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Boundaries

Spencer Reid x Reader

Summary:

When JJ makes an offhand comment about Spencer not being particularly fond of physical touch to his girlfriend it causes a bit of a misunderstanding.

word count: 3180

Ever since you and Spencer decided to ditch your colleagues for the third time in a row to watch Doctor Who at his place instead, which resulted in him awkwardly admitted to liking you at the end of the night, you two have been practically inseparable. You knew that Spencer was shy when it comes to physical affection from the start but you also knew that a huge part of it was the lack of said affection throughout his life.

Often times he looks surprised when you hug him or kiss him with no particular reason in mind other than that you wanted to.

It's like he's used to only experiencing soft touches in the context of challenging and heartbreaking events happening to him.

You were set on changing that. You're going to make up for all the people who have failed to treat him with the love he deserves.

So far he hasn't stopped you from trying either. You cuddle him every chance you get, you kiss him whenever the opportunity presents itself and the environment allows it, you hold his hand while you're on the jet. You make sure Spencer is on board for all of this though.

You always ask him if he's okay with it before. The last thing you want is for Spencer to feel uncomfortable with you.

He's never denied you though and your question is always received with a big smile on his face.

Despite being very responsive to your touches Spencer doesn't allow himself to outright ask for them. Your best guess is that it comes from a long line of people denying him these simple pleasures. The thought breaks your heart.

You two were in the elevator on your way to meet the rest of the team in the bullpen when it all sort of went south.

You were holding hands with Spencer and he subconsciously squeezes your hand a little once the doors open. You give him a smile and lean up to press a small kiss to his cheek.

He immediately turns bright red and you giggle. He's given up on asking you for their reasons. He's starting to accept that you like kissing him and that's reason enough.

He grins at you and you let go of your grip on his hand. You both walk to your respective desks and stuff your go bags under them.

Before you can make your way back to Spencer you spot JJ across the room seemingly headed straight to your desk.

You know JJ is Spencers best friend and while you admittedly had a hard time accepting that your boyfriends best friend was a woman he used to have a crush on, you decided that you had absolutely no reason not to trust Spencer. He was happy with you and JJ was married with kids after all. Hell, Spence is their godfather. There's no need to worry about either of them having feelings for the other. You're sure of it"

Plus, you really like JJ. She was the hardest to win over simply because she and Spencer were so close but she never treated you with hostility. She was kind and respectful but kept you at distance until she was sure you were right for Spencer. You would've been upset if you weren't so happy someone was looking out for him after all.

"Good morning JJ" you greet her happily.

It really had been a good morning.

You and Spencer woke up earlier than usual to eat breakfast together. He made you pancakes!

Or, at least he tried. They were a bit burned but you told him that they were the best pancakes you have ever had. And you meant it.

He, of course, turned bright red and refused to take the compliment so you shut him up with a kiss.

A kiss that said 'Thank you for making me breakfast. I love you and i can't wait to spend the rest of my life eating burned pancakes with you'.

"Hey Y/N i was wondering if you had a minute to talk. About Spence." JJ approached you with a certain worry in her eyes that immediately unsettled you.

"What do you mean? Did something happen? I just saw him a minute ago and he seemed fine" You say nervously. Was there something you overlooked?

You make a mental note to go through the events of this morning again.

"No, he's fine! It's not that. I just wanted to talk to you about how it's going with Spencer. You know, being a couple and all"

JJ seemed almost nervous.

You weren't sure what to think about that.

She never dug around in your business before and you don't think she's got any malicious intentions but it does throw you off a little bit.

"Did you have something specific in mind? We're doing great, JJ. I know you worry about him but i think he's happy with me"

You say proudly because you know he is.

He tells you every night when you two settle down to lie in each others arms to read for a bit.

That's code for Spencer reading to you while laying his head on your stomach and you playing with his hair.

You smile at the memory.

"Uh yeah i guess i do. I just don't want you to think of this as something personal but i think as his best friend i owe it to Spencer to talk to you about it"

She looks down at her feet seemingly uncomfortable but willing to go through with this.

You were shocked to say the least. What could she possibly have in mind that would potentially hurt your feelings? Your mind goes to the worst possible scenarios and it's giving you a good bit of anxiety.

JJ seems to spot the look on your face and grabs your hands.

"No, no, no it's nothing bad per se! Just something you should be aware of to avoid misunderstandings"

You let out a small breath and calm down a bit. You're still confused though. If it's so urgent, why wouldn't Spencer tell you himself?

You were curious though.

"Okay so what is this about then?"

JJ looks at you with a bit of pity in her eyes and you immediately decide you hate that look.

"It's just that, you know, Spence is a bit of a germaphobe and he just doesn't do very well with people invading his personal space. Not that you're invading his space! Gosh no, you're his girlfriend after all. It's just that it seems like he might be a bit overwhelmed. I know it's non of my business, but i think he's trying to be okay with the PDA because it's something you want. I'm all for expanding your comfort zones but i'm afraid Spence is not going to tell you himself"

She finishes her nervous rant and you felt your heart sinking.

Is that why he never asks for your touch? You thought it was because he was shy but maybe it's because it makes him uncomfortable.

Was he trying to protect your feelings by not denying you touch whenever you asked?

Or worse, did he think you would leave him if he put up some boundaries?

Your eyes are filled with unshed tears and you look down at your feet out of embarrassment. You don't want to see the look on JJ's face right now. You're humiliated and honestly just upset Spencer wasn't telling you all this himself.

"Oh. Well, i'm sorry. I didn't know. I thought we were okay but i'll make an effort to turn it down. Thanks JJ"

It's clear she wanted to say something in return but you already turned away from her to flee the scene. It was overwhelming and you didn't want her to see you cry over this.

You went to the only place you knew you could feel freely without having to downplay the whole thing.

Penelopes Office.

You knock twice at her door.

"Hey Pen, can i come in? Are you busy?"

She immediately opens the door and with it, her arms.

"Never too busy for you honey bun!"

You give her a sad smile and hug her tightly.

You sniffle a little and she closes the door behind you two.

"What's wrong Y/N? Did Spencer do anything? I'll kill him for you. I have about twenty seven different ways that would make it look like an accident! Perks of working for the FBI"

This actually makes you laugh and you immediately know you've made the right call coming to Garcia.

"It's more about what he didn't do. Pen, am i a bad girlfriend?"

She grabs your shoulders and pushes you out of her embrace to look at you.

"What? How could you possibly think that? Boy Wonder has never been happier and i've known the kid for a solid couple of years!"

You look down again with an empty smile

"Then why would he send JJ to tell me all about how uncomfortable i make him?"

Okay so maybe you were being a bit dramatic but it feels like he broke your trust by talking to JJ about it before talking to you. At least, you assume he did. Why else would she bring this up?

"He did what? Are you sure?"

You raise your arms in a frustrated manner.

"I don't know Penny all i know is that JJ had some thoughts on how to be in a relationship with Spence!"

Garcia looked shocked and it makes you laugh.

"Yeah, that was my initial reaction too"

She shakes herself out of it.

"Did you talk to Spencer about what he thinks?"

You look at her with sheepish eyes.

"I don't want to yet. I'm upset with him and honestly a little embarrassed. I just wish he would've told me certain things himself. I think i'm going to take a sick day, okay? Can you let Hotch know i'm out for today?"

She looks at you with understanding eyes and gives you a nod.

"Of course, Bunny. Take care. And don't forget that Spencer loves you!"

You smile and give her a nod in return.

"Yeah, i know"

And with that you're out the door and on your way to grab your bag from your desk.

Of course you end up running into the one person you don't want to talk to right now.

Spencer looks at you with a small smile and you give him one back. Admittedly, yours looks a bit forced but you don't have the energy to pretend right now.

"What are you doing?" He asks innocently. He must be unaware of your conversation with JJ.

"I- Uh i'm taking a sick day. I'm not feeling so well"

You try to avoid eye contact but you fail to ignore Spencers worried expression in your peripheral vision.

"Are you okay? Was it the breakfast? I told you you shouldn't have eaten the pancakes!"

He sounds so distressed you can't help but laugh.

You were still mad at him but he was just too cute for his own good.

Out of habit you raise your hand to plant it on the nape of his neck where you usually toy with his hair before kissing him.

Just as you were about to put your hand on him you shake yourself out of it and retreat it.

He looks at you with confused eyes.

"What's wrong?"

He asks you with sad eyes. He's giving you completely mixed signals and it's driving you insane. Did he suddenly want you to touch him?

"Nothing. I just- I'm really tired"

You look down at your bag and pick it up to make your way out of there.

Spencer grabs your hand and it causes you to stop in your tracks. You breath in and out and turn around to look at him once again.

"Are- I mean are you leaving now?"

He looks at you with an embarrassed glint in his eyes. But there's something more to it. He looks hopeful. Like he's expecting something.

Maybe he's waiting for you to kiss him goodbye like you always do says a small voice on the back of your head.

No, you shake your head, JJ was perfectly clear about these things.

"Yeah, i am. See you later okay?"

You say with a small smile. You weren't mad at him for not being comfortable with PDA. That's not it at all. You just wanted him to be the one telling you.

You squeeze his hand and he exhales a little.

"Yes! Yeah, um, we're still on for tonight right? Your place?"

He seems so nervous and it reminds you a lot of the first few dates you two had. He was so afraid of messing up, of being laughed at or rejected.

"Of course we are. I'll order us some Chinese"

You give him a real smile and he starts lighting up as well.

"Yeah i'd like that. See you, uh, tonight then"

He's still holding your hand and you squeeze it one more time before letting go.

As you step into the elevator you know that you two have a lot to talk about.

--timeskip approx. 8h--

You've spend all day trying to figure out how to talk to Spencer about what happened at work today. You didn't want to fight with him and you hope he's not going to try and shut you out.

All your worries pretty much wash away when you find Spencer at your door holding a beautiful arrangement of flowers.

When he finally reveals himself behind them you can't help but drag him inside and press a kiss to his lips. You smile into the kiss and it's not long before Spencer does the same. It's harder than it sounds like but you two aren't willing to separate yet so you keep kissing for a little longer before leaning back to accept the arrangement.

"Thank you, Spence. They're beautiful"

You push the curls out of his face and cup his cheek in your hand.

He leans into it and closes his eyes for a second

"Almost as beautiful as you"

It's barely a whisper but you heard him.

Putting the flowers down on the counter you don't waste a single second hugging him tight to your chest.

He hums in contentment and you melt into him.

You've missed him so much today. You weren't used to being at distance with him. Emotionally or physically.

Speaking of.

"Does that mean we're okay again?"

Spencer asks pressing small kisses to your neck.

You shutter slightly before leaning back to look at him.

"What do you mean? Were we not okay before?"

You brush the curls that have fallen back into his eyes away again and he looks at you with wide loving eyes.

"I don't know i thought we were but then you didn't- um i don't know you just left and i thought maybe i had done something to upset you?"

He looks nervous. Almost like he's afraid he's going to say something wrong. You give him a small sad smile and decide that now is as good of a time as ever.

"I didn't kiss you because i know you're not comfortable with that"

You weren't mad anymore. You had enough time to process what happened and you've come to the conclusion that Spencer must've had his reasons. You're willing to let him explain.

He on the other hand looks at you like you've grown a second head.

"What? No i- why would you think that?"

You huff out a breath and look at him for a moment with raised eyebrows. You really thought he was going to tell you now. Is he waiting for you to say it?

Spencer looked genuinely confused and upset you would even suggest such a thing. It makes you wonder if he talked to JJ at all.

"Look, JJ came to talk to me today and cleared some things up and honestly i'm not upset about what she said. Not really. I'm upset i had to find out from someone who wasn't you. You could've told me. You should have told me actually"

This didn't do anything to wipe off Spencers confused expression. If anything, his frown just got deeper.

"Y/N i seriously don't know what you're talking about. I haven't talked to JJ this week"

Now it's your turn to frown. Did he not know? Was it really just JJ making assumptions that weren't true?

"But she said- No it doesn't matter what she said. What matters is that i want you to tell me, right now, if my affections make you uncomfortable in any shape of form. It's okay if they do Spence! I know i'm a lot but it's important we're both okay with what's happening between us"

He stares at you with a mix of adoration and confusion.

"Of course i'm not uncomfortable with you! I would tell you if i was. It's not even like you're doing any of it without checking with me first! Why would i lie to you?"

You let out a frustrated huff.

"Because you don't wanna hurt my feelings! But it's okay. We're equals and we can set up boundaries if you want. All that matters to me is that you won't shut me out"

Spencer smiles at you and it confuses you. Why the sudden mood change? Not that you're complaining. His smile always did manage to make you feel better. This time is no exception.

He grabs your hands and pulls you closer again.

This is new. Not the hand holding, but the fact that Spencer is the one initiating it.

"I promise you i have never been more comfortable with a person. I don't know what JJ told you and i'm definitely going to have a talk with her about boundaries but as far as we go, i'm more than happy with where and what we are"

You give him a small laugh and he joins in.

You wrap your arms around his middle and bury your head in his chest.

"So you're okay with me kissing you or touching you in general? In front of the team"

He presses a small kiss to the top of your head.

"More than okay" He whispers

You smile and lift your head to give him a proper kiss. He grabs the side of your head and pulls you even closer.

Lips just millimeters apart you look him in the eyes and find nothing but love in them.

"Also, next time you leave work without kissing me goodbye i'll make a scene. No hesitation"

You laugh loudly and push him away. He playfully stumbles back a couple of steps and laughs with you. He shrugs his shoulders

"Try me"

You lean your head on his shoulder.

You don't even know what you were worried about anymore. Spencer has a way to make all the problems seem to minuscule. You can confidently say you've never been happier.

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I love you (and I don't want to) (Spencer Reid/Reader)

Requested: Yes

Summary: After three years in love with Spencer, (Y/N) decides it's time to move on. He will never love her anyway, right?

Category: Angst/Fluffy ending

Word count: 4,2K

Warnings: Cursing, but you love me anyway 💜

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It had been three years of her life. Three whole years she had been in love with Spencer Reid. But (Y/N) couldn't deal with those feelings anymore. She didn't want to continue torturing herself, waiting for him. Why? 'cos for him, (Y/N) was just his friend, his very best friend. But nothing more. And she wanted more. She wanted everything with him, and after three years, she knew she wasn't going to get it.

(Y/N) had hinted to Spencer in every possible way that she was in love with him, but he hadn't acted on it. She actually felt pathetic. (Y/N) thought she couldn't be any more obvious about her feelings. The only thing she hadn't done was kissing Reid. And she wasn't going to because it was clear all she was going to get was rejection.

That's why, after three years postponing her own life, waiting around to see if Spencer might actually see her as a woman and not as a friend, she was done. She had to move on from him, even if it was the hardest thing she had ever done.

But working with Spencer didn't make it easier. There he was, every morning, smiling at her from his desk. Asking her how she had spent the night, what she had done. Even inviting her over to his apartment for a movie night. Which with Spencer actually meant watching movies and nothing else. Nothing. Not even holding hands.

In three years, the most physical (Y/N) had even been with Spencer had been the day she got shot in a leg, and he hugged her when she rejoined the team after her leave.

One hug in three years. That was it. Spencer was way more physical with Morgan, or with anyone else, as a matter of fact. That's why it was time to let him go. (Y/N) knew she wasn't going to find another man like him, though maybe that was the idea.

She loved him so much it hurt, and she needed to get rid of that pain.

(Y/N) knew she could get a man's attention if she wanted to. That's why it was so frustrating not being able to get Spencer's. Decided to get him out of his mind, (Y/N) dragged Emily and García for a "Lady's night." And by the end of the evening, she had given her number to three different guys. Neither of them was Spencer Reid, but at least (Y/N) felt her ego boost from getting their attention.

- "(Y/N)! I still can't get over how hot that guy was!! did he call you already?"- Penelope walked through the bullpen straight to (Y/N) 's desk, ignoring everybody but her friend. (Y/N) bit her lips and closed her eyes for a second, embarrassed her friend had literally yelled to the whole FBI they had met a cute guy the night before.

- "What? Who?"- Derek Morgan nearly jumped and rubbed his hands together, excited to hear the story, and walked with Garcia to (Y/N) 's desk.

Spencer raised his eyes from the file he was reading and scanned (Y/N) 's face. She was blushed, obviously nervous, and biting her lips as she smiled. What? Was she excited? Happy? Annoyed? and who was Garcia talking about? what guy? (Y/N) wasn't dating anyone. He would know. He knew everything she did. Not that he was a stalker or anything, but he listened each time she talked, and she usually told him everything she did.

Did she? Maybe not anymore. Spencer realized he needed to know what Garcia was talking about, so he pretended to be working but paid all of his attention to that conversation.

- "Thank you, Penelope"- (Y/N) huffed and shook her head- "I don't think Anderson heard you, by the way."

- "I heard her!"- Anderson raised his hand and waved- "Hot guy, she can't get over him"

- "Thank you!"- (Y/N) smiled at Anderson and covered her face with both hands.

- "Oh, come on! Don't be shy. You are not shy. And last night's (Y/N) wasn't shy either!"- Penelope tapped on (Y/N) 's back, as she grabbed the closest chair and moved it to her desk- "So, did he call?"

- "Who are you guys talking about?"- Morgan asked, crossing his arms on his chest, staring at the two women- "What did you do last night?"

- "Turns out this lady right here is the best party girl I've ever met, and in all these years, she had never shown this side of her! Ever!"- Penelope was clearly under the effect of three cups of coffee.

- "What did she do?"

- "Oh my beloved Morgan, you should have seen her!"- Garcia started explaining, and Spencer realized his stomach, as well as his fists, were tightening.

- "Please, don't!"- (Y/N) begged, but it was useless.

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Don’t be a d!ck (Spencer Reid/Reader)

Requested: Yes! :) Spencer is jealous when he sees a picture of a dick on his girlfriend's phone

Summary: Spencer Reid can't believe it when he finds something shocking in his girlfriend's phone. And, of course, instead of asking her about it, he spends a whole day overthinking everything.

Pairing: Spencer Reid/Reader

Category: Fluff with mentions of sex and maybe a dash of angst. How would you call that? Flmut? smuff? flangut?

Warnings: Spencer being passive-aggressive. Sex references, cursing as always.

Word count: 2,3K

A/N: I loved this request so much!! hope you like it @meowiemari

- "Pumpkin! have you seen my phone?"- Spencer asked his girlfriend after looking for it in every corner of their apartment, not finding it.

- "No, Honey! Did you look in your bag?"- she yelled from the bathroom, where she was getting ready to leave for work. The two of them worked together at the BAU, and they were late. There was no time for breakfast, just coffee... and finding Spencer's phone.

- "It's not there! can I use yours to call my phone?"

- "Sure! it's on my nightstand"

Spencer kept trying to remember where he had left his phone, but nothing came to mind because he usually didn't use it. He always kept it in his bag. Maybe someone had stolen it; they might have taken it from his bag. No, he had called his mother the night before, so he was sure it had to be somewhere in the house.

(Y/N)'s cellphone was precisely where she had said it was. He hated that. She always remembered where she had left her things. Spencer did too, but sometimes he was too concentrated reading a book. Or rambling about anything... or kissing (Y/N). Those things made him forget where the unimportant things were, for example, his phone.

He was about to joke about it and tell (Y/N) she was hiding his phone to mess with him, but when he unlocked hers, his heart stopped, and he nearly dropped it. Her phone's wallpaper... it was a picture... of... a... dick.

And it wasn't his.

There was a dick. Cock. Penis. And it wasn't his.

He tried to understand what was going on, but it made no sense: there was a fully hard male sexual organ. And. It. Wasn't. His.

- "Honey? Did you find it?"- (Y/N) asked and walked out of the bathroom. Spencer dialed his number in silence and waited until he heard it ringing in the kitchen.

- "Got it!"- he answered and put it in his pocket- "I'll wait in the car"- and without giving his girlfriend time to reply, he left the apartment.

Why on earth would (Y/N) do that? Wasn't he enough? Was she cheating? Whose cock was it? And how was he going to ask her? If she put that picture there, anyone could see it. Didn't she care?

- "Honey, are you listening?"- (Y/N) asked him as Spencer drove to the BAU. He had been quiet, tangled in all the doubts and questions that picture had filled his mind with. And he was unable to talk. Unable to simply ask (Y/N) what was that all about.

- "Yes, I'm fine"- he replied, serious and curt. (Y/N) looked at him and raised an eyebrow, confused.

- "Are you sure? you sound upset"

- "If I tell you I'm fine, it's because I'm fucking fine!"- and with that sentence, Spencer Reid ended any kind of conversation with his girlfriend. (Y/N) knew if he were mad about something, he would take his time to process it. And if she pushed him, he was going to freak out, yell and even say hurtful things. That's how Spencer had always been, and she wasn't going to change that.

- "Hey! are you ok?"- Morgan stood next to Spencer in the kitchenette. He had noticed his friend hadn't said a word the whole morning, and Derek knew his friend good enough to know that wasn't right.

- "Yeah"- Reid answered coldly and poured a cup of coffee- "So, you don't have any random facts to share with me? No rambling? no..."

- "No, Morgan, I have nothing to say!"- Spencer just snapped at his friend, and he stared at him, surprised

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Kiss it better (Spencer Reid x reader)

Requested: Yes (on Wattpad like a million years ago)

Summary: Reader is in pain but tries to hide it from Spencer ‘cos she doesn’t think it’s important.

Word count: 3,1 K

Warnings: Hardcore fluff. You’ve been warned.

A/N: Hi! I got this request a million years ago, and today I can finally post t. Sorry for the delay. Also, I pictured baby Spencer because I miss and love him.

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Spencer had been away on a case for two weeks, one day and seventeen hours. His girlfriend (Y/N) kept count. If you asked Reid, it had been two weeks, one day, seventeen hours, and forty-seven minutes. He kept count too. He always kept count when he was far from (Y/N). Ever since he had started dating her almost a year ago, he hated when his job forced him to stay outside the city for longer than two days, but this unsub had been hard to catch.

Luckily the unsub made a mistake, and the BAU was able to catch him. Finally. That meant Spencer was on his way back, and he called (Y/N) to let her know he would be home for dinner. She nearly jumped from the couch when she heard him. Ok, she didn’t jump because her leg had been killing her since that morning, but she was trying to ignore the pain as if pretending it didn’t exist was the magic way to make it disappear. Not the grown-up thing to do, but she was in denial.

- “Hey princess! I’ve got good news. I’ll be back in DC tonight,”- Reid announced over the phone, making his best Derek wouldn’t hear him talking with his girl, ‘cos Spencer didn’t want to deal with the amount of teasing that would mean.

- “Really?”- (Y/N) felt her heart skip a beat just with the thought of being with her boyfriend that very same day. She also felt a stabbing pain in her right leg as soon as she moved and had to bite her lips to not yell in agony.

- “Really. So, do you have plans for tonight?”

- “I had one single plan for the evening, missing you. Now I think I might like to change that plan to be with you”- (Y/N) whispered and closed her eyes, rubbing her leg in the spot where it hurt.

- “Sounds like the best plan,”- Spencer murmured and looked around to make sure Derek wasn’t close enough to hear him. He was tired of all this teasing.

- “I’ll wait for you with dinner.”

- “See you in a few hours, princess.”

- “Love you, honey.”

(Y/N) hung up the phone and nearly broke into tears. The pain was too much for her to handle. She knew she had been over-stressing lately, with college and her job. She knew she was overdoing herself. But she felt like she had to. Spencer had achieved so much in life, and she wanted him to feel proud of her. Of being her boyfriend, just the way she was proud to call him hers.

So she took a deep breath and slowly stood up. She had to cook an amazing dinner for her boyfriend and then finish studying for an upcoming exam.

Cooking dinner took forever. (Y/N) had to move very slowly ‘cos her leg was progressively getting worse and worse. She knew Spencer would tell her something like, “Rest, we can order some take out,” but she didn’t want him to keep eating junk food. He deserved a home-cooked meal. After a week trying t catch a psychopath, Spencer had earned the best dinner she could give her, even if her leg were killing her. She had to be the best girlfriend Spencer could have.

After getting dinner ready, (Y/N) sat on the couch and tried to get some well-deserved rest… while studying for her upcoming test. It was hard to focus after that long day and the unbearable pain in her leg, but she knew Spencer would do it. He usually worked over 14 hours every day to save people’s lives. She could definitely stay awake a few more minutes to study and wait for him to get home. So, she drank another cup of coffee and tried her best to focus on the books.

It was already eight when (Y/N) heard a soft knock on her door, and she slowly stood up, trying to make sure not to run or push her bad leg. But that whole idea went overboard when Spencer walked into the room and hugged her tight, spinning her around in the air.

- “I’ve missed you so much, princess,”- he whispered in her ear and took a deep breath of her scent. She kept her arms wrapped around him for a few more minutes, hiding her face ok his chest, enjoying the fact her boyfriend was finally back home. But most of all, making sure he wouldn’t notice how much pain she felt at the moment.

- “I can’t believe you are finally here,”- (Y/N) whispered with tears in her eyes. Spencer cupped her face with both hands and kissed her lips sweetly, almost carefully. She smiled into the kiss and sighed as soon as she felt him moving his lips from hers, resting his forehead against hers.

- “I just wanted to come back to DC and be with you”- Spencer still felt weird saying what he actually felt. Even after a year of dating. Sometimes, it still scared him that she would realize she was way out of his league and ditch him. But (Y/N) always reassured him how much she loved him and how, in fact, crazy she was about him.

- “Worst two weeks of my life,”- she added and leaned in to kiss him again.

- “I swear I tried my best to find out who was the unsub, ‘cos all I wanted was to have you in my arms.”

And as Spencer held her tight, he thought it would be romantic to hold her in his arms and take her to the couch. But as soon as he picked her up, he felt (Y/N)’s body tense, and a whimper left her lips before she bit them.

- “What is it, princess?”- Spencer frowned, concerned- “Did I hurt you?”

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“Do I wanna know?” Masterlist

Welcome to my first series! enjoy the story of our fools in love.

Summary: (Y/N) is a young SSA who joins the BAU, meets Doctor Spencer Reid, and soon they become inseparable. Join the exciting and infuriating journey of being in love with Spencer Reid, not knowing he loves you too. And enjoy almost five years of his unquestionable friendship before facing the real truth: you can't be in love with your best friend and pretend there is nothing wrong.

Pairing: Spencer Reird x fem!reader.

Category: Slow, very slow burn.

Warnings: Spoilers of the first six seasons of Criminal Minds. All Spencer’s trauma. Frustration, angst, fluff.

Completed.

Chapter one: "Yes, I'm a genius"

Chapter two: "Everyday I love you less and less"

Chapter three: "So happy together"

Chapter four: "Hurt"

Chapter five: "For a genius, that’s just dumb"

Chapter six: "I don't know everything, despite the fact you think that I do"

Chapter seven: "Let's fall in love"

Chapter eight: “There’s no I in Team”

Chapter nine: “Fuck it, I love you”

Chapter ten: “Set me free my honey bee”

Chapter eleven: “Can’t get you off my mind”

Chapter twelve: “Love is a losing game”

Chapter thirteen: "Maybe I'm too busy being yours to fall for somebody new"

Chapter fourteen: Back to 505″

Chapter fifteen: “I wanna be yours”

Oneshots and blurbs

“The three times Rossi tried and the one time Hotch succeeded”

“I don't wanna share my dad“

“Can’t help falling in love with you”

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Stargazing (Spencer Reid/Reader)

Requested: No, but I needed some hardcore fluff

Summary: The team is “forced” to go camping, and Spencer finally decides to make “his move” on Reader.

Pairing: Spencer Reid/ Reader

Category: Hardcore fluff

Warnings: Zero

Word count: 3,2K

Masterlist

It was the first time the BAU didn't argue Strauss's decision. She had walked into the conference room and explained to the team that the FBI had decided each department had to do a workshop related to teamwork and trust.

- "You will spend this weekend camping together. You will be part of a Team-Building Training Workshop"- Strauss wasn't excited about the idea of her best team wasting a whole weekend. But she was glad her department didn't have to do the activity. She hated camping.

- "Are you telling me we have to spend our weekend in sleeping bags, singing kumbaya?"- Rossi raised an eyebrow and looked at Erin, and she didn't move a muscle- "I'm out."

- "David, I'm not asking you if you want to do it. The whole team has to be part of this activity, that includes you."

- "Come on, Rossi,"- Prentiss smiled and tried to cheer him up- "It will be a nice change from catching serial killers for a weekend.

- "Really, Emily?"- Rossi crossed his arms on his chest and looked at Reid- "Hey, kid. How many dead bodies are found each year in the woods in the country?"

- "Over 2.543 last year,"- Spencer answered. And didn't stop talking, of course- "We can not be sure they were all serial killer related cases. The most common ways to die in the woods are drowning, car accident, and suicide."

- "Suicide it is."- David whispered. He knew it was going to be a long weekend.

Even when he wasn't a person who loved camping and outdoor activities, Spencer was excited to spend the weekend with the team, especially with (Y/N). His teammate, best friend, and secret crush. Ok, it wasn't really a secret.

Of course, everybody knew about Spencer's feelings. He never successfully hid them from the team. You didn't need to be a profiler to notice each time (Y/N) walked into a room, Reid's eyes would follow her, and his cheeks blushed. When they sat together in the jet, Spencer would always be too self-aware of his own movements. He would try not to move, especially when she had fallen asleep, resting her head on his shoulder. And when they were working on a case together, he would always cover her on the field, and he would make sure she was safe, even when the unsub was already caught.

He loved her. Even a blind man could see. Except for (Y/N), of course. Because according to her own words: "There's no way Spencer Reid is in love with me. He would never look at me that way. He is perfect, and I'm a mess. He deserves the perfect genius girl."

- "Ok, Romeo, this weekend is the perfect opportunity for you to make your move"- Derek and Reid were alone in the SUV on their way to the retreat.

- "Sure. Because there's no better time to make a fool out of myself than in front of all my friends in the middle of nowhere."

- "What's with the attitude, pretty Ricky? Relax"- Morgan frowned and put on some music, singing along for a moment. Reid looked at him and raised an eyebrow, trying not to laugh.

- "Ok man, picture this: you, your pretty lady, in the middle of the night, gazing at the stars together, alone in the middle of the forest. The full moon is the only light."

- "Who are you? since when are you a romance expert?"

- "Hey! I can be romantic!"

- "I've seen you get girls only by raising an eyebrow"- Reid argued, and he was right. It had happened once, but that was another completely different story.

- "What I'm trying to tell you is that you have the perfect chance to tell her how you feel during this trip"- Spencer was about to start debating that idea when Derek continued.

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Imagine seeing Spencer Reid for the first time after leaving the BAU to keep him safe

Parts: part 1 |

Pairings: Spencer Reid x Reader

Warnings: drug mentions, addiction mentions, murder mentions, sexual encounters mentioned etc.

Background information: Reader and Spencer were strictly close friends for a long time before Spencer got addicted to Dilaudid. When he did get addicted, the reader was the only one to confront him about it, only because she was addicted to heroin. Their relationship takes a sharp turn and they end up sleeping together whenever they could when they were high. When Spencer decides to get clean he asks her to get clean with him but she denies. The reader leaves the BAU without saying goodbye because she doesn't want to tear Spencer down with her.

The beginning is mostly an explanation for the plot, towards the middle it becomes more fanfictiony

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When the team heard that the FBI office in NYC was asking for their help, they weren't surprised. The Unsub that they were tracking was dangerous and sneaky. He had been on their radar for nearly a decade. He had dozens of victims and 3 years ago, the team in NYC had found out who he was, but he was sneaky and was able to escape them.

When Emily, Penelope, JJ, Rossi and Spencer heard that you were the lead agent in the case, they were shocked. They hadn't heard your name in years. They hadn't even thought about you. You disappeared. One day, you were sitting at your desk, joking with Morgan like always and the next, you were gone. You had been reassigned and didn't even say goodbye.

Nobody but Spencer knew why. While the team had noticed Spencer's addiction to Dilaudid, they were never able to pick up on your heroin addiction. Spencer knew that you couldn't bring yourself to get clean and he knew that you cared for him. That's why you left. You wanted Spencer to get better and you didn't want to be the reason he relapsed.

What he didn't know was that you harbored romantic feelings for the genius. You had never thought about him in any way other than as a friend until the first time you guys had sex. It was a week after you had told him about your heroin addiction. You were high and he had showed up at your apartment. He was high as well. You had tried to be the responsible friend, telling him that he shouldn't be doing drugs. But he called you a hypocrite and he was right. But you were stubborn and it lead to a screaming match in your living room. It lead to rough, angry sex on your floor. It was a side of Spencer that you had never expected to see. You didn't even know if it was really him, or if it was just the drugs in his system. But that night, you layed awake, staring at him as he slept, thinking about what could happen in you guys' future.

Your addiction was too strong though. You couldn't choose him over the drugs so you left.

A year later your partner, Trevor Marks, followed you to the motel you would go to, to get drugs. He flipped out on you and it made you realize that you were putting everyone in danger. So you admitted yourself into Harrisburg Rehabilitation Center. That's where you met your best friend, Sarah Warner. She was a recovering addict as well. You grew close and after you guys were approved to leave the rehab, you introduced her to Trevor. And they fell in love.

After going into recovery, the rehab clinic made you see a therapist. His name was Anthony Viega. You made the mistake of becoming romantically involved with him.

That's when the 8th Avenue Strangler case landed on your desk. There was an Unsub taking women who had previously gotten off of drugs and strangling them after drugging them. He would abduct them on 8th Avenue, where 3 out-patient rehabilitation clinics were and leave their bodies in various motels. You spent 6 years searching for him, getting close and then going cold.

You had profiled that the women had trusted the man abducting them since there was no sign of a struggle on any of the women. He saw himself as a fatherly figure. He was an Angel of Death.

Throughout the 6 years you spent searching for the 8th Avenue Strangle, your personal life was flourishing. You were engaged with Anthony, your best friend and your partner had gotten married. Anthony had even walked Sarah down the aisle since her relationship with her father wasn't well. You still thought about Spencer. You thought about what could have become if you were strong enough to get clean with him. But you were happy and you had hoped he was happy as well.

You had spent months on the tail of the 8th Avenue Strangler. He was leaving you notes. He knew you were the one investigating him. He knew things about you that you couldn't understand how he found out. You were so focused on the case that you didn't notice your fiance pulling away. When you did notice, he told you that nothing was wrong. But he was staying out later, leaving in the middle of the night and working later. You thought he was cheating. You decided to put your FBI agent skills to use and follow him one night.

You wished he was cheating because what you had found was disturbing. You found Anthony with a woman tied to a motel bed. He was on top of her with his hands around her neck. It took you a minute to put 2 and 2 together.

But then everything made sense. The woman who were murdered, they all had went thought the program Anthony worked for. He enjoyed being a father figure for these women. He took special interest in some but he would never talk to you about the women he counseled. He always listened to you intently as you ranted about the 8th Avenue Strangler... him.

The murderer knew so much about you because the murderer was your fiance.

Why were you different from these women?, you asked yourself.

He noticed your hesitation and was able to overtake you. He got away and you spent the next 3 years chasing after him. Some would say you were obsessed, and you would agree. You spent 6 years with a murderer. Your recovery felt fake. A murderer helped you with your drug problems and you didn't know how to deal with that. You questioned why he left you alive.

But you wouldn't relapse because of him. You wouldn't give him that satisfaction.

You were closing in on him when it happened. His phone, the one he used when you were together pinged off of a tower and your team was triangulating his location when you got a phone call.

It was from Trevor, your partner. He was coughing and breathing heavy. The last thing he said was "He got them." Then his voice broke through the phone and told you to stop searching for him.

Your technical analyst tracked Trevor's phone to the house he shared with his wife and your best friend, Sarah.

Your team got there and you found them. Trevor was on the floor with 2 gun shots in his abdomen and one in his head. The hallway was a mess, he must have put up a fight with Anthony. In the bedroom was your best friend, tied to the bed with bruises around her neck.

She died in the hospital. Losing her baby at 6 months took such a toll on her body that it just gave up.

You lost 2 of the most important people in your life in the same night along with your future godson. And you believed it was your fault.

2 weeks later was the next time you heard from Anthony. He was asking you to meet and you agreed to meet at a motel. You weren't a stupid agent. You weren't going to go rogue, so you called back up.

That's why you woke up in the hospital 3 days later. He had took you by surprise and strangled you until you were unconscious. But for some reason he didn't kill you by strangulation like his other victims. Instead he injected you with your drug. The only reason you survived was that he underestimated the tolerance you had built up to the drug.

You believed he had wanted people to believe that you had relapsed but it didn't work. Because you had called for back up and had bruises on your neck.

"Hello. I'm Special Agent Jared Kenneth. Thank you so much for coming so quick" Your boss, Jared shook hands with Emily.

"It's no problem. We heard you lost an agent to the Unsub. I'm so sorry for your loss" Emily smiled sadly.

"Thank you. Agent Marks was a great man and he died trying to protect his family" Jared nodded and started introducing his team to the BAU.

Emily started introducing the team.

"And this is Dr. Spencer Reid and our technical analyst Penelope Garcia" She finished.

"I thought Special Agent Y/n Y/l/n was on your team?" Penelope frowned as she looked around the room. She had only came with the team to see you.

"She's upstairs working on the case. Follow me" Jared lead the upstairs where you guys kept the case files. "You haven't slept"

"I slept in my office" You mumbled as you read the case files from years prior.

"Y/n" Penolope ran behind you and hugged you tight.

You stiffened at her touch before realizing it was her.

"Penelope" You furrowed your eyebrows.

"You called the BAU?" My eyes snapped to Jared.

"We needed fresh eyes Y/n" He sighed.

You felt your old friends eyes on you as you grit your teeth.

"Are you punishing me?" You squinted at him. "Because fresh eyes were never brought in on any of the other long term cases we've dealt with"

"This isn't a punishment. You've spent a decade searching for this guy and-"

"And I wasn't smart enough to figure out it was my boyfriend"

"And we couldn't find anything" He sighed. "This isn't to punish you"

"This feels like the time you kept me on desk duty for 6 months" I sighed, referring to the months after I came out of rehab.

"Y/n. I don't want to write you up for insubordination. Go home. You haven't left the office since you were release from the hospital. You're tired and overworked" Jared sighed.

You wanted to snap at him but you stopped yourself. Your eyes racked over your old team. There were new faces and then there were old faces that you recognised. You smiled tiredly at them. Your eyes locked with Dr. Spencer Reid and your breath hitched. You hadn't seen him in so long. He looked older and... wiser. Like he went through things that changed him. He was staring right in your eyes with a small, polite smile on his face.

And for a minute you felt like an insecure teenage girl standing in front of her crush. You thought about how this was the first time he was seeing you in 10 years and you hadn't showered in 4 days. Your hair was in a knotted him on the top of your head, you had dark bags under your eyes and you hadn't changed your clothes in days.

"I'm sorry" You sighed. "I hope you guys don't think I'm not happy to see you. I am. I just... this case means a lot to me and I'm having a terrible month" You laughed bitterly.

"Don't worry about it, kid." Rossi smiled nicely at you.

"I'm... I'm going to go home and get rest. I'll see you guys tomorrow" You nodded and walked past the group of people, brushing lighting against Spencer by accident.

You held your breath until you got to your car outside... Why couldn't you have a normal life?

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