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huginsmemory · 4 months ago

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Where's that one Ford art post thats like I'm in the best years of my life clutching a hot pink thermos thingy with hot gurl juice when he's clearly not. cause damn . Yeah

#ive got it actually downloaded on my phone. so dont actually need it forwarded to me. but also #christ man what day. what a life. what am i doing man. im so exhausted. trying to figure out my masters. which like. UGH first pushed to #do things and then im like oh okay yeah makes sense ill do it and then suddenly people are like a YEAR LATER wait what do u actually want.#like. idk man i do enjoy what im doing and enjoying myself. but also fuck im tired. but also i would be excited to do further work on what #im doing. like. i get my aunt dying recently has suddenly all my other aunts reassesing their lives but its just like. yeah and now suddenly #youre reluctant about the shit youve pushed on me huh #and CHRIST the stress of figuring how the dynamics work since everythings changed up here and ive gotta move AGAIN #and the oma needing to be medivac'd out today like fuck man. and then i fucking went to craft night and started weavibg a basket #like. what the fuck man. and then finished two typesets.#ughhhhhh. and was like damn i needed to make those hours for work today but whatever i guess. tomorrow it is #me w my sad little micky of liquor and my laptop for typesetting and antique roadshow on in the background trying to relax #omas probably fine but CHRIST last i was in they were like shes fucking dying. okay wait shes a little better no one else is in can u #look after her. horribly stressful #yeah. sure. prime of my life. to stress out about everything.#hugin personal #had a breif moment sitting on my bed where everything dropped away and i was like damn what the fuck am i doing. what is going on.#how am i still moving. anyways. i think i need a vacation #its fine its just been a long few months and things keep piling up and im supposed to be making importnat life decisions and i feel like an #impaled beastie on a fork writhing around. AND im not home so i dont got my snuggly boy to cuddle. i just need some sleep i think #the prof i was thinking of supervising me seemed super nice... and talking to stydent this week also where nice and only had nice things #to say. idk man also been thinking this week about growing up and never having your work being acknowledged. its just why havent you not #done that. like. damn. dont think i can recall my dad every saying im proud of you. ughhh some ways good to be out of the house since dads #stressful af to be around and the parents still arent sure about maybe getting a divorce but its also awkward af dynamics here #the rents seem fine for the most part but yeesh. the fall was not good. also i miss my boyyyyyy #anyways. yeah classic NDN thing of your life being fucking run by your aunties somehow work wise #also being asked point blank what i want was like fuck man. what do i want. can u just leave me alone to do hobbies actually...#jk i do enjoy my job. i love research tbh. coordinating stuff less so but it do be a part of it #ok well. whoops rambles on here wayyy more then was expecting

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