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lovphobic · 1 year

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I get what you're saying and my priv acc is for like. the things i don't want to admit to myself tbh things that i know I'll feel ashamed of someone saw but i just can't not write it, also sometimes it's just negative thoughts that I consider ugly so I think that maybe if I write it down I'll get it out of my body in a way?? kinda like a purification of my mind lmao

ok your ex is just a bitch tbh there's no other words to describe them, you have every right to feel the rage u described bc damn. if someone had this fucked up mindset around me i would be doing the world a favor by throwing a stone at their head lol and isn't it amazing how this type of ppl always manages to make everything about them and bc of them?? u exist bc of them and u act bc u want to get a reaction out of them, no they're never the one who creates the bad vibes in the room and they're never the one to blame if a fight starts it's just so lol at least it's over

oh yeah i get that part of it too. i mostly just keep those in my head. which maybe isnt healthy? but over time i just forget them LMAO so its just as effective as putting it on a priv yk?

and EXACTLY oh my god. like i wont be on here acting like im 100% without fault bc u know what sometimes i just got so fucking fed up that i DID start shit JUST so shed leave me the hell alone but that only worked for like 2-3 days 😭😭 shed b like ok i think we need to take a good break away from each other and id be like AMEN TO THAT (thinking im gonna get like 3 weeks) and then 3 days later shed come in like heyyy are u ready to talk. like? FUCK NO? ljkfhsdfj

#tldr: am not completely without fault. but at least i didnt do that kind of shit to her. i think the worst thing i did was say one (1) like #middle grade level thing to get under her skin and she was like UMMM YOU NEED TO APOLOGISE like girl you need to apologise first. for #everything you have said to me and put me through. thanks. bye.#and like its so fucked up that even me owning up to the fact that im not without fault makes me feel like im the one who was in the wrong.#like i feel like you read that and you were like oh jesus christ YOURE the asshole here. do you see what she has like. done to me? LMAO.#thats what being a people pleaser will fucking get u i guess. manipulated.#there was fr like 2-3 WEEKS in august last year where we just. argued. all the time. we could not talk without arguing. yet she wanted to #try to work through that and get back to normal? like no girl. you have hurt me too many times. im giving up. there is no normal.#snail mail #delusional. swear to god

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