#that i still havent drawn properly outside of a symbolic painting here and there... though its been scripted for over a year now

[magnolia-sunrise]

okay i had to go deal with some black mold situation but now i can sit down and talk about it ----, due to the somewhat similar pose i was reminded of this piece from last year, that at the time cost a lot of time and effort and was the ultimate nail in the coffin of succumbing to the OC insanity

and! im really happy about what i managed to do with it then, but also haha holy fuck! i love my painting process now and how much it has evolved! i feel very happy with the brushes ive been experimenting with and how much better i feel ive gotten about conceptualizing values and light. very proud of how far i've come in terms of painting these two :")

yapper's delight corner: side by side these are kind of After and Before a life changing event for the two of them,

todays piece, ie Before: as in Wolfgang suspects they might be walking into an ambush following their latest lead, and they stop by Bastien's clinic for - something? anything. a reason to stay. after their routine check up and memory upload, they push in for a kiss and while at first Bastien gives in,... he doesnt let himself act on his feelings or let himself have something he wants (partially due to the loyalty he feels to his boyfriend, largely because he's unable to commit and make the decision to change his life so much). so, rejected for one final time, Wolfgang walks off into the night and to their doom.

what that night spurs - Wolfs violent death and beheading, the clinic and all of its precious materials torched with Wolfgang's body tossed inside as a message, Bastien finding them and driving away with their body without saying a word to his boyfriend-- nothing can ever go back to the way it was.

and there's the After, from last year: back when painting this i didn't have a solid idea for continuation of their story past this point basically Until i finished the painting and i got some visions thanks to my playlists. to keep it short, their death doesn't stick for too long (just. a couple months of Bastien driving with their lifeless body in the backseat) and the two of them are set on a very dangerous path, the burned remains of their lives behind them. but - it's the most alive both of them have ever felt : )