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here4theheartbreak · 4 years

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Found My Place Ch 3:

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Relationships: main YoonJin, side VMin (mentioned) Rating: Explicit

Genres: angst, smut Tags (for entire fic): idol AU (canonverse), transgender character, transgender Seokjin, FTM Seokjin, transphobia, pre-debut, misgendering, bisexual Yoongi, supportive Yoongi, discussion of gender confirming surgeries and HRT, virgin Seokjin, sex anxiety, first time, vaginal sex, anal sex, oral sex, generic and scientific terms for female bodied genitals, squirting, barebacking, dirty talk, multiple orgasms, angst with a happy ending

Summary: Jin has a secret that could ruin BTS before they even had a chance to debut. To make matters worse (and better) Yoongi is determined to pursue him to the ends of the earth. Is balancing his secrets and his life possible, or will it all come toppling down around him?

Chapter Word Count: ~3.7k

“You know I care for both of you and support you both, but it’s been two weeks, Jin-hyung. You have got to tell Bang about you two dating,” Namjoon scolded.

Jin grimaced. “I know I do. I’m just worried.”

“About what? He was fine with Taehyung and Jimin dating, just told them to be mindful in public. What makes you think you two would be different?”

Jin shrugged, glancing over at Yoongi, who had suddenly found his notebook fascinating up close.

“I don’t know. I just have a gut feeling it’s gonna cause problems.”

“It will if you keep delaying it. Please, hyung. I want us all to be on the same page. Especially now that debut’s been announced? And so soon – This needs to be managed.”

“Fine… You’re right. I’ll tell him tomorrow,” Jin agreed. He caught Yoongi’s gaze, trying to smile.

“Thank you.” Namjoon squeezed Jin’s shoulder, heading over to where Yoongi sat to go over some lyrics he’d been working on. Jin quietly rose, slipping out of the room and down the hall to try and find a little solitude. The idea of telling Bang he was dating someone was horrifying in every way. Not because of it being two guys dating; Namjoon had been right when he said Taehyung and Jimin were given his blessing. But because of his secret.

However Jin, above most else, was a man of his word, so to speak. So, the next afternoon, he and Yoongi were sitting side by side in Bang’s office. Jin had tried to get Yoongi to stay back, not come with him. He knew what the topic of discussion would be already. But Yoongi refused. It took two to make a relationship so both would be present.

“You’re what?” Bang asked for the third time.

“Dating,” Jin said. “Yoongi and I started dating a few weeks ago. After I returned.”

“Why did you wait so long to come out with it?”

“Because we wanted to make sure it was something we both wanted to pursue,” Yoongi chimed in, “and now we are.”

A muscle in Bang’s cheek twitched. “Seokjin… I need to speak with you privately. Yoongi, please.” He motioned to the door.

“No.” Yoongi said simply. Both Bang and Jin gaped at him.

“Excuse me?” Bang asked.

“I said no,” Yoongi said. He reached over and grabbed Jin’s hand. “He’s my boyfriend. And if you’re going to chew him out for this, then I deserve it just as much. I asked him too. You gave the others your blessing, what makes us different?”

“Yoongi, I suggest you mind your tone.” Bang said simply. “Now, please—”

“No!” Yoongi shot up from the seat. He dropped Jin’s hand, his own balled into fists. “You’re our boss and I respect you for that. I respect you for putting us together. Bangtan has become my family. But I will not let you treat Jin-hyung differently because of who he is!”

Jin whimpered, tugging at Yoongi’s wrist. “Please, Yoongi—”

“No, Jin-hyung. I promised I’d stay quiet and I will. But not like this. It’s not fair to you or to me.” He turned back to Bang, his jaw set. “We didn’t come here asking for your permission, sir. We came to inform you of a relationship so that you could handle any PR properly. And that’s it.”

Bang closed the notebook on his desk and rose, leaning over it. He looked at Jin, who lowered his gaze. His stomach was twisted up in nots and his face was burning. He wanted to cry. “Please, Yoongi,” he whispered.

“You told him.” Bang said, ignoring Jin’s plea.

“Yes.”

“Despite the contract clause.”

“Yes.”

“What? No.” Yoongi snapped. “He didn’t tell me until after I knew. I spied on him, okay? When you dragged him in here for his surgery I snuck around and I caught him changing. I saw his chest and he caught me looking. We talked after. This is not on Jin-hyung. He did not break his contract clause. You had to know it was a risk that he’d be found out.”

“I expected more caution with what was at stake,” Bang muttered.

Jin hung his head even further. His vision began to blur, shame and nerves shredding him from the inside.

“That’s not fair,” Yoongi muttered.

“I took a risk! Seokjin knew the consequences.”

“I’ll quit,” Jin whispered.

“Jin-hyung—No,” Yoongi said.

Jin rose, wiping his face. He bowed low. “I broke contract and I know the consequences. But please… Please don’t punish them for my actions. They’ve worked so hard to get here. Please. I’ll leave. I’ll quit, let them debut as a six-member group.”

“That’s pretty big of you to offer, Seokjin.”

“Bangtan has become my family, same as Yoongi. I won’t let them suffer for something I’ve done. I made a mistake and I will pay for that mistake. Please don’t make them pay for it too. Not when they have so much to show. Surely even you know – They’re doing so well.”

“They are,” Bang agreed.

“Jin-hyung,” Yoongi whispered. “Don’t… Not like this.”

Jin looked over at Yoongi and smiled softly. “I knew this was a possibility, Yoongi. When we walked into this office I was preparing this if it came to it. Why do you think I didn’t want you here? It would make it that much harder to go.”

He took a shuddering breath. “Allow me to go gather my belongings from the dorm without the members there. Then I’ll return and work out a way to begin paying you back for the money you’ve spent on my training and surgeries.”

“And what should I tell the other five if you suddenly disappear? Hm?” Bang crossed his arms in front of him.

“They had to know it was a possibility that not all seven would make the cut. You can tell them anything, I’ll agree with it.”

“I won’t let you do this,” Yoongi whispered.

“And what will you do? Seokjin is taking responsibility for the actions that could ruin your debut,” Bang said, turning to Yoongi.

Jin glanced at Yoongi out of the corner of his eye, his heart clenching. Yoongi looked close to tears himself, his cheeks mottled red. His hands were balled into tight fists at his side, veins bulging with the tension of it.

“This is fucked up,” he snarled. “You agreed to bring Jin-hyung in only if he kept who he was a secret from his entire group. The group you want as a family. You knew it was an impossible task but you held the fate of the whole group over his head. You were setting him up for failure! It’s not like I reacted badly to finding out. I support him fully. I’m dating him for fuck’s sake! You can’t bring someone like this into a business this brutal without supporting him. Making him hide who is, that’s not support. That’s just as cruel as not letting him in at all. When I joined this company, I thought you were different. I thought you wanted to make the world a better place. A kinder place not only for traditional people but for people like Jin-hyung too. But you’re just like all the other companies.” Yoongi shook his head. “I’m out.”

“Excuse me?”

“I didn’t fucking stutter. I’m out. I’ll walk with Jin-hyung. It’ll kill me paying you back, but I’ll figure it out. I’d rather be in debt the rest of my life than associated with a company that treats people like this.”

Yoongi turned and stormed toward the door.

“Yoongi, wait!” Bang cried, circling around his desk.

Jin moved faster, chasing after Yoongi. He grabbed him before he reached the door and wrapped him in a hug, pressing a desperate kiss to his mouth. “Don’t you dare,” he whispered.

“I will dare. You don’t deserve this shit.”

“You’re right,” Bang admitted, leaning on his desk. He sighed softly. “I am trying to protect the group as a whole.” “So what does that mean?” Yoongi asked, though Jin refused to open his arms. He glanced over at Bang as well as he could.

“It means that taking away a member of the group this late in the game could really negatively impact the group’s performance. Plus, all the expenses telling the public about you already.”

“So, he can stay?” Yoongi clarified.

“There will need to be stipulations. For the both of you.”

“We can date?” Jin asked. His arms tightened around Yoongi.

“Well, it would look really bad if I let the other two date and said no to you two, wouldn’t it? Sit down. Quit being so dramatic with the storming out.” He waved his hand and circled back around his desk, taking a seat and tapping at his computer.

Jin looked at Yoongi, his heart swelling a little. He wanted to shake him and scold him, but also kiss him until their mouths were numb. Instead, he let go of him and grabbed his hand, twining their fingers as they headed over to the chairs and sat, facing their boss.

“I have to admit, you’ve certainly got balls for having no balls,” Bang commented. “Standing up to me like that.” “I’m sorry, Sir,” Jin mumbled.

“I don’t know if you realize how expensive that surgery was. And starting as an actor or idol for a different company with those scars? Unlikely. It’s a dead giveaway what you are, at least until they heal. If they heal right.”

Yoongi tensed next to Jin, and Jin saw his jaw twitch. He reached over and set his hand on Yoongi’s wrist, giving a barely there shake of his head. Some battles just weren’t worth fighting.

“Here’s the deal,” Bang said, not noticing their silent interaction. He laced his fingers together on his desk. “You two can date, that’s fine. I’ll tell you the same thing I told Jimin and Taehyung. Watch your public affection. Be mindful of those watching you. The managers will know you’re dating for security reasons, as well as a handful of others. But treat anyone you’re unsure if they know as if they don’t. Do not get caught on camera being more affectionate with each other than you’d be willing to be with any other member. I don’t care about who you date, but the public – and your fans – will. You will continue to present as single, straight, attainable men. Got it?”

Both Jin and Yoongi nodded.

“I reiterate – I do not care, nor do I want to know, about what happens behind closed doors. Bruises, marks of any kind, had better remain somewhere where they can’t be seen. The makeup girls have a hard job working with you lot already, they don’t need to worry about covering a hundred bite marks on your necks.”

Jin chuckled and nodded, his cheeks warming at the thought.

“Now the things that I didn’t have to tell those two. Not a word of what Seokjin is. To anyone. Your parents, siblings, other members.” He pointed at Yoongi as he spoke.

“The members have a right to know,” Yoongi argued.

“No. Not all of them are as open minded as you. You’ll date something like Seokjin, some of them may not even be willing to work with it.”

“Him,” Yoongi muttered. Jin squeezed his hand warningly, but Yoongi ignored it. “Jin-hyung is a him, not an it.”

“Whatever. My point stands.”

“He’s right, Yoongi. I love all of our members, but some are young. Some may really struggle with the idea. I wish I could tell everyone, but I don’t want to risk messing things up before debut. Maybe in the future… But this is a battle that I’m okay delaying. Right now, we need to remain entirely as a whole, a team.”

Yoongi scowled, his mouth turning into a pout. “I still don’t like it.”

Jin chuckled. “I know. But you said you’d stand by me. Please. Just let me come out on my own terms with them. I agree with what he’s saying.”

“Fine.” Yoongi nodded. “But the minute you want to come out, I’m helping you. Contract or not.” He looked pointedly at Bang.

“You certainly are getting more outspoken, aren’t you?” Bang chuckled a little. “We’ll continue. Once you debut, there will be a lot of people watching your every move. If there’s even a whisper of someone catching onto what Seokjin is, you come directly to me. I will handle it.”

They both nodded again.

“Now go, you’re already late for practice. Yoongi, I expect drafts of those two songs you’ve been working on in my office tomorrow.”

They both rose and bowed, leaving without another word. The silence on their walk to the dance practice room was tense. Jin wanted to say something, anything to break it, but he was afraid of what Yoongi might be thinking. It was Yoongi that ended up breaking it first.

“I didn’t like that, Jin-hyung.”

“What?”

“You were so quick to leave. You would have left without a second thought… That stings a little,” Yoongi mumbled. Jin stopped and grabbed him, forcing him to quit walking as well.

“I would never leave you, Yoongi. Even without being in Bangtan, I would have found a way to date you.”

“But that’s just it. Do we mean so little to you as Bangtan that you’d so willingly give us away?”

“No, Yoongi…” Jin’s heart clenched at Yoongi’s words. He couldn’t imagine the pain Yoongi must have been feeling, the way he thought. “Leaving would tear me to shreds. Bangtan – Even before dating you – You guys are my world. My brothers and my family. Stepping away, watching you debut while I find some nine to five job… It would have broken me. But being the reason that six dreams are crushed? That would have broken me worse. I couldn’t be the reason Bangtan didn’t debut. I just couldn’t do it, Yoongi. My pride isn’t worth crushing all of you. Think of Jungkook. Jimin – how hard he’s worked. Taehyung, he’s fought to get noticed and improved so much in just a short while. You and Namjoonie and Hobi, you’ve all been here so long, so many broken promises and failed group lineups. I’m not worth seeing all those dreams shatter. Please understand… My choice in there was not an easy one. It was one I have been sick to my stomach over since Namjoon told us to confess yesterday. I knew I would need to have a plan B, an escape route for the group in case he wanted to stop everyone. That was the only option. What else could I have done?”

“Fought for yourself,” Yoongi snapped, his voice soft but sharp. “He walked all over you in there, calling you an it, degrading you. He didn’t call you male once. And you just let him. How? Why?”

Jin shrugged. He knew Yoongi was right, he wasn’t blind, or deaf. He knew when he was being talked down to, and he knew when someone didn’t particularly care for who he was.

“What? Why? You can’t just shrug like it’s a burned breakfast, Seokjin. This is your very existence. What is so wrong with you that you can’t defend yourself?”

Jin pulled back a little, surprised at the anger radiating from Yoongi. He knew he was frustrated, but hadn’t expected this level of aggression. He shrugged again, and watched Yoongi’s jaw clench.

“You don’t get it, Yoongi. You can’t.”

“I’m trying!” Yoongi spat. “It doesn’t help that you just brush me off when I try to bring it up! I tried to defend you in there and you hushed me like a child acting up, what do you want from me?”

“I—” Jin’s shoulders sagged. His fears were all coming true, crashing down on him just as he’d feared they would. He was always too much for people. Too broken, too weird, not making sense. Too much baggage.

“What?” Yoongi snapped, crossing his arms.

Jin swallowed down the knot of tears that threatened to close off his throat. He blinked hard once and shrugged a third time, this time adding his best apologetic smile.

“I don’t know. You’re right. I should have defended myself. I’m not very good at it, I’m sorry. I’ll try harder. We need to get to practice.”

Yoongi’s face twisted, the anger melting into confusion at the clearly unexpected response from Jin. Jin didn’t give him a chance to argue back though, and instead just nodded and hurried down the hall, blinking away the tears that threatened to fall before anyone could see them.

He didn’t want to shut down from Yoongi, but he had never opened up to anyone, especially not about his secret. He didn’t know to explain his reasoning or why he picked his battles so carefully. It was easy to say that things were just simpler that way, but Yoongi wasn’t the type of man to take that answer. To Jin, it was obvious. Fighting against their boss when he’d already agreed to let a broken clause slide was stupid. And sometimes, the fight was futile. As much as Jin wanted to be accepted by everyone, he knew that some individuals just couldn’t see past the prejudice. Their boss was one of them, despite the openness to letting him join a boy group. Arguing and fighting against it would just frustrate everyone and reach zero middle ground.

“Hey, you okay?” Taehyung nudged Jin as he sat on the ground in the practice room, poking at his lunch.

“Hm? Yeah, fine.”

“You sure? You’ve barely touched your food.”

“You want it?”

Taehyung tilted his head a little, giving him a curious expression. “I’ll eat it if you aren’t but… What’s wrong, hyung?”

“Nothing. Just up in my head.” Jin pushed the container over to Taehyung and unfolded his legs.

“Why aren’t you with Yoongi-hyung?” Taehyung asked, digging into Jin’s abandoned meal.

“He’s busy,” Jin mumbled. He stretched out on the floor, staring up at the ceiling.

“Um… He’s sitting alone looking just as out of it as you are… Did everything go okay with the boss?”

“Yeah, we got the green light.”

“I feel like there’s a but in there.”

Jin shook his head, closing his eyes. “No but. We’re good. I’m just a little out of it today, I think.”

“I’d say… Well, you can talk to me if you want to. You know?”

Jin smiled softly and let his arm drop, falling onto Taehyung’s leg. “I know, Tae. You’re a good friend.”

Jin heard Taehyung depart, leaving him in his small bubble of empty. He could hear the others chatting as they ate; Jimin and Jungkook arguing over something he couldn’t make out, Namjoon and Hoseok were discussing lyrics of some sort. He strained his ears, trying to hear Yoongi, but was met with nothing. He wondered if Yoongi was mad at him. He’d never had a real relationship before, so he didn’t really know the signs to look for beyond those Yoongi would give when they were just friends. He supposed he could just ask, but the idea of a fight knotted his stomach in the worst way. He just wanted Yoongi to understand.

The remainder of practice moved far too slowly for Jin’s comfort. He could feel an uneasy pressure, and more times than not he caught Yoongi staring at him from across the room. The ride home was just as quiet. Jin busied himself with dinner as soon as they entered the dorm, hoping to avoid any serious conversation.

Luck wasn’t on his side, however, because he turned around with a bowl of water and nearly ran directly into Yoongi, who was leaning against the counter.

“Are you giving me the silent treatment?”

“What? No.” Jin moved past him and set the bowl down, digging in the fridge for food.

“I’m sorry I snapped at you, hyung…” Yoongi continued. “I was confused. I still am, but I should have asked instead of jumping to conclusions. I’m not very good with relationships.”

Jin straightened up and turned, sighing softly. “Neither am I, clearly. I’m just too much to handle, Yoongi. Even knowing my secrets… Trying to explain my reasoning, it’s… I’m scared to be misunderstood. But then I get misunderstood for not speaking up. It’s a no-win situation. I should have tried to explain my rationale, why I didn’t argue with him. But I’m just… I feel so guilty pushing all this weight onto you when you’re already dealing with so much.”

Yoongi grabbed the pack of meat in Jin’s hand and set it on the counter. He took both of his hands and stepped close to him.

“We are all dealing with a lot. Jin-hyung, you make me so happy. You did before we dated and you do even more now. Today was hard. I’ve never had to deal with such a level of disrespect, even from an elder. It stung because I could see how much it hurt you. I don’t know why you just sat there and took it, but I understand that you have your reasons. And I want you to share them with me. It’s not too much. I shouldn’t have yelled either… I want to learn, please. Open up to me?”

“Yoongi—” Jin sighed softly. He freed one hand to brush Yoongi’s hair from his face. “I want to. So bad. I just… I’m afraid once I open that gate then everything will come out.”

“Then let it. Bottling stuff up is horrible for you, trust me, me of all people knows that. If you open a floodgate, let it come out. You’ll feel better and I’ll understand more. I can handle it. I made that decision when I said yes to dating you. Now you need to make the decision.”

“What decision?”

“If you trust me enough to let me in. Let me carry some of that weight.”

“I want to.”

“Then do it.” Yoongi reached around and grabbed the meat, pushing it back into the fridge. “Let the others cook tonight. Take me to dinner. Even just a food truck. We can take a walk in the park and talk and make out like teenagers behind the trees.”

Jin laughed a little. “Yoongi…”

“Come on, doesn’t it sound like fun?” Yoongi pushed, bumping his hip against Jin’s.

“It does. But they’ll starve if I don’t cook something for them. Let me make something for them, then we can go?”

“That’s a fair compromise. Want my help?”

“I’d love that,” Jin agreed. Yoongi pulled the meat out once more and the two set to work making dinner for the group, the silence between them finally comfortable once more.

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daydreamindollie · 4 years

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p.jm | power couple

pairing: p.jimin x f.reader

summary: Your performance at MAMA catches Jimin by surprise.

length: 1.5k

A/N: This is completely unedited, I'm sorry! Please excuse any grammatical mistakes or anything that doesn't sound right. I'll be sure to come back and edit this in the future, however, I promise you that! Anyway, this was a request of @joyful-jimin I hope you enjoy the read, any feedback (as long as it's constructive) is welcome! Thank you for taking the time to read this!

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Your favorite sound, other than the voice of your beloved, is the audience's cheers and cries for you. Even before you have fully risen to the stage, their exhilarated incantation of your name shook the structures surrounding you and had you biting back a grin.

From within your chest, your heart pumps exuberantly, driving adrenaline to rush through your veins with a force that almost has your capillaries bursting. It's the best feeling. All ounces of fear and doubt have expelled from your mind; you no longer anticipated failure or disappointment as you leave the responsibility of your routine to muscle memory. For hours, you have worked yourself to exhaustion for this solo performance and you wouldn't even dream of bringing dismay to the fans and people that believed in you.

Most importantly of all, you want to make Jimin proud. He was right beside you, every step of the way, as you choreographed this dance. He was there when you glowed in excitement for the opportunity to prove your worth and was there when you were about to be reduced into sore muscles and brittle bones. When the whole world felt as though it was weighing down on you instead of Atlas, he was there, he was always there and you want to make him proud.

You also have something to prove to those watching you too closely. Now that your relationship with the Park Jimin has been made public, people have associated everything you do with Jimin as if he was the one that made you who you were today when that was not the case. Deep in your heart, all of your love was for Jimin only but it was your own hard work that has led to your success and led to Jimin's fondness of you.

All of the trophies you've won tonight wasn't because of Jimin, it was because of your hard work. Jimin was there to support you and you never undermined that but this stage is yours and everything was choreographed by you. If you let yourself believe that the people who said that Jimin was the only reason for your success, then your relationship would turn toxic very very quickly and you shiver at the thought of that.

Tonight, you were going to prove yourself worthy of your own success and rub it in their face that this was all because of you and nobody else.

In silence and styled in a white ruffled mesh gown, you rose to the stage, your make up peachy but natural-toned to accentuate your already natural beauty. Gasps of the audience were followed by a loud cheer as the music began. You were to dance to your third solo album's title song. The song narrated a love story like that of Romeo and Juliet where the protagonist was born into a status that forbade she ever interact or dare to love the man she couldn't help but fall for.

In the beginning, you focused on elegance and grace, mimicking a ballerina floating on stage. Utilising your elegant but ruffled gown, you further illustrated the ardent sentiment of your protagonist. Every step spoke of your character's unconditional, forbidden love. Your delicate hands made grand demure gestures as your countenance held the glow of love, however, with as the song built up to the climax, an undertone of bitterness and sadness in your expressions grew into a determination to break free of the chains that kept her from the love of her life. Your diffident gesticulations grew bold and exaggerated, reaching a powerful peak and, just as the song reached its crescendo, back up dancers materialised from the shadows, bringing about more lights to add to your spotlight. They tried to hold you back by the ruffles of your dress but you sprang forward, which ripped away your dress to reveal a short black dress that's partially lacy. It clung to your curvy figure as the lace left enough for the imagination to get creative on how the rest of your body looked.

On the screen, people were able to have an eyeful of your outfit before the screen flashed to Jimin's reaction of awe. You hadn't told him anything about a costume change so he was just as surprised as the audience. Jungkook and Taehyung, who sat beside him, started smirking and nudging their elbows into his sides.

"Isn't that your girl, Jimin-ah?~" Jungkook teased as Taehyung chuckled.

"Do you like her in the white dress or the black one, hyung?" Taehyung wriggles his brows suggestively.

"I bet he likes the black one better!"

"AISH! Stop that! I'm gonna miss my Jagi's performance!" he smacks away at them as a blush colours his cheeks a soft pink despite his efforts in not letting their satirising affect him. However, he's sure it was your outfit change that affected him the most.

He wants to cover his face in embarrassment as he didn't want everyone to know how much he liked the costume change. He'll get you for this later. You could've, at least, warned him about it so that he was mentally prepared but no. Jimin didn't turn away or cover his eyes, however, as he knew how hard you worked on this; he knew you'd kill this stage and he doesn't want to miss a single second of it. The crowd's cheers grew even louder after seeing his reaction of you. He's sure that many of them were supporters of your relationship and that made him so happy. It left a good feeling to know that the supporters inundated the negativity of the haters.

He's so proud of you.

Encouraged by the audience's sudden increase of shouts and cheers, you found more energy inside you to finish the song powerfully. Striking a pose as you smiled brightly, sweat dripping from your brow at the heat of the spotlight, waiting for it to fade as you were brought down and the audience's cheering became a soft buzz around you. The adrenaline was still fresh in your veins as you made your way back to your dressing room, ready to gulp down liters of water.

As soon as you closed the door behind you, you were suddenly pulled into an embrace with arms and a warmth that you instantly recognised.

"Jimin!" you squealed with a giggle as he peppers multiple kisses up and down the column of your neck, "Stop that!" you turned your face further away from him, which only gave him more access to your neck for more kisses, eliciting another squeal from you "-'m ticklish!"

"That's what you get for not telling me about that costume change," he huffed with a grin despite the teasing pout you imagined in his voice.

"I'm sorry, okay? Please forgive me," you turned in his arms to wrap your own around his neck and nuzzle into his collar bone, "I just wanted to surprise you...did you like it?" you looked up at him with your big eyes, weakening his knees.

"I'm sure you already know the answer to that..." he hums with a soft smile as he leans in to give you a kiss that you smile happily into.

The day after yet another one of the greatest nights of your life, you go onto social media and find pictures of your costume change and Jimin's reaction beside each other, everywhere. Biting back a smile, you read the title and itch to call your boyfriend.

'OUR FAVOURITE DANCING POWER COUPLE SHARE A MOMENT ON SCREEN IN MAMA'

'DANCING STAR, (Y/N), LEAVES JIMIN FLUSTERED WITH STUNNING ON STAGE COSTUME CHANGE'

Many fans were enthusiastically praising the interaction, creating fanart, fanfiction and conspiring if you had planned the surprise for Jimin or what, video compilations were also being made of different fancams catching Jimin's reactions of your costume change at different angles.

Everyone was so positive about the interaction but there were also many people commending your growth in dancing abilities and drawing further attention to your latest solo album release. It wasn't just the public either, many of your close friends and your old members were messaging you, congratulating you on such a good night and fangirling over the interaction that you and Jimin had that night.

Just as you think your heart is about to burst with happiness, Jimin starts calling you, "Hey baby," he coos, "I hope you don't mind me calling you so early in the morning but...can you please open the door?"

"Why are you here?" you grin as soon as you open the door, dressed in one of his oversized shirts and just your panties, "not that I'm complaining," you giggle as he scoops you up into his arms and nuzzles his nose into your neck affectionately before kicking the door closed behind him and walking to your bedroom.

"I want to personally congratulate you on last night's performance," his voice was still sweet but had an undertone of something that you couldn't quite place. It wasn't until you looked up and stared into his dark eyes that you realised the true meaning behind his words.

#jimin x reader #jimin x idol reader #BTS request #bts one shot #bts x reader

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a-travels · 5 years

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taken: 27 may, 2018 Jökulsárlón Glacial Lagoon, Iceland

empty and alone

Yeah, I’m finally posting a color photo, though it still has a muted color palette. I gotta find some more color photos and photos of non-solitary animals to upload. Unlike the horsies, there were no other seals around, though I’m sure they were underwater or something.

I was recently talking to a friend about stuff and the topic of relationships and love lives popped up, despite my very blatant inability to contribute anything meaningful to such a discussion. And this was, in fact, one of the four people who read the dumb stuff I post on here, and she encouraged me to make a post on “love” and that sort of thing. I initially tabled the idea, because while it’s something I have my own thoughts on, I didn’t really know what to actually talk about or what to express, much less what picture to pair it with.

I realized later that day, in my traditional 3am moments of clarity (since my mind has pretty much shifted to a nocturnal cognitive cycle), that this photo fits fairly well with what I think is a less talked about aspect of “love” and relationships. So this post is for that friend, who probably knows who they are.

In the ever inspirational words of Ron Swanson talking about his ex-wives and love life, he says, “If you don’t believe in love, what’s the point of living?” I agree wholeheartedly. I think the human experience and life itself is about, among other things, building relationships and connections with others, not even just human beings, but even a pet. I won’t go deeper than that in terms of the philosophy of love or life (as far as I want to right now), but I think foundationally, it’s important to understand my view on that regard before moving forward.

That being said, I think neither connections or love is something that should be rushed, forced, or inorganic. Maybe it’s simply my idealism, privilege, and choice talking here. Idealism because I like to think love finds its way and people will find each other through organic means; privilege because I’ve never been placed in any position (so far) that I’ve been forced to be or not be with someone for any reason; and choice, not because I have hoards of women running after me (lol please), but more that I have to ability to find and ask out anyone I want to (not that they’ll say yes, but I have the option to at least ask), which not everyone can claim. It’s the same sort of freedom I found myself in terms of career paths, college choice and more. To that end, my parents get a lot, if not most of the credit in never really pigeonholing me or forcing me down any one path. But I realize my fortune in freedom is not something afforded to everyone.

So in that vein, I think looking at relationships and love from the lens of choice and freedom is particularly interesting, because I think now than ever before in my life, I’m seeing the start of marriages and long-term relationships, or rather the push towards that direction. I mean it's around that age where people are young, in love and want to do something about it. Or, they see their friends around them in a relationship and want to don’t want to be left out or stuck third- or fifth-wheeling. And whether cuffing season is actually hitting my friends directly, it certainly seems to be affecting people’s parents.

In my family, there’s a very strict “no dating till you’re settled” policy, which I guess, good luck to them. I sure as hell don’t know when I’m gonna be “settled”, as in a stable job, good savings, and a good house. I think the same rings true for a lot of Asian parents⸺strict anti-dating policy in the house...until there suddenly isn’t. It’s something I’ve heard from so many of my Asian friends, in particular, the sudden interest and goading from immediate or extended family to find a significant other, a boyfriend or girlfriend. It’s pressure I see affect so many of my friends in such negative and unfortunate ways, and to what end? What is the benefit of seeing your child in a relationship suddenly? Now that they’re out of college in a job, what makes the time so ripe for love? I definitely don’t know and I don’t know if I ever will. As someone who personally values individual liberty, especially in regards to relationships and love, in particular, I am vehemently against the idea of forcing anything on anyone, particularly a relationship. It’s like how you’d feel weirded out being forced to be friends with someone, it is exactly the same thing. A significant other should be your friend in some regard, only closer.

And yet, it seems in some confounding way that some parents are pushing their children towards the next “landmark” or checkbox on their journey of life. It’s literally like they’re the player piece on this sick, messed up board game of real Life (which in part is why I can’t play that board game anymore, bc of how meta it gets sometimes, especially this copy I saw in the store the other day advertising experiencing “crippling debt” and “quarter-life crises”. Big yikes). In turn, I see how it affects people’s outlook and philosophy towards relationships and finding a boyfriend or girlfriend. It becomes less about fostering an actual connection and more about this dumb rat race of finding someone to say you found someone. Someone I know in particular speaks regularly about his parents pressuring him to find a girlfriend, and when he doesn’t, I see how superficially he talks about women on dating apps or on facebook or social media. And yes, it’s tough to gauge someone’s personality on a platform when you only have pictures and usually a half-baked bio associated with it, but it’s also in large part why I’m against the idea of a dating app like a Tinder. On the other end, I have a male friend who is clearly very thirsty and stressing out my female friends, either hitting on them or hitting on other women around them. And while I can’t say for sure it’s a push from the parents' end, it certainly seems that way in its intensity and brazenness.

I don’t really know what to say to help people afflicted with that kind of parental pressure. I get my own share of parental pressure on other things outside of relationships, I see in my own family that pressure to get my older cousins and family members “married off”. I see my parents occasionally talk about the benefits of arranged marriage, and how the “stress of finding someone” is taken away and you can genuinely build a relationship with someone over time, and it’s kind of shocking considering my parents were not arranged.

I don’t know what the rush is or what the motivation is from a parent for that kind of push. This may just be my idealism talking, but I think that “emptiness” people feel or parents think their kids will face from a lack of relationship is not a square hole for a square peg. I think for all my lukewarm attitude towards Disney Princess movies, I think one of my favorite things from Frozen (which overall is still just ok imo) was how “true love’s kiss” to save Anna wasn’t a kiss from a boy, or someone she would marry, but the love from her sister Elsa. If you think your child is lacking in “love”, you can provide that love, they can find it from other siblings, from friends, a pet, even a toy (like when you’re a kid), not just from a boyfriend or girlfriend. And barring the whole “evolutionary goal of a species is to propagate their genetic info” and that nonsense, it’s ok to be by yourself (hehe old post). And if you don’t find anyone now or later, there are still so many ways to find love that doesn’t require a traditional marriage or relationship.

At the very least, don’t be your own impediment to choice or freedom to be with who you want. You obviously can’t control other people, your parents, your friends from pressuring you, unfortunately, but ultimately it’s your life and not theirs and you deserve to be happy, no matter the form that takes, even if it means seeming “empty and alone” at times to them.

tl;dr - you alone should be able to choose to be alone

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COVID19 Updates: 08/09/2021

Malaysia: JUST IN : The Malaysian Medical Association (MMA) urges the government to delay the relaxing of restrictions for the fully vaccinated until cases are significantly reduced. #COVID19

US: JUST IN - Top Biden officials are growing frustrated with the lack of internal visibility into #COVID19 data being collected by the CDC: "Where the hell are the data?," a source describes the tension to Axios behind the scene.

Arkansas: Arkansas hospitalizations for Covid-19 have risen nearly fourfold in just over a month, said a Republican state legislator and emergency room doctor. The patients he is seeing are younger and younger. “It’s never looked like this.”

Texas: Austin, Texas, activates emergency alert system as COVID crisis reaches "critical" point LINK

US: The nation's top infectious disease expert, Dr. Anthony Fauci, says he is optimistic the Food and Drug Administration will give full approval to the vaccine by month’s end. LINK

World: Holy GoF! They aggregated VOC-associated spike substitutions into a single polymutant spike protein and showed 20 mutations were sufficient to confer near-complete resistance to neutralizing Abs generated by convalescents and mRNA vaccine recipients. LINK

Israel: A third of Israeli adults over the age of 60 have already received a coronavirus booster shot, Prime Minister Naftali Bennett said LINK

China: Several Chinese virologists and biologists who have worked with US peers shared concerns about #US’ unclear #biosecurity system. “There is possibility a single researcher or team may have secretly created a virus like #COVID19 without permission.” LINK

Texas: Half of Texas' hospital regions are reporting 10 or fewer ICU beds available. Corpus Christi is reporting 0 staffed ICU beds available. They reported 52 on Monday. The state passed 9,000 COVID hospitalizations today. Most since Feb. 9. New info from DFW Hospital Council: There are now 55 children hospitalized with COVID-19 in the region…“which are some of the highest levels of pediatric COVID-19 patients we have ever treated.” They add pediatric hospitals are at 97.7% capacity because RSV cases are high too

World: Head of notorious Wuhan lab warns more COVID-19 mutations are coming LINK

World: ‘This Is Really Scary’: Kids Struggle With Long CovidLingering physical, mental and neurological symptoms are affecting children as well as adults, including many who had mild reactions to the initial coronavirus infection. LINK

California: Beginning Aug. 11, visitors to any of California’s hospitals will only be allowed access if they are vaccinated against COVID-19, or provide evidence of a negative COVID-19 test LINK

US: Some Americans altering vaccine records to get unauthorized 3rd shot LINK

US: 12h Rolling 7-day average of daily coronavirus cases in the U.S.: 4 weeks ago: 19,145 3 weeks ago: 32,217 2 weeks ago: 51,323 1 week ago: 79,892 Today: 112,147

District of Columbia: DC giving away AirPods to encourage youth vaccinations LINK

Israel: Despite its record-setting vaccination campaign, #Israel is struggling to contain the spread of the delta variant of the #coronavirus. LINK

US: A Doomsday COVID Variant Worse Than Delta and Lambda May Be Coming, Scientists Say LINK

France: An extension to France’s “health pass” covering activities including going to restaurants and cafes, taking long-distance train journeys and visiting hospitals has come into effect after a fourth weekend of protests;

Australia: Australia expanded its NSW LD, amid fears that covid has spread from Sydney. The rural town of Tamworth, 257 miles NW of Sydney & Byron Bay, a popular tourist spot 478 miles from the city, entered a week long LD on Monday - despite neither having recorded a single case;

Sri Lanka: Sri Lanka holds mass cremations as Covid cases surge LINK

Philippines: Hundreds of Philippine hospitals near full capacity as virus cases surge LINK

China: China punishes dozens of officials as Covid-19 Delta outbreaks spread LINK

UK: Extremely tense interaction at bbc studios between police and protestors demanding no jabs for children. Jabs for over 16 and 17 year olds are set to go ahead soon without parental consent.

Georgia: Metro Atlanta hospitals report packed emergency rooms as COVID-19 cases surge LINK

Georgia: As of Friday, Camden County was seeing the highest transmission rate in Southeast Georgia -- 1,014 cases per 100,000 residents.

World: #BREAKING No need yet to adapt BioNTech-Pfizer vaccine for Covid variants: BioNTech chief

RUMINT (Florida): Just heard on the news that one in every five kids tested in Florida is COVID-19 positive.

Mississippi: There were ZERO available ICU beds in Mississippi as of early this morning. None. That means hospitals across the state may not be able to provide the level of care needed to you or your loved one. Not just for COVID-19 but FOR ANY EMERGENCY CARE.

World: ‘Goldilocks virus’: Delta vanquishes all variant rivals as scientists race to understand its tricks LINK

Ohio: Judge adds COVID-19 vaccine condition to man's probation LINK

UK: Wrexham father in intensive care after refusing Covid vaccine LINK

Texas: Texas woman with COVID-19 arrested after allegedly spitting on officer who was executing a search warrant at her home.

UK: 16 and 17-year-olds across the UK are being invited to book their Covid vaccine. First Minister Nicola Sturgeon tells #BBCBreakfast she would support vaccinating children of an even younger age. LINK

Canada: Dozens of vehicles with U.S. plates line up at B.C. border as COVID-19 restrictions lifted LINK

Florida: Orange County wastewater shows significant increases of Covid-19 virus LINK

North Dakota: North Dakota hospitals bracing for rise in delta variant COVID-19 cases. Are they prepared? LINK

World: Remember Beta? New data reveal variant’s deadly powersPeople infected with a variant first identified in South Africa are more likely to die than those infected with other variants. LINK

UK: Anger at overflowing Covid test drop boxes LINK

World: Op/Ed: The really worrisome thing about the Delta variant LINK

Texas: Texas is reporting 394 staffed ICU beds available statewide. That's the lowest number since the start of the pandemic. However, we are NOT are a record high for COVID patients in ICU and still well below our total hospitalization peak so it could be more of a staffing issue

Texas: LBJ Hospital in Houston has set up tents to treat patients. They don’t have medical personnel to staff them. Sheila Jackson Lee has requested for Abbott to help TX hospitals that are overwhelmed by the rise of COVID hospitalizations paired with a shortage of nursing staff.

RUMINT (US): So a friend just called me up who lives in Tennessee... tested positive after thinking she had a cold. In the summer. Just a sore throat so far, and general feeling like crap. No loss of smell or taste. Not vaccinated. Asked how she was doing on food or if the kids were gonna bring her by stuff... she said no was all set as she stopped by the grocery store to load up on stuff to ride out the quarantine.

Florida: #BREAKING: @GovRonDeSantis office released a statement to #CBS4 that @EducationFL could withhold the salaries of superintendents and school board members who implement #maskmandates.

Georgia: Georgia school district shuts down within a week of opening due to COVID-19 LINK

California: Shortly after 14 y.o. Daniel Salinas recovered from COVID, his behavior began to change. He developed a migraine, then began talking to himself. He was rushed to UC Irvine and diagnosed with COVID psychosis. He's still hospitalized. LINK

Canada: Steinbach COVID testing site turning people away due to large #'s, and sending them to Winnipeg. Not a good sign.

US: Dr. Scott Gottlieb says the Covid delta surge may be the ‘final wave’ in U.S. LINK (Wishful thinking)

Maine: #BREAKING: Maine Medical Center says it reported a COVID-19 outbreak to the Maine CDC last Thursday. Maine Medical Center says it reported a COVID-19 outbreak to the Maine CDC last Thursday. The hospital says the outbreak consisted of nine employees in its Emergency Department, including staff who were fully vaccinated. LINK

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Canada: Alberta adds over 1,000 new COVID-19 cases over the weekend LINK

Texas: Greenville Texas Hospital Using Tents Outside To Triage Patients Amid COVID-19 Case Increase LINK

World: Update: CDC warns against travel to Israel amid surge in Delta variant cases

US: "We are hospitalizing record numbers of children," a New Orleans doctor tells @ABC News. "Half of the children in our hospital today are under two years of age. Most of the others are between five and ten years of age—too young to be vaccinated just yet." LINK

Florida: BREAKING: Both Volusia County and Advent Health Orlando are finalizing the purchase of fleets of refrigerated mobile morgues amid Florida's COVID surge, a rep from Mopec confirms @WJCTNews

Florida: ABC News #DavidMuir just reported Florida has ordered 300 ventilators Expert saying “ if this continues another 4-5 days which it looks like it will, it will collapse the hospital system”

Texas: NEW: Texas Governor Greg Abbott asking hospitals to postpone some elective procedures to avoid a shortage of hospital capacity

Iceland: US CDC has become wary of #Iceland: it has now been escalated to "LEVEL 4 - Very High Level of #COVID19" (bear in mind, Iceland has a 90%+ vaccination rate)

Australia: NSW recorded 356 new locally acquired cases of COVID-19 in the 24 hours to 8pm last night.

Texas: Governor: Today I announced new measures to respond to the spread of COVID-19: * bring in additional medical personnel to staff hospitals * expand Antibody Infusion Centers to prevent hospitalization of those with COVID * make it easier to get a vaccination

US: BREAKING: U.S. reports 164,153 new coronavirus cases as many states dump weekend backlogs

Iowa: Blank Children’s hospital has suspended elective surgeries (that is, non emergency) that would require a hospital stay.

Iceland: COVID-19 in Iceland: “We’re nearing the limits of our infrastructure” LINK

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These Celebs Are Destigmatizing Mental Illness

Many campaigns have worked to normalize the discussion around mental health (Bell’s Let’s Talk and CAMH’s One Brave Night among them). But one thing that really reaches the masses is when a celebrity speaks out about his or her struggle to spread the message that it’s OK to have mental illness; it doesn’t make you weak.

Anyone who has ever suffered from depression or anxiety—whether temporary or chronic—knows the feeling of wanting to crawl into bed and stay there until things seem OK again. And somehow when these celebrities who seem to have it all come out and say that they actually don’t have their shit together, it is encouraging to us. By focusing on their health, it normalizes the conversation and gives us the courage to take care of ourselves (and be vocal about it).

Below, see the celebrities who are helping to fight the stigma against mental health by being open about their own struggles. Want to learn more about mental illness? Here are 5 myths about anxiety and depression, and information about different types of treatment.

Selena Gomez

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I have a lot to be thankful for this year.. My year has been the hardest yet most rewarding one yet. I've finally fought the fight of not 'being enough'. I have only wanted to reflect the love you guys have given me for years and show how important it is to take care of YOU. By grace through faith. Kindness always wins. I love you guys. God bless

A post shared by Selena Gomez (@selenagomez) on Nov 24, 2016 at 6:21pm PST

In August 2016, Selena Gomez announced that she would be taking a break from her career to deal with anxiety, depression and panic attacks associated with lupus (an autoimmune condition from which she suffers). She made a return to the spotlight in November that year at the American Music Awards, where she delivered an emotional, heartfelt speech, briefly touching on her battle with mental health issues.

“I had to stop because I had everything and I was absolutely broken inside. I kept it all together enough to where I would never let you down but I kept it too much together to where I let myself down,” she said. “If you are broken, you do not have to stay broken.”

The songstress also opened up about her issues with mental health in the April 2017 issue of Vogue (which she covered). “Tours are a really lonely place for me,” she told the magazine. “My self-esteem was shot. I was depressed, anxious. I started to have panic attacks right before getting onstage, or right after leaving the stage. Basically I felt I wasn’t good enough, wasn’t capable. I felt I wasn’t giving my fans anything, and they could see it—which, I think, was a complete distortion.”

She revealed she spent 90 days in a mental health facility in Tennessee, surrendering her cell phone and taking part in various forms of therapy. And while Gomez is the second most-followed person on Instagram, she told Vogue she no longer had it on her phone, and an assistant had her password.

“It felt like I was seeing things I didn’t want to see, like it was putting things in my head that I didn’t want to care about,” she said. “I always end up feeling like shit when I look at Instagram. Which is why I’m kind of under the radar, ghosting it a bit.”

Camila Cabello

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#BGT here I cooooome !!!! gonna b singing #cryingintheclub woooop

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Former Fifth Harmony member Camila Cabello made headlines in September 2016 after she left the stage early during a performance under the guise of a wardrobe malfunction. She later revealed, on Snapchat, that the cause was excessive anxiety, even tweeting, “just wanna sleep for 3 days.”

Cabello had already been open about her struggles with anxiety prior to the incident, however, telling Billboard that 2015 was a “low” for her, personally.

“I was having terrible anxiety, nonstop. My heart would beat really fast the whole day. Two hours after I woke up, I’d need a nap because my body was so hyperactive,” she recalled. “I was scared of what would happen to me, of the things my brain might tell me. I realized the stuff I thought was important isn’t worth my health. Now I write in a diary every day, work out and meditate.”

In March 2017, the Cuban-born star revealed to Latina magazine that she also deals with obsessive compulsive disorder. “It was just totally out of control,” Cabello told the magazine of her OCD. “I would wake up with a super-accelerated heartbeat and really negative, intrusive, compulsive thoughts. I was so inside my head, and I didn’t know what was happening.”

She continued, “I totally understand now, being in it, why there shouldn’t be such a stigma on mental illness, because it’s a pretty common thing for people. But you can get help. If you’re dedicated to making it better, you can—because I’m in a much better place now. I started reading books about it and it really helped a lot when I understood [the illness], and that [the thoughts I was having] weren’t real. Sometimes you have to remind yourself to slow down and take care of yourself.”

Zayn Malik

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In June 2016, former One Direction member Zayn Malik cancelled a U.K. concert due to anxiety. He made the announcement on Instagram, writing, “Unfortunately, my anxiety that has haunted me throughout the last few months has gotten the better of me. With the magnitude of the live event, I have suffered the worst anxiety of my career.”

Later that year, Malik revealed in his memoir, Pillow Talk, that panic attacks have stopped him from performing on more than one occasion. “I just couldn’t go through with it,” he wrote. “Mentally, the anxiety had won. Physically, I knew I couldn’t function. I would have to pull out.”

And while a member of his team offered to say he was sick, Malik insisted on being open about his struggle. “I was done with putting out statements that masked what was really going on. I wanted to tell the truth. Anxiety is nothing to be ashamed of; it affects millions of people every day,” he explained. “I don’t want to say I’m sick. I want to tell people what’s going on, and I’m not gonna be ashamed of what’s happening.”

Cara Delevingne

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Had the most incredible time at @finolhu_maldives this holiday. Thank you @gentlemonster for hooking me up with the shades 🕶 📸 by @james_suckling

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In 2016, Cara Delevingne took to Twitter to reveal she took a break from modelling due to depression. “I suffer from depression and was a model during a particularly rough patch of self hatred,” she explained. Later that year, she told Esquire she had been struggling with mental illness since she was a teen, more specifically, after she discovered her mother’s drug addiction.

“I was suicidal. I couldn’t deal with it anymore. I realized how lucky and privileged I was, but all I wanted to do was die,” she told the magazine, adding a six-month break from school and medication might have helped save her life at 16.

However, Cara stopped the meds at age 18, saying “I get depressed still but I would rather learn to figure it out myself rather then be dependant on meds, ever.”

Adele

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Auckland / Mt Smart Stadium / Mar 25

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Despite being a 15-time Grammy winner, Adele still experiences stage fright. In March 2017, she admitted to her New Zealand concertgoers that she may never tour again, due to the ongoing issue. “Touring isn’t something I’m good at–applause makes me feel a bit vulnerable. I don’t know if I will ever tour again,” she told the audience. “I get so nervous with live performances that I’m too frightened to try anything new. It’s actually getting worse. Or it’s just not getting better, so I feel like it’s getting worse, because it should’ve gotten better by now.”

Lady Gaga

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I felt like a princess in custom @tiffanyandco made just for me for the #GoldenGlobes 🤗 The Aurora necklace was named after the Aurora Borealis as an homage to #AStarIsBorn 🌟 #TiffanyAndCo

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In 2016, Lady Gaga revealed she suffers from post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) after she was raped at age 19. “I suffer from PTSD, I’ve never told anyone that before,” she said on the Today show in December 2016. “But the kindness that’s been shown to me, by doctors as well as family and friends, has really saved my life.”

More recently, Gaga opened up about her mental health struggles in a conversation with Prince William, as part of the royal’s Heads Together #oktosay series, which aims to end the stigma with the help of celebrities.

“For me, waking up every day and feeling sad and going on stage is something that is very hard to describe. There’s a lot of shame attached to mental illness. You feel like something’s wrong with you,” she told the Duke of Cambridge via FaceTime. “In my life, I go, ‘Oh my goodness, look at all these beautiful, wonderful things that I have. I should be so happy,’ but you can’t help it if, in the morning when you wake up, you are so tired, you are so sad, you are so full of anxiety and the shakes that you can barely think.”

But despite her hardships, the A Star is Born actress told William “the best thing that could come out of my mental illness was to share it with other people.”

“I feel like we are not hiding anymore, we’re starting to talk, and that’s what we need to do really,” she said.

Demi Lovato

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Demi Lovato is one of the most vocal mental health awareness advocates in the biz. The former Disney star, who has battled drug and alcohol addictions, bipolar disorder, self-harm and an eating disorder for years underwent rehab in 2010 and in 2013. Now, Lovato is much healthier and is committed to ending the stigma against mental illness. In 2015, she launched the Be Vocal campaign as a way to encourage individuals struggling with mental illness to talk about what they’re going through.

“I think the more people vocalize what they’re going through—their experience or just simply educating themselves so that they can learn more about what they’re talking about—that’s going to be the key to creating a conversation about mental illness and making it more understood,” she told HuffPost. “There’s a lack of compassion for people who have mental illnesses and there’s a lot of judgment. Once you make people realize that mental illness can happen to anybody—and it’s not anybody’s fault—then I think they’ll become more understanding of what mental illness really is.”

Jennifer Lawrence

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Jennifer Lawrence opened up about her struggle with anxiety in 2013, telling Madame Figaro that she began experiencing symptoms as a preteen. “When my mother told me about my childhood, she always told me that there was like a light in me, a spark that inspired me constantly,” Lawrence told the magazine. “When I started school, the light went out. It was never known what it was, a kind of social anxiety.”

She eventually went to seek help from a therapist and turned to acting as a form of self-therapy. She also revealed to the New York Times that she manages her anxiety with the use of prescription meds.

Emma Stone

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Oscar winner Emma Stone told Rolling Stone in 2016 that she experienced bouts of anxiety and panic attacks as a child. “My anxiety was constant,” she said. “I would ask my mom a hundred times how the day was gonna lay out. What time was she gonna drop me off? Where was she gonna be? What would happen at lunch? Feeling nauseous. At a certain point, I couldn’t go to friends’ houses anymore–I could barely get out the door to school.”

She did reveal, however, that therapy and acting, specifically improv and sketch comedy, is what helped her work through it. “You have to be present in improv, and that’s the antithesis of anxiety,” she explained.

Chrissy Teigen

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My stoop buddy

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Chrissy Teigen is never one to hold back, but she shocked fans when she penned an essay for Glamour in 2017 on her struggle with postpartum depression. “I couldn’t figure out why I was so unhappy. I blamed it on being tired and possibly growing out of the role: ‘Maybe I’m just not a goofy person anymore. Maybe I’m just supposed to be a mom,'” she wrote, later adding “postpartum does not discriminate.”

Months later, Teigen finally saw her family doctor, where she got her diagnosis. She began taking antidepressants. “I’m speaking up now because I want people to know it can happen to anybody and I don’t want people who have it to feel embarrassed or to feel alone. I also don’t want to pretend like I know everything about postpartum depression, because it can be different for everybody. But one thing I do know is that—for me—just merely being open about it helps.”

Troian Bellisario

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Thanks @coveteur I truly am a creepy eavesdropper. 😉 (📸 by @weston.wells )

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In November 2016, Pretty Little Liars star Troian Bellisario revealed via a voting PSA that she struggled with an eating disorder when she was younger. She said it was early detection and mental healthcare that saved her. “If I had just been shunned to the side as not having ‘real problems’, I don’t know that I would be living today,” she explained. “I just want to make sure that everybody has the same opportunity for treatment that I have, and I think that we have to make sure that our government invests in those programs.”

Troian shared her story on her struggles with anorexia in her film Feed, which she wrote and directed. “It was not easy; it was like engaging with an addiction,” she told Interview magazine of revisiting her story, adding that working on the film was “like poking a sleeping dragon.” “One of the things I really wanted the film to explore was that once you have this relationship, once you have this mental illness or this disease, it never really goes away.”

And just like many others who suffer from mental illness, Bellisario said she feels like no one truly understands what she went through. “Still to this day, I couldn’t get anyone—even the people who loved me the most, even my boyfriend or my mother or my father—to understand what that experience was truly like for me,” she said. “It was about my eating disorder, and I found there were so many people who thought that it was about losing weight or being skinny, and I couldn’t quite get them to understand that it was about control on a very, very literal level.”

Gina Rodriguez

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One year after the devastation of Hurricane Maria, there is still work to be done. Thank you @ricky_martin for giving us all an opportunity to continue to contribute to the reconstruction of our beautiful island of Puerto Rico. #allin4pr #miislabonita ❤️🙌🏽 link in bio 🇵🇷🇵🇷🇵🇷

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Jane the Virgin star Gina Rodriguez got candid about her struggle with anxiety in a moving Instagram post. “I suffer from anxiety,” she captioned the video, which sees her makeup-free in a New York Yankees cap. “And watching this clip I could see how anxious I was but I empathize with myself. I wanted to protect her and tell her it’s ok to be anxious, there is nothing different or strange about having anxiety and I will prevail.”

Shawn Mendes

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It may be hard to believe that Canada’s very own heartthrob has had his fair share of anxious episodes, but he has. In April 2018, the singer-songwriter told The Sun in an interview that he had seen a therapist a few times. “I found I was closing myself off from everybody, thinking that would help me battle [my anxiety], then realizing the only way I was going to battle it was completely opening up and letting people in,” Mendes said.

Said anxiety was chronicled in his single “In My Blood” (Lyrics: Help me, it’s like the walls are caving in, sometimes I feel like giving up, no medicine is strong enough, someone help me.)

“All pain is temporary, and the thing is with anxiety, and why it’s such a hard thing for people who don’t have it to understand, is that it is very random and it hits you at moments you don’t expect it. Sometimes it lasts two hours, sometimes it lasts a day and sometimes it lasts five minutes,” he said.

Sarah Hyland

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Back in December 2018, Sarah Hyland opened up about experiencing suicidal thoughts after her body rejected a kidney donated by her dad. The Modern Family star, who has had a slew of health problems her whole life, appeared on Ellen in early January 2019 and spoke about her depression.

“After 26, 27 years of just always being sick and being in chronic pain every single day—and [you] don’t know when you’re going to have the next good day—it’s really, really hard…” she said.

“I would write letters in my head to loved ones of why I did it, and my reasoning behind it, and how it wasn’t anybody’s fault,” the 28-year-old revealed, adding that she was “very, very, very close,” to taking her own life.

When asked how she overcame her suicidal thoughts and depression, Hyland said that she confided in a close friend (“I finally said it out loud to someone… just saying it out loud helped immensely, because I kept it to myself for months and months at a time.”) who urged her to see a therapist.

Ariana Grande

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In British Vogue’s July 2018 issue, Ariana Grande opened up on her experience with PTSD after the 2017 Manchester Arena bombing. “It’s hard to talk about because so many people have suffered such severe tremendous loss. But, yeah, it’s a real thing,” she said. “I don’t think I’ll ever know how to talk about it and not cry.”

In November 2018, the singer/songwriter dropped a single titled “thank u, next,” dedicated to all of her exes, including the late-Mac Miller (who died this past September of a drug overdose) and ex-fiancé Pete Davidson, which resulted in fans wondering who her therapist is. “Therapy has saved my life so many times,” Grande tweeted in response. “If you’re afraid to ask for help, don’t be.”

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In an Instagram story posted on April 11, Grande shared a side-by-side image of a healthy brain and a brain affected by PTSD. She also included an image of what is allegedly her brain, which appears to show incredibly high levels of PTSD. “Not a joke,” she captioned the story. In a follow-up story, Grande posted a selfie containing the captions “life is wild,” “she’s trying her muthafukin best,” and “my brain is tired.”

Prince Harry

The Duke of Sussex has spoken out extensively about his own mental health journey, and the trauma he suffered as a result of losing his mother, Princess Diana, at a young age. In an interview with Bryony Gordon for her podcast about mental health, Mad World, the royal said, “I can safely say that losing my mum at the age of 12, and therefore shutting down all of my emotions for the last 20 years, has had a quite serious effect on not only my personal life but my work as well.”

“I have probably been very close to a complete breakdown on numerous occasions when all sorts of grief and sort of lies and misconceptions and everything are coming to you from every angle,” he added.

After seeking out counselling and learning to open up about his struggles with friends and family, the royal co-founded Heads Together, a mental health awareness campaign, with Prince William and Kate Middleton in 2016. While on a recent trip to South Africa with Meghan Markle, the royal couple met with Waves For Change, an organization promoting mental wellbeing through surf therapy, and spoke out about the need to counter the stigma against mental illness in our society.

“I think most of the stigma is around mental illness [and] we need to separate the two… mental health, which is every single one of us, and mental illness, which could be every single one of us,” he said. “I think they need to be separated; the mental health element touches on so much of what we’re exposed to, these experiences that these kids and every single one of us have been through. Everyone has experienced trauma or likely to experience trauma at some point during their lives. We need to try, not [to] eradicate it, but to learn from previous generations so there’s not a perpetual cycle.”

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Day two of #SussexRoyalTour is underway, and The Duke and Duchess have joined young South Africans and @WavesForChange to focus on mental health and take part in ‘surf therapy’. • Hundreds of young people from Cape Town’s townships meet every week at Monwabisi beach to surf, but also share stories with mentors and talk through the daily challenges they face. Their Royal Highnesses were able to hear how the sessions are building trust, confidence, and belonging, and they also got to join in as children took part in ‘power hand’, which teaches them how to keep calm down reflect on strengths. While on the beach The Duke and Duchess met @TheLunchBoxFund – which was one of the charities they nominated to benefit from donations following the birth of their son, Archie. Almost 30,000 meals are provided by the charity every day across South Africa, including for three @WavesForChange projects. And before they left The Duke and Duchess joined the Commonwealth Litter Programme (CLiP) – which was teaching the surfers about the impact of plastic waste on the ocean. #RoyalVisitSouthAfrica • Photo ©️ photos EMPICS / PA images / SussexRoyal

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These Celebs Are De-Stigmatizing Mental Illness

Selena Gomez

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Camila Cabello

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#BGT here I cooooome !!!! gonna b singing #cryingintheclub woooop

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Cabello had already been open about her struggles with anxiety prior to the incident, however, telling Billboard that 2015 was a “low” for her, personally.

Zayn Malik

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Cara Delevingne

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Had the most incredible time at @finolhu_maldives this holiday. Thank you @gentlemonster for hooking me up with the shades 🕶 📸 by @james_suckling

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However, Cara stopped the meds at age 18, saying “I get depressed still but I would rather learn to figure it out myself rather then be dependant on meds, ever.”

Adele

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Auckland / Mt Smart Stadium / Mar 25

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Lady Gaga

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I felt like a princess in custom @tiffanyandco made just for me for the #GoldenGlobes 🤗 The Aurora necklace was named after the Aurora Borealis as an homage to #AStarIsBorn 🌟 #TiffanyAndCo

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But despite her hardships, the A Star is Born actress told William “the best thing that could come out of my mental illness was to share it with other people.”

“I feel like we are not hiding anymore, we’re starting to talk, and that’s what we need to do really,” she said.

Demi Lovato

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Jennifer Lawrence

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Emma Stone

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Chrissy Teigen

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My stoop buddy

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Troian Bellisario

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Thanks @coveteur I truly am a creepy eavesdropper. 😉 (📸 by @weston.wells )

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Gina Rodriguez

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Ariana Grande

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Shawn Mendes

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Je t’aime France ! 🇫🇷 x

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Said anxiety was chronicled in his single “In My Blood” (Lyrics: Help me, it’s like the walls are caving in, sometimes I feel like giving up, no medicine is strong enough, someone help me.)

Sarah Hyland

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Velvet dragon scaled 🧜‍♀️ dripping in 💎 for the #goldenglobes @instylemagazine #instylewbglobes

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Tyler’s Jury Statement & Answers

Hi guys!First off, congratulations final 3! You did what 17 others weren't able to do, regardless of whether or not people feel like some of you deserve to be here or not, you did it. And that's all that matters. So congrats! I'm gonna do my best to keep this short but I do have tendencies to ramble... So here we go!

I'll start with you, Ashley Sarah! Ashley, I did enjoy all the conversations and really all the time in the game we spent together, despite you voting me out in the end. I think you're a really cool girl and it was a pleasure getting to know you in this game. If I'm being honest tho, I'm still not exactly sure why else I would give you my vote tonight over those other 2 boys... So I would just like to ask you in your opinion, what makes you more deserving to be the winner of survivor Switzerland than the 2 boys next to you? Also just out of curiosity, where exactly did I stand in the grand spectrum of your game in Switzerland? Was I your #1? #2? Was I always disposable to you? Was I ever a solid alliance member to you? Etc. You get the idea 😄

Ian! You were pretty much my ride or die chick from day 1 and I'm so happy we got this opportunity to bond and play this game together! It was truly a pleasure and congrats on making it to the end once again! My question for you is if in your honest opinion, could you rank everyone who made merge in order from strongest player in the game to weakest player in the game. And maybe just once sentence per person as to why you put them there! Thanks Ian!

Hey Dom! Well I think you know you and I had an interesting run together in the game. I think you're a great kid and I'm glad I got to know more about you through this experience, although I wish I was able to know even MORE about you during the course of the game. Out of the 3 of you here, I'll admit I did find talking to you being the hardest bc I felt like I was almost always the first person to start the conversation as well as being the last person to send a reply back to you. Meaning the conversation would usually end with you not responding and then me having to message you the next day to start talking again. It was a little tiresome at times and to me it became very obvious to me that I was really not that important of a connection to you in the game. Bc if I was there would have been more communication going on. Honestly, usually nick would tell me what you were thinking even before you would haha. But that's okay bc you're allowed to play your cards however you want. It was just obvious to me what those cards were is all!...

So I have two questions for you Dom. The first is I'd like to know, what attributes do you think you have that you think I DON'T have that put you sitting in the F3 and me sitting over here on the jury.

The second is kind of a longer one that I'm just really curious about bc it dates back to before the game even started... So as we all know, this season started with 30 ppl on a ballot and only 20 of us made it in. So of course naturally for those 10 days I know there were people talking, strategizing, socializing, etc. I didn't really partake in that like I know a few others did. But I just wanna know, before this game started what did you or didn't you hear about me before the game began?? Bc there is someone in this community who's name I will NOT mention that had a lot to false/negative things say about me prior to this game. You know, people talk and word gets around. Like I know that this person was trying to get people against me prior to the game (specifically logan). And through that I figured you and Nick were connected to possibly carrying out that act in some way since I know the 3 of you are close. I mentioned this to Nick at ponderosa and he seemed to not know a lot. He did mention he thought that you didn't like me prior to the game bc of some things that were said... But yeah I guess I just really want your take on what you know about this whole situation bc I know lots of things were said. Like from what I know, I know logan was ecstatic to try to vote me out first just based on what things were told to her about me. So I wanna know if you were apart of that and how much of everything I'm mentioned so far is true or not... Sorry I know that was a lot but I just wanted some honest clarity here! Thank you so much and good luck!

Special thanks to Drew, Amanda, and Abbey for allowing me be apart of this experience and putting me on the ballot. I appreciated that consideration so much so thank you again for that and putting on a great season!Bye y'all! Until next time! ✌🏻______________________________________________________________

Ashley Sarah Tyler - that is a good question and the more jury questions I get the more I feel so good about myself. Yeah I may not have won comps or made bold moves but I survived. That's part of the game we are playing. I also didn't turn on people or bad mouth anyone which I think is just disrespectful. As soon as people get voted out that's when the tea gets spilled. Some of the jury is there for that very reason. Attitude is what has caused my vote to change based on a finalists sense of entitlement. No I'm not speaking of Ian or Dom!! I love them both!!! For me putting someone down doesn't lift you up. Sorry I'm rambling myself!!!!

As for you Tyler - I really expected you to be beside me. You spoke to Dom about the ballot strategies and such. During that time I was telling my friends to vote for a specific list of people. I knew that if Dom was in the season he would be my #1. We started on same tribe so I was elated! The first few days I got to know everyone and I found you and Ian. Both of you were so great to talk to!! I felt relaxed and natural to just be myself. I didn't worry about how you would use my words against me cause you felt the same way. You guys were pretty equal for my Dream team. When we were separated it was heartbreaking!!!! Luckily you managed to survive and we were reunited. Looking now I wish I had joined you in allying with Luke and jev etc. we could have grown closer instead of the small distance after merge. At the time I wasn't sure where your loyalties were even tho you rejoined the alliance because you questioned every vote. Please know I love you so much and you were my dream team. Next game we play we will be unstoppable!!! (inlove) Dom Hi Tyler! I don’t plan on getting your vote tonight but here goes. Before I start out this answer, I want to say that I don’t mean this in a mean way at all. This is strictly in the game, nothing personal outside of it. Anyways, this is a really good question.I think one major attribute I had in this game that you didn’t have a lot of is likability. Outside of this game, you’re super nice and really fun to talk to. But I think the likability in this game that I had was able to help me get to where I am right now. People would come to me telling me everything without me having to lift a finger. From this likability, I was able to make connections with people to get myself further in the game. An example of this could be the situation I had with Luke. We were on opposite sides of the game but I was able to turn that around and get Luke to be a number for me, rather than have him scheme against me and try to get me out. (Again, I don’t mean this as a personal attack. This is strictly game.) Okay so the second part of this. I remember when the ballot was released, I spoke to Nick, Luke, and Logan about it. I talked about it for like two seconds with them. Occasionally I spoke to Dom A. (Robbed) Anyways I didn’t really speak to many people. But I know exactly what you’re talking about. I think I know who you’re speaking about as well. I had heard things that made you seem like a villain. I heard that you were an ugly person. I’m glad you asked this question to clear it up. But, I’m not going to go into much more detail on a public platform. We can speak in PMS if you’d like. I just also want you to know that this didn’t affect my game at all. I came into this with an open mind and I was willing to talk to anyone without the stigma attached to them. I have since made changes in my life and I think you’re a wonderful person. Anything that I heard about you previously was taken out of my mind the minute we started talking. I hope this at least helps. If not, please don’t hesitate to message me so we can talk about it! Thanks!

Ian Hey Tyler!!

A little bit of disclaimer, I don’t mean to be condescending here!!

Power Rankings: 1st Tyler – Honestly you had the makings to win this game. You had the connections within the tribe to make yourself fully aware on what was happening.

2nd Brett – With an idol and not becoming a clear target at the start, Brett was set to be a power player.

3rd Zack – With an idol and as the supposed leader of the OG Matterhorn, he had the set up to be a dominating player.

4th Luke – I knew the moment he was cast that Luke was going to be a dangerous player in this game and indeed he was, with that special power of his.

5th Benjamin – He had just come back into the game, and he had the pick of the liter on which side to join.

6th Ashley Sarah – She was never a target and she kept in touch with the rest of the OG MR.

7th Nick – He had connections with some of the people on OG MH.

8th Abel – He was highly associated with the remaining OG MH and he was (surprisingly) active in the tribe chat which made people want to talk to him.

9th Dom – With his limited connections, he wasn’t in a power position at the start of the merge.

10th Jev – I’M SORRY! But it seemed to me that Jev was barely online so I felt like he was only able to do game related stuff in a short amount of time.

#ihopeiseeyounever

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Ariana Grande’s Brain Scan Reveals How Bad Her PTSD Really Is

Selena Gomez

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Camila Cabello

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#BGT here I cooooome !!!! gonna b singing #cryingintheclub woooop

A post shared by camila (@camila_cabello) on May 30, 2017 at 5:06am PDT

Cabello had already been open about her struggles with anxiety prior to the incident, however, telling Billboard that 2015 was a “low” for her, personally.

Zayn Malik

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Cara Delevingne

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Had the most incredible time at @finolhu_maldives this holiday. Thank you @gentlemonster for hooking me up with the shades 🕶 📸 by @james_suckling

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However, Cara stopped the meds at age 18, saying “I get depressed still but I would rather learn to figure it out myself rather then be dependant on meds, ever.”

Adele

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Auckland / Mt Smart Stadium / Mar 25

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Lady Gaga

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I felt like a princess in custom @tiffanyandco made just for me for the #GoldenGlobes 🤗 The Aurora necklace was named after the Aurora Borealis as an homage to #AStarIsBorn 🌟 #TiffanyAndCo

A post shared by Lady Gaga (@ladygaga) on Jan 8, 2019 at 10:29am PST

But despite her hardships, the A Star is Born actress told William “the best thing that could come out of my mental illness was to share it with other people.”

“I feel like we are not hiding anymore, we’re starting to talk, and that’s what we need to do really,” she said.

Demi Lovato

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Jennifer Lawrence

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Emma Stone

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Chrissy Teigen

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My stoop buddy

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Troian Bellisario

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Thanks @coveteur I truly am a creepy eavesdropper. 😉 (📸 by @weston.wells )

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Gina Rodriguez

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Shawn Mendes

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Je t’aime France ! 🇫🇷 x

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Said anxiety was chronicled in his single “In My Blood” (Lyrics: Help me, it’s like the walls are caving in, sometimes I feel like giving up, no medicine is strong enough, someone help me.)

Sarah Hyland

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Velvet dragon scaled 🧜‍♀️ dripping in 💎 for the #goldenglobes @instylemagazine #instylewbglobes

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Ariana Grande

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These Celebs Are De-Stigmatizing Mental Illness

Selena Gomez

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Camila Cabello

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#BGT here I cooooome !!!! gonna b singing #cryingintheclub woooop

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Cabello had already been open about her struggles with anxiety prior to the incident, however, telling Billboard that 2015 was a “low” for her, personally.

Zayn Malik

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Cara Delevingne

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Had the most incredible time at @finolhu_maldives this holiday. Thank you @gentlemonster for hooking me up with the shades 🕶 📸 by @james_suckling

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However, Cara stopped the meds at age 18, saying “I get depressed still but I would rather learn to figure it out myself rather then be dependant on meds, ever.”

Adele

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Auckland / Mt Smart Stadium / Mar 25

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Lady Gaga

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I felt like a princess in custom @tiffanyandco made just for me for the #GoldenGlobes 🤗 The Aurora necklace was named after the Aurora Borealis as an homage to #AStarIsBorn 🌟 #TiffanyAndCo

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But despite her hardships, the A Star is Born actress told William “the best thing that could come out of my mental illness was to share it with other people.”

“I feel like we are not hiding anymore, we’re starting to talk, and that’s what we need to do really,” she said.

Demi Lovato

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Jennifer Lawrence

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Emma Stone

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Chrissy Teigen

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My stoop buddy

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Troian Bellisario

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Thanks @coveteur I truly am a creepy eavesdropper. 😉 (📸 by @weston.wells )

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Gina Rodriguez

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Ariana Grande

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Shawn Mendes

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Je t’aime France ! 🇫🇷 x

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Said anxiety was chronicled in his single “In My Blood” (Lyrics: Help me, it’s like the walls are caving in, sometimes I feel like giving up, no medicine is strong enough, someone help me.)

Sarah Hyland

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Velvet dragon scaled 🧜‍♀️ dripping in 💎 for the #goldenglobes @instylemagazine #instylewbglobes

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These Celebs Are De-Stigmatizing Mental Illness

Selena Gomez

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In August 2016, Selena Gomez announced that she would be taking a break from her career to deal with anxiety, depression and panic attacks associated with lupus (an autoimmune condition from which she suffers). She made a return to the spotlight in November at the American Music Awards, where she delivered an emotional, heartfelt speech, briefly touching on her battle with mental health issues.

She revealed she spent 90 days in a mental health facility in Tennessee, surrendering her cell phone and taking part in various forms of therapy. And while Gomez is the most followed person on Instagram, she told Vogue she no longer has it on her phone, and an assistant has her password.

Camila Cabello

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#BGT here I cooooome !!!! gonna b singing #cryingintheclub woooop

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Cabello had already been open about her struggles with anxiety prior to the incident, however, telling Billboard that 2015 was a “low” for her, personally.

In March 2017, the Cuban-born star revealed to Latina magazine that she also deals with obsessive compulsive disorder. “It was just totally out of control,” Cabello told the magazine the magazine of her OCD. “I would wake up with a super-accelerated heartbeat and really negative, intrusive, compulsive thoughts. I was so inside my head, and I didn’t know what was happening.”

Zayn Malik

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Cara Delevingne

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The more we embrace who we are as people and rely less on our physical attributes, the more empowered we become. Beauty shouldn't be so easily defined. It is limitless.

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However, Cara stopped the meds at age 18, saying “I get depressed still but I would rather learn to figure it out myself rather then be dependant on meds, ever.”

Adele

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Auckland / Mt Smart Stadium / Mar 25

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Lady Gaga

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While Lady Gaga has been open about her struggles with depression and anxiety, it was only last year that she revealed she suffers from post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) after she was raped at age 19. “I suffer from PTSD, I’ve never told anyone that before,” she said on the Today show in December 2016. “But the kindness that’s been shown to me, by doctors as well as family and friends, has really saved my life.”

But despite her hardships, Mother Monster told William “the best thing that could come out of my mental illness was to share it with other people.”

“I feel like we are not hiding anymore, we’re starting to talk, and that’s what we need to do really,” she said.

Demi Lovato

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Jennifer Lawrence

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Emma Stone

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Chrissy Teigen

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Chrissy Teigen is never one to hold back, but she shocked fans when she penned an essay for Glamour on her struggle with postpartum depression. “I couldn’t figure out why I was so unhappy. I blamed it on being tired and possibly growing out of the role: ‘Maybe I’m just not a goofy person anymore. Maybe I’m just supposed to be a mom,'” she wrote, later adding “postpartum does not discriminate.”

Months later, Teigen finally saw her family doctor, where she got her diagnosis. She began taking antidepressants and is on the road to recovery. “I’m speaking up now because I want people to know it can happen to anybody and I don’t want people who have it to feel embarrassed or to feel alone. I also don’t want to pretend like I know everything about postpartum depression, because it can be different for everybody. But one thing I do know is that—for me—just merely being open about it helps.”

Troian Bellisario

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Now, Troian is sharing her story on her struggles with anorexia in her upcoming film Feed, which she wrote and directed. “It was not easy; it was like engaging with an addiction,” she told Interview magazine of revisiting her story, adding that working on the film was “like poking a sleeping dragon.” “One of the things I really wanted the film to explore was that once you have this relationship, once you have this mental illness or this disease, it never really goes away.”

And just like many others who suffer from mental illness, Bellisario says she feels like no one truly understands what she went through. “Still to this day, I couldn’t get anyone—even the people who loved me the most, even my boyfriend or my mother or my father—to understand what that experience was truly like for me,” she said. “It was about my eating disorder, and I found there were so many people who thought that it was about losing weight or being skinny, and I couldn’t quite get them to understand that it was about control on a very, very literal level.”

Gina Rodriguez

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My beautiful friend @antonsoggiu came to visit from Norway and he included me in his magical art. TEN SECOND PORTRAITS. It's always great to be in front of his lens but this time it was just me. Bare and exposed in the streets of la. No makeup. No styling. Just me. I suffer from anxiety. And watching this clip I could see how anxious I was but I empathize with myself. I wanted to protect her and tell her it's ok to be anxious, there is nothing different or strange about having anxiety and I will prevail. I like watching this video. It makes me uncomfortable but there is a freedom I feel maybe even an acceptance. This is me. Puro Gina.

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“After 26, 27 years of just always being sick and being in chronic pain every single day—and [you] don’t know when you’re going to have the next good day—it’s really really hard…” she said.

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Selena Gomez

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In August 2016, Selena Gomez announced that she would be taking a break from her career to deal with anxiety, depression and panic attacks associated with lupus (an autoimmune condition from which she suffers). She made a return to the spotlight in November at the American Music Awards, where she delivered an emotional, heartfelt speech, briefly touching on her battle with mental health issues.

Camila Cabello

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#BGT here I cooooome !!!! gonna b singing #cryingintheclub woooop

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Cabello had already been open about her struggles with anxiety prior to the incident, however, telling Billboard that 2015 was a “low” for her, personally.

In March 2017, the Cuban-born star revealed to Latina magazine that she also deals with obsessive compulsive disorder. “It was just totally out of control,” Cabello told the magazine the magazine of her OCD. “I would wake up with a super-accelerated heartbeat and really negative, intrusive, compulsive thoughts. I was so inside my head, and I didn’t know what was happening.”

Zayn Malik

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Cara Delevingne

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The more we embrace who we are as people and rely less on our physical attributes, the more empowered we become. Beauty shouldn't be so easily defined. It is limitless.

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However, Cara stopped the meds at age 18, saying “I get depressed still but I would rather learn to figure it out myself rather then be dependant on meds, ever.”

Adele

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Auckland / Mt Smart Stadium / Mar 25

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Lady Gaga

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But despite her hardships, Mother Monster told William “the best thing that could come out of my mental illness was to share it with other people.”

“I feel like we are not hiding anymore, we’re starting to talk, and that’s what we need to do really,” she said.

Demi Lovato

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Jennifer Lawrence

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Emma Stone

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Chrissy Teigen

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My stoop buddy

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Troian Bellisario

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Thanks @coveteur I truly am a creepy eavesdropper. 😉 (📸 by @weston.wells )

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Earlier this week, the singer/songwriter dropped a single titled “thank u, next,” dedicated to all of her exes, including the late-Mac Miller (who died this past September of a drug overdose) and ex-fiancé Pete Davidson, which resulted in fans wondering who her therapist is. “Therapy has saved my life so many times,” Grande tweeted in response. “If you’re afraid to ask for help, don’t be.”

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Selena Gomez

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In August 2016, Selena Gomez announced that she would be taking a break from her career to deal with anxiety, depression and panic attacks associated with lupus (an autoimmune condition from which she suffers). She made a return to the spotlight in November at the American Music Awards, where she delivered an emotional, heartfelt speech, briefly touching on her battle with mental health issues.

Camila Cabello

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#BGT here I cooooome !!!! gonna b singing #cryingintheclub woooop

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Cabello had already been open about her struggles with anxiety prior to the incident, however, telling Billboard that 2015 was a “low” for her, personally.

In March 2017, the Cuban-born star revealed to Latina magazine that she also deals with obsessive compulsive disorder. “It was just totally out of control,” Cabello told the magazine the magazine of her OCD. “I would wake up with a super-accelerated heartbeat and really negative, intrusive, compulsive thoughts. I was so inside my head, and I didn’t know what was happening.”

Zayn Malik

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Cara Delevingne

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However, Cara stopped the meds at age 18, saying “I get depressed still but I would rather learn to figure it out myself rather then be dependant on meds, ever.”

Adele

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Auckland / Mt Smart Stadium / Mar 25

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Lady Gaga

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But despite her hardships, Mother Monster told William “the best thing that could come out of my mental illness was to share it with other people.”

“I feel like we are not hiding anymore, we’re starting to talk, and that’s what we need to do really,” she said.

Demi Lovato

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Jennifer Lawrence

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Emma Stone

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Chrissy Teigen

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Troian Bellisario

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Thanks @coveteur I truly am a creepy eavesdropper. 😉 (📸 by @weston.wells )

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Gina Rodriguez

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These Celebs are De-Stigmatizing Mental Illness

Selena Gomez

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In August 2016, Selena Gomez announced that she would be taking a break from her career to deal with anxiety, depression and panic attacks associated with lupus (an autoimmune condition from which she suffers). She made a return to the spotlight in November at the American Music Awards, where she delivered an emotional, heartfelt speech, briefly touching on her battle with mental health issues.

Camila Cabello

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#BGT here I cooooome !!!! gonna b singing #cryingintheclub woooop

A post shared by camila (@camila_cabello) on May 30, 2017 at 5:06am PDT

Cabello had already been open about her struggles with anxiety prior to the incident, however, telling Billboard that 2015 was a “low” for her, personally.

In March 2017, the Cuban-born star revealed to Latina magazine that she also deals with obsessive compulsive disorder. “It was just totally out of control,” Cabello told the magazine the magazine of her OCD. “I would wake up with a super-accelerated heartbeat and really negative, intrusive, compulsive thoughts. I was so inside my head, and I didn’t know what was happening.”

Zayn Malik

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Cara Delevingne

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The more we embrace who we are as people and rely less on our physical attributes, the more empowered we become. Beauty shouldn't be so easily defined. It is limitless.

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However, Cara stopped the meds at age 18, saying “I get depressed still but I would rather learn to figure it out myself rather then be dependant on meds, ever.”

Adele

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Auckland / Mt Smart Stadium / Mar 25

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Lady Gaga

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🎉🎂

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But despite her hardships, Mother Monster told William “the best thing that could come out of my mental illness was to share it with other people.”

“I feel like we are not hiding anymore, we’re starting to talk, and that’s what we need to do really,” she said.

Demi Lovato

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Jennifer Lawrence

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Emma Stone

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Chrissy Teigen

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My stoop buddy

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Troian Bellisario

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Thanks @coveteur I truly am a creepy eavesdropper. 😉 (📸 by @weston.wells )

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