#sunnyluneflowers

[sunflower-lilac42]

✧ 𝐎𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐇𝐢𝐦 || flowers au ♔

summary: when her brothers visit, they send her in a spiral ending in a panic attack and only one person could help her.

warnings: depression, offing of themselves, stress, feelings of not being good enough, toxic thoughts, the lot

notes: another sad one, this happens before rescue. slightly different but more perspective on how adam and luca feel about it. feel free to ask anything for the au because i love hearing from you guys and i hope to answer some questions if you have any. add yourself to the taglist ➵ taglist!

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They didn’t know what to do, they were pacing around her dorm room like madmen. Over the break, Luca and Adam decided to visit Violet since the three of them had missed each other. They had just been merely talking about school and how Luca was doing, playing NHL in the girl’s dorm room when Violet had dropped the controller. Her heart skipped a beat in nervousness and she looked at her desk that held the homework she needed to do. 

It was a hard time for Violet because even though she had the whole week off for break, she needed to stay back and work on her finals. She was majoring in four separate things, which she brought on herself but that wasn’t the point. Being close to finals she had so much work to do, in some classes, she had to write a paper, in others a final project, and in some a final exam and they still hadn’t finished learning all the material.

As much as she loved to be clean and organized, now wasn’t the time. If you walked into the freshman dorm room at this moment, you would not think it was Violet who lived there. Half of the projects she had to complete were on the desk, directions in a messy pile. Her notes for her exams and the study guide were all laid out in an unorganized manner, with her notes for her papers mixed in with them. 

Luca, being the big brother he was, kneeled in front of the girl, placing his hands on her knees, “Hey, V. I need you to breathe for me, alright?”

Telling her to breathe was not the most helpful. And not that it was their fault, but they weren’t the best at comforting her. Being the primary root of her anxiety and depression (unknowingly and unconsciously their fault and she knew that), it was hard for her to talk about these problems with her. She knew the two were inquisitive and they would ask what was wrong or if there was anything they could do to fix it, that’s all they wanted to do. They wanted to fix things without any prior knowledge of the things going on, they always thought they could when they couldn’t. 

That was the difference between them and Connor. Being able to open up to Connor was much easier when she didn’t have to worry about him knowing them. Of course, Connor knew Adam, he had met him a few times and got to know him during the draft but he didn’t know him know him. So any previous knowledge of the two disappeared when Violet started to open up. This meant that Connor knew what to do in this situation, and even if he didn’t he kept the conversation tame for both of them. 

When she shook her head at Luca’s words, he almost started crying too. He had never seen his baby sister look this broken before. He was trying to hold it together for both of them. He turned his head to see why the room was silent besides Violet’s hyperventilating breaths and choking sobs, Adam had almost started to hyperventilate himself, sitting on her bed and hand to his chest. 

“Adam, hey hey. It’s okay, bud. She's going to be fine, alright.” Luca knew how to handle Adam when he broke down, the two were inseparable. 

He glanced between his sister and his brother, his little siblings. How was he supposed to pick? Violet’s was more severe but he had no idea how to get her to calm down, while Adam could calm down in five minutes and then go back to her, so that’s what he did. He got up and walked over to his brother, bringing him into a hug, calming him. 

Adam’s breaths were shallow but evened out within seconds, meanwhile Violet’s had only gotten worse. Her mind was in overdrive, many thoughts popping into her head every second that only got worse when Luca appeared but worsened again when he left.

‘He doesn’t care.’ ‘He can’t handle me.’ ‘I’m only being a burden.’ ‘I’m annoying.’ ‘He’s leaving me, they’re leaving me.’ ‘They think I’m annoying.’

Luckily, at that moment, Ollie barged into the room getting ready to announce something when she saw the scene. Having this become almost second nature to her, she went through her tactics; holding Violet’s hand, the 5 senses method that only worked once in every 5 tries, and even tried talking about hockey to get her mind distracted from whatever she was currently thinking about, but her voice wasn’t the same as Connor’s and that’s what she needed. 

Ollie scrambled to take her phone out of her back pocket and Adam and Luca panicked once more, “Why wasn’t that helping?”

“Not the time.”

“What are you doing?”

“Are you done? Obviously, nothing you tried, if you even did try, fucking helped. Maybe if you paid more attention and were mentally aware of what’s happening to her you’d know how to handle this situation.”

It was a low blow, Ollie knew that Violet had a hard time talking to the boys, but all in all, it was partly true. If Violet felt more comfortable around them and their big personalities she could talk to them about it. Adam and Luca weren’t the type of people to deal with this stuff. Yes, it was her fault at some points and she acknowledged that and she acknowledged the fact that sometimes it wasn’t something either of them could control.

She tried to not make it worse for the girl but after everything she’d heard about her and her mental health coinciding with her brothers, the damage the two had unintentionally done, she couldn’t hold back. She heard her roommate's breathing pick up and finished finding the number to call, “Hello?”

“Hi, no time to talk. V’s having a panic attack.”

She could hear the boy on the other side swear profanities, “Put her on.”

Ollie handed her best friend the phone and Violet held it with two hands against her ear, “I can’t breathe.” 

She sobbed trying to contain everything that she was doing, “I know, honey, I know. I’m here, okay? Do you think you can try to take a deep breath?” As much as she tried, so couldn’t.

She merely shook her head, no answer was able to form, “Hey. Violet?”

His voice was smooth, calm, and steady and didn’t hold a single ounce of worry or unsureness in it, but if anyone were to see him right now, his eyes would be wide and forming tears, his forehead would be wrinkled and his eyebrows were pinched together. His body was tense, his fist clenching and unclenching. He bit his lip in silence and bounced his leg up and down, “V, what’s happening? Talk to me. Come on, pretty girl.”

“N-no. I can’t.”

Luca and Adam looked dumbfounded, in the matter of just knowing who was on the other line she was able to speak and form sane thoughts. They mentally kicked themselves in the ass for not being able to do that. They should know how to care for their sister. For all they knew there was some person on the other line that had barely known her for six months that was able to do things that they should’ve been able to do for the past 6 years. They exchanged glances in worry, Adam wiping off the tears from his face. 

“It’s okay,” his voice went silent, thinking through the list of tactics he had created for when she got like this. 

He had created it when she told him about her intense panic attacks, he needed to be prepared for when it happened. Talking about her brothers was out of the question as they were visiting and in the same room as her, telling her about practice also wasn’t an option because he hadn’t had practice that day. 

He tapped his foot hoping she couldn’t hear it but that fell short, “Are you okay?”

This wasn’t what she was supposed to be worrying about, but at least her mind was on something else, right?

No, her mind now plagued her with thoughts of how she was stressing out Connor, how she was just a burden to him as well, that he didn’t really want to be doing this right now it was just another chore for him, he had too much on his plate and shouldn’t have to deal with her. 

“Perfectly fine, no need to worry, sweet girl. I just have a song stuck in my head.”

“What song?”

“Steal my girl.”

“I like that song.”

“Oh you do?”

“Mhm. Um, I think it’s getting worse…”

“What do you mean it’s getting worse?” Luca’s voice was stern, wanting nothing more in the world for this to stop and for her to be okay.

The harshness of his voice made her jump and tears formed in her eyes again, “Don’t yell at her.”

“Who’s yelling, V?”

“Not Ollie.” Violet didn’t want to explicitly throw her brothers under the bus so that was the safest option was to say who it wasn’t.

“You want to tell me about some flowers?”

“What kind?’

“Sunflowers.”

“I love sunflowers.”

“Oh, really, why?” Connor knew the answer, Luke was one of her best friends so that was one of the first flowers she had told him about when it came up in conversation.

“They remind me of Luke.”

Her sentences were short which meant she was still trapped in her little mind bubble, “And why’s that sweetheart?”

“Because when I met him he made me laugh not even two minutes later. He makes me laugh a lot, every time I see him. When he walks into a room, everyone gets really excited and visibly gets happier. I like to call him a little ray of sunshine.”

Connor chuckled, “You excited to see him soon?”

“Yeah. I miss him.”

“You know what, I think I saw some sunflowers yesterday.”

“How and where? It’s the middle of November, C.” 

The name immediately alarmed him, a codename that they had set back when Violet had visited him in Chicago. She never called him that, she hated the name and so did he. For the two of them, it meant she felt like she couldn’t speak freely to him, like someone in the room didn’t know about them or they made her feel unsafe. Even if she was having a hard time but couldn’t say, “Your brothers still there?”

“Mhm.”

“You wanna give the phone to Ollie real quick? I promise you Violet I won’t be gone for more than a few seconds. You think you can do it?”

The way Connor said her name made her body un-tense, it was his way of reassuring her that whatever he said was true, that he was going to be back in a few seconds. She handed the girl her phone, causing confusion to rise on her face, “Hi?”

“Get Adam and Luca out of there now.”

She didn’t need another word, standing and walking up to them “I need you to leave.”

“What no! We need to make sure she’s okay.”

“You two being here, isn’t helping. Leave. I’m not asking again.”

The boys continued their protests which left Ollie with one final option. She grabbed both of their sleeves, harshly dragging the two hockey players out of her dorm room and shutting the door when they were in the hallway. 

“All better now?”

“Yeah, Connie.”

“Still feeling a little panicky?”

“A little.” Knowing that she could talk to Connor freely now without her brothers figuring out who he was or why she was acting like this made her breathe a little more. 

“That’s good. You want to talk more or you want me to?”

That was another and the main difference between her brothers and Connor. Connor offered the breath, he offered to talk about things, he offered for her to talk or for him to talk. He never made her do anything. Most people would demand things out of her when she was this riled up, for her to breathe or to calm down, they would shout at her to get through to her when all she needed was a soothing voice, a way to distract her thoughts from what initially caused this. 

“You, please.”

“Okay, well I’m excited to see you in a couple of days. We can walk around the city if you want, go Christmsa shopping. Ride around on some trains, because I know how much you like them. We can look to see what Christmas decorations they have up already. We can go see the Christkindl Market in Wrigleyville. I know you’ll probably want to go to Billy Goats, and maybe I have a present for you to open up….”

That seemed to calm her down a lot, the idea of getting to see Connor soon and do all of these things with him felt like a breath of fresh air. She hadn’t seen him in a couple weeks and even then it was only for two days and he had games both of those days. Before then they hadn’t seen each other in four months.

“A present, you say?”

Her usual sarcastic nature and tone were back, making the boy smile, “Oh yeah, I wrapped it all by myself.”

“That’s a scary thought.”

Connor gasped, “Offensive, Miss. Violet.”

“It’s the truth.”

Connor laughed causing her to as well, Connor calming her down was a success that would later have to be described to her brothers but that was a thought for another time.

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[sunflower-lilac42]

✧ 𝐀𝐩𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 || flowers au ♔

summary: violet gets salty and posts her best friends showing that she doesn't need the people who were her brothers' friends first

warnings: none, i don't think

notes: this is the last thing i am going to post for flowers (just for a little while i promise). i'm going to work on my quinn fic and then maybe a few other things before coming back. anyways, this is kind of her clapping back at everyone and the start of her replacing people (mostly since they were luca and adam's friends first she realized that she didn't need 'pity' friends) so you're welcome if that is you wanted bc me too (except for luke because he's the best one of them all because even though he was friends with adam and luca first, luke will pick violet over them any day) and also a little fantilli sibling repair because they can't be broken forever. + a little bit of violet reassurance because she needs it from everyone. basically she's doing this because she feels like she doesn't feel like she tells them enough and is in a depressive state right now so... it's kind of like a call for help in a way but very subtle add yourself to the taglist ➵ taglist!

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messyviolets

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messyviolets appreciation post 1/5. this week has been hard so i figured i would highlight my favorite people in a thanks for everything they have done for me.

i'm starting with the first friend i ever made when i got to uofi. she has been there for literally everything and i just couldn't be more grateful for her and everything she's done for me. she knows me more than i know myself and just, she's amazing i couldn't wish for a better best friend.

i love you olli

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ollie.barnes i love you, v! you're are so amazing, you deserve everything, the whole world, the whole universe, literally everything

⤷ messyviolets crying

thompsonjared63 i ain't never seen two pretty best friends- oh wait, yes i have and they're my best friends too

⤷ messyviolets gay

⤷ ollie.barnes gay

⤷ thompsonjared63 right (sort of), but rude

mmcarthy06 i know them!

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justin.rolland94 we better be getting a post (it's okay, we know you love us anyways)

⤷ messyviolets ...no comment

user01 i feel like these next four posts are either going to be really heartbreaking or really cute

⤷ user02 i feel like we won't be the ones heartbroken

⤷ user03 i think some people are going to get a big wakeup call

user05 you guys are literally the cutest people ever

⤷ ollie.barnes thank you!

⤷ messyviolets you're so sweet!

user06 i think they forgot to save some pretty for us

user07 god really does have favorites

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messyviolets

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messyviolets appreciation post 2/5, the main five

following meeting ollie, we met these three weird guys that were moving in across the hallway from us and that led us to millions of memories. jared, mikey, and justin have been through the gutter with us and put up with our shit and i don't know why they haven't left us yet. this group has done some unexplainable things together but we do it together and that's what matters. but thank you for being my big brothers whenever i needed them and thank you for introducing me (and ollie) to the hockey team, doing god's work fr.

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justin.rolland94 yay! she posted about us. i love you too, v. you're like my twin and i couldn't be more grateful to meet you

⤷ messyviolets i fear i broke him

mmcarthy06 awe v, don't get all sappy on us. i love you too!

⤷ messyviolets i will delete this post

⤷ justin.rolland94 just because mikey's being an ass doesn't mean you have to punish me and thompsonjared63 too

⤷ messyviolets if one of you gets it, you all get it

thompsonjared63 my little sister! thank you for helping me out with my calc homework

⤷ messyviolets i'm younger than you by like two days

⤷ thomsponjared63 two days that i have lived and you haven't

adamfantilli big brothers huh?

⤷ messyviolets don't worry, you and luca.fantilli will always be my favorite brothers

⤷ luca.fantilli and you're our favorite sister

user08 this group is just ahhhhh, she needs to post them more

⤷ mmcarthy06 yeah she does

⤷ justin.rolland94 call her out messyviolets

⤷ messyviolets i'm sorry, i know i do, i still love you

⤷ justin.rolland94 we know v, we're just messing with you

⤷ messyviolets thanks jus

user09 how is she so social?? i feel like she gives off major introvert vibes

user10 violet... give us more boy content. you always seem to find the cute ones

⤷ messyviolets i will get right on that, ma'am

markestapa i think the umich team is need of a post too...

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messyviolets

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messyviolets appreciation post 3/5, my hockey boys

like i said earlier, i wouldn't have met these guys without jared, mikey, and just. these boys are my found family, they are literally everything to me. they would do everything and anything for me and they are so supportive of me and everything i do which isn't common to come by these days. thank you for staying up late to study for my psych exam for me, thank you for going to late night mcdonald's runs with me, thank you for picking me up from parties, thank you for crying with me when i couldn't bare to be by myself, thank you for helping me through tough times, thank you for everything

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nathan.dash you're going to make me cry, v

⤷ messyviolets no don't cry!

⤷ nathan.dash we'll always be there for you, just call when you need us. love you

⤷ messyviolets love you too

aidan.taylor10 violet, i know what you're thinking. stop it

⤷ messyviolets i can't help it, aidan. i love you

⤷ aidan.taylor10 i love you

nick7andersen you don't need to say thank you, v. we do that because we want too

⤷ messyviolets ...i know

⤷ nick7andersen mhmm, love you v

⤷ messyviolets love you too, nicky

drakenilescox i'm commenting so when you see the notification you can laugh at my last name like you always do

⤷ messyviolets thank you, dray. i needed that

⤷ drakenilescox don't thank me... thank my dad. i love you violet (and stop it. i know what you're doing)

⤷ messyviolets i love you too (and i'm trying)

alexlleskaj17 we'll do everything for you, even if it's performing at one of your recitals

⤷ messyviolets omg i forgot about that! thank you guys for that, you were amazing

⤷ alexlleskaj17 and we would do it again, love you v

⤷ mesyviolets love you alex

a.varrassi22 like you said, you know we'll be there for you anytime you need, you're our little sister. i love you

⤷ messyviolets now you're going ot make me cry, anthony. i love you too

edwards.73 i thought you said you weren't replacing us

⤷ messyviolets sorry, didn't know i needed permission to have new friends. and i didn't know i had to listen to what you wanted me to do

⤷ markestapa that's not what he's saying, v

⤷ messyviolets i don't need my brothers' pity friends, but thank you

⤷ rutgermcgroaty v, we're your friends too

⤷ messyviolets are you though? or are you just friends with me becuase of adam and luca...?

⤷ user11 you dropped this 👑 messyviolets

⤷ messyviolets oh, thank you, love!

markestapa what's gotten into you

⤷ messyviolets not you apparently

⤷ _connorbedard oh shit

⤷ user12 shit just got real

user13 violets speaking out and i am loving it

⤷ user14 frrrrr, the tea is piping hot

user14 queen violet is talking her shit

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messyviolets 4/5 appreciation posts, my best friends

i know i say i have a lot of best friends, but truly, cole and luke are the best ones i have ever had (i'm sorry). these two have been the most supportive people in my life and it's making me cry to even write this. they have always seen me for who i truly am unlike others and it just makes me so happy to finally be seen for who i am and not who i remind them of

luke, when i first met you i couldn't help but call you a sunflower. you make the room light up wherever you go and everyone is always so much happier when you're around. i remember jack texting me to tell me how excited he was that you were going to be in jersey with him and he was going to be able to play in the nhl with his little brother. you have done so much for me and i couldn't be more happy to call you my best friend. thank you once again for seeing me as violet and violet only.

cole, i don't see you that often and that breaks my heart. when i met you at the lake house i was immediately drawn to you. i wish we could see each other more often so hopefully when the hawks play the canadiens i can come see you! i miss you so much. thank you for always making sure that i am okay whether it's a call once a week or even a text before you play a game. thank you again for making sure that you see me as me and not someone's sister.

you guys are the best and i wouldn't be where i am without you, love you guys so much

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colecaufield violet, what's wiht you and making people cry today. i love you so much and i miss you, you better come to a game soon

⤷ messyviolets i'll try my hardest, coley! love you

lhughes_06 violet, you are the most amazing person. i would choose you every day and any day over anyone and everyone. if anyone should be saying thank you it should be me. thank you for everything you have done for me, supporting me through my rookie season, through break ups, through class, everything. i love you violet, can't wait to see you

⤷ messyviolets uncalled for, lukey. this is my appreciation post for you

⤷ lhughes_06 i know you need the reassurance sometimes and i know what you're trying to do, don't do it, violet.

⤷ messyviolets you guys know me too well. thank you lukey, love you so much

markestapa so they get a post but we don't... didn't you meet them from adam and luca too

⤷ colecaufield look dude, if you're that mad about violet not being close friends with you anymore, so much so that you have to talk crap to her, then maybe you should move on and get over your crush

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user15 they are so cute... i love their friendship. it warms my heart

user16 i'm literally going to cry, cole standing up for her is the best thing ever

user17 mark's getting it and i'm here for it, he's a complete ass

⤷ user18 if anyone comes at violet for defending herself we're gonna through some hands

jackhughes thank you for taking care of him, v

⤷ messyviolets jacky, it's nothing

⤷ _quinnhughes it is though, v. you're his best friend and you make him happy. you are the best person ever, we love you too

trevorzegras keep doing you v, we all love you and support you

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messyviolets

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messyviolets 5/5 appreciation post, the best for last, my hawks

after i met connor he introduced me to kevin and lukas and i couldn't be more grateful for that. the four of us have done so much together for only knowing each other for two months.

kevin and lukas are more of my brothers from another mother becuase i have so many at this point. we truly are just an iconic trio (or group when connor decides to actually join us for pictures)

connor, you're connor. you're amazing and thank you for everything, no words needed

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lukasreichel44 oh yeah, we made it again boys. we are her favorites, i'm calling it

⤷ messyviolets don't expose me lukas

⤷ kevinkorchinski whoops, sorry. you loooooooooove us

⤷ messyviolets yes, yes i do

kevinkorchinski when are you coming to visit again???

⤷ messyviolets depends on who i'm going for

⤷ user19 tea!!!!! i hope she's talking about connor

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_connorbedard no thank you's needed, v. you deserve the whole world

⤷ messyviolets connie...

⤷ user20 they are so cute

titobeauvi91 just a group of kids

⤷ messyviolets omg! hi tito!

⤷ titobeauvi91 hi violet

ryan_donato y'all are crazy

⤷ messyviolets ryan's here too??? where do you guys come from?

adam.fantilli how many times have you visited them

nhlblackhawks we love when you visit violet! you need to come visit soon again

⤷ messyviolets alright, who hacked the hawks insta?

caleychelios_nhl violet! we need to hang out sometime

⤷ messyviolets y-you're caley chelios. omg. i want to be you when i grow up

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[sunflower-lilac42]

✧ 𝐇𝐢𝐬 𝐅𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐁𝐨𝐮𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐭 || flowers au ♔

summary: connor receives his first bouquet from violet after she visits for her first game

warnings: none, i don't think

notes: finally a happy one! don't worry these upcoming ones all are happy ones as well but i love angst so... that might change. also do you guys want more of the fantilli siblings?? i feel like i have just been writing for violet and connor which i don't mind doing, i love it, but i feel like i made her the sister of luca and adam and i haven't really made it a point to really explore their relationship. also this would've been out earlier but I kind of started watching the golden globes so... and everytime i write connor saying 'sweet girl' or 'pretty girl' i literally die inside. feel free to ask anything for the au because i love hearing from you guys and i hope to answer some questions if you have any. add yourself to the taglist ➵ taglist!

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After relentless begging, text after text, call after call, bribe after bribe, Violet finally agreed to take a weekend to drive up to the city to watch one of Connor’s games. In reality, it didn’t take much for her to agree it was just the timing of his games and her school things that made it almost entirely impossible for her to visit. 

Connor was bouncing off the walls when he got the text from her saying she was coming for not only one but two games, however, he knew the second one wasn’t for him. It worked out that the game she decided to go to, they were playing the Devils the next day. She debated heavily for a while before she decided to get tickets to that one as well. 

Connor was more than happy to get her tickets, Violet initially refused the offer from the boy but he wasn’t having any of it. Getting her two tickets for both the Panthers and the Devils games. He hasn’t been this excited and nervous for a game since his debut and even then, he was calmer than that. 

Violet spent all week working on his bouquet. She hadn’t thought about which flower he represented and when she did, she didn’t know which one to give him. There were so many that he could be, yet as she looked through her book of flowers corresponding them with her favorites, she landed on canterbury bells. 

She had fallen in love with these flowers right before her high school graduation. They were outside the venue where she would graduate from and snapped a picture, not having time to look it up. When she looked up pictures she was immediately entranced by their beauty and knew that she should save those flowers for someone special. 

When she got word of Nico being injured, she was saddened for both him and the team. He was their captain, they couldn’t do anything without them. So even though she’s only met the man once or twice her whole life, she still made him a bouquet.

She dragged Ollie to the games with her, the two of them driving up to Chicago after Ollie’s last class on Friday. She hadn’t seen Connor in forever and she was super excited. She texted him throughout the drive, mostly because Connor wanted to make sure they were driving safely and nothing happened along the way.

When they arrived at Connor’s apartment, she knocked on the door, “I’m waiting.”

Connor opened the door and immediately grinned, bringing her into a hug which she gladly accepted. Ollie excused herself into the apartment as the two stayed hugging, “I missed you.”

Connor sighed, placing his chin on her head, “I missed you too.”

“I need to tell you everything that’s happened in the past however many months.” She giggled, ready for her gossip session with her best friend. 

Connor laughed and led her into his apartment, placing her bag into his room, “You are okay sharing with me right? Or would you rather stay with Ollie?”

She placed a hand on his arm, “If I wasn’t okay with it I wouldn’t have offered it. Now what are we doing for dinner, I’m starving.” She flopped down on his bed curling up into the comforter. 

“I don’t know, what do you want?”

Before she even got a word out, Ollie screamed from the guest room, “Texas Roadhouse!”

Ollie had been obsessed with Texas Roadhouse since she started going to UofI. She and Violet were wandering about and were extremely hungry so they decided to go somewhere they had never been before. She fell in love with the rolls and everything else was history.

“Of course, she does.” Violet turned over and got under the covers of Connor’s bed. Connor raised an eyebrow at her, “What are you doing?”

She shot him an innocent smile, “Getting comfy. I don’t want to go anywhere?”

“Is that true, sweet girl?” Violet blushed at the nickname, Connor only really used it if she was in the middle of an anxiety or a panic attack. She just nodded as she closed her eyes, smelling the fading scent of Connor from the pillow. 

“How about I can go and get it and then bring it back.”

“I came here to see you, I want to spend time with you especially because you have games the next two days.” Her eyes focused on the ground before fiddling with her fingers and picking at them.

Connor placed a hand over her own to stop her from picking at them, “Hey, stop it. You can go with me if you want.”

She popped up quickly, “Okay!”

✧༺✎༻∞

 

Ollie ate in the guest room, not wanting to impede on the growing relationship happening outside her door. Violet and Connor sat in the small living room watching the Blues and Devils game. They were in the middle of talking when all of a sudden the announcers started talking loudly and they couldn’t hear the sound of the skates anymore. 

Violet looked at the TV to see Jack against the boards, not moving. She gasped in horror as they played the replay, even though it didn’t look that bad, he still wasn’t moving. Her leg started to bounce anxiously, Connor pulled her to his side, “Hey it’s okay, sweet girl. He’s going to be okay.”

Even though they weren’t the closest friends, they still cared about each other. Jack and Violet’s relationship was just a bunch of banter and annoyance for one another, but if she needed to or if he did, they knew they could go to each other. 

She never stopped thinking of the worst possible outcome, “What if he’s not? Luke must be so worried right now. I couldn’t imagine if Adam or Luca got hurt.”

The boy moved her to sit in front of him and she wrapped her arms around his torso. Connor unfolded his legs and she scooted closer so she could rest her head on his chest. He wrapped an arm around her and placed his other hand on her head, keeping it where it was, “He’s fine, sweetheart. Calm down, please. I hate seeing you cry.”

She calmed down at his touch, one of the quickest times she had calmed down from an emotional high. When she pulled away Connor looked down at her, “Hey there she is.”

He wiped the tears off of her cheeks and smiled, “There’s the pretty girl.”

She groaned, hiding her face back in his chest once more, a blush rising to her face, “Connor. Stop it.”

✧༺✎༻∞

Before the game, Violet and Ollie went out and explored Chicago. They went to the Bean and went to Magnolia Bakery. They went shopping because they both knew that if Connor had gone with them, he would’ve tried to pay for everything. 

Ollie teased the girl as she put on her Bedard jersey, “When are you guys going to get together?”

“What do you mean?”

“Oh, come on. You two are so in love with each other that it’s annoying and gross.”

“We are not.”

“Then what were all the nicknames I heard last night, ‘sweet girl’, ‘pretty girl’, ‘sweetheart’?”

“He was just being nice. No one could like me like that.”

“What do you mean V? You are one of the most amazing people ever. You are the kindest soul, you’re out of this world gorgeous, and you make time for everyone. You are the main character of a book or a movie.”

“No, I’m not and can we move on from this, please?” Ollie frowned, saddened by her friend's self-esteem. 

The two drove in almost complete silence, Violet worrying about whether or not Connor liked her. Sure, she had had a deep affection for the boy but when her roommate asked her that question she couldn’t stop asking herself if she liked him.

She never knew why they instantly clicked, whether it was because she was a damsel in distress and he saved her, or simply just because they were the same age. They never went a day without communicating and that hadn’t happened to her ever. She did find it weird that he always wanted to pay for things but she thought it was just because he was being a gentleman. Her last boyfriend was a point-blank asshole that she never told anyone about, so she was unfamiliar with a healthy and good relationship. 

As they pulled into the United Center, Violet felt another wave of anxiety rushing through her, she didn’t want Connor to get hurt. She noticed all the other Bedard jerseys on other people’s backs. She hadn’t felt that bothered by it until she noticed a group of girls, roughly the same age as her, maybe a year younger, and an intense feeling of jealousy came over her. 

‘They are so much prettier than me.’ ‘Connor would be happier with them.’ ‘They probably don’t have issues like I do.’ ‘They probably don’t have a fit over every little thing that happens.’

She pushed the thoughts out of her head, she was here to see Connor, and Connor was excited for her to be here. She and Ollie conversed throughout the game, making little comments here and there. Connor kept looking at her when he was on the bench or when the play stopped. 

When he got his goal, Violet jumped so high, excited for the boy. He pointed at her as he skated back to the bench, a barely noticeable wink but when they showed him on the video board she blushed. Some of the girls were talking around her but she couldn’t pay any mind to it when he was on the ice, eyes laser focused on not only him but anyone who came close to him. 

When he got his high-sticking penalty in the third period, Ollie nudged her, “Ooooo, looks like you got yourself a bad boy.”

“Shut up.”

After the game was over, they stayed behind waiting for the stars of the game. The second star of the game was Connor and he pointed at her once more with his stick, causing her cheeks to redden again. He could do anything at this point and she would blush. 

They met Connor back at his apartment and Ollie went immediately to bed. Violet stayed up until Connor was done with his shower and he laid down next to her, “Hi.”

“Hi. nice job tonight.”

“Thank you.”

“I got you something.”

“You didn’t have to.”

“But I wanted to, now shut up and close your eyes.” Violet walked over to her bag where she had hidden the bouquet. 

When it was in her hand she sat in front of him on the bed and held it out, “Open.”

Connor opened his eyes and looked down, eyes immediately watering, “You made me a bouquet?”

He had always wanted one after she told him about them. There was something about Violet's flowers that just made him so happy and the fact that he got one made him feel special, “Thank you.”

He examined the flowers with precision, not wanting to miss any details, “What are they?”

“Canterbury bells.”

“And what do they mean?”

“Do you really want to know?”

“Of course!”

“They represent faith, gratitude, and constancy. I’m really grateful for you and they just reminded me of a special person which is you.”

Connor couldn’t help but let a few tears fall, “That means a lot.”

“Con, don’t cry!”

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to.”

“It’s okay.” She hugged him tightly, and that’s how the two fell asleep that night.

✧༺✎༻∞

violetsdiaries

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violetsdiaries i went to chicago this weekend and saw my best friend! if you wish to know, the sunflowers are for Luke, the multi-colored roses are for Nico as a get better, and the opened tulips are for Jack as a get better as well. if you're worried, don't be! luke's taking care of them for me 🫶🏻 missed you lukey 🥲

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lhughes_06 they arrived safely to jersey

⤷ violetsdiaries thank you, thank you, thank you

jackhughes thanks, v. they're really nice

⤷ violetsdiaries of course jacky, don't say i never did naything ncie for you

nicohischier we've met each other once? twice? i can't believe you made me a famous violet bouquet.

⤷ violetsdiaries nico you are the most precious person ever. also famous??

⤷ nicohischier yeah, lhughes_06 never shuts up about them

⤷ violetsdiaries lukeyyyy you got some explaining to do

⤷ lhughes_06 no i don't

adamfantilli wait, there's four bouquets there 🧐

⤷ violetsdiaries i guess that one year of college really paid off 😧

⤷ adamfantilli i don't need your sass missy

⤷ violetsdiaries i was going to tell you but after that comment...

user01 she's so secretive but i'm kind of living for it

user02 i really want to know who that fourth bouquet is for 😫

⤷ user03 fr, i need to know who's so special for them to get a violet bouquet

⤷ user04 the torture needs to end violetsdiaries

⤷ violetsdiaries i would love to tell you guys, but not yet

luca.fantilli you'll tell me tho right violetsdiaries? i'm your favorite brother

⤷ violetsdiaries hahaha no

ollie.barnes hehe adamfantilli & luca.fantilli i know!

⤷ adamfantilli ollie, you're our favorite

⤷ luca.fantilli yeah, adam will buy you anything you want

⤷ ollie.barnes sorry boys, i'm loyal to violet

thompsonjared63 you went to a hockey game without us

⤷ violetsdiaries i'm so sorry, i'll bring you next time

⤷ _connorbedard uh...

⤷ user05 connor why you being like that

⤷ user06 a little sus

⤷ user07 1. who is this man and 2. why is he in her comment section

⤷ user05 he was the first overall pick in the 2023 nhl draft and apparently he knows violet, he's been liking and commenting on her posts for like five or six months now

⤷ violetsdiaries no comment

user08 i feel like her and connor would be a really cute couple

⤷ user09 agreed!

⤷ markestapa i don't

user10 chicago vlog!

✧༺✎༻∞

messyviolets

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messyviolets ollie and i had a bit of fun in chicago... i came for one but saw another... anyways i missed luke so much so it was good to see him. thank you to ollie for the most amazing pics ever

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lhughes_06 missed my best friend 💜

⤷ markestapa i miss my best friend too

⤷ violetsdiaries i'm so sorry marky, i promise i'll visit over break

⤷ markestapa you better

markestapa adamfantilli, luca.fantilli, and i are alll ganging up on you. who's this mysterious person??

⤷ messyviolets no, i deserve my privacy 🙂

nathan.dash she's abandoning us

⤷ aidan.taylor we should kidnap her

⤷ mmcarthy06 as much as i would love to, we can't

⤷ emmett.joy not if she consents

⤷ aidan.taylor then it wouldn't be kidnapping

⤷ drakenilescox we should ask her messyviolets

⤷ messyviolets we're hanging out this weekend 🤭

⤷ a.varrassi22 yay!

⤷ alekleskaj17 yay!

⤷ nathan.dash yay!

⤷ justin.rolland94 yay!

⤷ nick7andersen yay!

⤷ thompsonjared63 yay!

⤷ aidan.taylor yay!

⤷ mmcarthy06 yay!

⤷ drakenilescox yay!

markestapa why are all these illini guys here?

⤷ messyviolets because they are my friends, you got a problem with it estapa?

⤷ aidan.taylor yeah, estapa

⤷ messyviolets aidan, honey, no fighting

⤷ aidan.taylor sorry, v

⤷ markestapa um, not really you're business either

⤷ messyviolets i know you're upset i didn't go to umich, mark, but you can't be acting like this

ollie.barnes we need to have more road trips together

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_connorbedard so... you went to a hawks game

⤷ messyviolets of course! gotta support lukasreichel44

⤷ lukasreichel44 oh yeah, totally

⤷ messyviolets lukas and i are best friends

⤷ _connorbedard i thought i was your best friend

⤷ lhughes_06 _connorbedard that's what i thought too

⤷ adam.fantilli you're really hustling all these guys messyviolets

⤷ messyviolets you have no clue, bro

_connorbedard you didn't die while driving

⤷ ollie.barnes that's because she mad me drive

⤷ messyviolets hey, i drove in the city! you should be proud of me connie

⤷ _connorbedard i am very proud of you, v

⤷ user11 wait they are so cute

⤷ user12 if we don't get more bantilli i will cry, or riot, but mostly cry

⤷ user11 ikr, if he's been who she's posting about, ugh they are amazing and so cute, it's literally like a dream

⤷user13 they are like straight of a book like a forbidden romance or a hidden romance

⤷ user12 wait, you're so right!

_quinnhughes how do you always manage to find cones?

⤷ violetsdiaries because I like them so they just show up everywhere and anywhere

𝑻𝑨𝑮𝑳𝑰𝑺𝑻 ˏˋ°•*⁀➷

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@ivy-34 | @itsnotgray | @daisysnhl | @love4ldr | @dancerbailey3 | @love4lando | @thescooby-gang | @biscuit-muffin05 | @toasttt11

[sunflower-lilac42]

✧ 𝐅𝐋𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐑𝐒 𝐀𝐔 || 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘰𝘳 𝘣𝘦𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘥 ♔

in which the aesthetic sister of the fantilli brothers falls for the number one overall pic because they met once

✎ FICS ⇘ : :

➺ draft day (fic + insta edit)

➺ roadie (fic + insta edit)

➺ welcome to the eras tour pt. 2 (coming soon)

➺ his first bouquet

➺ only him

➺ the first of many winters

➺ rescue

➺ connor's question (coming soon)

➺ the crash

➺ everything is okay

✎ INSTA EDITS + BLURBS ⇘ : :

➺ band camp

➺ welcome to the eras tour pt. 1

➺ appreciation

➺ nightmare

➺ hard launch

✎ ASKS/THOUGHTS ⇘ : :

➺ about the au

➺ au timeline

➺ connor + violet

➺ violet's flowers

➺ violet's mental health

➺ hawks vs. devs (1/5)*

➺ the thoughts behind their first fight*

➺ mark’s crush*

➺ protective connor

➺ soft violet and connor (snowy days)*

➺ breaking dishes; pt. 1 , pt. 2

if you want to listen to the playlist, click here ➵ playlist!

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if you want to see the flowers au media hub, click here ➵ media hub!

all other things related to this series, asks and other things, click here ➵ flowers!

◛⑅·˚ ༘ ♡ feel free to send asks and find them under the 'sunnyluneflowers' tag

[sunflower-lilac42]

✧ 𝐁𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐂𝐚𝐦𝐩 || flowers au ♔

summary: violet takes on band camp at uofi and the boys notice an unfamiliar (but recognizable) person in the comments

warnings: band camp

notes: part of the 'flowers' au. this is kind of an introduction to violet's life and the other characters in this au. add yourself to the taglist ➵ taglist!

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violetsdiaries

liked by adamfantilli, luca.fantilli, lhughes_06, _connorbedard, and 203,983 others

violetsdiaries came to band camp, conquered band camp. first week of uofi and it was amazing! can't wait for our first game, go illini!

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user01 how can she be so aesthetic at band camp?!

⤷ violetsdiaries it's a talent

adamfantilli don't have too much fun without us

⤷ violetsdiaries would never, miss you adam 🥲

luca.fantilli so that's why you weren't answering my texts

⤷ violetsdiaries no i just didn't want to

⤷ adamfantilli careful violetsdiaries, you're letting your favorite brother show

⤷ violetsdiaries who? i don't see lhughes_06 anywhere 👀

⤷ lhughes_06 hi v!

⤷ violetsdiaries hi lukey! 🫶🏻

markestapa how could you leave me for illinois?! i need you at umich

⤷ violetsdiaries awe, marky. don't worry, i'll come visit soon

user02 mark wanting her to be at umich is so cute

user03 hopefully this means a new video soon!

⤷ violetsdiaries how'd you know?!

_connorbedard violet being aesthetic is something i never knew i needed

⤷ user04 connor bedard?! when'd you get here

⤷ violetsdiaries connor falling on his butt at practice is something i never knew i needed

⤷ markestapa sooo how'd you two meet

✧༺✎༻∞

messyviolets

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messyviolets met some new friends and went explorin' (also someone come get these hockey guys, i don't know where they came from)

tagged ollie.barnes, thompsonjared63, mmcarthy06, justin.rolland94, nathan.dash, aidan.taylor10, nick7andersen, emmitt.joy, drakenilescox, alexlleskaj17, a.varrassi22

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nathan.dash hey, you said you loved us!

⤷ markestapa she says that to everyone

⤷ user05 mark, you're letting your jealousy show

ollie.barnes just the beginning v!

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thompsonjared63 illini!

⤷ messyviolets illini!

⤷ ollie.barnes illini!

⤷ nathan.dash illini!

⤷ aidan.taylor illini!

⤷ nick7andersen illini!

⤷ justin.rolland94 illini!

⤷ mmcarthy06 illini!

⤷ emmett.joy illini!

⤷ drakenilescox illini!

⤷ alexlleskaj17 illini!

⤷ a.varrassi22 illini!

edwards.73 don't go replacing us, v

⤷ messyviolets that's offensive eth, i could never

_connorbedard working hard or hardly working?

⤷ messyviolets can it not be both?

⤷ _connorbedard for you, sure

⤷ messyviolets thanks, con ☺️

adamfantilli why is connor in your comments

⤷ messyviolets why are you (bc we're friends)

jackhughes party animal 🤠

⤷ messyviolets you know it 😉

⤷ ollie.barnes messyviolets you didn't tell me you knew jack hughes?!

⤷ messyviolets no one tell her about quinn, trev, and cole then

⤷ trevorzegras hi

⤷ _quinnhughes hi

⤷ colecaufield hi

⤷ ollie.barnes omg?!

⤷ messyviolets phew, that was a close one

thompsonjared63 i think you forgot to say how much you loved us in this post

⤷ emmitt.joy yeah, where's the love messyviolets

⤷ messyviolets i'm so sorry. i love the university of illinois urbana-champagne men's d1 hockey team so so so so much! 🥰🥰

⤷ nick7andersen that seemed a little forced

⤷ messyviolets noooo

[sunflower-lilac42]

✧ 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐂𝐫𝐚𝐬𝐡 || flowers au ♔

summary: violet gets into a crash and connor can't stop his thoughts

warnings: car crash, mentions of dying, sad, hospitals, crying, me saying "sob, cry, tears, bawl" too much

notes: um hey guys, this is a result of emma being in an angst mood (and gray's genius thoughts) please forgive me for the ending. | add yourself to the taglist ➵ taglist!

publish date: 02/17/24

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“Hi Connie, I just- I wanted you to know that I went to the game tonight. You did great, I’m so proud of you.” There was a pause, “I’m sorry for our fight. I know you care about me and I know you were all stressed with making your return, so I’m sorry. I-” 

And that was the end, but that couldn’t be the end could it? Connor pulled his phone away from his ear, frantically rushing to see if the voicemail buffered or stopped completely. When he saw it had reached the end and the time ran out, he panicked even more, millions of thoughts rushing through his head. “What if this was the last time I heard her voice?”

His hands were shaking as he threw on his jacket and made his way down the hallway to his friend’s apartment, knocking on the door rather timidly. Lukas opened the door laughing at something Kevin had said and his face went blank as soon as he laid eyes on Connor, “What’s wrong?”

He couldn’t speak, afraid to break down or to spill every thought that was going through his mind. He showed him his phone, allowing him to play the voicemail for himself, “Okay so she left you a voicemail? I’m not really seeing what the-”

“She’s in the hospital right now.”

“She’s what?” Kevin got up, walking over to the two, “What’s going on?”

“Violet’s at the hospital, she got into an accident. She was on her way back from the game, she came to see me.”

“Hey, it's not your fault. She’s old enough to make her own decisions. Did her brothers call you?”

Connor nodded, running a hand through his hair. He was distraught, confused, and heartbroken, every single negative emotion he could think of was how he felt right now. Kevin was the one to make the first move, running to grab his keys from his bedroom, “Alright let’s go.”

Lukas and Kevin grabbed their jackets and followed their friend out of their apartment, all but running down the stairs and through the hallways. It was about ten minutes into the drive when he realized he should call Ollie, dialing her number slowly, “Hey Ollie.”

“Connor.” 

“I know you’re mad at me but now’s not the time. Vi’s in the hospital.”

The anger faded from her voice, “What?”

“She wanted to come to the game tonight, once she heard I was playing and on her way back she got into an accident. I don’t really know what happened, Adam and Luca didn’t really explain it all that well to me.”

Ollie was shocked, not having the brain capacity to form thoughts besides the one that was blaring through her mind at the current moment, “Can I come?”

“If you want, yeah. I’ll send the hospital to you, just be careful?”

“Always. Thank you for calling me.”

He hung up after that, moving his way to call someone else. Kevin looked at him in confusion, “Who are you calling?”

“Luke.”

“Richardson?”

“No. Hughes.”

The call rang through his ears as he waited for him to pick up. It took him three times to reach him, Luke was hostile when he answered, “What the fuck do you want?”

Connor groaned, not wanting to deal with it right now, “Violet’s in the hospital.”

“She’s what?” Luke sat down, managing to find his way to a seat before he collapsed. 

“In the hospital. She got into an accident. Adam and Luca didn’t say much besides that but.”

“I’m booking a ticket.”

“Luke, you know that I know that she wouldn’t want you to miss the stadium series for her.”

“Fuck that, I’m flying there.”

“Luke.” It was the first time in a while that his voice had sounded this sure, this stern.

He heard him sigh, “Okay fine. But right after that, I’m coming down there.”

“Not expecting anything less. Do you-” He sniffled, the state of Violet coming back into his head, “Do you want me to call Cole?”

“No, I can do it. You just worry about getting yourself there. She still loves you, you know?”

He was unable to hold his sobs back, “Yeah.”

Luke hung up after that, leaving Connor to stare out the window. Kevin and Lukas were both worried about Violet, there was no doubt that she was like their little sister. But they were too worried about Connor, who looked as if he was so close to banging his head against the car door, “She’s gonna be okay, man.”

“You don’t know that. No one knows that. That- That could’ve been the last time I ever heard her voice and I will never forgive myself for the way-”

“Stop it, stop it, stop it! Just stop it, Connor! She is not going to die so get that out of you’re fucking head.” It was the first time Kevin hadn’t really spoken to him besides the few words he said back at their apartment. His voice was laced with tears, almost on the verge of breaking out in sobs like his friend.

Both Lukas and Connor were a little startled by his outbreak. There was no doubt that she and Kevin had grown close over the past couple of months. They were always texting each other at any time of day, making sure the other was okay. They would send each other tiktoks throughout the day, along with reels, shorts, tweets, and anything. It became their thing to at least send one of those and call it the meme/video of the day. 

The car ride was silent from there until the hospital, no one daring to say a word. When they arrived, they couldn’t decide whether or not to run in or walk in, so they compromised. They ran from the parking lot to the entrance of the emergency room, walking the rest of the way. They walked up to the desk, giving the lady the biggest smile each could muster up, “Hi. We’re here to see Violet- uh sorry, y/n Fantilli.”

Before she could even say anything, footsteps were approaching them, “Connor!”

The three turned to see Adam and Luca, who looked as if they were out of breath, “Hey, we can take you back.”

The receptionist nodded and allowed the two to take the three back to Violet’s room. Adam turned to the three, “I’m going to warn you guys now, it’s not going to be a pretty sight. She’s really banged up, there are cuts all over and her arm is broken, and a lot of other things that you’re just gonna find out about.”

Connor took a deep breath, nodding, “Is she awake?”

The two boys shook their heads, Luca being the one to speak, “No. They uh, said she’s in a coma right now. It was a pretty nasty hit, apparently.”

Anxiety rushed through the three boys’ bodies. Adam let them in, moving out of the way, the three stood in shock when they saw her. The brothers were right, it wasn’t a pretty sight, “Hi Mrs. and Mr. Fantilli.”

“Hi, Connor. How are you doing, honey?”

Connor only nods, tears rushing to his eyes. She hugged him tightly, “She’s strong, she’ll pull through.”

He nodded once again, pulling away to wipe his tears a little embarrassed, “I- um. Can I-”

Luca nodded, “Yeah, go for it.”

They all left the room, leaving the two alone together. Connor sat in one of the seats, holding her right hand, “I’m so so so sorry, Vi. I shouldn’t have fought with you. It was stupid, the stupidest thing I’ve ever done. God, I can’t- I can’t tell you how sorry I am.”

He allows himself to cry, “You have nothing to apologize for. You didn’t do anything. And thank you for coming tonight. I know you had class tomorrow, you have class tomorrow. It means a lot to me. And I’m sorry for not telling you I was playing or about my appointments. I love you so so much, sweet girl.”

Five more minutes passed, all in silence except for his cries. Adam and Luca came in, looking at him concerned. He wiped his tears again, looking at them, “Did you guys talk to her?”

They both nodded, “Yeah, bud. We did.”

“She left me a voicemail, and told one of the guys to tell me to call her when I got back.”

“She did?”

He pulled out his phone and played the message, “Hi Connie, I just- I wanted you to know that I went to the game tonight. You did great, I’m so proud of you.” Pause “I’m sorry for our fight. I know you care about me and I know you were all stressed with making your return, so I’m sorry. I-” 

He sobbed again once it was over, his earlier thoughts coming back. The two brothers did their best to calm him down but were getting almost nowhere with it. He started to hyperventilate, his breathing rushing, “Connor, hey hey it’s okay. She’s gonna be okay, alright?”

“But what if I never hear her voice again? What if the last thing I said to her was that she was being too protective, too overbearing? What if the last thing she said to me was in a broken tone? What if that’s the only thing I have left of her? What if she doesn’t come back to me?”

Luca and Adam couldn’t control themselves or their tears any longer at the sound of Connor’s questions. They brought him into a hug, the three of them all crying their eyes out. None of them were sure of what was going to happen. And all they could think about were the ‘what if’ questions.

𝑻𝑨𝑮𝑳𝑰𝑺𝑻 ˏˋ°•*⁀➷

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[sunflower-lilac42]

✧ 𝐑𝐞𝐬𝐜𝐮𝐞 || flowers au ♔

summary: violet’s first public cry for help and connor’s first time dealing with her own thoughts when it was this bad

warnings: depression, offing of themselves, stress, feelings of not being good enough, toxic thoughts, the lot

notes: so this is sad... but anyways. i didn't realize how much i've written for this au today but i am absolutely in love with connor and violet like actually its a problem. i've had so much fun with this au and i hope you guys have been too. i really wanted to incorporate mental health because i feel like violet is a person who wouldn't be picked out of the crowd to have mental health problems which made her perfect for this. i really hope to bring awareness to this and if you ever need anyone to talk to i'm here. feel free to ask anything for the au because i love hearing from you guys and i hope to answer some questions if you have any. add yourself to the taglist ➵ taglist!

reference links: choreography ➵ here! | violet's costume ➵ option 1! ; option 2! | the male costume ➵ here!

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She knew what she was doing when she posted that video. She wanted help but couldn’t say it. It was too hard. So she did it in the only way she knew how to, dance her feelings out. 

The day before she had gathered three of her closest friends from the dance program and went to one of the studios to hammer out choreography to ‘Rescue’ by Lauren Daigle. She had heard it when scrolling through TikTok and it had always been one of her favorite songs, and it described how she was feeling. 

She knew this would raise flags for everyone, especially her brothers and Connor but she didn’t care, isn’t that what she wanted? She wanted help but was too afraid to ask for it. Teaching them choreography didn’t take long, they were all in college and they picked up choreography quickly. 

As soon as she posted the video she would see calls and texts start to roll in. Ollie wasn’t home when she posted it, which she was grateful for. She hadn’t posted in a while so for her to come out and post this song after a month or two without posting, she knew it would be alarming. She posted the video and immediately locked herself in the bathroom, she was trying so hard not to relapse. She had been so good, 5 years of being clean, and she was close to throwing it all away. 

She didn’t know what brought this overwhelming, numb feeling on. It could’ve countless reasons but the only things that were coming to mind were the thoughts of guilt that she was replacing her best friends with new ones. The thoughts of guilt that she was replacing her UMich team with the UofI team. The thoughts of everyone loving and praising Adam, that’s all she heard ‘Adam this’ and ‘Adam that’. Luca was doing well too, and what was she doing? She hadn’t posted in months, she hadn’t seen Connor or even really talked to anyone in a couple of weeks. She had been doing poorly on tests and homework assignments. 

‘That’s what happens when you major in four different things and get a minor in three others’ ‘Adam is doing so well in the NHL. How come you’re not doing anything like that?’ ‘At least Luca’s doing something in school, all you’re doing is band. That’s not very impressive is it?’ ‘You’re such a disappointment.’ 

‘They hate me.’ ‘I’m not good enough.’ ‘They wish I was dead or I never existed.’ ‘They would be better off me.’ ‘They don’t need me.’ ‘Why are they friends with me?’ ‘I wish this would end.’

Their thoughts bled into her own, and she couldn’t escape the feeling. Why was this happening? I was doing so well. When do I get a break? She was frustrated. Frustrated at herself for letting this happen, frustrated at the Universe for making her feel like this, hadn’t I done enough? What did I do to deserve this? Why me?

It was a never-ending cycle that she was stuck in. And five years after believing that this was over, this feeling, these thoughts, came rushing back within weeks. Why? How? When? What? 

She was listening to her phone ping for minutes before she finally got the strength to throw the blade onto the ground and reach for her phone. 

Connor had been sitting in his apartment when he got the notification that she posted. He didn’t know where they were in their relationship. He wanted to be her boyfriend and could only hope she reciprocated the feelings. Sure it was a little weird that he had notifications on for when she posted but the girl thought it was sweet and blushed every time he was one of the first likes on her post. 

Connor’s eyes went from happy to sad from the very beginning of the video. He had known about her struggles since October, when she had come to visit and she thought if they were going to be in a relationship somewhere in the near future she would have to tell him. She was comfortable with him and it was just an easy relationship between the two of them. 

He listened to the lyrics, not focusing on the video. He noticed it quickly, her cry for help. He had paid so much attention to the girl because he loved her even if he didn’t know yet. The two were soulmates in every life, every world, every universe, and everyone who knew could see it. He didn’t waste any time swiping out of YouTube and into his messages to text her.

‘V, are you okay?’

‘I saw your video… you looked sad’

‘Please answer me, I’m worried’

‘Violet, please.’

‘Violet’

That’s when he panicked, rushing to call Ollie, “Ollie?”

“Hey, Connor. Why are you calling me?”

“Are you at your apartment?”

“No, I’m out with some friends… Why? Are you and Violet up to something that I shouldn’t come back?” He could hear the suggestiveness in her tone.

“Ollie this is serious. I need you to get to your dorm as fast as possible, please.” He was desperate, he needed to make sure she was okay.

“Connor, you’re starting to freak me out. What’s going on?”

“I don’t know if she ever told you this or ever wanted you to know this but Violet was diagnosed with depression when she was 11 and there’s been a shit ton of other stuff that’s happened with it but she’s been clean for 6 years.”

“ I’m not the brightest person and you know that too so I’m going to need a little more info here.”

“I’m scared she’s going to hurt herself again.” Connor’s voice was blunt with the tiniest bit of tears in it.

Ollie’s eyes widened, jumped off the stool at the diner she was sitting at, and rushed to her car. She drove to their dorm with caution because if she got pulled over, it would hurt everyone. Halfway home she got a notification from Connor that everything was okay. 

As she was driving, Violet had called Connor.

“Connor?”

He let out a big breath, “Oh thank god. Violet, are you okay?”

“Yes but no. Connor, I’m really scared right now.” She kept stealing glances at the metal that sat not far away from her, she would have to crawl to get it but the voice in the back of her head was haunting her, “I don’t know-”

“Hey, can you take a deep breath for me?”

“I don’t think I can, Con.”

“That’s okay. How about you want to tell me what you did today?”

“Not really.”

Connor sighed but tried not to let her hear, how on Earth could he calm her down? He took a minute to think, “You want to listen to what I did at practice today?”

She needs a distraction, “Yeah.” Connor started to ramble about what he did because he knew that she loved his voice, she loved to listen to him talk. She loved everything about him, truly. 

“And then I came home and guess what I had for dinner?”

“I don’t know. Chipotle?” 

“How’d you know?” She giggled a little, “Lucky guess.”

He didn’t have Chipotle for dinner, but did she need to know that at this moment? No.

“Can you take a deep breath now?” 

She nodded and took a deep breath in, her gaze and mind far away from the strip of metal that sat a few tiles away from her. She continued to breathe until Connor started talking again, “That’s good. Did you eat dinner yet?”

“No.” Her voice sounded small, afraid that he would be mad, “That’s okay! Do you want to ask Ollie if she’ll get something for you?”

“Can you?” 

“Of course, pretty girl. Give me two minutes.” Connor texted the girl that everything was alright and asked her to pick up something for Violet for dinner.

“How are you feeling?”

“A little bit better. I’m still scared though, I don’t want to do it, Connor. I really don’t.” Her cries started again, this time a little less harsher than before.

“Hey, no, no. Please don’t cry, sweetheart. It’s all gonna be okay, do you want me to come down?”

Violet violently shook her head, “You can’t. You have a game soon, I don’t need you to miss work for me. I’m not important enough for that.”

“You know I wouldn’t usually tell you this but shut up. You are so important to everyone. You’re important to your friends, Ollie, Jared, Mikey, and Justin. You know every time you’re with them it makes their day? Your followers, love it when you post a video. You’ve seen the comments, and even though there are the negatives the positives outweigh all of them. Adam and Luca wouldn’t be where they are without you. They love you so much, V.” Violet sniffles at Connor’s words. 

There was a silence before he spoke, “And me. I-I. Ever since I’ve met you, V, I’ve known that you were the one. I know this sounds stupid but you were the best part of the day. Screw the draft, screw the number-one pick, when you ran into me with your flowers and whatever was in that present for Adam. You apologized so much.” He choked out a laugh with a sob hiding in it, he was so close to crying. 

“And then I said it was okay and you gave me that smile. The fucking smile that made me lose it and still does. You bring so much joy into this world, V and I don’t think anyone would be happy if you left. If you want me to, I will drive down there. I’ll be there in two hours all you have to do is say the words and hold on.”

“Yes, please.”

Connor packed a bag as quickly as he could, taking no time to start his car and driving down to Champagne. He hung up briefly just to tell Luke Richardson that he needed a few days on personal leave, before calling Violet back as he listened to her make soft conversation with Ollie as they ate dinner. 

He got down there in record time, knocking on their door. Ollie was the one who opened it as Violet had gone to lie down on her bed. 

“Hey, Ollie.”

“Hey, Connor. She’s on the bed,” Connor peered around the girl to see Violet lying there watching the TV, “I’ll leave you two alone.”

Connor stepped in and Ollie stepped out and he approached her, placing a hand on her arm, “Hey, V.”

Violet all but launched herself at the boy, hugging him tightly, “It’s okay. I’m here. You’re fine.”

And that’s how they spent the night, Connor’s arms wrapped around her as they listened to the background noise of the TV. At that moment, Violet knew that things were gonna be okay, she wasn’t totally back to her normal self, but this was a step in the right direction.

𝑻𝑨𝑮𝑳𝑰𝑺𝑻 ˏˋ°•*⁀➷

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[sunflower-lilac42]

✧ 𝐇𝐚𝐫𝐝 𝐋𝐚𝐮𝐧𝐜𝐡 || flowers au ♔

summary: connor and violet hard launch their relationship on instagram

warnings: people being mean about connor and violet's relationship

notes: if you want to read the whole text messages just click on the picture! so, i was going to post connor asking violet to be his girlfriend before this but i really wanted to make this and it was easy to do (for the most part) so yeah. yes, my cole fic is comming soon. i miss connor so much, it's a problem now add yourself to the taglist ➵ taglist!

publish date: 01/27/24

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violetsdairies

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violetsdiaries so here's some news for the new year...!

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user01 omg finally!!!!!!!

user02 I’ve been waiting for this one

ollie.barnes cuties 🤭

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lukasreichel44 does this mean kevinkorchinski and I don’t have to third wheel in private anymore

⤷ user03 I don’t think you ever had to third wheel in private, it was very noticeable

kevinkorchinski yayayayayayayay I’m so happy for you

⤷ violetsdiaries did someone hack your phone?

⤷ _connorbedard nah he’s always like this

user04 they’re invading the main… thank god

⤷ user05 do you think they’re replacing you know who

⤷ user04 god I hope so

thompsonjared64 I deserve some photo creds here, god

⤷ violetsdiaries no 😀

⤷ thompsonjared63 _connorbedard come get your girl

⤷ _connorbedard nah I’m good

mmcarthy06 my eyes! my eyes!

⤷ violetsdiaries honey, were you up late watching friends again?

⤷ mmcarthy06 yeah 😔 sorry mom

⤷ user06 does this mean _connorbedard is dad now for them

⤷ mmcarthy06 NO

⤷ thompsonjared63 NO

⤷ justin.rolland94 NO

⤷ violetsdiaries yes.

⤷ _connorbedard I love you, but no

⤷ violetsdiaries don’t be mean to me 😪

user07 have the bros seen this 👀

⤷ adamfantilli yes

⤷ luca.fantilli yes

⤷ violetsdiaries whatcha thinking…?

⤷ adamfantilli I’ll approve, for now

⤷ luca.fantilli no we’re both happy for you, v

⤷ violetsdiaries awe gonna make me cry 🥹

user08 they have connecting lego necklaces… in the shape of a heart!!!! WHEN IS IT GONNA BE MY TURN 😭

⤷ violetsdiaries soon, just gotta wait for the special person

⤷ _connorbedard awe she thinks I’m special

⤷ violetsdiaries no, no I don’t, i was talking about ollie.barnes

⤷ ollie.barnes best friends over boyfriend

lhughes_06 freedom! i don't have to keep it a secret anymore

⤷ adamfantilli you knew??

⤷ lhughes_06 ...no?

⤷ user09 he knew???

⤷ colecaufield i didn't know either adamfantilli 🤭

markestapa ...

⤷ user04 bye felicia

✧༺✎༻∞

messyviolets

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messyviolets more of us because i literally do not know where i would be without this boy. (i might cry thinking about it)

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_connorbedard no crying, i will not have you crying because of me

⤷ user01 i love them, they are my parents, and i will stand my ground

⤷ user10 we knew it from the beginning

⤷ user11 bantilli forever!

lhughes_06 i'm so happy for you v!

⤷ messyviolets thank you lukey

user12 the texts?! are you freaking kidding me?!

⤷ messyviolets no, he can't help but be sappy

⤷ _connorbedard i can stop

⤷ user12 don't.

⤷ messyviolets what they said ^

colecaufield kiddos!

⤷ messyviolets old man!!!

⤷ colecaufield i'm like four years older than you

⤷ messyviolets my point exactly

jackhughes i see little fantilli has some game

⤷ messyviolets when did you start calling me that 🤨

⤷ jackhughes now

⤷ messyviolets don't

user13 i can't, they are literally the cutest couple ever

user14 when did they start dating?

⤷ messyviolets that's a secret for another time

⤷ user14 secret keeper!

user15 who cares?

⤷ user16 right! who is this chick anyways and why is she so special?

⤷ user15 who the hell knows, she's not even pretty

⤷ user16 probably just with him for his money, prolly an attention seeking whore

user17 gag

user18 she looks like a slut

user19 they aren't even cute together

user20 heard she dumped mark for connor

⤷ user13 she wasn't even dating mark

⤷ user20 yeah they were

⤷ user13 violet never liked him and only saw him as a friend

user21 connor deserves better

✧༺✎༻∞

_connorbedard

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_connorbedard my girl

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violetsdiaries are you trying to get killed?? i at least posted tame pictures of us

⤷ _connorbedard worth it

adamfantilli ... watch yourself bedard

⤷ luca.fantilli i swear to god, you so much as pinch her... you're done for

⤷ _connorbedard wouldn't even dare to hurt her

ryan_donato congratulations kiddos!

lukasreichel44 connor posted?! and it's pictures of violet? i'm disappointed

⤷ violetsdiaries are you trying to make a move on him

⤷ lukasreichel44 you stole him from me!

⤷ violetsdiaries you can have him, lukas

⤷ _connorbedard what no?!

nhlblackhawks teenage love, it's adorable ☺️❤️

titobeauvi94 looks like the kid grew some balls

⤷ _connorbedard i don't know what you are talking about

⤷ violetsdiaries i think the overtime goal got to his head a little

lhughes_06 okay, i have a lot of questions for him

⤷ violetsdiaries don't do it luke

⤷ lhughes_06 i can't help it! colecaufield are you gonna help?

⤷ colecaufield of course! _connorbedard you got some questions to answer buddy

⤷ violetsdiaries oh god 🤦🏻‍♀️

nick7andersen when can we meet him?!

⤷ violetsdiaries never

⤷ _connorbedard what the girl says, sorry guys 😞

⤷ drakenilescox no fair, mom

⤷ violetsdiaries fine you can meet him

⤷ aidan.taylor10 yay!!!

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✧ 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞/𝐉𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐨𝐫 || flowers au ♔

headcannons/thoughts about protective/jealousconnor

just some thoughts about connor being protective of violet and jealous

➺ nothing's really different between connor being protective of violet before they started dating and after they started dating

➺ the only thing that's different is that he has a reason to be protective in the eyes of others

➺ jealousy wise, he's not worried about the illini guys or the umich guys

➺ he does know/has an inkling that mark has a crush on violet

➺ he's just a little worried about mark because they've been friends for so long and he thinks they have a closer bond then the two of them do

➺ he doesn't get that jealous of other people just more or less that they have attention and he doesn't

➺ moving on, he is very protective

➺ this kind of ties in with his jealousy but anytime they are out somewhere and connor sees a guy approach her, he always feels the need to go over there to make sure she's okay/comfortable

➺ whenever they are in the store (usually barnes and noble, a craft store, or a floral shop) he's always holding her hand because she tends to wander and he doesn't want to lose her

➺ when they go to team functions or just hang out with the team in general, he has his arms wrapped around her all the time in someway

➺ after they guys' comments on the messyviolets 'first of many winters' post, he calls her fuming that they would say things like that to her, especially her brothers and luke

➺ he's not a fan of mark and not because he has a crush on her but because he's been so pissed about her making her own friends and the fact that he seems like he's trying to control what she does

➺ as much as he loves when she wears a revealing dress, he doesn't like when she wears them when he's not around (but obviously wouldn't make her not wear them/get mad at her for wearing them) because... guys will be guys, yk?

➺ following that, he hates when she wears the wrong clothing for the current season. she always loves/tends to wear the thinnest clothes possible during winter which somehow always results in him having to give her a sweatshirt or his suit jacket if it's after a game

➺ speaking of games, he loves seeing her in his jersey (or just his clothes in general)... but her in his jersey, he claims it's the hottest thing he's ever seen

➺ moving on from clothing, when they weren't dating, he's more jealous. for example... any time he could have his hands on her in public, he did

➺ he hates when she drives home in the dark. so when she visits him, he does 1 of 2 things usually. he either will drive down with her (he will drive her car down) and then take the train back up, making nick, kevin, or lukas pick him up and take him back to his apartment. or he will make kevin or lukas drive their car down with him and then he would drive back with one of them, which they are all more than happy to do for violet and not connor

➺ he made her send him her class schedule and every time one of her classes started he would send a good luck text or he would text her beforehand to make sure she was careful walking there and to make sure she got there okay

➺ same with afterwards! he would call her and they would talk on her way home, him making sure she didn't get hurt or nothing happened to her on the way back to her dorm

➺ he always defends her against the hate and the boys

➺ a lot of the time he finds out adam, luca, luke, mark, or someone else said something about her and connor or about something else that had an underlying dig about her and he is pissed

➺ he doesn't want them to figure out that he knows so usually he sends violet a text of what to say and then she will send that to them or have ollie or jared or mikey or justin text them for her

➺ he's so close with her main friend group (ollie, jared, mike, and justin) that some of their protectiveness of the girl comes from connor

➺ as we know, connor will always be there for violet when she's feeling down/depressed/anxious

➺ he will take her to the doctors if she doesn't feel well

➺ he drops everything for her, and i mean everything

➺ if he has practice and she needs him, fuck it

➺ if they are in the middle of the game and someone tells connor that she called him, he's out of there without even waiting for luke (richardson) to say it was okay

➺ if he's in another state (or country) he's flying/driving back to illinois as fast as he can

➺ he will never let her get into an uber or lyft or whatever without him, he doesn't trust people

➺ he will always put her success over his

➺ if she wants to film a video or take pictures, he allows her too

➺ when she gets a job that's in rockford, he doesn't care one bit, he'd move as close as she would let him to there so she didn't have to travel as far even if it means waking up at 5 to drive to morning skate

➺ he gives her space!! (yes this is him being protective) he doesn't want her to feel like he's hovering over her so he allows her space when she needs it/wants it

➺ they have this weird thing that if one of them gets hurt they other does too (i don't know if this is being protective or not but idc)

➺ so when connor gets his jaw broken, she ends up falling not even a couple days later down the stairs and twisting her ankle

✎ BONUS 1: THE BAR SCENE ⇘ : :

➺ one time after they won, the team found a bar that allowed people 18 and over to enter so they took both connor and violet (and lukas and kevin ofc) there (but ofc they didn't let them drink alcohol because that would've been irresponsible... but someone definitely slipped them just a tiny sip - prolly colin

➺ anyways, she was sitting with Tito at the bar and they were talking about his trade and how upset he was and that he missed the guys when a guy approached the two of them

➺ Tito got a bad vibe from him but didn't say anything because he didn't want to misread the situation by accident

➺ connor was playing darts with colin, ryan, petr, jason, and cole when kevin came up and whispered something in his ear

➺ kevin had been coming back from the bathroom when he saw the guy talking to violet and noticed the uncomfortable look on her face while tito was trying to intervene a little

➺ connor wasted no time walking over there and attempting to get in the guys face (i'm not saying connor is short, but i wouldn't say he's tall either, he's average for an 18 year old. anyways the guy had a solid four inches on him but he was also at least three years older than him)

➺ the guy had some words to say about violet ('she shouldn't be wearing that if she wasn't looking to get some', and some other things but my brain no worky enough rn)

➺ let's just say it didn't take too long for connor to punch him in the jaw (that aged well)

➺ violet was crying because she hates when things like that happened and when he gets into fights and trust me, that definitely wasn't the first time it happened

➺ connor had brought her back to his apartment as the rest of the team dealt with that and he made sure to give her a lot of cuddles afterwards

✎ BONUS 2: TEXT MESSAGES ⇘ : :

(nick is one of connor's friends who goes to uofi and knows someone that ollie knows, he's fake obviously)

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[sunflower-lilac42]

✧ 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐅𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐌𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐖𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 || flowers au ♔

summary: connor and violet go on a little winter exploration

warnings: none, i don't think

notes: here's some connor and violet after a long four hours of pain. i am so sorry to anyone who was heartbroken from the tweets i posted, i hope you can forgive me. we are in this together, i promise. justice for jamie! anyways story notes -> we are pretending it snowed in november in chicago even though i know it didn’t. I got bored looking up the hawks’ wags so you only get two which is janelle and megan. milana is janelle and nick’s daughter. feel free to ask anything for the au because i love hearing from you guys and i hope to answer some questions if you have any. add yourself to the taglist ➵ taglist!

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The day of Thanksgiving, Violet didn’t know what to do with herself. She never really celebrated American Thanksgiving, so it was just another day of November to her. This is why her parents allowed her to stay with one of her friends over the break, she just never really specified which friend.

Connor and Violet sat in his apartment watching football, Violet not really understanding it. Connor attempted to explain it to her but she held her hand up, “Con, this is making absolutely no sense, so I’m going to go make dinner.”

Connor frowned as she left, watching her walk away. His eyes went back to the TV screen when he heard her call out, “Connie you have like no food here.”

“I didn’t think you were going to offer to make dinner. I thought we would just go out.”

She came waltzing back into the living room and looked at him, “I am not living off of takeout until Sunday. And also, I don’t even know what would be open on Thanksgiving.”

Connor shrugged, “I’m going to go out and see what's open.”

“No, you aren’t. You could get hurt.”

“Connor, it’s Thanksgiving and almost dinner time, who do you think is going to be out right now.”

The boy stood up, “It’s snowing outside. You could be blindsided or spin out or-”

“Fine you can come with.”

He smirked, “I’m driving.”

Violet rolled her eyes and nodded, “Hurry up. I’m starving.”

“Right away, princess.” He winked at her, running into his room to change into more weather-appropriate clothing.

He came back out with a hoodie in his hands, “Here.”

“Yay!” She threw the hoodie on and the two headed out of the apartment, Violet linking arms with him.

Connor couldn’t help but keep sneaking glances at the girl as they drove, she was humming along to the Christmas playlist she had put on. Despite growing up in Canada, the girl was always cold which explained why he felt like he was roasting in his car, “Connie?”

“Yes?”

“I don’t know.” She went back to looking out the window, swinging her legs back and forth as much as she could, “Uh uh, what’s going on inside that pretty little head of yours?”

She blushed, thankful that due to the heat in the car, her cheeks already had a pink tint to it. She thought for a minute before asking, “Do you think you could teach me how to skate?”

Connor looked at her in amusement, “You want to learn how to skate?”

She nodded, “I’ve always been too afraid to. Adam and Luca tried but I was scared. But I feel safe with you.”

He smiled, “Of course I can, V.”

She smiled back and continued looking out the passenger window. Connor felt bold, reaching over to grab her hand. She jumped at first but relaxed immediately after. She looked over at him but he was focused on the road, his left hand resting atop of the steering wheel.

They got there five minutes after and both of them felt a cold rush through them as soon as they let go. When they got out of the car, she looped her arm around Connor’s and they walked into the store, “What do you want?”

“I don’t care. Whatever you want I guess.” Connor wasn’t the best person to help with dinner.

She rolled her eyes and took off towards an aisle, Connor rushing to follow her. This was one of Violet’s favorite things to do when they went out together, she would run off somewhere and every time she even thought she saw Connor she would move so she wouldn’t be found. The one time this happened, Connor wasn’t able to find her for a whole hour and that’s when he decided to publicly embarrass her and call her out over the intercom.

She headed down the soup aisle and looked for something to make. Her eyes landed on the cream of chicken soup and she thought of chicken and dumplings. She ran around the store, gathering everything she needed and even picking up some cinnamon rolls for dessert.

She wandered around, trying to find Connor when all of a sudden she felt arms wrap around her, “That better be you, Connor.”

“It is.”

“Good, because I have dinner for us, kind sir.”

“Why thank you, m’lady.” He took the basket from her, looking over everything, “Don’t worry, there’s no nuts in anything.”

He smiled and kissed her forehead, “Well then. Shall we get home so we can start?”

“Yes, please!”

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Violet felt lonely before the game on Friday, all of her friends were at home with their families and she was in Chicago. Connor had already left for the United Center and she didn’t know what to do for the next couple of hours. She knew Connor would have a fit if she went out to the city alone, so she didn’t. He was the only one who could act possessive towards her and she would allow it.

Earlier that morning, Connor had asked her if she wanted to meet some of the wags so she wouldn’t have to be alone during the game and she said yes. So, Connor had texted his teammates and asked if they could introduce their wives and girlfriends to Violet and they all happily said yes.

Janelle was the first one to meet Violet as Nick and Connor had created a bond earlier in the season. She then met Megan, Tyler Johnson’s fiance, who was extremely nice to the girl, complimenting her nonstop. She met more of them when she got to the stadium, sitting next to Janelle as she felt the most comfortable with her.

Janella had brought Milana and Violet played with her throughout the game. Every time the Hawks would score Melanie would look up at Violet and say, “Look Violet, they scored!”

Which she would reply with, “Oh! That’s so exciting!”

During overtime, Violet was extremely anxious, shaking her leg up and down as she watched the players skate back and forth across the ice. When Connor shot the puck towards the net she saw his head tilt back in disappointment and frustration. She tried to send positive thoughts to him mentally and could only hope that he saw her smiling at him in the suite.

When Connor went back out with Kevin and Phillip, her body tensed. She watched as they skate to the Leafs zone, the puck gliding on the ice between their skates. Her eyes focused on the puck as it went from Kurashev to Connor, to Kevin who hit it into the net.

The whole arena stood up and cheered as Connor and Kevin jumped onto each other. Milana started singing Chelsea Dagger and Violet sang with her. Everyone in the suite held smiles on their face and Violet pulled out her phone to take a picture.

Janelle and Violet stood next to each other in the tunnel, watching Milana run around. Violet had her back faced to any of the players who came out, talking about school with the older woman. She saw Lukas and Kevin walk out together and waved at them, “Hey guys.”

“Oh, hey V! We didn’t know you were coming.”

“Yeah, kinda hard when Connor texted me about it time after time again.”

She felt an arm wrap around her shoulder, “So not true. I only texted her once, maybe twice.”

“Maybe five hundred. Con this game could go on forever.”

He nodded, fixing his suit jacket, “You guys going out?”

The two boys nodded and so did Janelle, “This one wouldn’t stop complaining that she was hungry.”

“You guys mind if we tag along? If that’s okay with you, V?”

“Yeah, of course.” She felt nervous about impeding on their time out, “Are you sure it’s okay?”

“Of course it is! I know that Milana would love it.”

“Yeah! Yeah! I want Violet to come!”

“Okay then, I guess it’s settled.”

Throughout dinner, Violet couldn’t help but look at Connor. Anything that anyone said fell deaf upon her ears as she just couldn’t stop thinking about Connor in his suit. Sure, she’s seen him in one before but this was the first time she has since she recognized her feelings towards the boy.

Connor looked over at her and smiled, “What?”

“Nothing. I’m just, happy.”

He placed a hand on her thigh and gave it a little squeeze before going back to the conversation with his teammates.

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The next day was filled with Connor and Violet going around the city doing a bunch of random things. Looking at the Christmas decorations, going ice skating, and trying all different kinds of sweets from different bakeries and restaurants. Violet was amused by snow, mostly.

She had never seen snow in this environment before. In Canada she had found it so common that it just looked like it was normal to her, but after spending months in Illinois, she learned to appreciate the snow’s beauty.

“I can’t get over how pretty the snow looks here.”

Connor only nodded, trying to keep Violet upright. The two were in the middle of skating when two boys skated up to them, “Hey guys!”

Violet looked up and grinned, “Hi!”

“Fancy seeing you guys here. Can’t believe we’re skating on an off day.”

Connor shook his head, “In my defense, this one wanted to learn how to skate.”

Kevin looked appalled, “You literally have hockey players for brothers and you don’t know how to skate.”

“Don’t make fun of me! I was always scared of getting on the ice.”

Lukas and Kevin held their hands up in defense, “We’re not. And we will continue not to only if you let us hang out with you guys.”

“Of course, you guys can!”

The two looked over at their teammate and noticed the tiniest bit of annoyance in his eyes. They smirked before pushing him out of the way and skating off with Violet, her laughing but also yelling at them to not let her fall.

✧༺✎༻∞

violetsdiaries

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violetsdiaries I spent my break in Chicago because I don't understand American Thanksgiving :) please enjoy the snow in the windy city

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user01 the snow is so magical there!

user02 she's been spending a lot of time in chicago recently...

⤷ user03 and there's some new faces in the likes

lukasreichel44 i thought we were good enough to make the main

⤷ violetsdiaries i'm sorry, lukas. i promise i'll post you in the non-aesthetically pleasing photo dump

⤷ kevinkorchinski are you saying we're not aesthetically pleasing to look at 😥

⤷ _connorbedard that's exactly what she's saying

kevinkorchinski happy to host you

⤷ violetsdiaries happy to visit you, sir 🫡

adamfantilli you ditched me for Chicago?

⤷ violetsdiaries correction, i ditched you for pizza

luca.fantilli i missed you

⤷ violetsdiaries i missed you too luca

user04 does anyone else find it weird she didn't go home and see her family

⤷ user05 yeah, but maybe she had family in Chicago that we just don't know about

⤷ user04 yeah, that's true

⤷ user06 i saw her at the Hawks game on the 24 so maybe she's dating someone on the team 🤷🏻‍♀️

⤷ user07 if it's not connor i'm suing

lhughes_06 you should've come and seen us

⤷ violetsdiaries i've had these plans made for like two weeks, lukey

⤷ jackhughes i will personally drag your butt here to jersey the next time you can come to a game because i wnat to see you

⤷ violetsdiaries guys! guys! it's happening. jack's becoming obsessed with me 😱

⤷ ollie.barnes it's about time, honestly

⤷ jackhughes i'm not obsessed with her, i just miss her

⤷ violetsdiaries i miss you too jacky

markestapa thank you for visiting me

⤷ violetsdiaries it had been a long time coming

⤷ _connorbedard did you just make a taylor swift refernce

⤷ violetsdiaries he's learning!!!!!!

⤷ markestapa ...we were having a moment

⤷ violetsdiaries don't be mean to connor

user08 violet protecting connor 🔛🔝

_connorbedard the snow is pretty, but you're prettier

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user09 please tell me i'm not the only one who saw connor's comment

⤷ user08 definetely not

⤷ user07 oh my god... bantilli stans unite ✊🏻

⤷ user10 what did he say??

⤷ violetsdiaries he said, and i quote, 'the snow is pretty, but you're prettier.' excuse me while i go hide in my closet 🤪

⤷ user11 bantilli comfirmed

⤷ adamfantilli i do not like this

⤷ luca.fantilli not approved

⤷ user12 adamfantillii, luca.fantilli did anyone ask you two???

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messyviolets

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messyviolets so... this happened. also the boys taught me how to skate! which i kind of regret but i now know a new skill. also there's a new video out now!

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kevinkorchinski o m g guys! we made it instagram official!!! _connorbedard, lukasreichel44 🤩

⤷ lukasreichel44 the famous violet knows us, i could die happy now 🥳

⤷ _connorbedard seriously, messyviolets, we are you're biggest fans 😮

⤷ messyviolets you guys are so embarrassing, i regret posting you now

user13 new group alert!!

⤷ lukasreichel44 trust, you're going to be seeing a lot more of us 😏

⤷ user14 what does this mean??

⤷ messyviolets that three teenage hockey players have managed to wiggle their into my hearts and i regret to inform i can't let them go now 😔

⤷ _connorbedard awwww, we made her soft 🥹

⤷ lhughes_06 sorry bud, that happened a long time ago

⤷ adamfantilli yeah, i think we were the inventors of it

⤷ luca.fantilli she was like this before she met you

⤷ markestapa you three aren't special

⤷ messyviolets stop it you guys, i'm not condoning this hate to them. let me have my friends.

user15 is anyone else mad that violet's brothers and friends are trying to get violet to stop being friends with other people

⤷ user16 yes! i get being protective but both the illini hockey team and connor, lukas, and kevin seem like good people and i think they should respect their wishes

⤷ messyviolets call them out on their shit 👏🏻👏🏻

⤷ user15 she responded!

⤷ user16 we do as mother says adamfantilli, luca.fantilli, markestapa, lhughes_06

⤷ user15 we do as mother says adamfantilli, luca.fantilli, markestapa, lhughes_06

⤷ user17 we do as mother says adamfantilli, luca.fantilli, markestapa, lhughes_06

⤷ user18 we do as mother says adamfantilli, luca.fantilli, markestapa, lhughes_06

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messyviolets i hate people

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user19 i feel so bad for violet, she can't even post her own friends because of her brothers and her umich friends

kevinkorchinski i think our snowmen turned out pretty well 🙂

⤷ messyviolets me too 🙃

⤷ lukasreichel44 are you okay v?

⤷ messyviolets no

⤷ _connorbedard call me

⤷ user20 protective connor!!!!!!! 🔛🔝

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✧ 𝐃𝐫𝐚𝐟𝐭 𝐃𝐚𝐲 || flowers au ♔

summary: violet meets connor when she’s running late to adam’s draft day

warnings: scissors, running late

notes: part of the 'flowers' au. a little chaotic meeting between v and con but that's going to be so expected later on in the series (also i'm sorry i didn't get this out yesterday, but the next part of this will also be out later today along with right where you left me) add yourself to the taglist ➵ taglist!

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“Hurry up!”

“I’m sorry I know I’m late, just leave without me, I can drive there, I promise.”

“What are you even doing?” Luca came into his sister’s room to see craft supplies all over her room, flung from her suitcase. Her cutting board was on the ground, she had pens all over her desk, flower stems surrounding her, and her scissors were so close to stabbing her as they laid on the wooden surface. 

When Luca noticed the scissors, he quickly ran over and grabbed them to keep from stabbing the girl, not like it would’ve done that much damage in Violet’s mind. “I’m making Adam’s present.”

“V, I’m sure he’s not going to care if he gets his bouquet now or later.” Luca sits on her bed fiddling with the sheets. 

“He might not care, but I do. And somehow I’m missing a flower, I have to go and get another iris. Just go without me, I’ll be there.”

Luca didn’t look all too happy with the fact that his sister would be driving by herself despite the fact that she had her license. He went to offer to stay with her but she shut him down with a look, “No. Go.”

The boy sighed and walked out of her room, getting in the car with his brother and parents. Violet sighed to herself as she fumbled around her room for her flower cutters, packing up everything she needed. She threw her dress on, making sure her hair and makeup looked decent enough to go out in before driving to the nearest flower shop.

She had driven to Nashville because she needed the road trip and both Luca and Adam had come along. If there was one thing she loved, it was road trips but road trips with someone else were always better than by herself. 

After buying the last small bouquet of blood-red iris’ the store had she rushed to her car and began finishing the bouquet. When she finished she grinned to herself feeling accomplished, until she looked at the time. She lightly placed the bouquet down alongside the present that she got from Adam in the passenger seat before driving to the venue, humming along to whatever was on the radio. 

She flew into a parking stall and all but ran into the venue, smiling and waving at the people she passed. When she entered she felt safer, and when she showed her ID she was allowed in and went to find Adam and the rest of her family. 

She was texting her mom when she ran into someone, apologies coming out of her mouth, one after another, “I am so sorry! Totally my fault! I’m sorry, so sorry.”

The boy she ran into had stumbled a bit but didn’t look too bothered, “It’s okay.”

“Are you sure because I was not looking where I was going.” Violet looked around, “I actually have no clue where I am right now.”

When Violet looked at the boy, her brows furrowed, “You look familiar.” 

He reached out his hand for her to shake, “I’m Connor.”

“Oh, you’re the one who’s in line to get drafted to the Hawks. I’m Y/n, but you can call me Violet. I’m Adam Fantilli’s sister.”

“Oh, Adam! Yeah, I met him a little bit ago.” Connor smiled at Violet, “Do you need some help? You look lost, and you just said you were.”

Connor reached his hand up to rub the back of his neck, looking awkward. Violet held a big grin, “I would love it. I’m just trying to find my family.”

Connor gestured to the way he was walking, “I’ll take you to where we’re sitting.”

They didn’t get far when they saw two figures running toward the two, “Violet!”

Violet waved, “Hey guys.”

Connor looked saddened at the fact the conversation was ending, “Connor was helping me find you guys.”

Adam looked at him, “Thanks, man.”

The boy nodded, “Yeah, of course. I’ll see you later then?” Violet nodded and so did Adam before Connor walked off. 

“Oh, here Adam.” Violet gave Adam both the bouquet and the present she had gotten him, “Thanks, V.”

Adam hugged his younger sister, kissing her on the head. He then brought Luca into the hug and sighed, “Thank you guys for being here.”

“Of course.”

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When they announced Connor’s name, Violet did more than politely clap. Her clap was louder than her brothers which caused some looks but they didn’t pay much mind to the girl. They just thought she was anxiously waiting for Adam to get drafted.

She had to sit on her hands as they called out Leo’s name who got drafted to the Ducks. She let her face slip briefly before her usual grin was back on her face. When the Blue Jackets had their pick in, she reached over to hold each of her brothers’ hands, nervous, “...we are proud to select, Adam Fantilli.”

Adam was the first to stand, followed by everyone else. Violet let Adam hug their parents and Luca first before she hugged him, “I’m really proud of you, Adam.”

“Thanks, V.”

He handed her his jacket before walking down the steps and to the stage. The four others stood with smiles on their face, all of them had tears in their eyes for various reasons but most of them because of how proud they were of the boy. 

Violet wandered off not long after that in hopes she would run into Connor again, and to her luck, she did. Much like the first time, she ran directly into it, “We have got to stop meeting like this.”

“I don’t know, I kind of like when you catch me from falling,” Violet smirked causing Connor to blush. 

“Trying to find Adam again?” 

She shook her head, “No. You actually.”

“Oh?”

“I was hoping to get your number.”

That was all it took for Connor to reach into his pocket and grab his phone, handing it to the girl. She handed him her phone, and the two exchanged their numbers and socials as well. And ever since then, they talked every day, finding out random facts about each other and their plans for the summer.

✧༺✎༻∞

violetsdiaries

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violetsdiaries happy draft day everyone! congratualations to everyone who was drafted today.

more importantly (for me), congratulations to one of my best friends in the whole entire world and one of my favorite brothers, adam! i'm so so so proud of you and all of you have accomplished and i can't wait to see you in the big leagues

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adamfantilli i love you little sis

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luca.fantilli stud alert 🚨🚨

⤷ violets diaries who me? i know, thank you

⤷ luca.fantilli you wish violet

user01 mother is proud everyone

user02 their relationship is one of the best things ever

user03 she finds a way to make everything and every scenario aesthetic, i desire to be like her

user04 i have a feeling she's going to be an amazing nhl wag one day

⤷ user05 she deserves someone great

lhughes_06 congratulations man! v looking good as always

⤷ adamfantilli thanks, luke! also don't hit on my sister, that's weird

⤷ violetsdiaries he was just being nice (thank you lu) also i like someone else 🤭

⤷ adamfantilli who?

⤷ luca.fantilli who?

⤷ markestapa who?

⤷ edwards.73 who?

⤷ lhughes_06 who

⤷ violetsdiaries no one you need to know about... yet

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messyviolets

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messyviolets i didn't want to ge this sentimental on main so here this is

adam, i am extrememly proud of you, there aren't anywords to describe how proud i am of you. thank you for everything you have done for me and i can't express how grateful i am for you. i can't believe you're going to be playing professional hockey so soon and it feels like just yesterday i was sitting with mom cheering you on during peewee hockey (although i don't really remember it that much bc i was like 4) moving on, i know you are going to do so many amazing things and i'm going to miss you so much.

love you big bro 🫶🏻

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user06 she is so adorable, i'm going to cry 🥹

adamfantilli don't make me cry, i love you too, v. i'm going to miss you too 🥲

⤷ luca.fantilli she would've been closer if she went umich with me

⤷ messyviolets i'm sorry who was the one that said 'you can go wherever you want, we won't be mad'.

⤷ luca.fantilli i didn't think you'd actually do it :/ you're leaving me with mark

⤷ markestapa what did i do?

⤷ rutgermcgroaty hah! get burned mark

⤷ edwards.73 how does it feel to be the least favorite, mark

⤷ nick_moldenhauer that's gotta suck marky

⤷ messyviolets can you guys all get out of my comment section (also i love you mark, it's okay)

user07 why is the umich hockey team here??

⤷ user08 because violet's friends with them

⤷ markestapa because we can be

_connorbedard hey, i found you 🙂

⤷ messyviolets hey, you found me 🙂

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✧ 𝐑𝐨𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐞 || flowers au ♔

summary: violet goes on a road trip to see her new best friend, connor

warnings: heights (brief)

notes: i loved this, it was so cute and i love the idea of connor wanting to buy violet everything. i got the ferris bueller idea from the cubs game so i put it on and now this is coming out later than i wanted and the incorporation of the movie in this but its okay, its still good. add yourself to the taglist ➵ taglist!

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“I’m outside”

In a matter of seconds Connor was rushing out the doors and knocking on Violet’s car window, “I can’t believe you actually drove all the way to Chicago for me.”

“Well believe it because you are now my new best friend and as my new best friend I’m making you drive because I don’t want to anymore. Just don’t crash because you’re not on my insurance.”

Instead of getting out of the car, Violet gracefully hopped over the middle console in her car to sit in the passenger seat. Connor chuckled, got in the car, and asked her where to drive to.

“I don’t care but all I know is that I have a list of things that I want to do that’s titled ‘Connor and Violet’s Fun and Exciting Time in Chicago’ waiting for us.”

Connor pulled out of the parking spot and started driving towards a parking garage, “I’m assuming you want to walk right?”

“Yes, please. I’ve been sitting for way too long.”

“So, what does this list have in store for us?”

Violet, with no concern for getting pulled over, unbuckled her seat belt reached into the back to grab her notebook full of random ideas, and opened to the page that was decorated like a scrapbook with her list of activities. 

“Are you ready?”

“No.”

“Too bad. I want to eat deep-dish pizza, authentic deep-dish pizza. I want to go to Navy Pierre and just walk around the city in general. I want to take photos of us because we have none,” Violet continued to ramble off a bunch of things she wanted to do and when she got to the end she grinned, “I want to recreate Ferris Bueller. And by that I mean we have to at least go to a Cubs game, holler ‘Swing batter batter’, go to a parade, run through a neighborhood, and look what I got us-” She once again reached into her bag and pulled something out, “Save Ferris pins!”

“I would love to do that, but I have never seen Ferris Bueller.”

Violet looked shocked, “You’ve never seen Ferris Bueller’s Day Off?!” 

Connor shook his head as he pulled into a parking garage, “We are watching that when we get back to my hotel room.”

They wandered around Chicago for a while, trying to decide the best way to complete everything. Violet wasn’t expecting to do everything on her list, of course, she wanted to but it was almost completely unrealistic. But, Connor wanted to do everything on that list. They would get to spend more time together and it would make her happy.

The first night they were there, Connor took her to Navy Pierre and took her to Giordanos for deep-dish pizza. She moaned in delight when she tasted the pizza, “Oh my god. This is so good, why didn’t I do this sooner.”

Connor laughed at the girl, eating his piece. They talked about the beginning of Connor’s season, Violet asking him if he was nervous. To which Connor replied with a yes and Violet reassured him that it was alright and that things were going to work out. 

Ever since they met Connor and Violet have been attached to one another. They texted every day, Violet giving him random updates on what she was doing. He would watch every one of her videos with a cheesy smile on his face as she talked about flowers or what she was taking in the upcoming semester.

When Connor figured out that she was going to UofI he was elated that she was only going to be two hours away instead of six. He could only hope that she would want to go to some of his games so he could get her tickets to them. 

When they got back that night, she made him watch Ferris Bueller with her on her laptop as they laid side by side in the hotel bed. Violet pointed out the things that she wanted them to do throughout the movie, also making random comments about the things that reminded her of her brothers. 

The next day, she made him go on the tour boat on the river, gazing at the buildings and reaching out for the water below. Connor watched her happily and joined in at her silly antics as they walked the boat, pushing one another. 

They then went to Water Tower, where Connor bought her a couple of sets of flower legos. She walked out skipping and stopped when she saw the American Girl Doll store, “Con, we have to go there!”

“Why?”

“Because I’ve never had an American Girl Doll before and i just want to look at them, please.” She dragged out the e, Connor giving in easily. 

He let her drag her into the pink store and she looked around in awe. They looked at the recent girl of the year who sat right in front when they walked in and then went to look at all the different sections, stopping at the hockey one. 

She then dragged him downstairs where all the other previous girls of the year were. She practically skipped through the store, “I’ve always wanted Julie.”

“Who’s Julie?”

“She’s one of the dolls from the historical collection. She’s from 1974 and she’s kinda characterized as a hippie but she wears a lot of floral print and decorates with flowers.”

“That seems like you.” He continued to follow her around the store, making a mental reminder of the doll she wanted so he could later buy it for her, before they exited and then went up to one of the sports shops they had, “Hey look Con!”

Connor looked to the wall where there was a jersey with his name on the back, “I gotta get it. Lemme make sure I have enough money in my account.” She whipped out her phone to check the funds in her account sighing when she realized she had lent Luca and Adam money earlier in the week to buy something. 

“Never mind let’s just go.”

“Wait, come on I’ll buy it for you.”

“No, Con. I couldn’t ask you to do that.”

“You’re not asking, I’m telling you I am. Plus, I’m a professional hockey player now, I have the money.” Violet slapped him on the chest before walking out of the store, slightly embarrassed. Connor purchased the jersey and handed it to her, “Connor I told you not to.”

“But I wanted to. Honestly.” She smiled and wasted no time throwing the jersey on and walking out of the Water Tower. 

They then walked to the Sears (Willis) Tower just like in the movie and stood on the glass floor, “You have no idea how terrified I am right now.”

“You’re the one that wanted to do this.”

“I know and I am seriously regretting it.”

They then walked down to Billy Goats, a classic restaurant downtown, which Violet loved all so greatly. She got lots of remarks about her jersey, some nice and some mean but they paid no mind to those. After eating, the two of them were tired so they headed back to her hotel to rest and watch something on the TV. 

The next day they just wandered around and took some pictures before going to Wrigley to watch a Cubs game. It was a night game and the Cubs were playing the Nationals. They cheered from their seats and as Connor promised her they yelled, “Hey batter batter batter batter swing batter.” The Cubs won 17-3. 

They ended up checking off all of y/n’s bucket list in four days together and Violet would definitely rank this as her favorite road trip to ever have happened.

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violetsdiaries i went on another road trip, this time to Chicago! road trip break down: i put flowers on my side mirror, i went to a cubs game, saw a butterfly, went to navy pierre, wore more new matching shirt and top, made him a fruit ball, ate some authentic deep-dish pizza for the first time, and saw some famous Chicago places.

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markestapa and you didn't bring me with?!

⤷ violetsdiaries no college kids allowed 🙅🏻‍♀️

⤷ lhughes_06 hate to break to you, kid, but i think you are one now

⤷ violetsdiaries no old age hasn't set in, not for another couple of weeks

luca.fantilli who's 'him'

⤷ adamfantilli i conquer and why'd you say you were going with your friends if you weren't

⤷ violetsdiaries wow 'conquer' that's a big word for you, adamo

adamfantilli answer my texts

user01 her hiding him from the socials is raising some flags

⤷ user02 fr, is this why she's been so happy recently??

⤷ user03 she did mention she had a crush on someone not too long ago

edwards.73 crazy kids 😧

⤷ user04 ethan knows who it is?!

user05 is there going to be a video about this

⤷ violetsdiaries maybe!

⤷ user06 violet giving us the content recently 👏🏻👏🏻

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messyviolets so this happened... road trip breakdown part two: we went to the beach, then i dragged him to the water tower, then he pigged out on room service, i made him make a heart with me, we recreated Ferris Bueller, and i met Clark the Cub

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jackhughes wish i was there

⤷ messyviolets 'i hate violet so much'

⤷ jackhughes i've never said that in my entire life

⤷ lhughes_06 you just said it yesterday

rutgermcgroaty violet's off doing big girl things, she's growing up so much 🥹

⤷ edwards.73 stop growing, kid

⤷ messyviolets um... this makes things awkward, i'm going to college next month

⤷ rutgermcgroaty no we lost her 😩

adamfantilli can you please tell us who it is

⤷ messyviolets no 😁

_connorbedard looks fun 🙂

⤷ messyviolets it was fun 🙂

⤷ user07 suspicious 🧐

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here’s a blurb bc I didn’t get the jealous connor thing out tonight. this happens like at the end of the year when they are in Dallas. I’ll make it look pretty tomorrow.

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It was late at night but her mind couldn’t stop running. There was so much on her mind that everything seemed to be moving by in a blur.

Connor slept next to her, completely oblivious to anything going on in the world. He had unconsciously thrown an arm over her waist, tightening his grip when he felt her shift. Violets nerves coursed through her veins and her breathing slightly picked up.

She stirred slightly, mumbling a few words causing the boy next to her to wake up. Connor looked around in confusion, hearing talking. He looked at his girlfriend seeing her shifting uncomfortably.

He reached to move a piece of hair out of her face and stared at her in worry as he recognized the breathing. He gently attempted to shake her to wake her up but all she did was let out a few more mumbles.

Two minutes later she shot up, chest heaving and tears started to make their way down her cheeks. Connor slowly sat up next to her placing a hand on her back.

She felt around the bed and stopped when her hand came in contact with his. She gripped it tightly and pulled it to her chest, “Hey, V. What’s wrong?”

“Nightmare.”

Connor awed mentally, pulling her closer to him. It was the first time the two were sleeping together since he asked her to be his girlfriend.

“You want to talk about it?”

She shook her head, burying it into his chest. She was completely content with staying there for as long as she lived.

“Alright sweet girl.” He rubbed her back as a provided extra layer of comfort, wrapping his arms as tightly around her as humanly possible.

Five minutes passed and she was in the brink of sleep again but her mind wouldn’t stop plaguing her with this thought of him leaving her, “Connie?”

“Yeah?”

“Are you going to leave me?”

Connor’s heart broke at the words and the tone of which she said then in, “Of course not.”

“But what if you find someone better? What if I’m not good enough for you.”

"I'll never meet anyone in my life that will be better for me than you. You have nothing to worry about pretty girl, I promise you. I'm yours and you're mine, we can take this at your own pace. If you need anything at all, all you have to do is ask. Do you trust me?”

He pulled her head away and lifted her chin with his pointer and middle finger. She looked at him before nodding and he smiled, “Atta girl.”

He gave a her a quick peck in the lips before offering to lie down which she accepted without any hesitations.

The two clung in to each other as they fell back asleep, having not a care in the world.

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hope you guys liked it… good night!

[sunflower-lilac42]

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the eras tour thoughts/headcannons with bedsy and v

welcome to the eras tour! there will be two parts of this, one is the one you're reading now which is just an overview with some extra thoughts and the other one will be a fic + insta edit

➺ so violet is a big taylor swift fan, like huge. any chance she gets she's listening to taylor

➺ she doesn't have an all time favorite, it varies depending on the mood she's in

➺ she does have a favorite song and it's mary's song

➺ as we know, connor does everything for this girl, including buying her tickets to the eras tour... twice

➺ he is so desperate to take her on this tour because as much as she's wanted to, she hasn't gone

➺ he initally got tickets for the august 7th date but then he started getting all of these fan theories about how taylor might be announce 1989 on august 9 so he really wanted to take her to that one too, becuase he's whipped

➺ they've only known each other for about a month at this point but they instantly clicked so yeah

➺ for august 7, they are in the upper level towards the middle because connor never heard the end of it from violet about hwo they were the best seats

➺ then, for august 9 he went all out and got the vip package because like i said, he's whipped af

➺ when he surprises her she is intially worreid about his bank account because even though he tells her all the time he plays in the nhl, she's like 'you don't just get money right off the bat'

➺ she never finds out how he pays for it and neither do we

➺ after he assures it's okay she's really happy and nonstops thanks connor for the tickets

➺ the day after she finds out connor got her tickets, she finds out that adam and luca also got her tickets becuase they wanted to give her a gift before they weren't able to be there for her as much anymore

➺ it's for the august 8 show and she's just like, 'wtf i went from going to no shows to having three back-to-back-to-back'

➺ they do not want to go but they also didn't want her to go alone so he got cole and luke tickets as well and made them go instead, which they are more than happy too

➺ she knows she has camp in a few days but she couldn't care less

➺ this is the one time she allows something else to take priority over school

➺ before the shows violet makes connor study religiously for this concert

➺ she wasn't about to show up to her favorite artists concert with someone who doesn't even know 'you belong with me'

➺ she pulls out the set list and calls connor, telling him which songs to listen to and and in which order

➺yes, he could've just added the playlist that was already made for the tour but he created his own with a description and everything

➺ he listens to it every day in prep for it not wanting to disappoint her

➺ he prioritizes certain songs, the ones that are her favorites because he knew that would mean more to her than the other ones

➺ he definitely takes the time to learn all too well and memorize it

➺ he's caught up on all the taylor easter eggs because violets been sending them nonstop for the past to weeks

➺ he learns new romantics too just in case because if he was going of impress her he needed to know at least one of the surprise songs

➺ even though i know it was taylor being a mastermind, new romantics being on of the surprise songs for them is just golden

➺ connor loved watching her all throughout both shows because she just had this permanent glow on her face the whole time

➺ she turns him into a swifty

editor's cuts ~ my random thoughts that popped into my mind while making this or thoughts that i made but didn't actually like enough to put in the main portion (*)

➺ boy is so whipped for her and they aren't even dating

➺ this man literally does everything for her/will do everything for her so we should not be suprised

➺ connor pulling money out of his fucking ass for this one but anything for 'his flower' (gag, i don't know why i wrote that)

➺ why did i make them so cheesy

➺ i think connor should go to somewhere where they teach people how to save their money

➺ connor you do not have money to just blow through

➺ violet hates when connor buys her stuff*

➺ violet secretly thinks her brothers are trying to one up her 'mystery man'*

➺ adam and luca do not like the fact that connor buys her everything even though they don't know who he is*

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violet watching the game tonight….. :(

she’s actually at the game! bc she’s still on winter break she rlly wanted to see luke and connor so she flew out (connor paid for it obviously) wearing her bedard jersey ofc

she’s a big hawks and devs fans so she was torn on who to cheer for. she definitely said hi to ellen and jim while she was there.

after the hit from connor she was really upset but after a lot more of the fights she started to get sick to her stomach because she didn’t want luke or jack to get hurt, or watch it happen.

connor asked for her because he knew she’d be worried but also his jaw is really hurting and needs violet.

Im not sure if connor had asked her to be his girlfriend or not but if he hasn’t he’s definitely really close to asking her

she doesn’t really want to go to another game after this because this really made her think about the possibility of not only connor but adam and the others getting hurt as well.

connor has to calm her down when he sees her because she’s ready to throw hands at smith. she hates fights so this game was not the one for her. she does have a minor panic attack just because connor got hit but once she sees that he’s talking she’s a little better

when they come back to Chicago and say that connor has a broken/fractured jaw she is absolutely heartbroken for him.

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violet's mental health journey

note: let me know if i should make one with connor and how he handles/helps her mental health

!*! trigger warnings ~ sh, depression, anxiety !*!

➺ no one really noticed her struggles at first

➺ her teacher was the one to notify her parents which was confusing for them because they never noticed anything

➺ when they were notified they ended up talking to her and violet broke down

➺ she begged for them not to tell her brothers yet

➺ she was diagnosed with anxiety and depression when she was 11

➺ they didn't tell luca and adam until the following year

➺ she did try to, you know, when she was 12

➺ that was the reason they told adam and luca bc they didn't really know how to explain to them why she was going to the hospital

➺ they also wanted them to know just in case she started showing signs again so they could help

➺ luca and adam became more protective after that

➺ they started being wary of every friend she made or if she ever got a boyfriend

➺ she started going to therapy and it really helped

➺ they came to the conclusion that it was because she always felt like she was in adam and luca's shadow and she felt like she was stuck there

➺ thats why she started making youtube videos and found her own place and thing that she was good at

➺ her stress grew because she threw herself into all these things to try and distract her from that memory

➺ she never told anyone but her therapist about those feelings as she didn't want them to be hurt by them

➺ she hates talking about her feelings because she thinks every time she does people pitty her

➺ no one but her family and close friends (mark and luke and the rest of the hughes family) know about it

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