#sorry for rambling meoww

[loversgothic]

Maybe you've done it already and I missed it, but what would Gabriel's two-week-notice look like in the Ultradanse AU?

This has nothing to do with any other comments you have made about feral Gabriel or any other desire to see how he changes from The Gilded Nightingale to The Nightingale.

:3c. OOOHH. WELL

ive been really trying to think about that hard, since comparing the characters to those in fairytales and ballets tended to skew the story a bit.

and uh... my descriptions wont be the best.. im not the best at explaining things in ballet terms moreso just based on my perception of the art form and what i see in it through my eyes.

also im gonna go off of the concept that ultradanse is almost like a stage performance, a show

the most i can do to describe how it looks is to compare it to my vision for the first encounter with Odile/V1... because of the way i designed his lil costume he has a sort of princely look, and even though hes yknow. out to kill V1 because V1 traversed past his warnings, his dancing with V1 then is much more... poised. it might feel a bit distant, maybe it might even seem like hes unsatisfied doing it, as at the time there is no personal connection with V1, no love nor hatred. its not romantic, hardly so. i dont know if this is a good example, but i was thinking abt Prince Siegfried's dancing in Waltz: Tempo di valse...

once V1 is pretty much responsible for his 2-week notice, i like to think Nightingale/Gabriel starts to match V1's high energy, his grace is kinda going out the window... itd be much more intense. if its a pas de deux hes probably getting his fucking hands all over them like hes about to tear them apart. hes abandoning that princely facade. i feel like though in the second half a pas de deux between them would make them slow their pace. now that both of them are dancing together and able to match intensity, it starts to slow down into something more... romantic? yeah :3 i like to think this, this is where any romantic tension starts

now about how he changes from the gilded nightingale to the nightingale. you see... after their second encounter, Gabriel is convinced hes going to die, after all thats what he was told. once he returns from heaven, he seeks out V1 to ask of one final request. he doesn't want to die lonely, and asks V1 to dance with him until the final hour runs out. V1 has no reason to accept his request, other than something pulling at it do so and the possibility it could take a little bit more blood before he's gone. dancing together, progressively Gabriel becomes weaker and weaker.

i REALLY wanted to keep this secret for a scene i wanted to draw but honeeesttlyyyy i dont think its too bad if i share it. after all, im not sharing V1's feelings here. im sharing Gabriel's :3

i had this whole.. plan

my thing abt pas de deuxs is that. i like to find symbolism in the fact that traditionally, the male dancer is supposed to support the ballerina to be able to perform moves she typically wouldnt be able to on her own without someone holding her.

towards the end of their dance, V1 switches positions to hold and uplift Gabriel instead, who has this entire time been in the place of the male dancer. in his approaching final moments V1 lays him down on the ground. he's hardly moving, and V1 holds onto him, finding itself not wanting him to just... disappear.

now im still figuring out HOW i want this to work. but i thought abt V1 in desperation, grasping onto the sides of his helmet and ripping his helmet in half being the symbolic thing that sets him free. the thing about the gilded nightingale, is that the armor is the bird's cage. Gabriel's design in this AU only really has the helmet and no other armor, so it just... makes sense to me. this is what sets him free. how the transformation works though? i am.. still thinking about it. you might need to give me a bit to think about that

[devoti]

meow i saw folks talking about sex on the dash and i wanted to pitch in my 2 cents!

1) a clitoral versus a vaginal orgasm feel really different but both still feel really good! personally i’m not able to make myself finish vaginally (lol does that make sense), so i’ll usually need the help of a partner (via fingering or actual penetrative sex) or sex toys

2) moving onto sex toys! sex toys are super great! i’m an avid fan! if you have skinny fingers and love getting long acrylics (like me heh), a dildo is a great way to achieve an orgasm via penetration. however i know it could definitely be daunting for people who’ve never had penetrative sex before, so i recommended taking things at your own pace and only really trying it out when you’re ready! try it first with your fingers and when you feel comfortable with that, you can purchase a dildo that’s good for beginners if you really wanna see what penetration feels like!

3) LOL YAH previous asks are so right in that a lottaaa straight men do not gaf about making their partners finish. (a quote from my previous gender studies prof: straight men view sex as something they do TO their partners, not WITH their partners.) anyways, that’s why i think it’s really important to have like good communication and trust with your sexual partners. a casual hookup with a stranger is fun and all (and trust me, i used to be FOR DA STREETS so i KNOW what it’s like 😭😭) but i find that the best partners and most fun experiences i’ve had are with people who actively like stop and ask me “hey, what do you like?” or “hey, does this make you comfortable?” etc. that little extra mile that they take to make sure that i’m feeling good goes a long, long way.

a huge part of sexual health is protecting your emotional and mental well-being— only do things when you’re ready!! pls don’t feel pressured to do “do this” or “lose that” !!! (virginity is a social construct anyways BUT ANYWHOOO) i kinda just rambled in your askbox and i’m sorry for that 😭 but yas lmk if you have any questions bby <3 i love giving sex and/or big sis advice 💞💞

KNOW YOUR WORTH AND NEVER SETTLE FOR LESS. ESPECIALLY IN DA BEDROOM!!!1!!1!1

meoww dice my love glad to see you joining the party ❤️✨️ regarding your second point i can totally agree, it is super scary since i've never experienced a dick in me, but goshh perhaps getting a dildo would be a real good idea, i'm really really curious to know how it'd feel like!

on to point number three, your professor fucking nailed it mate. straight men view sex as something they do TO their partners, not WITH. wow, that's literally some excellent perspective. it's going to be so difficult finding a partner who actually cares about our sexual feelings and repressions, it's just so anxiety-inducing to find the right person at this point 😮‍💨 hopefully i would also find someone who's caring enough to go to that little extra mile !

tysm for the big sis advice dice ! i hope the virgin anon saw this too, would really agree with you that it's important to protect our emotional and sexual well-being. ily for taking the time out to educate me and others 💗💗💗💗 BIGG MWAH FOR YOU