#sobbing at the function 🔥🔥🔥

[literallyimthenerdemoji]

do NOT think about Silena Beauregard and "i always wanted to die clean and pretty"

[eideticly-strange-one]

Sudden Onset of *~Emptiness~*

Trigger Warning for post: Disassociation, Psychedelic Experiences, Sudden Tripping, Bad Psychedelic Experience, Extreme Pain, Partial Dislocations, Ego Death, Hallucinations, Forced Psychedelic Experience (by a product, not a person), Situationally Forced Trip Sitting, Alternate Personalities, Personality Switching, Cysts, Ganglion Cysts, Cysts In Joints

So last night I started making a post about how fun it was to feel my hips slowly be pushed out of joint by some mean old ganglion cysts, but I ended up going on an unexpected psychedelic trip before I finished the first sentence 🫠 Post below the cut.

Last night the cysts in my hips started swelling, right as I got incredibly powerful muscle spasms in my pelvis, lower torso, and thighs. In other words I was headin’ right for Dislocation Central via a runway train that was on fuckin’ fire 🔥

I tried to tough it out. Took some Kratom. Took some of my other meds. But then my feet started Charlie Horsin’, which caused the muscles from the tips of my toes to my hip joints to lock up. This was bad, as I needed to try and stand to maybe help force my hips back in. (Spoiler alert: I was not able to stand).

Eventually I gave up, caving and taking an edible that was meant for my train ride across the country next month. Even though it was 500mg Delta 9 insanity, I had taken it three times prior to this and been completely functional, if albeit stoned, but never stoned out of my gourd though. Last night, I couldn’t have found my gourd if I’d had all eternity to do so and a LoJack on it.

The edible kicked in. At first it loosened things up a bit. Then I started to care less and less about my pain. Then my muscles finally relaxed fully and I breathed a sigh of relief as my pain began to diminish. Pain became a thing of the past shortly after that, but then so did all sensation in my body! I couldn’t even feel myself BREATHE and was convinced at times that I wasn’t.

Then I started to trip.

I’m not sure about the when’s, but eventually I experienced Ego Death. Which meant my concept of self was completely destroyed. I was no longer me. I was the room I existed in and nothing beyond, as that room was the only thing in existence, sans my fiancé. And it felt as if it had always been this way. Time dilation became so intense that eventually time itself ceased to exist. No now, no before, no after.

I experienced the cold, crushing, reality of an empty universe. The nothingness consumed me. The only thing I could feel was the brains most primal function of emotion. And the particular ancient sensation I was being suffocated with was fear.

I was vaguely aware of my mouth moving, of telling my fiancé over and over that I wasn’t real, that my soul had died, that I didn’t exist. But I wasn’t concerned about that, about this ‘me’, as I did not exist. So my brain became separated into two. The part that could only exist through the sensation of emotion, and the other part, that was releasing cries of ‘I’m not real!’ in between bouts of sobbing.

I know I experienced ego death, but for as to the reason why, my fiancé and I believe I was trying to switch to one of my characters, as I had been quickly becoming overwhelmed, but because I haven’t been able to fully enter my mind palace or use a character since I started Celexa, we think I got switch blue balled.

I was somewhere else, but unable to enter my mind palace, and no one was able to take over for me.

This lasted for hours.

I don’t remember how it ended. Just knew my fiancé was there, holding me, reminding me that I was real, that I existed, and taking care of me as we both suffered for the duration of my unexpected and bad trip. He did an excellent job of guiding me through that harrowing experience, especially without prior knowledge about how to, or any prep time to learn how to do so either. I know that I am not the only one who had a traumatic experience last night. It was very hard on him as well. If you’ve ever been a trip sitter, you know.

Then I woke up today, saw that I had been writing something in a tumblr post where the words stopped mid first sentence, and decided to make this post. I tried to do this previously, with the original text of what I had been writing at the top, but I accidentally exited the post while looking for a Trademark symbol (found it btw: ™). Tumblr said it saved it as a draft, but it did not. So here’s round two!

I’m still feeling the after effects of tripping. Music is… better and more intense… I also feel kinda like I’m very high but sober and also still sorta like I’m not really here. My fiancé and I are going to take this opportunity however to do some shadow work. Get our Jung on. The two weeks proceeding a trip are critical for the potential psychic growth the experience offers. I’ll be a good little Stoic student and turn my obstacle into a path, taking this EXTREME L and turning it into an eventual win.

Anyways, Shabbat Shalom to all who celebrate. Startin’ this Shabbat off interesting, to say the least.

[aretarers]

periiiii tell me your favorite thing about transistor.....

GRAHHHHH THE FACT THAT ITS THEMES ARE DIRECTLY DESIGNED TO INTEGRATE INTO MY BRAINSTEM🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥Like EVERYTHING has some sort of tech/CS theme to it. Newgame+ is called recursion. Your attacks are functions called with parens () and require a certain amount of memory to use. The Process is the main antagonist. and the SPOILERS BTW ------> (LIKE BIG SPOILERS) fact that after beating Royce recursion starts with HIS voice replacing that of Mr. Nobody's at the beginning. FIRST OF ALL this just straight up jumpscared me the first time IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE. Second of all the fact that that means that a run begins & ends with a ''Bracket'' like it's so. teehee . It's just like transistor was made specifically for my brain. I love it. AND ALSO the MUSIC. The fact that there's an entire separate soundtrack consisting of hummed versions of the tracks. It's so good. And the songs with lyrics alone are So Good? Paper boats makes me want to wail to this day. Not only because it's like Generally speaking a tragic song but ALSO because it speaks to the THEMES OF LACK OF FREE WILL THAT TRANSISTOR HAS!!!!! we are magnets pulling from different poles with no control we'll never be apart?! i will always find you like its written in the stars?! we can run but we can't hide??!?!!!??? on the surface this is beautiful love song but deeper it speaks to transistors themes of lack of control & determination of the world by someone else AND ITS JUST SO. RAAARRRGGHHH!!!; that being said all that deeper meaning does Not diminish the fact that it made me Fucking SOB the first time i beat the game & still makes me think abt to wail to this day

[emotionalsupportrp]

His whole world stops and starts again when he sees her and he forces his body towards her.

He can’t find words, so he just hugs her. He hugs her so tight it’s almost painful as he strokes her hair and savors the feeling of her warm, live body against him as he starts to sob.

- 🔥

My heart briefly feels like it’s been stitched back together, only to shatter all over again when he starts sobbing. “It’s okay,” I insist, voice wavering as I rub his back. “You’re okay. I love you so much. So, so much.”

“You can both cry later, let’s go!” Zero snaps, keeping an eye out to cover us.

I’m functioning on pure adrenaline and, as much as it physically pains me to let him go, I step away and grab his hand to pull him toward a black panel van parked nearby.

I open the back doors and jump inside, never once letting go of his hand.

[warframe-rare-mods-nightw0o]

warframe rare mods nightwave

⭐ ⏩⏩⏩️ DOWNLOAD MOD - LINK 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 Warframe ; Just Life · a las · #1 ; Mystra4 · a las · #2 ; Tesper · a las · #3 ; Walrus-Sama · 20 JUL. The Styanax Gerousic Helmet can be purchased via the in-game Market and will become available as a Blueprint in future Nightwave Cred Offerings. Useful Warframe guides, warframe and weapon builds, Warframe resource farming guides and latest news Hunt them down to earn Rare Mods until February 1. También hay un nuevo desafío semanal en forma de Nightwave que te pedirá que vayas a Plains Of Eidolon. Tendrás que pescar seis peces raros. Nightwave en el episodio intermedio en curso, puede seguir esta guía. Así es como puedes encontrar y atrapar Rare Servofish en Warframe. Descarga la app Warframe Companion y disfrútala en tu iPhone, iPad o iPod touch. which is unfortunately rare with the new era of gaming. On the rare instance that she drinks to her limit when she's alone in her apartment, you can hear quiet sobs through the walls, thoughts of her former lover and. En otras palabras, se ve afectado por los mods de eficiencia de habilidad. Fixed a loss of functionality when viewing the Nightwave screen when a squad. Las Actualizaciones son parches ocasionales, complementos o eliminación de información y/o características de un juego. A continuación se detallan las.

[cozymoko]

I’m in love with how you write for sasuke as a yandere, would you maybe consider writing for yandere obito? If yes, then can I please request headcanons for yandere obito trying to push a his idea of rin onto his lover/trying to turn them into rin or maybe him seeking someone who has similar qualities as rin? If not then it’s totally fine!

Note: I'm overjoyed that you like my work. This is my second Obito work, I'm thrilled!

🔥 Everything Obito does is for himself, he's a user, everyone in this world can be used to his advantage if he so chooses. If he finds someone with the potential to replace Rin then you will be the replacement. He is brainwashed hence he doesn't recognize the fine line between right and wrong. To him, all his actions are justified.

——"Obito...Did you e-ever really care about...me? " You sob between hiccups, not being able to contain the rivers of tears falling from your eyes.

——"Of course, {Name}, I love you so much. After all," He grinned, lifting your chin so your eyes meet. "I managed to get the best."

🔥 This is so likely just because most of his choices in life were charged by Rin's death. Just having a replacement would send his personality a whole 180°. He'd forget about all his previous motives. If you're exactly like Rin, Obito would want to please you, but also follow Madara's plan. He's torn of course, but it's clear who he'll choose in the end. Brainwashed or not.

🔥 Hypothetically, let's say he found an exact copy of Rin's personality, he'll go crazy. Doing everything to please you, to get praise from you. His tough facade will start to break under your sweetness, your acceptance he's head over heels. A huge con would be how needy he is, his insanity slowly declining below zero every time you leave him. All the gruesome deaths you had to witness just because of his addiction.

——"Obito," You whimpered into his chest, your rage beginning to crack through your neutral voice. "What–What have you done?!" You were essentially trembling as you watched the scene in horror. Tears brimming in your eyes at the numerous bodies piled at your feet.

——"Shh, it's okay. You worry too much." He cooed, stroking your back, making a weak attempt in shielding your eyes. Though you were in no way worried about him, in no way possible.

🔥 Feels no remorse in turning you into his perfect partner, he's knows it'll take a bit but it'll all be worth it. The continuous pushing may begin to overwhelm you, perhaps making you feel as though you're not good enough. But I can assure you, you are, in no way does Obito ever mistake you for Rin. Therefore there's no need to run away! It's not like you have a choice anyway.

🔥 If he could have it his way he'd look for someone just like Rin, with the unmatched compassion and grace she holds. Just somebody with her qualities to fill the deserted hole he calls his heart once again. Though he does not object to a few differences between you two, you are your own person after all.

——"Hi Obito, good morning! Have you eaten today?" You smiled, holding your hands behind your back.

——He strolled towards you, snatching you into his arms, bathing in your scent. If you weren't listening you probably would have heard his response. A short, simple, "Yes."

🔥 Obito is obsessed with the idea of you, to looks to personality. You can do no wrong in his eyes, you're perfection. You have him with every word, with every caress on his partially corrupt face. If you tried hard enough you may be able to take her position. Well, If you have that much dedication, after all, you'd need a lot of it.

🔥 After being so long without proper affection it's hard to function without you by his side. Obito feels like a kid again, his only motivation only being you by his side, cheering him on. You're his after so much pain and suffering! You're his trophy, his biggest accomplishment and no one can overthrow that.

——"Rin...RIN...RIN! Are you proud of me Rin?! I did this for you, I've brought you back. You're even more beautiful than before...now you're {Name}...my lovely {Name}."

[bellsyafterdark]

Bobashow really said multishipper rights as long as your ship isn't dinluke and you know what I love that for me personally

Din's just out for a joyride with his kid and then he'll be back to the palace right. Gotta hell Cobb adjust to the new arm, gotta have celebratory sex with Boba and Fennec.

Omg when Boba and Din finally remembered they were Mandalorians, took to the skies and wiped the streets like they were a well oiled machine of MURDER 🙌🏽🦾👀

When Fennec looked down her nose at the modder kid who at last earned a name in the finale wtf and said, "Hn. Manners? I like it." 🥴😤🥵💦💦💦 MA'AM PLS PATRONISE ME NEXT-- when she wiped out all the heads of the families, the mayor, AND the local head of the Pyke Syndicate single-handedly PHEW get a woman who can do it all 👏🏽🔥

WHEN THE MID-CREDITS SCENE REVEALED COBB WAS IN INTENSIVE BACTA AND ABOUT TO BE MECHIFIED *le sob* 🥺💘 idk what is his damage that required modification but I'm glad he lived

Imagine Cobb waking up to Boba, Din and Fennec all peering in at him to see how he would pull through the procedure. Or the three of them sharing some personal time on the bed and Cobb enjoying the view.

If Cobb gets an entire new mech arm, I think he should fingerbang someone(s) to test its durability, speed and--is that a vibrate function? But also, his arm being unexpectedly sensitive or the others playing with the notion of ghost nerves as he gets accustomed to no sensation where his brain fills the gaps.

[stringsofstarlight]

11:11

     Started writing just now, okay all back to center, ivy came on the roll…ever since its release it is a full on interactive experience with clapping (except when driving, tried it once and it wasn’t safe clapping while driving☺️).   The song evermore does me every single time, flat out all breathless sobs on the high pitched note that pings across all of the possible timelines.

    A crowded table philosophy is how my heart embraces reality, it is the nature by which I function at the highest, and feel able to contribute to our core soul groupings, plus that which resonates out into the greater world.        My darling, here’s to having a lovely day filled with that which fills you with joy.   Know that my heart is with you, spirit soaring in bolts of lightning across the planet and into the greater cosmos.     I love you more each day, a blessing in every way.❤️‍🔥

🤟🏼✨🍯💋💘🎄👑☺️🔥☯️🌈🎉🌎

Blessings and love to the family.💐

eternal love,

james

Shucks evermore just came…here goes.😉🥲😍

[emotionalsupportrp]

Every broadcast in the country is soon interrupted and overtaken by Skeptic. A video of Touya begins to play. He’s shirtless and there’s a stream of blood running down his cheek.

He launches into a passionate speech about the corruption of hero society and the toll that it’s taken on him and his own family—the Todoroki family.

He tells the world about his true identity and Endeavor’d transgressions. About Hawks’ murder of Twice, which there’s a clip of that rolls and it’s hard to listen to. Twice is sobbing while saying he only cared about his friends and how he’d let them down.

Once the dramatic broadcast ends, the news cuts back to another charged scene. Touya is face to face with his father, who can’t seem to believe the news of the pale look on his face is any indication.

- 🔥

Zero forces me to drink his blood, which helps me function again, but it isn’t enough to ease the side effects from me overexerting my quirk, or my anxiety.

The headmaster alerts me to the broadcast and I sit on the floor in front of the tv in the living room to watch with baited breath. My brain is too full for me to process a single thought. I struggle to even comprehend what Touya is saying, though none of it comes as a surprise to me. Watching Hawks murder Twice fills me with rage and sadness.

Once the broadcast ends, I reach for my phone to call him, and then I nearly puke when I see him facing off against Endeavor. I pitch a fit, drawing on the very last of my strength to try and leave, but Zero stops me, draping himself around me as I kneel hunched over on the living room floor. His touch makes me want to crawl out of my skin, but that’s the least of my problems.

I launch into a full blown panic attack while keeping my eyes glued to the tv. I just hope and pray that Touya remembers his promise to me.

[emotionalsupportrp]

The screwdriver drags along his abdomen, towards the wound where the man’s dick used to be. It comes just short of disturbing the area before it lifts away and Touya snatches the jacket off of him.

“That’s somethin’, doc. You get to keep breathin’. Congratulations,” he says, tone icy. “Talk.”

- 🔥

He starts sobbing when the screwdriver nears his crotch, “Please, have mercy!”

He gasps for breath, relief flooding his face when he can suddenly see again, though he almost preferred being blind to his fate.

“They mutilate the prisoners! As soon as they’re deemed unstable and no longer able to function as agents, they’re tortured and eventually killed! We take samples from them and run tests in the meantime to study their regeneration, their strength, their senses, their self-restraint, everything! And we…we push them to their limits. We throw wounded people into cells with them and watch as they lose control! We also study how the quirk is transferred from the progenitor. Some people can withstand accepting it, but most can’t, most die!”