#delusional. swear to god

[yuzuuu4]

(post 2.1 quest) unexpected

[lovphobic]

I get what you're saying and my priv acc is for like. the things i don't want to admit to myself tbh things that i know I'll feel ashamed of someone saw but i just can't not write it, also sometimes it's just negative thoughts that I consider ugly so I think that maybe if I write it down I'll get it out of my body in a way?? kinda like a purification of my mind lmao

ok your ex is just a bitch tbh there's no other words to describe them, you have every right to feel the rage u described bc damn. if someone had this fucked up mindset around me i would be doing the world a favor by throwing a stone at their head lol and isn't it amazing how this type of ppl always manages to make everything about them and bc of them?? u exist bc of them and u act bc u want to get a reaction out of them, no they're never the one who creates the bad vibes in the room and they're never the one to blame if a fight starts it's just so lol at least it's over

oh yeah i get that part of it too. i mostly just keep those in my head. which maybe isnt healthy? but over time i just forget them LMAO so its just as effective as putting it on a priv yk?

and EXACTLY oh my god. like i wont be on here acting like im 100% without fault bc u know what sometimes i just got so fucking fed up that i DID start shit JUST so shed leave me the hell alone but that only worked for like 2-3 days 😭😭 shed b like ok i think we need to take a good break away from each other and id be like AMEN TO THAT (thinking im gonna get like 3 weeks) and then 3 days later shed come in like heyyy are u ready to talk. like? FUCK NO? ljkfhsdfj

[glorified-phantom]

I JUST nOTICED THAT hE HAS LITTLE SHARP TOOTHIES

I MIHGHT BE STUPID BUT I JUST NOTICED THE,M THIS CHANGES EVERYTHINg

[mewtwo24]

I finally finished reading the fourth volume of svsss in full, and thing is--the first time through I only read the bingqiu content because I was ravenous for more of their happy ending.

Turns out that was a perilous mistake.

Because I started reading the airplane extras. And I swear to god. MXTX is trying to kill me

What do you MEAN demon lord Binghe was sitting on his big fucking throne. All stoic and forbidding. Surrounded by his demon generals who don't know shit about human courtship. Asking them what he should do, fully demoralized by constant rejections from sqq, only to have airplane tell him to act more pathetic and needy. Which is already hysterically funny and insane, UNTIL LBH'S RESPONSE IS THIS, KILLING ME INSTANTLY:

LUO BINGHE. WHY DOES HE SAY IT LIKE: "I already tried that, didn't work--nothing works :/ not mean, not maidenly, not housewife, not spicy, not capable disciple. Is doubling down on clingy really all it will take? What's a born hater with only one love in his life to do????"

The dichotomy of him sitting there like 'how can I reach the unfathomable depths of shizun's heart?' A HEART HE'S ALREADY WON OVER, MIND and then in the Holy Mausoleum solving the puzzle without blinking and being like 'oh yeah you just have to hit the acupoints, no sweat.' Literally the comedy writes itself I'm so--

How am I supposed to be normal about this. MXTX understands the juicy quintessential queer joy of a person with the world's power at their fingertips wishing only for love. Willing to do anything to earn that love, when unbeknownst to them it's already been freely given. Totally not screaming and yelling and clawing at the walls

And that's not even touching airplane's uproarious account of events. The way he's like 'lol what's next, lbh and sqq are best friends now? smfh' only to see lbh TACKLE SQQ LOVINGLY. FOR SQQ TO BE BASHFUL ABOUT IT BUT SO SO FOND OF THE LITTLE SCAMP. This when we've been experiencing sqq's constant inner monologue of 'I'm so cool and so dignified about my role, truly the epitome of propriety and poser-level fortitude.' Meanwhile, in their universe:

Airplane constantly flaming???? Sqq and lbh in his observations????? His absolute bewilderment and confusion????? Legendary. No notes every single second of this shit was hilarious.

Airplane's comment that sqq + older adolescent lbh traveling together was just watching a couple in their honeymoon phase. OR the fact that lbh is exceedingly petty and refuses to share their food in the wake of airplane's interruption of their time together, until sqq relents sheepishly and insists airplane eat what's left (ONLY AFTER PLACATING LBH WITH MORE FOOD FROM HIS PLATE, SOBBING)

Watching airplane salivate over Mobei-Jun and acting like that's totally normal behavior. Finding out mbj and airplane got together first. Finding out sqq encouraged airplane. LIKE THIS. WHILE HE IS STILL IN DENIAL ABOUT HIS OWN FEELINGS:

Mobei-jun clearly thinking their arrangement is a forever thing, heartbroken his human abandoned him with all the hapless fury of a scorned wife swept away by false promises of fidelity. Airplane writing demons to be the type to beat up their crush lovingly and still unable to connect the dots about mbj's feelings. Mbj letting him go and respecting his wishes, only relenting when there's indication airplane was poorly processing his own feelings and didn't actually want to leave. Mbj caring for him and listening to him as soon as airplane voices what he needs directly and with clarity. None of these gays are functional and it's everything to me

Unrelated, but I physically can't hold this information in anymore:

I'm still reeling from younger lbh having his sexual awakening from the image of sqq wrapped in the immortal binding cables. Condemn me as you like he was so, so real for that.

And no I will not be taking any comments about how luo bingge couldn't bear to see luo binghe cherished in ways he never got to have and all the haunting implications of that. I will also not be taking any comments about luo binghe's instinct to look for sqq in that alternate universe, only to be shaken to the very core to be unable to find his shizun anywhere. The unspeakable and latent horror of his relentless mind likely piecing together what happened, but unable to say it; to suspect what is true, and live with the harrowing confusion of his double's actions. To blame himself, to assume that he had let his anger get the better of him in that world and result in unspeakable folly...

I also refuse to talk about how heartrending it is to hear Tianlang-jun weakly say "In the end, I really can't bring myself to hate humans." The implication that the foolishness of that hope and bright-eyed fondness--the very thing that put him through such unspeakable agony--couldn't be beaten out of him entirely. To discover that his faith in Su Xiyan hadn't been misplaced, to the contrary: his beloved hadn't scorned him at all, but rather fought to the miserable end to protect the fruition of their genuine feelings of love when she couldn't protect tlj or herself.

How MXTX has sqq deliberately draw parallels between their situation and that of ygy+sj and tlj+sx; desperately wishing it might not be too late for them. The concept of breaking cycles of abuse and harm pervasive throughout the newly devised story, how it evolves for the better only when love takes the place of power, pride, and domination. How the moment sqq chooses vulnerability instead of saving face, the genre shifts to the so-called "cringe" girly genre where most if not every character is more fulfilled, more true to themselves. How the "male-oriented" former genre was aimlessly sensationalized and sexualized, how it was a sustained performance of aspirational toxic masculinity. How men objectify other men without end. All of the unspoken gendered implications that come with that.

Anyways. Going to go put my head in a sandbox and try to process everything I just witnessed because even a second reading is not enough to find a modicum of closure.

[izzymcglizzy]

ok guys im sorry u finally get mizisua

Lord help me i wish lesbians were real :(

[momowoah]

"what can I do?" "what you always do" yup buddie is happening. The whole scene felt like they were finally crossing some fragile limit of what their relationship could/should be. It started in 7x01 but now Eddie is asking Buck to go even further. To fully step in. And Buck will. And there's no going back after that.

[n7punk]

what's the worst thing you watched and kept up with (at least for a while) because you were gay and begging for scraps? mine was probably pretty little liars

[michibites]

im,, exhausted,,,just gonna,,nap

[hadeljoshi]

all they do is post each other now this is getting ridiculous it’s actually making me crazy

[runaaur]

we all know about the "where's rayla???" era. well, now we got...

where the fuck is ethari. era

[triglycercule]

im on vacation how can i make this about the murder time trio. mtt fresh out of a flight and the minute that they leave the airport dust stops horror and killer for the smoke break. because being around a smoker is like that. and while horror is dying and coughing from the cigarette smoke and killer is pretend coughing to make dust feel terrible theyre both simultaneously roasting the shit out of dust for being such an addict smoker. cancer speedrun GO says horror. refreshing his signature smell says killer. dust just glares at them and blows smoke in their face (horror literally takes damage he's at 0.7 HP)

[jasperandhenryslovechild]

may god strike me down if im wrong but i am of the firm belief that nickelodeon will utter a word, nay, even a BREATH about the henry danger movie on july 26th, 2024. the ten year anniversary of henry danger. now i fear i am wrong but i am PRAYING I WONT BE WRONG. PLEASE. PLEASE I NEED THE MOVIE I NEED MORE CONTENT I NEED TO BE MORE DELUSIONAL OHMYGOD PLEASE LET JULY BE MY MONTH

[anti-judy]

Not to sound like Tecchou, but Jouno isn't a horrible person. He's actually a sweetheart, he just is a little weird and fucked up

[fore-seer]

GAIUS GAMERS THIS IS THE YEAR

[junkcrows]

Idk why, but my Instincts are telling me that Yeong-hu and Seok-chan will live and stay together until the end.

[seashoes]

I love this type of character!!! (Characters have nothing in common)