that

Charlie: i'll probably be asleep by then, but i'll stay up for a bit anyways

Charlie: oh yeah? what can you teach me besides that? you can't teach me anything kinky because babe, i'm your teacher in that department

Raquel: I'd like to think that you would have come up with the same idea sooner or later. I just planted the seed earlier on.

Raquel: Just try not to stay up too late okay? I don't want you losing sleep over me.

Raquel: I don't know. You're amazing in the sex department like the best I've ever had but that doesn't mean you know it all. There have to be a few things that you haven't tried yet and want to do with me.

Charlie: still, thank you for doing that. you're so supportive and no one has been that since i arrived here

Charlie: yes ma'am

Charlie: you're welcome for the mindblowing sex, babe

Charlie: then make a list. that will be our kinky list and we'll do all of that

Raquel: well it's not like you aren't supportive of my dreams. It takes a lot for someone to not just say that I'm the millionth girl in la that wants to make acting dreams happen but instead of you blowing that off you actually support me.

Raquel: careful. I actually might start liking the ma'am thing even if it's new.

Raquel: as if my orgasm wasn't enough of a you're welcome.

Raquel: all of it and I can't be the only one adding to that list. And second: the only restriction is no other people. There's no way I'm sharing you. Someone might get clingy.

Charlie: you may be the millionth girl in LA who wants to be an actress, but let me tell you something. you're good and you're really determined, so if someone tells you that, they suck balls

Charlie: add it to the kinky list then.

Charlie: i'll be adding things too. i mean, i'm pretty sure there are kinky things we haven't done yet.

Charlie: i wasn't thinking of having any threesome or anything and sharing you with other people, but that's a good rule to add. that would be too much even for me, and that comes from me. no, i'm not sharing you either.

Raquel: you keep talking like that and you might not need to wait until morning for sex

Raquel: maybe I will. I can go full on dominatrix.

Raquel: there have to be but I guess when I have let you do so much it's hard to think of what else I can let you do to me.

Raquel: so there's no weird voyeurism kink? You din't want to like watch some other guy have sex with me or something weird?

Charlie: so we could have sleepy sex in the middle of the night? then i'm going to bed early, just in case

Charlie: that's something i'd like to see, bring it on.

Charlie: there must be something, we just have to think of what we've done and what we haven't.

Charlie: i won't deny that seeing you with another woman wouldn't turn me on, but i would probably get jealous at some point, so i think i pass

Raquel: lol maybe. Rest up Tiger, I'm keeping you up all night.

Raquel: as long as I don't have to wear actual leather or pleather.

Raquel: i want a lot of things actually. But it looks like I'm going to be doing a bit of online shopping.

Raquel: another woman? It can still be a fantasy for you. What am I doing in this fantasy and why does it have to be a woman?

Charlie: my neighbors are going to kill me if we have loud sex in the middle of the night... not that i care

Charlie: you could wear a garbage bag and you'd look hot

Charlie: online shopping? now i'm curious

Charlie: i don't know, it was a hot fantasy i woke up to a few weeks after we met. one in which you're making out with one. then you were naked, and then you were fucking her.

Charlie: still, i have no intentions of sharing you with no one, not even a woman.

Raquel: well it's a good thing I don't care about your neighbors at all. This should remind her that you're mine.

Raquel: well garbage bags aren't really what dominatrixes wear so I have to actually get into character babe.

Raquel: mhmm. I want vibrators and a swing and whatever else just magically ends up in my cart.

Raquel: you were having fantasies about me weeks after we met?

Raquel: you totally had a crush on me.

Raquel: good thing I don't want anyone else. You're mine and I'm not afraid to admit that sometimes I get jealous.

Charlie: she should know that already at this point from all the noise we make when we fuck

Charlie: get whatever you want, babe. you'd look hot with everything you choose to wear.

Charlie: you want a sex swing? where would we keep it, babe? are we getting a room for sex toys or what?

Charlie: hey, i was a horny fuckboy who only thought about sex. now i'm just a horny guy who thinks about sex most of the time.

Charlie: and i wasn't crushing, pls

Charlie: good, because i only want you and i can't wait to show you that while we're going out and in bed

Raquel: it doesn't hurt to keep reminding her.

Raquel: I haven't worked out the logistics of where everything would go but no I'm not getting a room just for toys. That would require actually moving.

Raquel: my reformed fuckboy who luckily gets sex most of the time he wants it.

Raquel: you totally were. You had a crush on me. It's okay to admit it.

Raquel: I already do see that. You have a job where you easily could look somewhere else. You have a hot neighbor who wants you. You didn't have to put up with all my crazy or with me being with Nathan. You waited for me and weren't with anyone else and I know it doesn't sound like a lot but it is because like you said you were different before and I know that's scary to think of how much you've changed and I wasn't saying that so that you could freak out. I was saying that because I know before I was insane and jealous and neurotic even but I know now that you only want me and I don't think you realize how much that means to me and I'm going to do whatever it takes to keep proving to you that you're the only person I want too.

Charlie: nope, it doesn't. in fact i love how we do that

Charlie: who do i have to thank because we're not getting our personal red room? because that would be creepy

Charlie: that happens because i know how to get it and because you want lots of sex too. i'm a lucky bastard.

Charlie: oh please, you were the one who had a crush on me, i was the one who wanted to get in your pants

Charlie: babe, it was worth it. you were worth that and more. i could have easily given up at some point, but i didn't because i knew there was something good at the end of it. and i waited and i don't regret it at all. you don't have to prove anything to me because you already did.

Raquel: the fact that you even know what the term red room is is a little scary. That isn't happening. We aren't like completely nymphomaniacs

Raquel: not my fault. I just think you're extremely good looking. Very lucky.

Raquel: No. I liked you, there is a difference. Crushing is like having fantasies and maybe even picturing us together but at the time I didn't really want that. I didn't want to get near you because I figured there was no way I wasn't just going to be a notch on your belt.

Raquel: we are in so much trouble with this love and romance thing.

Charlie: i don't live under a rock. but yeah, not happening. the toys will stay in the bedroom, like normal people has them

Charlie: oh, so it's mostly my face what gets me sex, huh?

Charlie: you can have a sexual fantasy and not have a crush on a person, babe. if that was true, then i'd have had a crush on every girl i had my eye on for a fuck, and trust me, that wasn't the case

Charlie: well, you knew how to work around that and look at us now.

Charlie: so you were trying to not have a crush on me, huh?

Charlie: yep, we've been so fucked up at this, or at least i'm speaking for myself

Raquel: either that or you've been overhearing lots of conversations from horny 40 year olds obsessed with their own Christian Grey.

Raquel: your eyes if I'm being completely honest.

Raquel: okay, true.

Raquel: I figured I'd get hurt in the end so yeah, I tried not having feelings for you. And even after we slept together I thought that that was it.

Raquel: nope, it looks like both of us weren't good at this to begin with but that's okay because the whole fairytale romance thing is overrated anyway.

Charlie: the day i looked him up on the internet bc a few ladies were talking about it while i was working... he's a piece of shit

Charlie: that's good to know

Charlie: well, it's a good thing you ended up having them

Charlie: yeah, that doesn't really exist, right? a relationship has its up and downs and nothing is perfect

Raquel: you and your research. Entitled rich guy with abusive tendencies along with being a full on rapist. Yeah, he's horrible. And unfortunately I know a few people who are him in training.

Raquel: a good thing only because it worked out for us in the end. Otherwise I would have had to stand by and watch you with any girl that gave you the eye.

Raquel: even now there might be ups and downs. I don't want it to be perfect. I just want us to keep working together and just not give up on each other like we did before.

Charlie: i regret looking it up. i have to admit i'm a kinky person, but as i said, that guy is a piece of shit.

Charlie: that would be awkward and i guess you didn't like to see me flirting with them. i guess you won't like it now, even if i do it for the tips

Charlie: it won't, i'm pretty sure. it doesn't have to be perfect and no, i won't give up like we did when we broke up. promise me you won't either

Raquel: you're kinky but you aren't abusive and you've never made me do something I haven't wanted to do. You're nothing like him.

Raquel: I understand why you would flirt but you're right. I don't have to like it. I just know that it's something that comes with your job. Just like how I hope you understand that what I want to do and that me becoming an actress can mean that sometimes I might have to kiss or pretend to be in love with someone else.

Raquel: I promise.

Charlie: i promise to not become that

Charlie: i do understand that. i won't exactly like it but i'll have to suck it up. besides, i know all of that will be fake and that i'll be the one getting all of that and more

Charlie: good

Charlie: going back to our kinky list, i came up with an idea i want to add, but i need to ask you something

Raquel: Oh, trust me. Just like how you said you wouldn't let me become my mom there's no way I'm letting you become anyone other than yourself.

Raquel: so you won't get jealous? Now even seeing me at work and maybe having to flirt too?

Raquel: okay. What do you have to ask?

Charlie: then we have a deal. we won't let the other become someone else.

Charlie: i can't promise anything yet, but i'll work on it. all i know is that i'm the one you kiss and fuck after all

Charlie: how do you feel about being filmed? like, when you're touching yourself or when you have sex

Raquel: not in a million years. You're stuck being the same person or at least growing with me and not regressing into a horrible human being.

Raquel: and I con promise that no matter what no matter who might like me you're the one person I want and the one person who I'll come home to every night.

Raquel: I don't know hot to answer that.

Raquel: I trust you and I know that we could but I have to keep my future in mind. Someone gets a hold of a sex tape and my career can be over before it even starts. It doesn't mean i don't want to. Do you really want to? What would you do with it? Just keep it?

Charlie: yes, ma'am

Charlie: i like the sound of that. i won't really know how will i feel when you kiss someone else, but that's your job, but all i know is that i'll be proud of you because you'll do a good job

Charlie: yeah, that would be unfortunate. i asked you because i know things like that could happen.

Charlie: well, i think it's hot and it would be good material for lonely nights, but that's up to you. i would never make you do something you don't want to, especially because your job could be in jeopardy if someone leaks it

Charlie: i would keep a copy to jerk off to it whenever you're off somewhere to film whatever gig you land. i would send you one too, but that's it.

Raquel: well I don't want to say hopefully you'll find out soon but I do have an audition in a week for a " Ex Machina meets Silicon Valley." indie film about love i mn the modern age. I don't even know what half of it means but I just know they want me to read for the lead.

Raquel: I know, and I love that you asked instead of just putting a camera in front of me when it was go time.

Raquel: lonely night? Are you already planning on having a lot of those? And what if there's a project that's for a long period of time? Would you stay here?

Charlie: sounds interesting, you'll do it great! do you have to leave LA or something?

Charlie: i could have already installed a camera, but no, i prefer to ask you first

Charlie: well, depends on what do you want. do you want me to go with you every time you get a movie, even if it's for a short period of time?

Raquel: Well the listing just said that it would film in various places but mostly in LA. They're sending me my reading tonight

Raquel: maybe you could install the camera, or whatever you want to record me on.

Raquel: I want you to do whatever you want to do. I just know that if i have to be gone for a long time that it'll be hard on me. I miss you when I have to go to work. How am I supposed to survive like weeks of filming sometimes? And that's if it's just a movie. What if I get like a tv show? I never want to leave la. I know that but maybe if it's for a short period of time leaving you to yourself would be a good thing. I just don't want to have to go weeks without seeing my boyfriend.

Charlie: nah, that's creepy. i'm not the kind of guy who install cameras to spy on girlfriends. if we do this, i want you to give me your full consent.

Charlie: if anything, i could film myself getting off and send you videos as an alternative, although that isn't the same.

Charlie: well, if it's not for longer than a day or two i could stay here, but if it's for longer i would definitely go with you. i'd miss you too.

Charlie: we have skype and facetime in case i can't go with you, but let's hope we don't have to use them often

Raquel: It's not like you have had many girlfriends but yes this is me saying we can do this but we have to be really careful.

Raquel: that wouldn't be the same thing and maybe that's more for like snapchat or something.

Raquel: really? A day or two is all you can go without me?

Raquel: how about I promise that if my shoots take longer than a week or two that I'll fly back somehow just to spend time with you. You'll never have to go without me for too long. And I'll always talk to you before I take a long job because we're a team and I can't just make decisions for the both of us.

Charlie: you get my point, but yeah. we have to be careful when we do this because the last thing i want to do is to ruin your career. this will be for personal uses, because i'm pretty sure we look hot as fuck while fucking and it's better than porn

Charlie: well, i'm down to send you videos of me masturbating on those nights when you're away, if that's what you want

Charlie: well, more or less. maybe three days or four

Charlie: that sounds fair. i mean, we'd have to talk about it like you said to see if it works for us, but yeah, we can do that

Raquel: okay we can do it even if I don't really understand because when I'm away is when you can actually watch as much porn as you really want.

Raquel: I'd want videos. Even if all they'll do is make me want you even more.

Raquel: Okay I think I can only do four days too.

Raquel: and when you open the bar that takes priority no matter what. No exceptions.

Charlie: not all porn is good, babe. there are crappy videos and i prefer to see my girl naked

Charlie: then you'll get videos of me, naked and getting off while thinking of you, cock in hand. that's the purpose of it. that and making you want to touch yourself

Charlie: of course, babe. maybe i could get out for a couple of days and that's it, but our baby will get the attention.

Charlie: i mean, the bar. because it'll be somewhat ours.

Raquel: but some porn is. Not that I'm pushing you to watch. I actually think it's sweet that you'd rather watch us than anyone else.

Raquel: and I'm supposed to last at least four days just thinking about you and only touching myself?

Raquel: No, the bar will be yours. Your name, your business. I just support you in whatever way I can. It'll be your baby and I'll just watch my baby run it.

Raquel: and I know what you meant. You didn't have to clarify the whole baby thing because there's no way either one of us is thinking of a baby any time.

Charlie: i may watch any, we'll see about it

Charlie: probably. i think you'll survive without my tongue and cock. think about how hot will be the sex once we see each other again. plus, the thought of you getting off because i'm not there is hot

Charlie: i was hoping you would be somewhere in the papers and all the shit i'll have to go through, but i appreciate it too. all the help is welcome

Charlie: yeah, because when you become an actress and i own a bar, it'll be nearly impossible to raise a kid, or at least that's how i see it now

Raquel: porn is your only way you can really think about another woman so if I were you I'd take as much porn action as I can get.

Raquel: I'm not really one for delayed gratification. Cuming by myself isn't the same as when you make me do it.

Raquel: okay I'll be on whatever you need me to be on but I just want you to know that this is yours and your bar and me are the two things in life that are completely yours.

Raquel: even when we're both settled and have our careers it would be hard. I don't know if that's something I'm ready for at any time of my life.

Charlie: i'll look for good porn then and i'll think of you, that way i'll be inspired to add things to our kinky list

Charlie: then i'll give you two orgasms for each orgasm you get by yourself, and for each time you don't reach it i'll make it up for it.

Charlie: you and my bar are mine. fuck, that sounds even beautiful

Charlie: i think neither of us will be ready for it.

Raquel: so even then you aren't going to be thinking of other girls?

Raquel: so whenever I go away and do come back I should just clear my schedule for a week is what you're saying?

Raquel: yep me and your bar. Yours forever.

Raquel: so we're on the same page. No kids for us.

Charlie: i'll try not to, but i'll try to focus on how hot is my girlfriend and how much i want her naked while i watch porn

Charlie: do you watch any and think of me?

Charlie: not for a week, but at least for a whole day so i can fuck you and make up for all the days i didn't

Charlie: i love it. i love you

Charlie: exactly. no kids for us. never.

Raquel: well if you do that's completely okay.

Raquel: nope not at all. When I watch I'm totally thinking about one of the famous chris' duh.

Raquel: if you think you can make up for everything in one day you really must not get how much and how often I think about you.

Raquel: I love you too. So much and I'm so glad we're on the same page. I don't think that's something I would have been able to compromise on and not being able to give you something you wanted would have killed me. I want to give you everything you've ever wanted.

Charlie: should i be offended, babe? tell me about which one of them at least

Charlie: i'll probably need the whole day and at least next morning to do that, but what if you just have one day to see me?

Charlie: me too. i don't want to pressure you to do anything you don't want to, whether it is something kinky or something as big as having a baby. i wouldn't be able to live with that

Raquel: well there's Hemsworth and sometimes Evans but honestly it's rare. I don't think you can get offended because it's not like I have them and chances are they aren't as good in bed to begin with.

Raquel: if I just have one day then idk I might just have to leave sexually frustrated.

Raquel: trust me, you have never pressured me to do something I didn't want to do. You've supported me and been in my corner even when i was with someone else. And if you ever feel like I'm pressuring you with anything I want you to tell me.

Charlie: i happen to think i'm prettier than those guys

Charlie: if i ever let you leave my apartment and you're sexually frustrated that means i didn't do a good job at satisfying you

Charlie: i will let you know, and you haven't pressured me to do anything either, so you're good

Raquel: of course you would.

Raquel: that just means I would never leave your apartment because me being completely satisfied of you is never really going to happen.

Raquel: I have to go flirt with skeezy old men now but enjoy your reading. I love you and I'll see you later tonight.

Charlie: don't you agree with that? i mean, they're hot, but

Charlie: i can at least satisfy you enough to survive until the next time

Charlie: ouch, that sucks, but hopefully that will be over soon.

Charlie: see you later, although i'll be asleep by the time you're here

Raquel: but they're not you. Yes I agree.

Raquel: okay maybe that's true because if not we really would never leave and we'd just have to live off sex and sunshine.

Raquel: rest up. I'm already planning on keeping you up all night so see ya later.