#the imposter syndrome is already so real idek how i got into this school all my peers are the best of the best and it’s like. Hnghgj hi | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

ivettel · 10 months

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does the reception of the fest and the increased flow of creative output make you feel like you would want to stay? does it make you rethink what you call your imminent exit? just sad thinking that we will lose someone with your passion and drive and dedication 😞

ahh well unfortunately it’s not really by choice 😔 i start law school in a couple weeks and i’m kinda piloting blind, yknow? in a whole new city studying material in my second language and i don’t really know anyone or have many connections in the field… so i’m rlly gonna try and dedicate myself to Being A Good Student and Networking and Being Normal, which means my time for Being A Seb Stan will probably diminish to almost nothing ): already even just with the move i haven’t been able to sit and work on creative projects and i’m so emo over it, it’s probably unhealthy..

idk, i know people have been able to manage a school-work-social balance and i may be good enough to do that at some point? but ugh atm this is the biggest opportunity of my life and i really don’t want to fuck it up by prioritizing things that aren’t as important ahhh 😭

#genius bar #i hate being a responsible adult wdym i cant be in my room all day doing fuckall :/#head in hands this is tmi already but im so stressed out about frosh and orientation week like #will people even like me? am i smart enough am i good enough am i brave enough??#the imposter syndrome is already so real idek how i got into this school all my peers are the best of the best and it’s like. Hnghgj hi #um. i make gifs on tumblr dot com.#and who am i without the pressure of being an active creator on social media! do i like that person!#my dad was like oh wow five courses that’s a lot. i didnt think it was that many but now i’m worried it really is #and on top of all this i’m taking on debt for the first time so it’s like AHH now i need to succeed so i can get a big person job and pay #all the ridiculous bills i need to pay because living in canada means getting ur soul sucked unsexily out of your wallet #worth it for the social benefits but also #[lies on the floor face first]

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