#therapist certificates i swear like they are the best pieces of literature ever

[asakamasanobu]

i should honestly start paying some kind of therapist royalties to nakamura for all she has unwittingly done for my mental health omfg ….. i don’t think i could’ve made it through this week without her (and . and many similar weeks)

[fawncyfeline]

2017 in review

What did you do in 2017 that you’d never done before?

I took a plane by myself. I’ve been on one before but always with someone just following what they do. This year I did the entire thing by myself, got myself there, printed my ticket, went through security, boarded the plane. It was intimidating but validating.

Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I didn’t really make any concrete resolutions that I remember. I’m always in a state of “you should do better”. 

Did anyone close to you give birth? Nah.

Did anyone close to you die? No.

What countries did you visit? None this year. I went to Oregon though.

What would you like to have in 2018 that you lacked in 2017? For the love of god a car please god a car. A certificate in Web and Mobile Development. A new job. A doctor and maybe a therapist? My mental health could really use some work. A Cintiq? 

What dates from 2017 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? I’m hilariously bad at remembering dates. The only things that come to mind are April 1st which was when I uploaded TRNDSTTR ,  and November 6, which was my first day starting my technical course in web and mobile development. Oh yeah also july 24th when my sister and I got t-boned on our way back from our parents

What was your biggest achievement of the year? damn uh. See above? navigated airport and started technical college I guess.  

What was your biggest failure? I’ve really let my dental health go this year. I’ve always been kinda bad at brushing my teeth but this year its been wore than usual and I know I have a lot of work upcoming that I feel really shitty about. I know it’s going to cost a lot. 

Did you suffer illness or injury? tooth got infected and had to get a root canal. the temp cap they put on was too tight and caused a lot of pain for a while

What was the best thing you bought? My character Zephon was designed by and purchased from a good friend of mine and I love him a LOT. 

Whose behavior merited celebration? Might be kinda silly but the entirety of Polygon following what happened with Nick. I had just come from a fandom where the content creators handled an eerily kind of situation so poorly that the majority of the fans packed up and moved to other things. It was such a relief to see it handled how it was. 

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? The aforementioned youtuber, and Honestly??? The entire country. Everything’s been so unbelievably surreal and awful. 

Where did most of your money go? besides general living expenses, I’ve spent a lot on art commissions and I don’t regret it. Just look at this gorgeous piece

What did you get really, really, really excited about? Holy shit Ace Attorney. I finally played through the original trilogy and have worked my way up through dual destinies and I’m so in love. I didn’t expect to fall this hard but I have. 

What song will always remind you of 2017? SIAMÉS - "The Wolf" because of it’s beautiful video

Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder? (b) thinner or fatter? (c ) richer or poorer? same as it ever was, fatter, richer by a little

What do you wish you’d done more of? exercised and animated. 

What do you wish you’d done less of? nothing. As in I spent a lot of time dissociating on my bed doing nothing instead of getting shit done.

How did you spend Christmas? I stayed at my parents for the majority of the day hanging with my family. It was nice to spend time with them without worrying about when I needed to go to work.

Did you fall in love in 2017? Only with Ace Attorney. I don’t really have any romantic inclinations and I’m ok with that. 

What was your favorite TV program? I don’t really watch a lot of TV. Not even Netflix. Steven Universe is always great, and 

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? Hate is a strong word. there are people I dislike but it’s against a fundamental part of my personality to hate people. I’m too 

What was the best book you read? The only literature I’ve read was fanfiction. It’s kind of really sad. I have a lot of good books to read, but I always feel guilty and overwhelmed sitting down with a book. 

What was your greatest musical discovery? I’ve really enjoyed Mother Mother and their music this year, and I’ve reintroduced myself to U2 and Collective Soul, which were two bands i grew up on and bring a sense of home and nostalgia whenever I listen to them.  

What did you want and get? My aunt was super generous and gifted me the funds to purchase TV Paint, which is a hardy animation program

What did you want and not get? A car, but no surprise there. 

What was your favorite film of this year? There weren’t really a lot of movies I liked this year. Wonder Woman was nice

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I turned 20 this year. I didn’t have anything major planned, I went out of town with my mom and little sister and had a good time, and came back to a surprise party with my friends. 

What one thing made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Not being dependent on my parents. I technically moved out in 2016, but spending the entire year not dependent or beholden to them was a huge relief 

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2017? 1. Is it clean? Wear it. 

2. Overwatch. I own way to many varieties of Overwatch apparel and I always end up wearing at least one of them. 

What kept you sane? My friends, internet and IRL, my relatives who have been super supportive of me, music, and my cat Kuvira who I love more than anything in the world.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? I don’t really get celebrity crushes. I’m kind of aromantic. I really resonate with Travis McElroy though, for a lot of silly reasons. I’m a middle child too and I relate to a lot of aspects of his personality and feelings towards things and he’s just a really genuine and lovely person.  

Who did you miss? I’ve lost contact with a lot of old friends over time, and I’ve found myself really missing them this year. 

Who was the best new person you met? I became acquainted with Knyuo , who’s a brilliant artist and a super nice person 

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2017. 1. Be careful burning bridges, because once the deed is done you can never cross them again. No matter how angry you get, it’s worth it to be the civil one. 

2. Be confident. things aren’t as scary as they seem.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

Cut My Hair - Mounika

Often I am upset That i cannot fall in love But I guess This avoids the stress of falling out of it Are you tired of me yet? I'm a little sick right now but I swear When i'm ready I will fly us out of here

I won’t tag anyone because I don’t want to.