#sorry those who rbed the first one. just delete that

[digitulart]

DONT hug them youre gonna DIE. PSYCHIC ATTACK

[decennia]

Yo, it sucks that you're getting nonny hate I'm sorry that's happening. If a message like this is not alright please delete, but I am someone who has been friends with Maddie in the past and also defended them. I have experienced this kind of thing, with similarities between characters, but always believed them when reasons were given. I don't know really what to do, because I have enjoyed this friendship with them for so long I feel like a betrayer if I speak out or confront them about it.

kinda sus how after i do a mass culling of certain people during my blocking spree that all the hate anons stopped 🤔 yet my friends who just rbed my post and didn't block those people are receiving tons of anons. just seems a little ✨️weird✨️ if you ask me

listen, bby, if the explanations maddie gave you were anything like the ones they gave me? i'm sorry to say but you did this to yourself 😭💔 they were complete and utter bullshit (receipts privately available upon dm if you're interested). genuinely. and that was my final straw. i wasn't about to be lied to about this. i tried hearing them out, but it all sounded hella suspicious.

i also really enjoyed the friendship, always had fun with the crossovers. YOU are not the one in the wrong. plagiarism is very serious in a community based on creative works. YOU are not the betrayer, you were betrayed. you trusted that, as a friend, they would not steal from you, or lie to you. they betrayed that trust. they betrayed mine. and then had the sheer audacity to lie about it, too.

this isn't what icks me out the most, though. what really got under my skin and made my stomach roil was the fact that, under a completely different blog and alias, they contacted me as if they were a stranger, asking for potential crossovers; all while i was speaking to them on their main blog. i have received criticism for essentially "doxxing" them on a blog they supposedly "made to shelter themselves from the hate they get on their main."

i believe that was the reason for the creation of ocfanhub & codenamekryptonite at first. genuinely, i do. but why interact with your main blog then? why engage in the blog that you received all this supposed hate on? why interact with yourself as if you are completely different people, asking yourself questions, making yourself crossovers and edits? interact with your already established friends as if they were strangers? it doesn't make any fucking sense:

and the fact that, during a giveaway, when given the opportunity to nominate another blog for a gift, they nominated themselves under the guise of "sending good vibes to another creator." especially since the giveaway has a request limit? they literally lied to receive more gifts, and it's not okay.

not to mention having their friends gaslight people or other creators into thinking someone is insane for even entertaining the idea that maddie and veronica were the same person. i have trust issues to begin with. this? is a total violation of the trust i gave them and their friend, and i don't think i am in the correct capacity to trust so freely again on this site. which is sad, because i love meeting new people and cultivating creative based friendships.

[seijch]

ANNOUNCEMENT: NOT A HELLO, BUT NOT A GOODBYE EITHER

omg hi ... im like . ashamed to come back after saying brief hiatus in october and then disappearing off the face of the earth til FEBRUARY but under the cut i will be explaining myself and the following, if youre interested (and a tl;dr at the very bottom if you don’t wanna scroll thru this obnoxiously long post):

the reason(s) i was gone for so long

what i was doing during that time (its just a personal account yall can scroll past this idrc)

the status of those um . halloween requests

the future of this account

i. so . Hiatus .

i know. i know . i probably mentioned it when i made the announcement post, but my mental health likes to go on one of those rides. yknow the ones where you go like up rlly fast then down maybe and then up then DOWN .... its like that. i needed a break and every time i wanted to come back or thought about it, something would happen and i would get stuck in my own head.

a big reason for getting stuck in my head was (and i hate to admit this ... i hate to admit that i have Insecurities On The Internet) my feelings of inadequacy regarding my writing. i love to plot fics, i love concepts and characters and making little headcanons but i dont ... know if i love writing rn. and i thought for the longest time that like . whatever ill just push thru it its fine ill be fine but it kinda wasnt lmao you can kinda see it in my halloween reqs and what become of them when i get to that but i began to feel like nothing i had put out or would put out would hold up prose wise (and normally i dont feel like this im much more “idc its my life im living it” but thats not a rant for tumblr LMAO). i still feel like that -- like im better as a reader than a writer. but . You Know :-)

tl;dr: mental state go brrrrr

ii. anywhere here’s wonderwall

when i left, i was in a steadily decreasing mental and emotional state, made worse by a situation at work that really was a case of petty jealousy on my end and rlly isnt very consequential now despite how much pain and resentment it gave me when it Was a problem so i wont get into it. the tl;dr of november and december was me using work as an crutch and distraction -- i know my job, i do it well, it helped me not think about my responsibilities and obligations and inadequacies. of course, as the holiday season grew busier n busier i was scheduled so often that i moved 88 or so miles (according to my apple watch, which i ONLY wear at work since im never anywhere else outside my house) and fell into a cycle of showering n sleeping at my house before going back the next day. (theres definitely something to be said abt capitalism and “grind culture” here but once again its not the time or place snsjkdfds)

at the turn of the new year, i happened to remember a birthday card i hadnt filed away for safekeeping from a friend of mine that id been horribly out of touch with til that point. i started crying because i realized how out of touch id been in general up until that point. the month of january was great for me: i was focused, happy, and in a much better place than i had been before. the end of it brought me down focus wise and im hoping that enough time away from my distractions will refocus me bc i ... need it LMAO and though ive burned out from that level of productivity and gotten distracted again im ... trying to stay positive which i think is the most i can do 😁👍🏼

media wise, i got real into stardew valley (but burned out bc i played it extensively as a way to wind down after work), the pokemon platinum romhack renegade platinum (still havent finished it bc of school n i played it w the intent to see if i could nuzlocke it ... bitch its so hard but its so fun bc of it), briefly assassins creed: odyssey (im one of those ppl who completes an entire region before i move to the next so you can tell i burned out of that one + wouldnt have the time to properly devote to it even if i didnt), got back into genshin impact after pulling for xiao (after not touching it for like . months), and danganronpa. yes . danganronpa 😐 i Know. i stopped playing it after the second trial of the first game bc i was so hurt by the outcome and picked it up in late january only to get sucked in (thank god i had the foresight to buy the second and third games during the steam winter sale). rn im at the start of chapter 4 if anyone wants to come in my asks and um . talk to me abt danganronpa

tl;dr: I’m Into Danganronpa Now

iii. you realize halloween was three months ago right

i mentioned this in the first section, but i love to plot things. every request is plotted or at least has a solid foundation. i had fun detailing what concept i wanted to go with considering what i was given, and there were some bangers i might touch up in the future. but heres whats going to happen to the requests themselves:

there are two finished requests. one will be posted tomorrow and the other will be touched up (just bc i finished it doesnt mean its good 🧍‍♂️) and scheduled for next saturday. as for the ones i never got around to ...

i will not be finishing those requests. i hate to be That Person, but i feel like we all expected this 🧍‍♂️ what i will do is post all of my notes for each request in batches -- requests that have an @ to go with them will be mentioned in the post proper, but anon asks will be pictured. (there are some asks that came from blogs who are now deactivated but i wrote down all the prompts and remember most of those askers so ill cross that bridge when i get there) there will most likely be an excerpt or two simply bc i think i mightve written a few plot points or interactions in the form of bullet points. i rlly am sorry about doing this but i remember looking at my notion doc with all the prompts and feeling ... like i wasnt measuring up n it wasnt just to myself or to some intangible concept of “other” id constructed but it was instead to those who requested n actually WANTED to see and hear and read my writing and i ...... im gonna admit thats another big reason i avoided this site.

regardless, youll definitely get what i have (and likely more than just my bullet points and illegible handwriting).

tl;dr: im sorry. what i have in terms of plot, concept, and interaction for every request will be posted, but i cant say ill ever complete them and mean it.

iv. so what now?

well i mean . im not entirely sure how sold i am on haikyuu in the content creation department (as a creator n to a lesser extent, as a consumer). as mentioned previously, its no longer my primary focus. it doesnt mean im not into haikyuu anymore; i have a lot of love for those boys but i cant rlly say im even caught up w recent fandom activity and also havent even finished s4 pt2 LMAO thats on my to do list

and despite all that, i still want to share my plots n concepts and snippets and maybe even fics. it wont happen anytime soon. it might not even happen. but i mean . its better than me saying i wont write ever again shjdkfs but either way ill probably use this blog as a personal blog w the occasional ask game for dialogue prompts (those are always so fun i love making up aus to fit like . the most mundane prompts)

as for my works (past and any potential future), ive opened an ao3 acc here n ill be editing n possibly expanding on my old works to post there. tumblr, to me, is The x reader hub, but i figure more x reader fics on ao3 is never a bad thing.

ill be deleting/posting drafted posts to the queue since they were all meant to be queued anyway as well as (sorry again 🧍‍♂️) deleting or answering asks in the inbox. (moots if you get a notif from me saying i rbed your post from months ago ... mind your business) im very hard to get ahold of and its ... a problem. expect an overhaul of the nav n shit to reflect my new direction n also because i feel like i cant tell if my passion for carrd is shared by the majority HSDKLFS maybe its better to read my info in a normal post ykwim .......

and of course . if youve read all this n decided im no longer worth the follow, i sure as hell cant stop you. thank you for wanting to, at some point, hear what i have to say -- it means more than you think.

tl;dr: writing will be edited and reposted to ao3, this blog will be a personal blog with a hint of writing (sometimes)

the tl;dr to end all tl;drs:

im back! i wont be as active as i used to due to a lessened interest in haikyuu in general, but i have an ao3 acc now where all my past work will be edited, possibly expanded, and reposted. any future work will also find itself there. my halloween requests will be posted in batches as incomplete concepts, plots, and snippets of scenes; i wont be promising to finish any of them.

there are still fic concepts im attached to and want to finish, but i cant promise any more writing on my end. this blog will be a personal blog with maybe writing, not a writing blog with my personal thoughts all over it.

regardless if you stick around or not, its been crazy sexy cool (equal emphasis) being on haikyuu tumblr even tho i wasnt around for long ... even tho its not my main focus anymore, im still excited to see what the future might hold 🤝

love, ari 💌

[river-bottom-nightmare]

Tag Game

tagged by @woahjaybird and @batshit-birds thank you very very much

1. why did you choose your url? because it sounds dark and deep and mysterious and has nothing at all to do with that traffic law breaking, snow mobile riding, merchandise destroying hooligan of a band

2. any side blogs? too many side blogs. everyone knows @river-bottom-aesthetics, it’s just my aesthetics blog. i run @haha-hawkeye with @/woahjaybird but we’re terrible at updating. thennnnn an rp blog that, once again, i’m terrible at updating. and a spam blog i refuse to tag out of shame. this is my main tho

3. how long have you been on tumblr? i joined tumblr around uhhhhhhhhhh idk 2015 ish? 2014? that’s what, six to seven-ish years. somewhere in there. but i made this blog in 2019.

4. do you have a queue tag? nah, i barely ever use queue, only if i’ve rbed wayyy too many posts in one day and i feel like i should space it out just because. but not often enough to ever even make the distinction.

5. why did you start your blog in the first place? my very first baby tumblr blog? pjo. i was suchhh a pjo fangirl oh my god. i made this current one because, after deleting my old account, i missed the spn fandom (which lets you all know i am Certifiably Insane who the fuck misses being part of the spn fandom???) so i made another blog.

6. why did you choose your icon? i’m an aerialist (as you all probably know) and a blog i follow rbed an edit that someone made with the icon and i immediately went whoaaaaaa thats cool. i asked them if they were cool with me using their edit as a pfp, they were like sure, and so here i am! they’re linked in my blog description if you want to check them out.

7. why did you choose your header? ,,,,,,so the header for my mobile theme is something i made back when i was knee-deep in my mcu phase and i just kept it bc i thought it was funny with my new blog. but on desktop, my header is that one full-page opening panel from nightwing 78 bc i thought it was pretty.

8. what’s your post with the most notes? this dumbass supernatural one, unsuprisingly

9. how many mutuals do you have? uhhh mutuals that i like talk to on a regular basis? like 5 or 6. mutuals that i never talk to but we like/rb each other’s posts and generally appreciate each other? like 5 more.

10. how many followers do you have? way too fuckin many lmao

11. how many people are you following? 390. i’m scrolling through my following list and wow i just deadass forgot about half the fandoms i’ve been in

12. have you ever made a shitpost? uhhhh i’ve made a couple memes? a few meme posts? but no acutal shitposting

13. how often do you use tumblr each day? a lot, but not nearly as much as i used to, which counts for something right?

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? yea back on my old blog i got into mild arguments with people about some things about pjo that i didn’t like and the fandom at the time was,,,,,uh. a little protective and i got into little fights about that. but tiny me had no backbone and very little tolerance for discourse before she got upset so those “arguments” stopped real quick, usually with me just ghosting the other person

15. how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts? not a fan. i mean yea they teach me about stuff but i see them so often and they’re so irritating. oftentimes they’re not even about anything important, they’re just rb bait. 

16. do you like tag games? i love tag games!! i get so excited whenever people tag me in stuff you have no idea. plus they’re just,,,,fun to do. 

17. do you like asks games? i love ask games. i’m absolutely terrible at answering asks (literally i’m so sorry for that) bc i constantly have to make the answers long and in depth-ish, but with ask games, it’s pretty simple and short answer-like and fun. i adore them, but ik they can get kind of annoying cause you didn’t follow me just to see me rb ask games lol. so i only do them every once in a while, when i happen to check my follower count and see that i passed a number or something.

18. which of your tumblr mutuals do you think is famous? i am not tagging them because i am NOT that brave but uhhh @/damthosefandoms and @/batshit-birds. but the good thing about tumblr is, unless there’s a fandom hierarchy in particular (in which case that fandom is toxic stay away), there really isn’t much clout and famous-ness (i need a better word for that one) on tumblr, which is something i always liked.

19. do you have a crush on a mutual? yea @bonkybearjpeg  hey pretty boy guess what i have a crush on you

20. tags @bikoncon @screennamealreadyused @bonkybearjpeg @subtleappreciation @newsical