#theres nothing like this type of view;; musings

[bendickson]

tag dump

[royallyfuckedocs]

all the muse/ship relevant symbols for... jaxson...

Your wish is my command.

💋 – Is your muse a good kisser? Would they consider themselves one?

Well, he did porn for a long ass time, so I’m gonna say yes. And he’s VERY confident in his ability to smooch.

💍 – What style engagement ring would your muse like best? What is their ring size?

Jaxson is very simple in his style, he’d like a nice silver band, and idk about ring size, he’s got yaoi hands I guess LOL

👶 – What are your muse’s top three baby names for each gender?

(In a human AU he’s a big family man so I actually have a bunch of names saved that he would pick LOL)

Girl: Maria, Adrianna, Selena Boy: Lukas, Joao, Rey Neutral: Iara, Amor

💐 – What are your muse’s top three favorite flowers? What would they have in their wedding bouquet/boutonniere?

Sunflowers, marigolds, and blue bells because they remind him of Chim

🎄 – What does your muse think is the most romantic holiday?

Quads day of course! Nothing is more romantic than making big gestures for his quads!

🍰 – What do your muse’s kisses normally taste like?

Honey and white tea

🍓 – Does your muse find any foods particularly sexy or romantic? Do they have any known aphrodisiacs that get them in the mood? Are they into food-play?

He... Is not into food play. He doesn’t think food is sexy tbqh. The hard part about working in the porn industry is a lot of the MAGIC of certain things lose their luster pretty fast when you’re taking a third take of getting chocolate poured down you chest, the first time the chocolate being heated up for the drama but it was too hot and burned his nipple. So. He doesn’t like food play. LMAO.

🍵 – Is your muse a gossip? Do they like to meddle in other people’s relationship business? Do they like to play matchmaker? Would they let someone match-make for them?

Jaxson loves gossip, him and his moirail are terrible gossips who used to whisper back and forth between shots and during makeup. But he’s not a meddler and wouldn’t ever want someone to meddle in his affairs, so match makers are big no.

🍭 – What are some thoughtful gift ideas to get your muse?

Make something for him. Give him little trinkets, hand made clay cups, sculpted cats, anything. He loves arts and crafts gifts. To him, store bought is a cowards gift.

🍷 – Describe an ideal date for your muse.

Ideal date is taking Chim to a carnival on the pier, winning them gifts, carrying them on his shoulder so people don’t touch them in the crowds. Sitting in the ferris wheel with them in his lap, listening to them purr softly and eat cotton candy. Having them squeeze his arm so tight when they ride a roller coaster. Holding their hand when walking through one of those dumb “horror houses”. Laughing with them while they both lay on the beach near the pier, leaning over to kiss them and whisper how much he loves them. 

🎱 – Does your muse believe in serendipity or fate, when it comes to relationships and love? Do they have good or bad luck in relationships? What have they done to try to turn bad luck around?

Jaxson has great luck with relationships, mind you, some of them were a little rough to get there, but he’s been with his quads now for over two sweeps and theres no signs of the love train stopping any time soon. Also he doesn’t believe in fate. He worked his ASS off to get Chim into a quad, fate didn’t help AT ALL.

🏩 – How long does your muse usually wait before having sex with their partner? What is their view on sex and intimacy?

He is not a waiter. He thinks sex is fun, and intimate, and a great way to show you love. It’s also VERY fun to do. 

⛪ – What are your muse’s thoughts on marriage? How long would they wait before marrying a partner? Do they want a big wedding, or something smaller? Who would be their best man/maid-of-honor?

In a human AU, you have to fight him to NOT get married. He has a large family so a big wedding is REQUIRED. And Soonmi is either marrying him, OR his best woman.

💌 – Is your muse the type to write love letters? What about accepting them?

Oh 100%. He leaves them on the fridge when he has to go into town and Chim is left alone for long periods of time. Reminders of love and affirmation are really nice! So he likes giving and receiving. 

✂ – How does your muse handle a break-up? Have they ever been dumped before? How do they break-up with a partner?

He handled all his break ups really well! He’s not a malicious person so he actually ends up still being fairly close to his exes! Heart break is hard, but keeping a friend is important and he’d work to keep that person in his life.

❤ – How affectionate is your muse? How do they feel about PDA?

Jaxson is made of affection, public or private. He’s dipped Soonmi in the middle of work dramatically to kiss her and remind her she loved and adored. Fuck the public! He’s in love!

💔 – How do you feel about writing love triangles? What about unrequited love?

I hate love triangles. I’ve lived with to many YA novel love triangles to put up w that shit in my content. It’s boring. And someone always ends up sad. Unrequited love however, I do a lot of those. I LOVE one sided pining.

🏳️‍🌈 – Does your muse have a gender preference for shipping partners? What is their orientation?

Jaxson is pan with a femme preference! Masc are fine! But... Wow... Soft femmes with gentle eyes, soft lips... skirts he can slide his hands under... Woaw...

[artificialqueens]

The Ballerina and the B-girl Part 6 (Branjie)

a/n: another chapter for you guys to make up for my brief hiatus. As said in the notes for chapter 5, one or two more chronological chapters and then this fic will become one shots so let me know if theres anything in particular you want from this lesbian Branjie AU. As always, thanks for reading!

To say that Vanessa was nervous would be the understatement of the fucking century. In her eyes this was her big chance to show Brooke what she had to bring to the table, why she should want her as more than just someone to fuck. Tonight she was taking the beautiful blonde ballerina on a date, like a legit sit-down-and-eat-dinner date. And she was internally freaking the fuck out.

Akeria and Silky had been hyping her up all afternoon since they had gotten home from work, which Vanjie was grateful for. She had the greatest best friends in the world, and she couldn’t wait for Brooklyn to meet them. Just had to properly secure the girl first.

It was as she entered the building that Brooke had told her to meet her in, that her built up confidence that her friends had helped solidify began to falter. Much like Brooke’s apartment it was huge, open and fancy. The entire building seemed to be owned by ‘Biomics’, the company Brooke worked for, and B had provided her with the keypad numbers to reach the top floor where the blonde’s office was situated. As the elevator doors opened, Vanessa took a deep breath and walked towards the polished reception desk that greeted her.

Behind the desk typing rapidly on a keyboard was an incredibly pretty asian girl, lithe and dressed in a beautiful expensive-looking blouse that Vanjie was immediately jealous of. The young woman glanced towards Vanessa, raising a perfectly shaped eyebrow, before returning her attention to the screen. Vanjie immediately felt self conscious about what she was wearing, fiddling with the gold fringe detailing of her dress. It was the fanciest thing she owned and putting it on she’d thought that she looked classy as hell, but under the gaze of this poised secretary she felt cheap and like she didn’t belong. Uncharacteristically she didn’t say a word, consequently the secretary looking at her once more and asking in an airy voice, however her wording blunt.

“Ma’am, can I help you find anything? You look lost.”

Vanessa took in a sharp breath, the woman confirming that her insecurity and discomfort in the fancy building was as clear as day. It took every once of confidence she held to not answer in a shaky voice.

“Uh yeah actually. I’m looking for Brooklyn Hytes, am I in the right place?”

The secretary looked at Vanjie with a look of poorly hidden shock, and looked her up and down one more time before consulting her computer.

“Ms Hytes doesn’t have an appointment booked for this time I’m sorry” she said bluntly, eyeing Vanjie suspiciously.

“I don’t actually have an appointment…”

The secretary just blinked at her, cocking her head in confusion before replying slowly perhaps to insure Vanessa understood what she was saying.

“Are you telling me you have come to see the CEO of Biomics Engineering without an appointment?” she words struck Vanjie like a lightning bolt.

“CEO?!” she breathed, not really for the secretary but for herself to vent this new information in disbelief.

The secretary looked at her as if she were crazy, and gestured to the door situated just to the right and behind her desk, “Yes, says so on the door”

Sure as hell, there it was on the door to the office: Brooklyn Hytes, CEO

Vanjie didn’t know what to say. This situation had just gotten so much worse. Not only was Brooklyn some fancy engineer, she was the CEO of the fancy engineering company. That was a whole other level of out-of-Vanjie’s-league. Even in her emotional panic, Vanessa couldn’t help the rush of heat that shot straight to her core at the thought of how much power the blonde must have. Before she could say anything else to make herself look even more stupid, the offending door flung open and out walked Brooke.

Vanessa’s breath caught in her throat at the view in front of her. The blonde was clad in a stunning catsuit, with a strong bitchy shoulder and a flair of pure class. She looked every bit the part of a powerful woman CEO, and Vanjie was practically dripping and drooling. Brooke’s face lit up when she layed eyes on Vanessa, opening her door open and inviting her in with a demanding and professional demeanour.

“Thank you Plastique, I can take her from here. Vanessa, please come in”

Brooklyn waited until Vanjie was inside her office and the door was locked before she stalked towards her like a predator out to get its prey. She backed Vanjie up so that she was trapped between the large desk and Brooke’s body, the brunette breathing heavily. B ran her hands from Vanjie’s shoulder blades, down over the fringe of her dress to lift her ass up with those strong arms and onto the desk. This put them at a more respectable height difference. Brooke lightly grasped V’s jaw, bringing their lips almost together, before uttering, “I missed you baby”, those blue green eyes boring deep into Vanjie’s. Not being able to help herself, Vanjie surged up to meet their lips. She fought back a guttural moan as Brooklyn worked her tongue into her mouth. Both of Vanjie’s hands were around the blonde’s neck, and Brooke had positioned her hands on Vanessa’s thighs, inching ever closer to where Vanjie was dripping with need. With a teasing soft bite of V’s lip, Brooke broke the kiss. She gaged V’s reaction as she slipped her hands underneath the fabric of her dress, pulling it up so that her soaked white lace panties were exposed. Vanjie threw her head back and fought back a whine as B brushed her fingers over her slit, and resting over her clit, tracing soft circles through the fabric.

“I was going to make you wait until after our date baby,” Brooke mused, moving her long fingers underneath the lace to tease at Vanjie’s entrance, “but you look so beautiful that I just couldn’t help myself. Is this what you want Vanessa, do you want Mami to fuck you over my desk?”

The breathy “please” and moan that followed were so loud that Vanjie looked at Brooke with concern that someone might hear them. Brooke gave her a god damn filthy smirk as she began to fuck Vanjie with two fingers, palm brushing the brunette’s clit.

“Make all the noise you want baby girl, these walls are fully soundproof. Nobody’s going to hear you being a good girl for Mami in her office”

The pure skill that Brooklyn had with her fingers was a work of art, Vanjie felt herself toppling over the edge into bliss within no time with a deep moan, B nipping at her neck and coaxing her through the orgasm whispering sweet nothings in her ear. When she was done, Brooke withdrew her fingers and sucked them into her mouth, moaning at the taste of Vanessa on her tongue. Vanessa just stared at her, eyes wide with lust and satisfaction.

“Oh baby girl I want to eat you up so badly, but I do think we should go get some dinner now, I can have my dessert later” Brooke lifted V off the desk and helped her pull the dress back down.

“I was completely serious,” she mused, hands on Vanjie’s hips and playing with the fringe, “you look absolutely gorgeous”.

“You don’t think its a bit, you know, cheap? Brooke…you didn’t tell me you were a freaking CEO?! I couldn’t even dream of affording the standard of clothes you wear” Vanjie stated, a worried look in her eyes as they stayed glued to the floor. She felt her chin being lifted and she was forced to look Brooke in the eye.

“Vanessa, I didn’t tell you my job title because you didn’t ask. And frankly, I don’t particularly think it matters. I’m going on a date with you tonight because I like you, all aspects of you. And I like that you liked me before you knew about all this” Brooke replied with a slight sadness in her tone. Vanessa realised that Brooke must have had plenty of female attention as a result of being a rich boss lady, probably partially explained why she had never had a girlfriend before. Vanessa cupped Brooke’s face in her hands and gave her a chaste kiss.

“I was into you the moment I saw you at the dance studio Brooklyn. And I’ve been so nervous about this date because you’re the most incredible person I’ve ever met, and I’m terrified that I’ll fuck this up” Brooke smiled at that.

“Well things remain to be seen,” she giggled playfully and grabbed her bag from the side of the desk, “you better take me out”.

Vanjie wasted no time, leading Brooke out of her office. The blonde wrapped an arm around her waist, before saying a curt goodbye to her secretary, the young girl seemingly in awe at seeing her boss possessively holding Vanjie. This didn’t bother Vanessa, as long as the girl knew B was off limits. The two took the elevator down to the carpark and once again hopped into the blonde’s car.

“Where to?” Brooke asked micheviously, and Vanjie beamed. This was going to be one hell of a night.

Tags: #branjie #brooke lynn hytes #vanessa vanjie mateo #lesbian au

[chottoghetto]

http://www.quoteunquoterecords.com/qur091.htm

Monstro is here! Enjoy, this very long track!!!

If I could take you to white snow and waves blue In the same day you two, I bet you’ll move here soon

When you see me next  everything will be different It will all be taken care of

As for when I will see you I doubt it will be soon In LA my value is not what I’m used to

In LA you’ll find what drives you While walking on stars with no shoes The lights will be bright and burn you While walking on stars with no shoes

Walk is God God Is Like

From a view outside you can look into my eyes This isn’t my purpose it’s only part time So give me your ticket, be back with a smile To give back your auto that makes life worthwhile Five bucks as a tip as you say “Son”

Downtown in a state of confusion Screaming and I don’t know why Lost it all with reckless delusion Singing screaming don’t now why I am so lost and…

Walk is God God Is Like

Sorry sir don’t mind me and my optimistic stride But I am going to ignite in a matter of time When I burn bright enough for the people to see You’ll remember the day you we’re talking to me Five bucks as a tip as you say “Son”

Downtown in a state of confusion Screaming and I don’t know why Lost it all with reckless delusion Singing screaming don’t now why I am so lost and…

Walk is God God Is Like

What the preacher he said to me He said “don’ believe everything you see.” What the the preacher said to me he said “Son you need, never not run”

Walk is God God Is Like

I often wonder the exact moment I gave up hope for normalcy There’s something about settling that just never settled with me I’m not a puppet And if I settle when I feel my full potential has not been achieved Should I stifle my ambition just to do the normal thing? A living puppet From time to time I realize my reality is a fleeting dream Unraveling right at the seams

If I were a real boy the kids would not all laugh at me If I were a real boyvI swear to God she’d notice me If I were a real boy

Write it down in case you don’t remember the feeling that you have now

From time to time I realize my reality is just a fleeting dream Unraveling right at the seams

If I were a real boy the kids would not all laugh at me If I were a real boy then things would work out perfectly

In LA you’ll find what drives you While walking on stars with no shoes The lights will be bright and burn you While walking on stars with no shoes

It’s real hard to sleep as the neighbor creep keeps on vomiting At least there’s some peace from domestic violence Run for your life dear, one day he will hurt you

It’s real hard to sleep when the ghetto bird’s outside hovering With the siren screech coming near I realize Theres shit going down right outside my window

It’s real hard to sleep with this fucking searchlight blinding me I’m raiding the cabinets for booze and dish rags I think that this this calls for a molotov cocktail

As I insert the cloth into the bottle a noise inside Adrenaline races until I realize it’s just a fucking group text

She walks up to me She says “Taia’s my name, I’m happy you came Just take a look around, this night club is the best in town Your drink’s compliments of the bar”

We locked our eyes, she came to me She raised her glass up for a toast

I’ll show you what I know: you’re a handful to me I’m reclusive and depraved Open your head

As I’m rambling on it is clear to me she’s the muse I need Taia know that I achieve the goals I set in front of me  (and she said) “Will you follow me into the dark?”

We locked our eyes, she came to me She raised her glass up for a toast

I’ll show you what I know: you’re a handful to me I’m reclusive and depraved Open your head

Snuck into this bar never thought this could happen to me People stare I don’t care what they’re thinking of me Bartender leans into me and he asks what I do

He says “Kid do not get tongue tied, just lie so you can survive These people have the power. So green I saw you coming Just listen to me and I’ll introduce you to the people you should meet This owner owns the city He has the the jobs that’ll give you keys to this whole city Don’t get tongue tied don’t get tongue tied don’t get tongue tied great!”

Oh yea that’s sounding special to me, no I won’t get tongue tied Pour another bottle for me That’s him sitting there holy shit is he staring at me Waves me down “Have a seat, whats the action you seek?” Anything for my dreams I’m the next rising star!

He says “Kid do not get tongue tied, just lie so you can survive These people have the power. So green I saw you coming Just listen to me and I’ll introduce you to the people you should meet This owner owns the city He has the the jobs that’ll give you keys to this whole city Don’t get tongue tied don’t get tongue tied don’t get tongue tied great!”

Break then take

My friends it’s the people you meet and it’s the truth that you seek Well here’s a chip off the block, sell bricks on the block for me

Finally got my footing here, LA is mine this year Who says that social climbing’s wrong I’m drinking with the best of them A job that puts me in this city’s richest social club

To those who called me lazy and those who say I’m crazy You’re stuck back home with nothing I’m climbing up the ladder

And I feel okay drinking my whisky Living my way day after day

To those who called me lazy and those who say I’m crazy You’re stuck back home with nothing I’m climbing up the ladder

And I feel okay drinking my whisky Living my way day after day

Well I’ll live my own life and you live yours Well I’ll live my own life and fuck it You can judge me all you want

And I feel okay

Looks like we found a useful dupe again Time to snatch and grab as much as you can hold

“This is a job that has multiple thrills Collect the money and dispense the pills You’ll work with celebrities of the screen They’re gonna love you, you’ll have what they need

So listen up, protect the stash And keep the money away from these cats And if you’re busted there’s bail no doubt Just keep it secret so they don’t figure it out”

You’re wearing a brilliant disguise But telling me nothing but lies

“You’re looking nervous, do you need to chill Have you ever tried our magic pills Just pop this oxy and see how it feels It’s just a taste so you know that we’re real

Don’t fuck this up, don’t lose my stash It’s not a practice when you’re on the block Just remember who you work for today I can destroy you in so many ways”

You’re wearing a brilliant disguise But telling me nothing but lies You’re telling me lies

Do you hear the things, do you hear the things they say to me?

The strip is calling, your mind is melting Lets take this party to another level

Now on the strip I’m dodging these freaks Destroy them

Lost on this street I’m running from heat Control me

Why am I even here?

Another round for your weakness Another round for my flaws I can’t explain I can’t figure out how the hell I wound up on the floor

What were you thinking, have you lost your mind Keep it together, he almost died

Now on the strip I’m dodging these freaks Destroy them

Lost on this street I’m running from heat Control me

Why am I even here?

Another round for your weakness Another round for my flaws I can’t explain I can’t figure out how the hell I wound up on the floor

Man oh man, beat down after beat down Port here ready to pop the hatchet and give myself the heave-ho Man just to be back in my Pedro town and filling my in-door with Pedro chow It’s looking  pretty bleak out here but I gotta keep on pushing keep on pushing through the bleakness Try to keep on pushing I mean if you’re into this I mean really into this you damn be ready for some hills and valleys But lot’s of pushing keep on pushing gotta keep on pushing

If you chop another one I’m game for that type of fun We can discuss the details of our schemes over drinks

I got a real good feeling man and this kid gig gives me a plan I’ll sell,  I’ll save, maybe buy my own place But for now you’re right, let’s rage Drinks on you? What’s that you say? Hold up just wait something feels strange

These straps are too tight I need you to page my mind

Now last call it’s getting late, these drinks take the edge away Tell me what did you add to the product this time anyway

Never mind, it leveled out If you drive I’m down for the after party Yo, I’d slow down your speed or the pig back there could take us away

Fucking shit! You see his lights? Pull over at the stop sign When you slow down I’m taking off that way

Another squad car on the right, feels like wings will aid my flight Fuck off, you pig, I’ll be alright

These straps are too tight I need you to page my mind

They say that you will not make it this time, what do they know The X-Rays and testing could not even show cancer that grows You beat this thing once before years ago but it’s different this time Even the strongest need support and love sometimes

I know that you’re tired, I know that it’s all overwhelming But if and when you’re weak just reach out to me I swear to you Dad I’ll be strong for the both of us

And when you feel tired take comfort in loved ones around you You taught us the best, we know how this ends I swear to you will be strong enough to carry on

Whenever you need me just reach for me, reach for the phone I’m sorry right now I can’t make it home, believe me I know You don’t need one more face in the crowd watching you sleep But I’ll be there when I can, until then

I know that you’re tired, I know that it’s all overwhelming But if and when you’re weak just reach out to me I swear to you Dad I’ll be strong for the both of us

And when you feel tired take comfort in loved ones around you You taught us the best, we know how this ends I swear to you will be strong enough to carry on

Gotta get home and let Mom and Dad know I am fine Above all, hope you’ll recognize me

First turn them to lifelong brand consumers Warring tribes of celebrity worshippers Oblivious parrots opposed to self-interest We got the poor dipshits against the Estate Tax

Minimum wage is around the poverty line As we eliminate workers with automatons Can they truly comprehend the reality That we sold out our species?

NO!  YOU’RE LOST GET BACK ON BRAND!

Our politicians propped by corporate media Sell our brand you useful vultures

YES! YOU’VE GOT IT NOW!

Organized labor membership’s low as hell Consolidate, automate and the rats will drown Let the mob choose between insurance premiums and TVs Bet you can guess what that will do to life expectancies

OH YEAH! THAT’S THAT SHIT I LOVE!

Now’s the time for greed with no oversight Cuz our cronies bankroll committees

Profit margins can always Increase so Fuck the Earth Embrace dollar signs, deregulate everything!

One thing left to do when you realize we’re all screwed We’ve poisoned the world Take what’s left until it’s only us against the hordes Starving in the streets Reach down deep inside for the strength to look away At those sleeping in the streets (Get your) M——O—N——E—Y Make sure to thank them for their time

Time to snatch and grab as much as you can hold

“I moved on her like a bitch” - President Donald J. Trump

Do you hear the things they say to me Oh yeah, oh no, are you gonna be in my nightmares

Why can’t I be a little closer to emergency Why can’t I be so close so close you can’t see

If I could say all the right things and you want to hear them Would you like that

You got the vice, I got the supply We’re kids on a playground tonight

Make sure you don’t forget to tie off And that you try it out with somebody Now if you end up feeling too low The other bag contains the remedy

This here supply, it fuels me To work the night and day shift

Make sure you don’t forget to tie off And that you try it out with somebody Now if you end up feeling too low The other bag contains the remedy

When you’re stuck in place while the world’s turning Jettisoning worries might be your sole means to survive The truth is you have never sunken lower Questioning why it’s so fucking hard to get a cosign Sometimes it’s not a question of cutting losses But pressing pause on all the burdens to mental welfare I truly hope one day to reassemble At least a semblance of the past that I once shattered there Above all, hope you’ll recognize me

How can this be? My supply’s but depleted Yet I’ve made nothing, the sun’s rising And when he sees my hands and pockets are empty That’s it for me, might as well burn the rest

First we shoot and then we snort and then we’re fine Night becomes the day becomes the night Gotta get home and let Mom know I am fine Gotta get back on top of my life

Wide awake I’ll take this hit then set my life straight, I’ll never pay them This last time is all I need to get my head clear I’m not their puppet Fuck this Right Now I want to feel safe and warm I need to be back home with my family

First we shoot and then we snort and then we’re fine Night becomes the day becomes the night Gotta get home and let Mom know I am fine Gotta get back on top of my life

‘Scuse me sir do you have any change to spare? My car broke down and I need bus fare And if you party I am sure that I can find Some more good shit, yeah that really fine Ran out myself, and had one last hit to blast off Peripheral vision flies and moths Blinking and twinkling in and out of it all Blink until all the flies go away

Clip your wings before you start to fly Never get high on your own supply Foolish mortals with a word to the wise Never did I think it would mean my demise Surprise I’m fine, I’m the sunshine in a room full of dudes that are unkind Tryin to unwind, have a few laughs but this dude right here is a jackass Hashtag lightweight couldn’t keep his high straight Killing my vibes stay the fuck outta my face I’m straight I can hold mine no chase, but these fools run around like the dope’s laced I’m great I can hold my own, there’s levels to this shit man I’m in my zone What you tripping on? What you sipping on? Hold my hand goddamn man this shit is strong

These straps are too tight I need you to page my mind What you sipping on What you tripping on Damn this shit is strong

Top speed had to exit stage left Them weirdos haven’t mastered the wave yet If I stay with them then I’m a train wreck But when I’m all by myself I’m a safe bet Step by step as the flames get high, tryin to make my escape from the lake and the fire Had a strange feeling that it couldn’t get worse so I jumped off the top and I dove head first

Please know that if you’re tied to the anchor Securely as it’s descending the depths I honestly hope you’ll be inviting I sincerely wish you’d go down with me

On a future date explorers will find Our fossilized bones mixed on the sea floor Next time let’s promise to meet in between Promise to meet me somewhere in between?

We are opposites Wake another day to life so hollow Take another pill that won’t stay down It reminds you of the day you realized your heroes were mortal Wake to see the sun before it goes down

I saw you as you fell back down to Earth Caught a glimpse as I rocketed away Next time let’s promise to meet in between Promise to meet me somewhere in between?

As we explode into a blinding white Lightning inside the upper troposphere I honestly hope you’ll be inviting I sincerely wish you’d go down with me

We are opposites Wake another day to life so hollow Take another pill that won’t stay down It reminds you of the day you realized your heroes were mortal Wake to see the sun before it goes down

At the foot of my bed you kept caring watch of me all night With your eyes, you are now part of my life We’re chosen by fate and love has cast it’s spell over our minds And it’s divine, we need no one else tonight

All we need is right here Every day I can see your eyes light up with love All we need is right here

We could move on from here Have a two story home in the hills with a white picket fence We could move on from here

We’re structurally compromised but we’ll use paint And our love to cover up our defects I’ll take us from here and move us to a place Where there’s less noise, and no beeps, this traffic can be a nightmare

All we need is right here Every day I can see your eyes light up with love All we need is right here

We could move on from here Have a two story home in the hills with a white picket fence We could move on from here

Close my eyes and all I see is you Christina

Takes but a moment to lose the ones close to you, now you’re gone And looking up now I see I’ve lost you, myself, everything

I know that you’re tired I never came home to visit you I know that you’re tired You’re gone and this hole in my heart is for you

Self-medicating mess, I drop to the floor you are gone A map materializes to guide when I am missing you

Tired, alone and waiting for Someone help me understand this I’d like to be back home

Tired, alone and waiting for Can you help me understand this Now nothing feels like home

I know that you’re tired I never came home to visit you I know that you’re tired You’re gone and this hole in my heart is for you

I could never ever forget you You taught me how to see you taught me how to hear You reinforced the my strength talked me through my fears

I often wonder the exact moment I gave up hope for normalcy There’s something about settling that just never settled with me I’m not a puppet And if I settle when I feel my full potential has not been achieved Should I stifle my ambition just to do the normal thing

From time to time I realize my reality is a fleeting dream Unraveling right at the seams Unraveling right at the seams

If I were a real boy the kids would not all laugh at me If I were a real boy then things would work out perfectly But I’m not that real boy you read about in the papers Another charming imposter you think you knew And so I’ll sneak out the back door and I will run through the alley Another selfish decision made without you If I were a real boy Things would’ve worked out perfect If I were a real boy If I were a real boy

You want one more Where you’ll go You won’t wanna know

Tell me what I’ve done I need to know I’ve blocked out memories of vice filled nights and aggression Yeah, reflection has it’s price I’ve burnt the ones whom I love Cut all ties from my addictions, a dark soul,my own It grabs and possesses me

I want to find another I want to find another

Now my families gone I’m on my own This nightmare has no end, I must attempt to gain control I’ve paid a mighty price, a lost opportunity With this loss its sobering me, a dark soul, my own It grabs and it consumes me

I want to find another I want to find another

You want one more Where you’ll go You won’t wanna know

I want to find another I want to take another Oh God I am a monster

You want you want one more Where you’ll go You won’t wanna know (wanna know)

If you come out here to Los Angeles We’ll watch the Pacific eat the sun I’ll show you I’m really not a monster Give me a chance to prove you wrong

FIN

[bendickson]

Benedict Masters Moodboard ― 001/?

“Work harder than anyone you’ve ever seen.                                                     That’s what I believe   .”

[bendickson]

Benedict Masters Aesthetic ― 001/?

“Work hard in silence.                                           Let your success                   be your noise   .”