#thank u iba........i owe u everything

[clumsyclifford]

i'll ask u so much u'll regret reblogging that ask game: 2, 3, 4 for neon weekend, 8 for brazil fic (ABSOLUTELY use this as an excuse to talk about brazil...), 3 and 13 for baby driver, and 2 and 8 for accapella au xoxo, arbor day/iba/muke whoever the fuck I am

oh my god okay this got lengthy so im putting a cut but just know that i honestly love you for this

also:

ask me about any of my fics!!

more than just a neon weekend

2: What scene did you first put down? the very first one!! weirdly enough i wrote the first scene first but then almost the whole rest of the fic was written out of order which i really don’t make a habit of doing so if its choppy thatll be the reason why

3: What’s your favorite line of narration? everyone basically mentioned this line in comments n stuff about the fic which i was really chuffed about because i actually put Thought into it but anyway:

He’s tempted to say something, weighed too heavily down by the silence in the room, the glare of the strip lights around the walls of this hotel, too. But there’s nothing Luke could possibly say that wouldn’t ruin this; even goodnight feels out of place. So he breathes out, exhaling the last of the strain from his chest, and shifts Calum closer to him. They fall asleep like that, exceedingly warm, deceptively well-matched, puzzle pieces stolen from different puzzles.

before u even get to the puzzle pieces line you have the part about how there’s nothing luke could say that wouldnt ruin it, not even goodnight, and i really like that too, but then u get to this metaphor that i honestly think i was possessed when i wrote it because it really is exactly the feeling i wanted to create? things that do fit together but for all intents and purposes shouldn’t fit together. very proud of that one im not going to lie. im also gonna toss in this one:

"I slept with someone I shouldn't have," he admits, pink-cheeked just thinking about it. Ashton either isn't surprised or does a good job hiding it; Luke thinks maybe he should be offended by that.

cos of luke being like well i slept w someone i shouldnt have and ashton having ZERO reaction and luke being like......you could at least PRETEND to be surprised GKJDFKGJDSF ALSOOOOO oh god im really proud of a lot of lines in this arent i well these two are from the same scene so im putting them together as one

Calum breathes out, exhaling the smoke into the air, and Luke wonders how he became the kind of person who romanticized smoking, even though he knows the answer is standing just before him, slumped against the brick. 

[...] Luke wonders if he’d breathe easier filling his lungs with smoke; surely even that must be better than filling them with nothing at all. 

really not a fan of smoking and dont like when it gets super romanticized in stories but the truth is that when u fancy someone ur gonna romanticize what they do but i still felt like i needed to acknowledge that its not the kind of thing i normally WOULD romanticize so put luke’s lil comment there as a disclaimer of sorts

4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue? aha i actually have an answer!

Luke’s nerves are all on fire; he tilts his head back against the wall, baring his throat, and Calum leans in and whispers, “It’s just sex, Luke. Means nothing to me if it’s nothing to you.”

gets repeated a lot of times throughout the fic because i dont really know why tbh i just like how its constructed and........yeah

brazil fic

8: Did any real people or events inspire any part of it? WELL!! real EVENTS? yes actually the world cup of 2014 inspired it in part even though lets not tell tales here most of the inspiration was me going god im dying to write a fic about brazil how can i justify this. once i figure out how to justify writing a jewish fic its over for you bitches ANYWAY. the events in the fic itself arent really inspired by events in my life since as previously mentioned Nothing Ever Happens To Me but. there are THINGS in the fics taken from my life. for example like i said the grocery store, Zona Sul, is the grocery store my family went to. and the pizza place they go to, Vezpa? BEST pizza ever been there so many times. also i did mention this already as well but the line about the sunset melting into all these different colors is straight from my memory of watching the sunset one time. and obviously every single word in portuguese.....banheiro was one of the first ones i knew (obviously, crucial word). i liked having calum (who’d been to brazil before) and ashton (who was very enthusiastic abt it) in the fics to use as kind of vehicles for my own like.....LOOK WHAT I KNOW ABOUT BRAZIL compulsion like for example when calum points out dois irmãos i was like theres no reason michael would know that but i know that and i want to share it. sugarloaf, for the record, is called pão de açucár (literally means sugarloaf) but i felt like having calum know that was maybe overkill lol. also fun fact when i lived there i lived right next to the smaller mountain of dois irmãos we had a lovely view SO yeah you got me rambling about brazil i dont even know if i answered the question lets move on

baby driver fic

3: What’s your favorite line of narration? okay im just scrollin thru the fic so ill probably stumble across a couple others but this is one of my absolute favorites

“Am I living it right?” Calum asks, in time with John Mayer, although he knows he isn’t.

cant really explain why i just really really love how it ties the music calum listens to with his place in the world and how his music really reflects his thoughts and moods and is like such a lens through which he views the world

13: What music did you listen to, if any, to get in the mood for writing this story? Or if you didn’t listen to anything, what do you think readers should listen to to accompany us while reading? WHAT A QUESTION well interestingly enough i dont typically listen to music while writing fic but i did a lot of musical research for this one so i could get a vast enough array of songs meaning i was listening to a lot of music while writing but what should READERS listen to?? well i am SO glad you asked iba because the answer is this handy playlist i made with all of the songs that get referenced in the fic!!! i have to say even separate from the fic itself this playlist is fucking GOOD like the range......the emotion.........yeah if u listen in order u may ascend fair warning

acappella au fic

2: What scene did you first put down? the first one, probably. first fic i ever wrote for the fandom!! but it was some time ago and i honestly don’t like, Remember, but i typically write in chronological order so i assume i just started from the beginning

8: Did any real people or events inspire any part of it? oh my god SO many. the entire first bass acappella group is HEAVILY based on the all-male acappella group at my school. the songs they say they perform are stolen from that group. ALSO, in MY acappella group i sing bass (mine’s all-female so u know), so all of those references are from me. the pizza place that’s open til 2am? straight from my campus. the acappella showcase at the very beginning, up to and including calum’s reaction to it, are all straight from my life. the chaotic group chat is largely inspired by the one my acappella group has together w the all-male group. the performance in the student center. literally the scene where calum gets drunk and then has to go sit outside on the front stoop even though it’s drizzling? direct from my first experience drinking. and the scene with michael walking calum home and then they kiss and then it’s really awkward?? took it from something that happened to my friend. that entire fic is just things from my life. it is embarrassingly projected

[imyoursweetestrevenge]

Thank you for everything ate Ethel. This message may not be enough to repay all the things that you've done to me pero eto lang afford ko so ayon. Haha. Thank you for being my ate and so far, you've been the most legit ate i ever had. Thank you for always keeping me safe and for giving me advices and for listening to my rants about boyz. Hahaha. Thank you for your sacrifices and thank you for adjusting to my shtty attitude. You are truly for keeps and i'm honored to have u in my life. Thank you for being considerate sa mga kalandian at kaartehan ko. Thank you for making my life more colorful especially on the month of May. Sobra ko kayong nappreciate dahil sa mga ganaps natin. Basta alam mo naman na yung iba kong dapat pasalamatan eh. So thank you!!!!! I owe u some of happiness last month. Hihi. I love you and I hope that this friendship is solid forever kahit na mag away pa tayo ng maraming maraming beses basta wag nating susukuan ang isa't-isa. Hahaha. Ang drama ko na but remember that I created this message at 2am. lol. Anon para cool at kunyari di mo alam kung sino to. Haha. I suck at expressing my feelings but i hope u felt it even tho my message is crappy and incoherent. lol. Dapat last week pa ako magmemessage kaso di nangyari sa gusto kong oras at araw kaya eto ngayon na lang habang trip ko mag emote. Hahahaha. Again, i love you and thank you!!!!!!! Mwa

[karmelaaaa-blog]

This is one of the happiest, but one of the saddest day of my life. 💙 Happy sa part na finally , No more thesis. No more puyat. No more iyak. Pero sad kasi I know this is the END! 💔 Why , end ? Well , hindi ko din naman alam. Pero I guess , I'm dying to end this one. 💪🏻 To both of you , THANK YOU! I owe everything to you guys regarding sa Thesis! Kayo ang nagtaguyod! Kayo ang nagdala. Salamat kasi sinama nyo pa din ako kahit na siguro mga 10% lang naging contribution ko. I know u know why and I hope you understand! :) To MLCHR , Thank you for your long patience! Thank you kasi naging daan ka ng pag uusap namin. Alam kong nahirapan ka din unawain yung sitwasyon na di naguusap yung dalawa mong kagrupo. Sorry sa pagsusungit minsan at sa pa-iba ibang timpla ng mood. You know my stand naman. Kung bakit ganun at ganyan. As in thank you! Sobrang big help ng unawa kahit I know at the back of your mind baka minumura mo na din ako at kung ano ano na nasasabi mo. Pero don't worry - Mas naiintindihan kita. Alam ko kung gaano ka naging totoo sakin for the past two-three years. Haha! :D To PTRCK , Hindi ko alam kung ano sasabihin ko sayo. Pero siguro isa lang na heavy. I TRIED! 😞 Actually , natuwa ako kahapon sayo sa defense everytime u look at me at sinasabihan mo ko na parang ako sumagot. Sobrang kabado talaga at hiyang hiya ako kahapon. Thank you for trying to lift up my mood and self yesterday. We've been best of friends pero Idk where we are now. I missed you! But how can we stay to be bestfriends if I'm the only one na nag-eexist na lang. Sobrang Sorry for all the mistakes I've done. For all the words I've said na naka offend sayo ( if meron man ) I was just trying to keep our friendship pero maybe we are not really meant to be part of each others' lives! But believe me when I say na hanggang ngayon mahalaga ka pa rin sakin kahit na sobrang lalim na ng away at tampuhan ng Friendship natin. I miss you big time beshie. Five Months had been so rough for us. Nakakalungkot lang na I know at nakikita ko na -- Walang Wala na kong lugar at alam kong napalitan na ang pagiging bestfriend ko sayo. :( Always remember that I will always be one call/chat/text away. Now that you're one step closer to your dream of becoming a CPA - I'm one of the happiest. Alam mo yan. Hoping nothing but the best for you! 💙 And siguro as this end , siguro I'll focus on myself muna. Miss na miss ko na yung sarili ko. I will try to gain back yung pagiging masayahin ko na tao. 💔🌸 😹Everything happens for a reason. Everything will be alright. Just Believe in Him. ☝🏻