#thanks for the emotional blunting Zoloft you truly ruin my life like nothing else | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

apotelesmaa · 4 months

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I think the fact that u can just get prescribed ssris without being told about side effects to watch out for and then have your dose raised and suddenly have your mental health absolutely tank is. So funny. Absolutely incapable of feeling emotions to the point where all of my relationships are fucked (unable to feel affection/love) my academic career is fucked (unable to feel any sense of urgency towards assignments/attendance) my Everything Is Fucked (unable to gauge emotional well-being until things are actually hazardous) but at least I also can’t feel the Consuming Despair. Giving zombie realness. Going through the motions pilled. Apathymaxxing.

#the emotions are there it’s just like. so disconnected from myself that my body feels it but I don’t?#like my sister was sick and my body was helping and fretting over her and my brain was just like 😑#my parents came to visit and I felt zero emotion #i can barely reach out to people to maintain relationships because I have zero desire to do anything but sit there and do nothing #my brain started drafting a note and I had to be like ohhh wait this is bad isn’t it #what irritates me is like. i thought this was the depression worsening when it started happening. so they increased the dose. which made it #worse. and if I hadn’t looked into it I would probably ask for another increase.#+ also I’m thankfully not a fan of drinking unless it’s socially but the emotions kind of return when drunk so it’s like #i can see how this would be a path to unhealthy habits for people who are prone to drinking more #u know that one tiktok audio that’s like ‘she’s looking at me and telling me she loves me and I just feel nothing’ ‘oh my god shut UP’ it’s #like that. but for everything. literally just trapped in my head talking to myself because I don’t have the energy or desire to speak.#thanks for the emotional blunting Zoloft you truly ruin my life like nothing else #and I can’t even stop taking it because it’ll fuck with my head more. we’re in some dire dire docks boys. minus the sick submarine.

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