#the Explanation is largely unnecessary ik i dont any one Shit

[acircusfullofdemons]

Some Memes

ik ive been pretty inactive in terms of....everything regarding the madd community & for that I apologize. i'll explain why under the cut but the tldr is that my life is sort of a Mess rn :/ (I am Fine tho, dw lol)

I know I don't really have to explain myself for my inactivity as of late but what is this blog for if not to be my personal diary lol. I'm dropping out of college. It's 100% my choice, nothing to do with finances or anything like that. I was going to get my bachelor's in animation until I realized "oh, this sounds like a nightmare actually!".

Que the worst mental breakdown I've ever had in my life. I'm not joking, I cried for a week and couldn't even enjoy Halloween (its my favorite holiday so you know I was doing REALLY bad lol). Since then I've had frequent anxiety attacks over what I want to do with my life & finding a job. I have roughly 2 weeks of my semester left and I still have no idea, help lmao.

Like I said, I've been having a lot of anxiety over this and just dissociating nonstop, I could barely focus on keeping myself alive at some points. But due to all that, I haven't been able to focus on daydreaming properly, just a couple scenes/plots I do over and over, like watching reruns of a comfort show. Most of what I've done has been organizational stuff (my autistic ass loves sorting), PowerPoints explaining random shit, or memes like this!

To clarify I AM okay, I have a good support system and I don't plan on taking a break from here. I don't want anyone to worry too much about me, if I stop posting for a bit then it's because I'm trying to get my life together I prommy. I am feeling a lot better now (at least compared to when I first realized this) so hopefully I'll be able to take a day or two to myself and daydream to my hearts content lol.