#the last two give u a bit of a emotional whiplash bc the last song is more like a ballad unlike the last one which sounds super chaotic

[caramelmochacrow]

here's the tsubaoi playlist!!!!! i arranged it from slowest to fastest so u get eased into it better!! (also merry christmas/chirstmas eve if u celebrate!)

[nctloveclub]

two ghosts

pairing | kim doyoung x reader

prompt | based off ‘two ghosts’ by harry styles | ex lovers!au

genre | angst

words | 1.1k

a/n | idk i just decided to do bulletpoints rather than written ??? but i hope u like it hehe also kinda non idol au ??? but lets just ignore that lmao

so you and doyoung had dated for two years

honestly like ,,,,, you guys were in love

it was such a shocker when everyone found out you broke up bc like ?????

you two were such a power couple and it was unbeELIEVEABLE that you two broke up

but you know shit happens and people grow apart and fall out of love

like your relationship in the beginning was so wholesome but like ,,, time went on and you and doyoung started to slowly grow apart

like you two talked less and you both felt like the spark wasnt there anymore

your break up was mutual and you two decided to keep in touch

but that was a damn lie

doyoung got busier and the two of you didnt even talk anymore honestly

but like it’s been 3 years since you broke up, but like you kept in touch with some of nct’s members

you still somewhat talked to johnny and jaehyun, taeyong occasionally messaged you along with the rest of members

so doyoung’s birthday was coming up and taeyong bEGged you to come out and see them

“its been yEars y/n !!!!!”

“ok and ur point is ???” jkjk you were kinda hesitant but really you missed those boys so much and you reluctantly agreed

but like ever since taeyong invited you, you’ve been feeling out of it ????

like ,,,,, you started thinking about doyoung more and reminiscing

you try and shake it off but you cant help but just hold on to the memories of you and doyoung

like you’d be lying if you said you were the same since the break up

so its the dreaded day and you get ready for doyoung’s birthday party

you dress up nicely and do your hair more fancier then usual

you head out to the venue and like ,,,, its fucking pAckED

you lowkey wish you dont have to bump into doyoung because you dont think you’re emotionally stable for that

like yeah its been a while since you broke up but like you couldn’t help it ????

so you enter the venue with your small gift in hand

and then you immediately meet johnny and he just runs up to you and engulfs you into a hug

“y/n!!!!! you made it !!!!!”

“yes i did but if you keep squeezing me i wont make it >:(“

“oh yeah sorry hehe”

so like bc of johnny’s loud and excited ass he gets the attention of the other nct members and they all rush to you excitedly lmao

so you say your hellos and give them all hugs bc hello ?? youve missed these dorks

and then you find yourself in front of doyoung and you nearly get whiplash

like ,,,, he’s changed so much and he looks so different

of course he looks different its been yEars

but like he looks so much more mature and you cant help but just stare at him

the other boys notice the tension and like slowly leave to give you and doyoung some space

“hey ,,,” you start and you’re just hella nervous

you’re hit with a bunch of emotions but like ,,, it feels off

you give doyoung your gift and he gives you his bunny smile

usually that would make your stomach flip but ,,,, it doesnt

you and doyoung move to somewhere with a little bit more privacy

the two of you find yourself in the kitchen of the venue and doyoung breaks the silence

“how are you?”

its been rough is what you want to say but you just respond with a small “ive been ok, you?”

“ive been really busy lately,,,, but im glad you made it”

the silence is deafening

you and doyoung just stare at each other , the kitchen was kinda dim but you could still make out some of doyoungs features

he wasnt the same

doyoung also observed your appearance, your hair and style was different from what he knew

you were quiet and timid to him now

you were a different person

it was weird ,, standing in the room with doyoung

even though you had so much history together, you felt like total strangers now

the kitchen was dim, only being illuminated by the moonlight shining from the window

you remembered how you and doyoung used to dance in your shared living room, a slow song playing in the background with the moon shining bright

you remembered how it was the small and simple things were enough for you and doyoung and how you were just content with his presence

but it wasnt the same anymore

“do you remember how we used to dance?” you ask , breaking the silence

“yeah, you were a horrible dancer by the way” doyoung laughs at the thought and you give him a look feigning hurt

“well sorry i have two left feet, we all cant be as talented as you” you joke and doyoung laughs at that

it was weird how everything in this moment felt normal and familiar but it wasnt the same

you wanted to tell doyoung how you really felt but you felt tounge tied

you wanted to tell him that you couldnt stop thinking about him and how youve been clinging to past memories but ,,,, you just couldn’t,,,

“you look great by the way,,,” you speak up

doyoung opens his mouth to speak but stops himself

he wanted to tell you that you got even more beautiful

he wanted to tell you that he hasnt been feeling the same since you left

he wanted to tell you that he tried to get over you but couldn’t

but he stopped himself, he couldnt just dump his emotions on you

so he settled for “you look great as well.”

then it was back to square one, silence

a couple moments pass and taeyong enters , calling doyoung out to celebrate

doyoung gives you an apologetic look but you quickly shake your head

“its fine , its your birthday party go mingle” you smile

doyoung gives you one last toothy grin and he moves to hug you

he wraps his arms around you and you just feel warmth

and it feels like home

doyoung pulls away first and you stop yourself from pulling him back in

taeyong and doyoung leave the kitchen and youre left in the poorly lit room

you stare at the moon and fight back a couple of tears

maybe later tonight you could tell doyoung how you feel

but you knew the reality

you both werent who you used to be

you both were ghosts standing in the place of you and doyoung

but maybe one day the stars will allign and you could get back together

but for now all you could do was hold on to past memories and hope that maybe doyoung felt the same way

this wasnt as angsty as i hoped and felt kinda rushed :(( but i hope u like it and feedback is appreciated !!