#thethirdperson

[mualanh1007]

"Nhiều khi em rất muốn đến bên một ai để nói rằng anh ấy đang lừa dối. Nhiều khi em rất muốn đến bên một ai để khóc che đi sự yếu đuối" #ngoc #lovedyou #sadlove #iwillforgetyou #soon #iwannacry #thethirdperson #lasttime

[sonypicturesuk]

#TheThirdPerson is the incredible tale of intertwined lives, from the Director who brought you Crash. At Cinemas Today!!

[a2829-blog]

One of the best Moby releases. Worth listening to it where u may find an hipnotic catchy dance melody, by the hand of a nice vocal duo. Highly recommended.

[kmercs]

and I quote...

Yeah, and there’s no true value placed in learning, if the point of you learning something is to simply know it for a test, to get a grade, to go to the good school . . . It was all too indirect.

Also, I sensed a feeling of perceived betrayal, the feeling that they thought I was superior.  It wasn’t true, but that feeling of resentment can make you feel far more alone because you’re surrounded by people who you can’t quite connect with because they perceive you to be ‘other.

I feel like a sickness and dystrophy is growing in people, like people are getting sicker, something about our society, something about our psychological structures. We’re not whole.

[sonypicturesuk]

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Witness the incredible chemistry between Olivia Wilde & Liam Neeson -#TheThirdPerson is At Cinemas Friday

[sonypicturesuk]

From the Director of Crash & Million Dollar Baby comes #TheThirdPerson - At Cinemas November 14

[kmercs]

ROLEPLAY Oldschool

so.... I then remembered.

When I was younger, I used to be in this Roleplaying website about Harry Potter.

It was in a Forum kind of setting and it was lots of fun.

You create your character, have avatars and converse with other roleplayers through long narratives and such.

I miss that shit.

I was wondering if anyone was in it too back then? 

I remembered roleplaying site, it was called "Magical Horizons?"

Anyone?

[kmercs]

BAAA BAAA BAAAAAACCCKKKKK

Overhauled.

New theme.

New name.

New cursor.

New Scroll to Top button.

New 'Reblogs.'

Hey... am back :) and its wonderful.

If you're not so busy, can you like check it out? 

Cheers!

[kmercs]

the Comeback!

am not sure if I am definitely and purely gonna be back- and do this thing- my Tumblr thing; cause, its been a while and a lot has changed. (Stalking tagged posts are easier, thanks to the tracking thing) I saw a lot of One Direction posts too... I have nothing against them, I'm just indifferent to this pop mania that are Boy Bands and Kpop Artists. 

not to mention that I'm struggling with all this 'existential' questions I have in my head right now... Like- what do I really want to happen with this account? When in actuality, I just ♥ stuff and reblog some more of these good shits I see in my Dash. I'd really like it if I made it more personal... 'cause I go check out other people's tumblr and go- "WOW. They really got their shit together- the posts, the gifs, the theme, everything." 

and not to mention, College just started again and thank god my schedule is quite nice, got lots of free time on my hand to do other stuff- this kind of stuff.

So let's just wait and see :)

but it sure is good to be back.

[kmercs]

not yet done with my text post regarding my 'First Day back to School'

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will totally try to finish it within the weekend.

Toodles for now.

[kmercs]

Loss and Disappointments

You win some... You loose some.

and Today- I LOST MY FONE.

I was supposed to finish my entry for my First Day of School for the Second Sem and put it up already... But I just had to share these feelings.

Like I have written before... My family and I are doing okay- we get by. Moreover, if not for my "Tatay's" work overseas... We wouldn't be able to afford the 'small luxuries' in our life. I am grateful to my 'Tatay' and I know how hard it is to earn money abroad; what's more, is that he gets to be far away from the family... Quoting my 'Mama': "Hindi na pabata Tatay niyo..." and I understand that. That's why everyday... When I go to College, I try my best to be a good student, I may not be the smartest- at least, to be able to pass all my courses is enough to get me that Diploma/Degree my Parents wanted me to have.

Did I mention how hard I find the Program I'm in... Do you know how it feels to do the same thing that you dislike everyday... Even during the summer, I take classes just so I can catch up. All year round... I am in school... Studying... and I endure this cause I want to give them the only thing they ask of me- and that is a Diploma, to finish a Degree, to have that piece of paper that summarizes all the hell that I went through.

I have nothing against them... they support me in all my endeavors, they work hard and never complain to be able to provide my tuition. Mostly, my Parent's LOVE ME. I am not like the others who have problems with their parents... I don't have that much family drama... We have disagreements and differences, I tell you that; but we talk it out and that is why- I have no reason to FAIL. 

and that what makes it hard.

No Reason to Fail.

and yet I feel like falling every time I'm in my class... 

With regards to my 'Tatay.'

Among my siblings, I am the daddy's girl... other than the fact that I mostly got my genes from him, I have always preferred my 'Tatay' over my 'Mama' just because, he was easy to talk to. Every time I would to go out with my friends or spend extra few hours late outside, he was always quick to say yes while my mother would often- or most of the time play the cop and she would totally hold me up. Bummer. Furthermore, my 'Tatay' is very generous and thoughtful... He would often come home with little surprises for my siblings and I; also, he would always try to buy the things you liked and wanted- even if it would cost him more than he's allowed to spend, just like how he recently brought those makeups for me. 

I love the ARTs.. and that is from my 'Tatay' too. I remember how he would draw my homework for me when I was younger and how he was always there to do those projects that required drawing, creating, cut outs, junk art and everything related to creativity. My 'Lola' said that he was supposed to take up Fine arts before; but, then he didn't cause it wasn't the kind of degree with a stable income.

Going back to the current issue.

I lost my Fone... that was bought with the hard earned money of my 'Tatay.'

When I got home today... My 'Mama' and 'Tatay' was already talking via Skype. I knew what was coming... but I wasn't prepared to take it all in- I told them anyways.

My father didn't say much... Yet I felt the disappointment in his voice as he said:

"Anak naman... Hindi niyo iniingatan mga gamit na binibili namin... Ang mamahal pa man din nun... Wala na tayong pera."

:(

I know.

cause he already bought our christmas gifts in advance and already sent them over... I'm not expecting a new fone any time soon and I still have my old fone and it works. Its just that... I never liked hearing/seeing my Parent's disappointed... and I felt so bad about it... but, also with the fact that he said that I didn't care for the things he provided us. For the record, I have everything he has given me since I was younger for I was the sentimental kind of person... Even to the old green Mcdo teddy, I still kept... compared to all the things my older sister lost... (several fones and a netbook)

I feel terrible... and I cried a few times already... My 'Tatay' wasn't the kind of Dad that talked much; but when he did, it was always important or either one of his corny jokes. 

Hopefully... this would pass.

I'm just gonna go read Chapter 7 of 'The Dialogues of Plato' for tomorrow's Philosophy class. 

[kmercs]

To Cap it All Off

Today I go back to the University and its another 'first day,' for it is the Second Semester of my Third Year in BS-FT.

21Days back, it was my Sem Break.

I think I pretty made those days worthwhile; other than, being able to resume my vampire ways, I got to do several things that I missed doing on the regular basis.

I was able to draw again. (Do watercolor too.)

I learned how to ride a skateboard and almost got a sprain.

I got to play the Bass guitar again and actually performed/compete in a Battle of the Bands at my hometown Mall.

Went to the cemetery for 'All Souls Day.'

I got to study using a DSLR and shooting at Manual setting.

I became part of my Program's Pageant shoot and I got to be the HMUA.(Hair&MakeupArtist)

I rebooted my Tumblr page and added awesome new features.

Finally. Christmas came in early as I received my 'regalo' from my OFW father.

Here's some photo's of what my SemBreak consisted of:

GPOY of me.

UNDAS2011- Sleeping with the Dead

That's Bernard and I during our performance on Himigsikan2011

Here's some from the Makeup Gig I attended... It was a little stressful that we had to switch places due to the lack of permit for the shoot.

We made this public CR as our very own Makeup room... The cleaning lady was crummy so we used the outlet illegally for the flat iron. 

HMUA to these lovely ladies:

Philippines

India

Thailand

On the way to safety... We had to cross rivers and oceans of flood water before we arrived at the nearest Mall to rest and eat our fills for that day.

This is one of the photos I taken with Manual setting on the DSLR. By the way the model is my younger sister... I got some makeup on her, faux hair and lashes.

Finally, here's the early christmas regalo of my 'Tatay':

I got a set of makeup, new brushes, nail polishes, eye cosmetics, clutch bag, makeup bag, some Patchi's in safety box with key and faux lashes.

and you say men don't know that much of Cosmetics :) 

My 'Tatay' did great. I LOVE IT.

BOTTOM LINE:

I had a great sembreak!

I didn't get to go out of town; but I had my share of fun even without going that far of a place. 

I even feel unprepared for this Second Sem... I feel the tides of laziness washing me over and how I wish that I could extend this short lived vacation.

But alas! I cannot and I need to sleep already... Its like early morning and in a few hours I should be up and running to get ready for school- Greet the Tuesday morning with new profound thirst and eagerness to learn more and become a better version of my self.

For now...

G'morning and Sleep tight.

[kmercs]

Do Me.

FINALLY.

After several months of procrastination and laziness induced paralysis, I have actually finished overhauling my Tumblr page.

I did all the works... changed my URL, Page Title, Theme/Layout, Music (tho some of you may think its tacky :|), Cursor, Live Page Counters and Organizing/tagging my Posts right so I can link it to my page. 

This may seem as a feat for me coz I really am not good will all these technical computer crap and I had to do SEVERAL trial and errors before getting the syntax right. 

I am totally Proud of myself.

So what happens now?

I am planning on cutting back the reblogging and try to make the Tumblr more personal or at least intimate... I want to be able to share myself through my own words, images or graphics. 

Also... there are chances that I may unfollow some of you- Nothing personal. 

Not everyone I follow actually Follows me back and to those who do, I am terribly sorry. Its not you. Its me. Its just that I want to see more consistent things in my dash and decrease the posts that I really can't relate to... I'm not saying I don't or can't try... Please forgive me. 

So I'm gonna give you guys a heads up and your'e free to Unfollow me if you don't wanna be part of this change- some already did :| and its okay. No hard feelings. Just the way things are, here on Tumblr... You win some- You loose some.

and yeah... One more thing.

Can you like check my Tumblr out?

Perhaps you can follow me too and leave a message or two...

or maybe you won't...

Anyways!

Cheers and G'night or G'morning or Good Day!

*I'm off to bed... I already told my Bernard I would; but, I haven't still :\ cause I had to finish this text post. tho I am terribly sleepy enough cause I spent the whole afternoon till early morning for this.

So I'm caving in :D

Much Love♥