#the last time i was in a fandom is was cfandom so maybe i got too arrogant 😪

[wawamouse]

i think after this current fic i'm working on i need to like. tone it down, reel it in. investigate other characters and storylines within oz. broaden my horizons. NOT that i wouldn't be personally satisfied to just sit here churning out just increasingly out of touch miguel/chico but i feel like if i narrow my vision too much, my writing will suffer?? maybe? could just be that i don't really have anything else to riff off when i write them 🤪(😞) idk. like i'm just paranoid that i'm not reading Oz the way other people who've written for the show seem to...? 🧐 Not that I think I'm not "getting" the show or anything, but maybe I'm just like... focusing on things/aspects that aren't AS touched on or something so i feel like i'm like (standing in empty room) HELLO???

lots has been written about when it comes to certain characters (of course, miguel is among them, so I'm no different there), but some of the un/under-explored aspects i hold in the back of my mind (bc i haven't figured out how to/don't even know how to begin approaching) are:

arif & nacim & said - something something... the nuances of the muslims' dynamics. nacim seemed like a true believer/loyal disciple of said & was said's bodyguard but arif was the apparent next-in-line in terms of leadership. arif sort of seems more swayed by power while nacim never showed any ambitions to lead, though i imagine he would have to step up after the muslims expelled arif?? so would he maybe also be the one to bring arif back into the fold after the events of canon? if not, what would arif do?

> as a sidenote, when i was writing "holding up the sky", i originally wanted to write arif into it before realising that he got on a diff bus/wasn't in the infirmary during the evacuation—thus his lines and presence in the library went to ryan o'reily (whose presence also shifted the plot of the fic obviously... if i'd stuck with arif, the conspiracy or whatever of everything would've been slightly different). but i was sort of excited originally about the prospect of writing arif and miguel interacting, because they don't really (ever?) in canon, but by post canon, with arif's shunning, i wondered if that (shunning from their respective groups) would've been a commonality they would have recognised in each other

floria mills??? idk, i just wanted to see more of her taking Oz by storm and kicking ass T_T Still annoyed that her role in the show was basically relegated to "Threw away Leo's resignation letter". Like who actually cared whether or not Leo fucking stayed 💀 The tension wasn't even built up that much. If he'd actually left, it would've even been a solid exit for the character at that point, burnt out as he was.

jia kenmin - i kind of have an idea for a character study for him in the back of my mind. i mostly want to write this because there are so many random incongruous details (from my pov) about the chinese characters in the show, that i just want to take a stab at adding shades to the character/making sense of his somewhat pointless existence... idk. this one, sort of like writing chico or miguel at times, feels kinda hard. I feel less like i'm writing a character at times and more like i'm re-writing the character, which is not really what i want to do.

in general, the relationship between the latinos and gays (often seated near/with each other in crowd scenes, at least in later seasons/under morales' leadership, as opposed to el cid's) feels like there's something there. I sort of touched on it in one fic but i'd like to bring it up again at some point in another.

likewise, rebadow (and by extension busmalis) seem to get along with the latinos (to name one group over others); rebadow and miguel have a friendly relationship from season 1, and later miguel goes to him for advice; since rebadow is old/an other, he was probably also safe company when miguel was on the outs with el norte. rebadow also seemed to have the respect of morales. i noticed in my recent rewatch that during season 6, busmalis and rebadow often set beside the latinos in the cafeteria.

the wiseguys - lbr, after Nappa they just sort of disappeared into the background of the show. sure, we see Pancamo and Morales hanging out, but we don't truly get a sense of what's going on with them, because unlike the other groups, with the schibettas out, the only character around to really represent the italians is Pancamo, and he doesn't really have his own storyline (oother than getting a staph infection i guess) . it was a mixed bag with the homeboys taking more center stage again in later seasons because on one hand we got to see more of their inner workings and we got a better feel for their general presence throughout Oz, what with so many new members getting introduced and having lines. On the other hand, they petered out into the call center shit. SO.....But yeah, I just I wish we got more of that (call center clownery and all) for the Italians under Pancamo's leadership. When Urbano joined the show, I thought there was gonna be more going on there, but. meh.

[wangmiao]

Shipper Tag Game

thanks so much to @godotismissingx for tagging me again!

1. What ship were you completely obsessed with when you were a teenager, but now you don't care anymore?

i'll be honest LOL i was oblivious in stuff like this when i was a teenager. yes, i'd drool over celebrities and characters, but i never knew shipping was a thing.

2. Which ship would you consider your first one?

i got into the fandom culture very late, so my first ship was joseph chandler x emerson kent from whitechapel

3. Your first fanfic belonged to which couple?

i honestly don't remember. i got into fanfic pretty late too. maybe whitechapel as well?

4. Do you remember the first couple you saw a fanart over?

nope

5. Did you ever get into ship discourse?

i don't really do discourse most of the time.

6. Did you used to have any no-otp or have it currently?

i don't know how you define no-otp. like is it just something you don't ship, or you hate? there are ships that i don't like, and i just don't mention them at all on my blog. if you know that i've watched a show or film, but i never mention or reblog a popular ship from the show/film, that's probably my no-otp...

7. Who were the couple in the last fanfic you read?

LOL i'm predictable, shi qiang x wang miao (shiwang) from three-body. i'm especially into reading fanfic recently. one of the first things i check every morning is if there's new shiwang fic.

8. Currently, do you have any OTPs?

shiwang has been living in my mind rent free for an entire year now, and i haven't gotten tired of them yet...probably never will...

recently i'm into cheng bing x pan dahai from the lonely warrior and tang chuan x shi hong from the devotion of suspect x.

and just to name a few other otps: guang hongfeng x zhou xun in day and night, lee joongyeop x cha jaehwan from chimera, lee chang x youngshin in kingdom; cheng fengtai x shangxirui from winter begonia, agron x nasir from spartacus, jack x ianto from torchwood, and my first whitechapel ship is always very important to me.

9. Is there any couple that, to this day, you are extremely mad about not getting together?

i'm used to not having ships be 100% canon. what can you do? sigh!

10. Is there any ship you used to dislike but now you think they are kind of interesting?

can't really think of anything

11. Do you have any ship that, in the past, was considered normal but now you would be cancelled over?

can't think of anything either...

12. What was your favorite crack ship?

i don't really have one...xD...

13. Who is the couple you read more fanfics of?

definitely shiwang...i kinda stopped reading fanfic in early 2019 due to the original sin/原生之罪 drama and a family incident...i might have tried some fanfic occasionally, but i generally wasn't in a mood for fanfic until three-body aired in 2023.

another reason is back then, most chinese fanfic writers don't really use ao3, so lots of fanfic for day and night and original sin was on lofter and weibo instead of ao3. and it's a pain in the ass trying to track fic on those sites. but now, most of the shiwang fic would be on ao3. and because shiwang is very loved in cfandom, new fic never stops coming.

i do read western fandom fanfic too, but definitely not as much as the chinese ones ever since i got back into cdramas in 2017.

14. What most of your ships usually have in common?

give me all of the dilfslove or dld (dilf loves dilf) LOL.

enemies to lover is something i always like. though how you define "enemy" would be very different in different ships. i also tend to ship work partners (detective duos; cop & some kind of consultant; villain duos)

15. What you absolutely hate in a ship?

maybe the lack of chemistry? if i can't feel the chemistry between the actors, no matter how romantic or hot the plot is between them, i probably won't ship them.

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