#terry002

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📲 Terry 🐦 (for task#004 — randomizer # 1)

PHOEBE: Hi Terry! PHOEBE [SMS]:

PHOEBE: what's this one?

@hairpintvrns

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PHOEBE: it doesn't, i know. its stupid but idk i guess it was like the universe telling me he's always gonna be there to look after me or something PHOEBE: ... The entire night. we talked a bit, nothing too substantial considering i was a bit drunk and rattled and he was bleeding.

TERRY: Phoebe, I’m sorry that happened to you. It’s fortunate that Foster was in the right place and at the right time. Though it does not excuse everything else he has done.

TERRY: How long is a “bit”?

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PHOEBE: you got me there PHOEBE: honestly, i don't think he could. this guy wouldn't leave me alone when we were in a night club. i told him i wasn't interested, he kept insisting etc. PHOEBE: Foster came out of nowhere and just punched him. the guy punched back, they got into a fight until security kicked them out and I sat with him for a bit PHOEBE: Foster...not the creepy guy.

TERRY: I did just say he was an incorrigible gossip. TERRY: That does sound like the case. I am sorry to hear it. TERRY: So your Foster punched someone. He could not have de-escalated it any other way?

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PHOEBE: what makes you say saul ever said anything about you to me? PHOEBE: thank you. idk a part of me gets tefi's anger to do so to hurt foster but it hurts to know i was just being used a pawn. both of them used me i think. tefi to get at foster, foster as a means to protect himself PHOEBE: i have. PHOEBE: Foster punched someone in the face who wouldn't leave me alone

TERRY: You must tell me how Saul has described me over the years you've known him. He can be such an incorrigible gossip. I myself am not, but I am trying new things. ...is typing... ...is typing... ...is typing... TERRY: Neither of them sounds particularly emotionally healthy. I am sorry you had to go through this. This is difficult for someone to handle. TERRY: Do not call yourself stupid. It isn't stupid. These are circumstances that you could not have foreseen. There was no need for the wife to be spiteful to you, regardless of the hurt she might feel in how their relationship had concluded. And your partner simply should not have withheld the truth. TERRY: Have you spoken to either of them since?

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PHOEBE: Thats fair we dont have to talk about that if you dont want to PHOEBE: it seems stupid when typing it out but PHOEBE: he got married about 10 yrs ago then abandoned her and he moved on with life, she came to BH which he knew about and he never mentioned her to me PHOEBE: i met her by chance, we became friends for a few months and then she told me in front of him the truth PHOEBE: I dont really care that hes married to someone from a time in his life he wasnt proud of, we all do stupid shit sometimes, but i just couldnt get past how i was never given a heads up and that he never felt the need to tell me PHOEBE: and it turned out she knew who i was before we met the entire time. so it all just seemed more mean spirited and calculated from her end

TERRY: I'm not sure if our experiences are entirely comparable in that case. By the time we divorced, the love had already run out. The trust, too. TERRY: I suppose it's my last relationship that could better fit the analogy. But how it ended was not something I'd like to revisit. TERRY: What happened?

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PHOEBE: I mean that’s not fair PHOEBE: We all have issues PHOEBE: yeah…i mean i kicked him out what more distance can you make? PHOEBE: i don’t think there’s different levels to it, i think im at the point where it all hurts just the same really PHOEBE: what was it like when you and saul split up?  PHOEBE: omg sorry you dont have to answer that. 

TERRY: I see. ...is typing... ...is typing... ...is typing... TERRY: You might be better off distancing yourself from him, then. You have not told me anything about your partner, but I imagine he has a lot of issues to work on if it is the love that lingers afterward, and not the trust. TERRY: Do you think that a full accounting of your relationship is productive at this point? Would that not just hurt more? TERRY: Sorry, I am not particularly good at this.

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PHOEBE: What does the K stand for in your email? PHOEBE: if your Instagram is on public and one of your posts hit the explore page theres a chance people have just seen your work and decided to follow you but idk about the engagement thing PHOEBE: my boyfriend and i broke up on Sunday. he's in a lot of my instagram posts that i need to delete

TERRY: Well, I am older. TERRY: Okay. Send it through my email: ktlowenstein@gmail.com. I figure I should forward my personal instead of my institutional email. TERRY: You are not okay. Why? TERRY: I made an Instagram account for my drawings recently. I can follow you if you want. I seem to have gotten a few thousand followers and I'm not sure why that is. Not all of them appear to be interested in my posts. Why do you need to delete posts?

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PHOEBE: I had to google who that was...interesting choice PHOEBE: its okay half the people who write this stuff arent good, its one of the few things you didnt have to be good at to enjoy it PHOEBE: i guess the fan is bits of me, bits of other people. like an...elevated version of me PHOEBE: I did not realize you knew what ig stood for in general terms, but i meant as shorthand for 'i guess' as in to say, no i am not okay PHOEBE: but i do need to sort my insta out now come to think of it, delete some posts...

TERRY: I think it’s typical to have those thoughts while you’re young. One of my first crushes was K.D. Lang, if it helps ease your embarrassment. I don't think I've ever seen a more handsome singer before. TERRY: I would have liked to "indulge" also but I was never particularly good at writing. I take it you’re the fan in question? Or is it another character? TERRY: Ig? Dealing with your Instagram account?

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PHOEBE: Right yeah normal moms care about those things PHOEBE: Oh well, they're a bit...indulgent? Like it's just stuff i started working on in high school/college based about a relationship with a band member and a fan, but maybe you might unexpectedly enjoy it? PHOEBE: Oh. i'm okay. just dealing with stuff ig.

TERRY: Of course I am. I'm his mother. TERRY: I see. Would you like to forward them to me? I can't promise I will be the best critic. I've been to some of Micah's stand-ups before. I don't always understand it, but I appreciate any effort made towards building something new. TERRY: And how are you, Phoebe? I don't believe you were able to answer my earlier question.

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PHOEBE: Humanity sucks 😠 PHOEBE: Well he did say he wasn't staying in town forever so that makes sense PHOEBE: ...are you concerned about him tho? PHOEBE: i dont think Oasis would like it if you called them a boy band, they're more a rock band. i guess boy bands are more if they don't play instruments? like one direction PHOEBE: I have wrote about boy bands before yes

TERRY: I'm afraid that comes with the territory of humanity, Phoebe. TERRY: He's left Blue Harbor. I am on top of it. It should not be any of your concern, don't worry. TERRY: I don't have an opinion on boy bands but I can see the appeal. Is Oasis a boy band? Are you writing about boy bands?

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PHOEBE: and yet it doesn't stop people from lying PHOEBE: Thats nice tho that theres a whole community full of people like that it sounds nice PHOEBE: how is miach btw? i havent seen him around the building lately PHOEBE: im okay, thank you. i've just been revising old work...what's your opinion on boybands?

TERRY: There are no stupid questions, Phoebe, especially if it's new ground you're exploring. Don't sell yourself short. TERRY: People can make up shit and lie, but it is generally frowned upon. The birding community has no centralized authority, but it is fairly easy to spot fraudulent records, especially for birds that have not been seen in a long time. These sightings are moderated by volunteers around the world. It is citizen science data at its finest. TERRY: You do not have to be good at it. It can be a casual hobby if you'd like. My son is a more casual birdwatcher. I'd just always preferred keeping a structure. TERRY: How are you? Have you written anything recently? Do forward anything you think I might be interested in.

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PHOEBE: Oh that is a lot of birds

PHOEBE: stupid question but how do you know all of them exist? Like people say they discovered them and stuff but people just make up shit and lie all the time right?

PHOEBE: idk if I’d be very good at it I still mix up retrievers and labradors but maybe if things free up in the future

TERRY: Birders may opt to keep a list of all birds they see in their lifetime, hence a "lifer" or "life bird". My father was a few species short of 7,000 when he passed. That accounts for about two-thirds existing bird species (of which there are 11,000 and counting). He liked to round up and say it was four-fifths of existing bird species though. When he started, the word list was around 8,600. TERRY: NYC is fine. There are better cities. It just so happened that I was born and raised there. TERRY: No problem. I'm very happy that you thought of me. TERRY: Are you interested in keeping a life list? There are apps that you could use. It is easier to track now than it had been some decades ago, when I also first started. I wouldn't want to say how long ago. That would be betraying my age. Though I suppose you could do the math on that one.

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PHOEBE: oh cool!

PHOEBE: what’s a “lifer”? 🤨

PHOEBE: do you ever miss nyc? Central Park always seemed iconic to me

PHOEBE: yeah I was just walking through deer park park needing to clear my head and I saw it and thought of you!

PHOEBE: that sounded weird I’m sorry lol

PHOEBE: oh when they don’t have feathers they’re ugly! Sorry! But like…fuck me 🫣

TERRY: Hello Phoebe. TERRY: This is a Northern Cardinal. One of my first lifers back in Central Park; I must've been eight, nine years old when I first spotted one. They are year-round birds. Did you take this photo? TERRY: It's great that you caught a picture just before they begin losing their feathers. They're quite eye-catching songbirds but a funny sight when they begin molting. Please Google it. They turn bald.

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PHOEBE: oh that’s fair. I know it’s not the same thing but My mom used to call me Bee which I don’t really like people calling me. Except Rhia, nilays daughter. She calls me Bee-Bee but she is 2 yrs old

PHOEBE: no not the love, I still love him. But he broke my trust which is harder to bounce back from. And seeing all the times of us being happy knowing what I know now, it leaves a bit of a sour taste in my mouth

PHOEBE: What does the K stand for in your email? PHOEBE: if your Instagram is on public and one of your posts hit the explore page theres a chance people have just seen your work and decided to follow you but idk about the engagement thing PHOEBE: my boyfriend and i broke up on Sunday. he's in a lot of my instagram posts that i need to delete