#sorry idk if this makes sense I'm just putting cas and lucifer in a little box in my brain and shaking it around <3

[jackexmachina]

btw that is also why Lucifer should be just the teeny tiniest bit jealous of Castiel. sorry.

bc even dressing up as the dead love of Sam's life can't quite get him the [A bit starstruck, honestly.] look

[misc-obeyme]

CC 😭😭😭 lesson 30 was a rollercoaster huh. Tbh as a Beel lover, I wasn’t happy w how Belphie was acting here. I asked Beel what he thought of the Angel's Trial and Belphie just cuts him off!! And he made Beel sad and that is unacceptable to me 😤 (he says not to make him mad but no spoilers for og lesson 16 could make me choose not to be a petty bitch when I can) Beel is his own person and too sweet for this shit

Telling Sol his cooking sucks was :((( 0/10 I would've gently reminded him ratios are important especially in baking and just make sure he's not putting anything inedible in there. Or tell him to focus his creativity solely on the plating/presentation bc you eat w your eyes too or smt idk

I kinda found it funny when Sim basically told Luke he was an ugly crier. Poor baby, I hope the egg grants him that wish

I get this was setup for Levi's Little D arc but teasing the truth again makes me wanna bang my head on a wall. I know Lucifer suspects smt abt us. We know Barb knows something

Speaking of Barb, I choose to believe that the Little Ds are gonna be important later and that Beel did eat Number 6 but Barb uh, made sure that didn't happen actually

AHH anon, this lesson KILLED ME. I'm so sorry to everyone who had to read the unhinged post I wrote last night lol.

Okay, see, I was so wrapped up in the Solomon debacle that I forgot about the whole Beel & Belphie thing.

I get that Belphie is being protective, but I also felt like he wasn't really taking Beel's feelings into consideration! I think there's a fine line between being protective and being controlling. And Belphie was right on the edge of that line, imo. When you're being protective to the point that you're ignoring the needs of the person you're supposedly protecting well... it kinda defeats the purpose there, buddy.

I wonder if they're going to kind of expand on that at some point. Have the twins hash it out with each other. Because I think Belphie isn't normally like this, but I think he's still wary of humans. And his concern is overriding his usual consideration of Beel's feelings.

OKAY LET'S TALK SOLOMON AGAIN.

Listen, I've had a little time to calm down, but I am still UPSET.

Now, of course, it's best to remember that this is fiction and nothing in fiction happens the way it would irl. BUT if I had a friend (or romantic interest/boyfriend/etc) who really enjoyed cooking, but for some reason always made gross food, I probably wouldn't lie to them directly. I would do exactly as you suggest, gently remind them of how to follow a recipe and so on. I can't imagine that Solomon has spent all his life trying to learn how to cook and somehow keeps screwing it up? Like considering how much he does it, he should be getting better at it?

And apparently someone told him his cooking tasted bad in season 3 of the OG, but I don't remember that lol. If it's in the hard lessons, that's why I don't remember... I haven't actually finished all the hard lessons of the OG... oops I keep forgetting they exist my bad.

Anyway, my point here is that it doesn't make sense that someone doing something they enjoy all the time wouldn't get better at what they're doing at some point. I get that this is fictional and maybe they have a reason for it, but they need to tell us what it is because I can't take HIS SAD FACE. Normally I'd be like listen sometimes you gotta be honest or whatever, but not like this!! I would've been like what exactly did you do to make the cake taste this way, let's figure it out together... I would help him, not just be all sorry this is gross and leave it at that!

Sorry sorry I'm ranting again. I just love that silly sorcerer so much and his reaction just made me so sad.

I'm so curious about what Luke is finally gonna wish for lol. I feel like Simeon teases him the most out of everybody, he's just so chill and nice about it that it doesn't register as teasing.

I just don't understand why hiding the egg's existence was a good lie while telling Solomon his cake was good wasn't??? Ugh my heart.

AND OH YES LEVI.

I was very upset about that, too!! Like, no you don't understand!! I do need to leave, but I need to get back to you!!

I want to go back, but I don't want to go back! The stress of this is getting to me. Can we please hurry up and be done with this timeline nonsense?! Barb definitely knows something. I just want him to fix things! I think I'd have confronted him about it by now. I don't care what Sol says about not telling people we're from the future, I'd be like Barbatos, my true love, I know you already know, so let's hear it!! What is going on!?!?

I definitely think the Little Ds are going to be important later, too! Something about the fairies seems like it's going to matter as well, but I'm not entirely sure how yet.

Oh no poor Number 6! Even if Barb saved him, I would think being eaten would be rather traumatic lol.

[zorelle]

Open letter to: @ilarual

Subject: secret good spn in my head on God, Amara, Castiel and Death

Hi! so I wanted to say.... I read this post and this other post that you made and I was screaming while reading them bc they contain a lot of what I've been thinking around my own mental secret good spn rewrite (I dont write Idk what Im gonna do with it but I feel the need to imagine it so, anyway) and I am in awe at how many simmilarities I share with you, like my thoughts are in a notebook and some post-its but there are a lot on the same issues with the same ideas and arriving at very much the same conclusions as what you posted but you actually wrote them coherently D: and I'm so excited and a little freaked out. But anyway I wanted to share some related stuff I had on my notes to see if they interest you.

This is, ok im so sorry I attacked you with this huge thing, this is a very long post, but I´m truly like truuuuly excited and I´ve been thinking all afternoon if I should talk to you if you´d be interested or annoyed and I decided to message you but couldn´t so im posting it. If nothing comes from this, just know I really loved your posts and theories and I´m... a fan. lol Ok.

So in my version of spn I know it would end with the same villain, like they would end up going against God. So I’m at the worldbuilding to make sense of first, how we get there, wanting to go against God and second, how to face literally GOD.

So as Ive thought of it is GOD/Chuck as an energy of influence and controlled/authored creation and S/the darkness/Amara as a representation of the entropy and balance in chaos/multiple possibilities. Gods would be the beginning, S would be the end. Both energies are necessary for a universe to exist, and gods are like the ones that mostly create and control, while "S/darknesses" come to be the chaos, points of equilibrium and endings of it. A universe then, is a conversation between energies and the media for that conversation to happen is like... the mathematics. The space/time fabric of a universe, In my head I name it the mathematics. Anyway.

So I'm thinking about "Chuck" as a God who becomes fascinated by stories. Who notices how stories are in microlevel almost the same exercise of creation as universes, but with imagination/ideas as the media, there's less input from chaos or chance, and so I think of a God that, as Lucifer puts it, is obsessed with humans, specifically bc he wants to replicate this curated way of creation, so he understands he no longer wants a conversation with other energies, he wants full creative control. But as he needs S to start and fuel some very necessary parts of the mathematics, he needs to trap that S energy on a liminal level that's both inside and outside of the universe. That’s how Amara gets trapped after they set and start this particular universe, we dont know for how long bc in my version of things the archangel encasing is a story by Chuck not as a programmer (like the videogames analogy you use) but as a writer, and writers lie. I have another thing about how Lucifer (as a couple other villains) is a character based on his own relationship with S/Amara.

What I´ve thought about God, concerning the loopholes where S can interfere is that he wakes her up when he inserts himself in the story, and that's his first mistake. In my version he takes hold of the original Chuck Shurley in Lucifer Rising and ok this is where our ideas diverge a little, he thinks he resurrects Cas along with entering his former prophet's body, bc he has been thinking about it like you said, like he was wondering if he should bring him back at any point, so when it turns out Cas is alive is like "huh guess I did it when I became Chuck" like he thought of that as his own glitch but in my reality, he wakes up the S and this yang energy is immediately up to date and understands this fallen angel is an oportunity, an agent of chaos needed to start taking control from God.

So in my take, S wakes up when Lucifer rises and God gets himself inside the mathematic as Chuck. S begins to crack the code on the universe created, and starts making glitches of freedom in the set characters the story has that either have a code peculiar enough to crack or write bugs in, or by the characters that are channels to her energy (or at some point served as a replacement of hers while she's been trapped and asleep/unable to move). Castiel would be the first case, an opening for a glitch to freedom, he would also be the first crack of the code and by having that little glitch inside he would eventually become a recognized creator of free will and something Chuck needs to eliminate. Death, on the other hand, would be the second case, a channel for that necessary entropy that as you put it, is not under God´s control, but is also not completely free.

So in my version that glitch stays with Cas but Death is also recognizing Gods influence and despotism, while also sensing Cas as a rogue element with an energy Death resonates with and senses inside him so he doesn't fix it he doesnt kill him he disobeys God, pays attention, lets the feeling grow and begins to understand. So ok this is what I wanted to share with you as a canon compliant idea: God decides to kill death and make this new rule to make a reaper the new death, so he can in his mind, reset the code, regain control and kill Cas for good, bc he feels something shifting too and wants to stop it before something concerning happens, but Death knows things at this point, one of the things he knows is he has to die there and so he goes to his own demise playing along with the two Winchester boys, as the only way allowed by this tainted universe mathematics to release the true S, like Lilith was the last seal to release Lucifer, is for Death to die, which gives the necessary world-crack to release Amara.

S/Amara on her part, has to play by the games in this story/universe and so to break the in-universe wall she has to also be in the mathematic, she clings to that baby and takes humanoid form and is named Amara. But since it's a double trap (the liminal space both inside and outside) she now can affect the in-universe but still cant escape it. She can only be free once that universe ends, and there are rules to that ending so thats the set up to make her a goddes villain dealing with human perception as soon as she´s out and then an ally that´s not as powerfull as God himself in the final fight. It also sets the logic on why Jack could definitely defy God and eventually overpower him, bc he contains enough of both energies and therefore is the promise both of a future and of an end.