#this is insane actually. i can't believe i did this ugh my absolute mind

[etherealforever234]

I am doing this again because there is nOT ENOUGH APPRECIATION FOR TGESE AMAZING WRITERS IN OUR FANDOM.

So I did a part 1 but I didn’t include all the ones I wanted since it got too long jsskkskskskdksnxk sooooooo here’s a part 2 of all the fics which absolutely PLAGUE my mind and you NEED to check these out and show them your love!! I have said this before I’ll say it again telling writers you like their writing with just a simple reblog or a good comment MATTERS so much more than you know. So I better see you guys showering writers with love on their fics! While I did make this for myself because I’m building a little ✨collection✨ I hope this helps anyone who’s looking for more fics to read!!!

(Minors this is your cue to not be anywhere around here if I see you interacting I’ll tell yo mama!)

Recs under the cut <3

Her body is Bible by @superblysubpar - DEAD. ASCENDED TO ANOTHER PLANE. MET GOD. DIED. BROUGHT BACK TO LIFE JESUS STYLE. LOST ALL COHERENCE FOR A GOOD FEW DAYS. (18+)

Amuse and romance me like you do by @heartthrobinsfics - I have re-read this whole fic from start to finish so many times dkksckkxmfkdkckdkf the slow burn was really slow burning and ACCURACY in characterisation Family Video Steve has alllllll my heart

Single thread part 1 part 2 part 3 by @headkiss - Spiderman AU Steve I love you so much it hurts! The slow burn is so fkskfkskfkskdkskxkdkdkkdkckfkfskdkxkfk! And he’s just so 🥺 ahhhhh OBSESSED with this whole Universe! (18+)

Rules are meant to be broken by @funnylittlelad - I read this whole series on AO3 and my GOD this deserves so much more love!!!! The complicated relationships with parents the angst is so delicious I am in LOVE with this.

This blurb by @stevebabey - The way I have NEVER felt more represented as I was here. Being a #losergf is a tough job but someone’s gotta do it

If you loved me, why’d you leave me part 1 part 2 by @1986harrington - I have to say reading the first part actually made me wanna lie down in the rain for like a couple of hours because the ANGST🤌🏻🤌🏻🤌🏻 and the SMUT in the second part lordtttt (18+)

how could i say goodbye? by @hawkinsquarry - The way this fic made me WEEP. I love it when people make Steve actually process any of his trauma but him being needy after the events of S4 was so ON POINT. Fuck this hurt. So good!

Beyond part 1 by @abibliophobiaa - The way I start SHAKINH AND SCREAMING AND CRUONH AND YHEOWINH UP when I start thinking about this series sjkdxkdkxkfk fake marriage AU will always have a place near and dear in my heart and with Steve??? DEAD.

Chateau, Careless whispers part 1 part 2 by @kurtie4life96 - Sugar Daddy Steve can be something so incredibly personal to #girlies (me) OBSESSED with thiskdkskfmdkdkdk the smut made the wires in my brain unwire (18+)

Burning by @lis-likes-fics - ABSOLUTELY INSANE actually. CRAZY. MIND DESTROYING. NERVES IMPLODING. KILLED ME. The plot with porn can be so personal to me FUCKING GOD. (18+)

Pray for the night by @upsidedownwithsteve - Call me a whore but I LOOOOOOVE me some “we almost died so let’s fuck each other’s brains out because we’re alive and we want to feel something” 😌😇 (18+)

Pride and Prejudice and Peanut Butter Sundaes by @starryeyedstories - The enemies to lovers of it all kskskskskskdks THE TWIST OF P&P WITH STEVE HARRINGTON REST ASSURE THIS IS CLOSE TO MY HEARTTTTT! This is so freaking goodkskskskskskskx

Meet me at the chateau by @theemporium - I think about this fic so much and it's been MONTHS but I will make it a pOINT to re-read it because this is just absolute perfection ugh sjkskdkskdkksdkjsdjkddk! (18+)

Puppy by @lovebugism - Sub!Steve you’ll always be famous! This made me so dizzy gAWD. Can't believe this isn't my life. So unfair. Looooooooooooove this! (18+)

[rithmeres]

the brave & the anguished

[gralunaisland]

At what point in the series did you come to the conclusion gruvia was unforgivable as a pairing? To me it was the stupid scarf episode that was supposed to show gruvia in a more serious light but all it showed was that when it comes to juvia so called love, grays feelings, history, and trauma is irrelevant bc her “love” will fix him. Not only that but erza basically told him it has been years, move on and apologize to the person that has no respect for your grief. Ugh

Short Analysis of The Horrific "413 Days" Chapter

That's a great question! Thank you for asking!

Honestly, as unsurprising as it may be, I'd say it was unforgivable at the same moment that I first hated the pairing, which, as I said in a recent ask, was Gray's and juvia's first interaction at Phantom Lord.

Because, at that point, I didn't just dislike her. I hated her. I think it was plenty unforgivable for her to misread and misunderstand everything he did at the level of insanity and then to try to kill him and Lucy, 2 people she didn't know whatsoever, based off of feelings she conjured up in her own mind.

I mean, shouldn't that be the biggest of red flags? To legit be a dangerously and clinically crazy person who is literally fine with actual murder based off of her own delusions? I wouldn't and don't forgive her for that or what she's done to Gray and to so many other people.

There is SO much to unpack from even just their first interaction, and all of it equaled unforgivable for me. (And of course, throughout the course of the show, every action she did just piled on top.) I'll go into it a lil bit, and then go onto the rest of what you said.

It's one thing to accidentally misunderstand someone's words, (because I know I do that a lot on Tumblr because reading is hard ok) but it's definitely another for the meaning of his words to go in one ear and have a completely different meaning on its way out the other, which the manga panel shows us explicitly. Gray's words of "I won't hand [Lucy] over even if I die" turns into "love love love love... a rival in love!!!!" and proceeds to say "Lucy cannot be allowed to live"; she's literally ready to kill someone just because she read waaaay too far into the words spoken by a loyal friend and guildmate.

And that's not even the only instance where she misunderstood him in that scene alone. she mistakes his kindness at saving her life as love, then him saying they could fight more got turned into sex somehow. Those are all just off the top of my head; I really don't want to go rewatch that scene tbh.

In a real scenario, if that happened to you, where a person was doing mental gymnastics just to reinterpret your words to mean something you weren't thinking at all, wouldn't most people be freaked and not want to be in a relationship with them? Wouldn't you want the person you're dating to actually listen to you and hear the words you're saying and understand what you mean? The absolutely negative communication going on in gr///via makes it horrifically toxic, and we knew this since their first meeting.

Sorry not sorry, she's legit insane, and she shouldn't be allowed to walk around freely harassing anyone she chooses. It's also unforgivable for Mashima to force Gray, a traumatized person with a history of hardships and tragic loss with women in his life, into a relationship with an actually dangerously-deranged, mentally-ill, toxic af individual who isn't ever stopped from doing whatever she wants.

(That is not to say mentally ill people can't or shouldn't find love of course. It's the way juvia is, where she leaves no room in her mind for anyone but juvia and juvia's wants, that makes her the type of person who's too crazy to find actual love, because yes, some people just shouldn't be in relationships until they do self-reflection and better themselves.)

I completely agree with you though, Anon, that the 413 Days episode was one of THE lowest moments juvia has, and believe me when I say, though I'm sure you already know, that literally almost every one of juvia's moments are low. (And I also agree about Erza. She was being an actual b*tch this episode and was literally goading juvia on. As if juvia needs help being the disgusting, toxic person she is! Erza is literally pushing a neurotic psychopath onto Gray, and I hate her in these moments for it. Definitely takes my respect and liking of her down so many pegs.)

juvia showed she really didn't actually care about Gray's feelings and trauma in that episode.

"B-but she apologized for being insensitive! And she cried when she thought about how she might've hurt Gray!", a Pro might protest.

I have easy answers for those points.

A, she said sorry, yes, but then immediately went back to being her creepy, crazy, insensitive self by trying to give him a nigh naked body pillow of her as "an apology", with a face that's completely unapologetic and uncaring. If she was really sorry for being insensitive, then she wouldn't be insensitive by pretending like all is well and going back to her bothering of Gray.

If she actually did any sort of actual reflecting on her actions or soul searching due to remorse over bothering Gray, then she would know that he's completely uncomfortable and creeped out by this, and that giving him a lewd, completely inappropriate body pillow (not that you can't do it for your significant other, y'all; it's just inappropriate because Gray clearly doesn't want it, and therefore this is gross, stalkerish behavior) would be a terribly rude idea for a gift.

And if she were truly genuine, then she should know that she should feel guilty all the time when she's being her usual creepy self, and not just guilty because she was being her usual creepy self on a sad day. Doesn't that just show us that she's at least a little self-aware? That she's not being thoughtful by acting the way she does? If she actually thought she was always being a kind, caring, loving person by doing her usual juvia antics to Gray, then why would she feel bad about it just because it's a sad day for Gray? If she were truly never bothering him and was being just kind, then that wouldn't bother Gray despite it being Ur's death day. she does say "it was such an unpleasant day and yet... juvia was treating it like a joyous anniversary", so maybe in her muddled brain she thought Gray was only upset because she was celebrating their love on the day of Ur's passing, but I feel like there is more to unpack from this. If she thought he truly loved her, I feel like she wouldn't feel bad for wanting to celebrate that day and would find him rude for putting something else above her in importance. Idk. Y'all tell me what you think, I just thought of it rn, and I'm processing it.

Even the little author's note isn't taking anything seriously, and it seems to be just as in denial as juvia and some of her fans are. "They cry, they laugh! Even today, juvia's got nothing but Gray on her mind!" Literally no one is laughing at her. Even Erza, the die-hard gr///via fan apparently, is sweat-dropping uncomfortably in the corner. Plus, juvia has Gray on her mind, but she really doesn't have Gray on her mind. I've said it a million times, but juvia is only thinking about her love for Gray, not for Gray and what's good for him.

Also! Notice how Gray's sweat-dropping and not the slightest bit blushing or in love with this woman. This is juvia's true nature, y'all, and he clearly hates it. It's only in her quieter moments that Gray thinks he loves her, but is clearly gaslit and manipulated so much so he assumes her very, very rare serious moments portray her true self no matter what she's doing in 100yq apparently.

I'm sorry, you can't be selfish and manic and obsessive and creepy and gross and rude and self-serving 99% of the time and be forgiven for that elusive 1% when you're not being those things. Not if you're an individual with healthy relationships with women and are able to see the toxicity that juvia perpetuates, which, by the way, Gray is not thanks to his trauma.

I even checked the episode version of 413 Days (oh the things I do for this blog; even just skipping through it is absolute horrific), and it's even worse than the manga version. (People might protest that the anime isn't completely canon, but they cannot tell me every single gr///via stan has only read the manga.)

In the anime, she says the body pillow is "also in commemoration of our 414th day anniversary, so you know, it would be pretty rude not to take it!", showing she's learned nothing, TO WHICH GRAY LEGIT REPLIES "Seriously, that thing is creepy, take it back!!", to which juvia stupidly replies "Then what kind of present do you want me to give you?" while continuing to shove it in his face, as if she can't comprehend that he doesn't want it, and yet her words show otherwise.

Then of course Erza says some stupid-*ss thing like "Never a calm moment, never a dull one either though. Thing's are just the way I like them" as if she can't see Gray being bullied and harassed in front of her face. Eugh, Erza is a disappointment when it comes to gr///via as usual. Then guess what juvia says? "That's right! If you get bored, then you just need to try harder! Hehehe!"

Oh goodness. How are there so many people who find that ok?? That's a "cutesy" way of saying, "Screw consent! Even if i'm just bored and have nothing to do, i'll just amuse myself by harassing someone!" Ew. Just absolutely ew.

Anyway, she's actually guilt-tripping and gaslighting Gray into taking the body pillow despite knowing the difficulties he went through just the day before with him rejecting her gift and all. It was a completely unnecessary and cruel callback to that yesterday, actually. Just shows more of her manipulative side.

B, (yes, there's a B, I took so long y'all might've forgotten there was an A haha), yes, she cried, but she seemed more preoccupied with figuring out how to repair their relationship, how to not lose Gray's nonexistent affection, instead of sympathizing with his grief and feeling for him. "i really... had no idea... what should juvia do?" she's still thinking about herself. Even when Erza says "I don't think Gray was bothered too much by your gesture", and juvia replies "jUVIA IS BOTHERED BY IT! ON SUCH AN IMPORTANT DAY TO GRAY-SAMA, jUVIA.."

Clearly, it's still all about juvia. she's focusing solely on how bad she feels, and she's wallowing in self-pity and self-loathing by denying Erza's part in setting juiva up to bother Gray on that day seen when Erza says "I'm sorry for putting you upt to it", and juvia says "No... this is juvia's fault". That's not being gracious, that's wanting everything to be about herself. At that point, it's straight up denial (which, let's face it, isn't anything new with juvia lockser) to pretend like the red-head didn't tell juvia her plan to spend the day in bliss "wasn't good enough" and was the one who gave her the plan to give Gray a gift in the first place.

You can't tell me this lady doesn't like to focus on herself. This was just one example, and another terrible one was the infamous Silver's-grave-scene where she again disregards Gray's grief by focusing on her own guilt. Seems like it's a recurring theme, now, doesn't it??

Anyway, back to what you said, Anon, the fact that Erza was telling juvia that Gray should basically just suck it up, and that it was his fault for continuing to mourn Ur's death, shown when she says "how important each and every day is... depends on how important you feel it is to you", is just absolutely despicable. I'm tired with Mashima writing Erza this way. I feel like the real one wouldn't defend juvia over Gray, especially when juvia's wholeheartedly in the wrong. Nonetheless, it makes me hate Erza in these moments.

All in all, thank you for your ask and your thought-provoking points! Thank you for waiting for my reply!

[drblood-bringer-of-death]

Yay! Another Tyrian x Watts fanfiction for Nuts and Volts week! Seriously I cant get enough of these guys! Anyway, hope everyone over at @nutsandvoltsweek enjoys it!

Waltzing into love

Warnings: literally just some mild cursing.

They hated it. Every single second of being stuck in the stuffy, crowded room full of pompous, rich assholes. Arthur glared at anyone unfortunate enough to make eye contact with him and he stayed as far away from the dance floor as possible. He hated parties as much as he hated people. He would much rather be back in the grimm lands, tinkering away at his inventions without a single interruption. But he was not the only one who hated being there. As grand and beautiful as Atlesian parties were, they had a very strict policy to them. No Faunus, No improper dress, and absolutely No exceptions. Tyrian, as sporadic and chaotic as the man was, unfortunately was the best fit to go with Arthur to this party. Salem decided that Hazel would be too intimidating, Emerald and Mercury were too young,  and Cinder would have stuck out like a sore thumb. So Tyrian was voluntold to attend as Arthur's date. He sulked even more than Arthur did. He might have even hated it more than the mustached man. Due to the strict policy, Tyrian had to wear what he considered "constrictive" clothing. And worst of all he couldn't even use his tail! Arthur had insisted he hide it, since it was against the rules. Tyrian fought him on it, to no avail as he knew Arthur was right. So the two brooded in their fancy clothing in a corner of the ballroom. They avoided everyone and if it wasn't for Arthur's accursed reputation he would have never even attended this godforsaken party. Maybe he could figure out some way to fake his death or even actually die just to avoid these parties.

"This is pointless!" Tyrian growled.

"It's not entirely pointless, but it's Incredibly dull." Arthur retorted, focusing all his attention on his scroll.

"Why did I have to come here?! I hate this! I feel like I'm restricting all my natural instincts!" Tyrian continued to complain as he pulled on the dark purple tie around his neck.

"Stop pulling at that you'll undo it! And you know why she chose you to come with me. And stop tugging on the tie!" Arthur said angrily as he turned towards Tyrian, who had managed to actually undo his tie. "How did you even? Ugh just let me fix it!" Arthur swatted away Tyrians hands and grabbed ahold of the tie. Fastening it once again.

"Ahem, am I interrupting anything?" The unwanted and annoying voice of Jaques Schnee broke through Arthurs grumbling. His brow twitched in annoyance and he sighed before facing the unbearable aristocrat.

"Why Jaques, what a pleasure to see you again." Arthur lied through his teeth.

"A pleasure as well. Who, may I ask, are you?" He directed the question towards Tyrian who stiffened as a response.

"Uh, Tyrian Callows, associate of Watts here." He shook the older man's hand in forced politeness.

"Well it's a pleasure to meet you Mr. Callows. I had no idea Arthur was into such… interesting company." His tone of voice and the way he glanced at Arthur smugly,  clearly portrayed that he suspected something else. "why I'd even say you might be planning something… more forbidding." Tyrian pailed, could he really figure them out that easily? He looked at Arthur and they shared a panicked look.

"Jaques if you're suggesting-" Arthur started to accuse him but Jaques cut him off.

"Oh come now Arthur, you know i wouldn't care if you were gay, it's quite common nowadays, and I've been suspecting it for a while anyway-" Watts and Tyrians faces went bright red. "I was simply baffled that you managed to find someone to deal with your arrogance." He finished.

"I-my arrogance- excuse me?!" Arthur said offhandedly. Jaques only laughed at him.

"Relax, you know that the General himself is gay right? Really it doesn't matter here, why not show some affection! Have a dance or two! There's nothing to hide." And before Arthur, pr even Tyrian for that matter, could stutter out a response Jaques turned on his heels and walked away smirking.

"Does he think-? I mean really?" Tyrian asked before bursting into uncontrollable laughter. His entire body shook with each inhale of breath. As he laughed and laughed Arthur's face grew more and more red, out of both embarrassment and anger.

"You shut up!" He snapped at Tyrian. Whose laughter seemed never ending. Making Arthurs anger grow.

"Re- hehehe- relax Arthur. Haha, as far as we know, this could be an advantage." Tyrian offered through dying giggles.

"What do you mean?" Arthurs anger sizzled but he stopped feeling the innate need to punch the Faunus. Tyrian wiped a tear from his eye.

"Well think about it. You could gain some massive publicity points if you came out as gay, and if we did it here it would be massively successful. All we have to do is dance a little bit and maybe hold hands. People will come to the conclusion on their own and it'll be all over the news tomorrow. "Infamous inventor Arthur Watts supporting his community through love!" Can you imagine that?" Arthur paused.

Unhinged, deranged, murderous, insane… and intelligent. Those are the words Arthur would use to describe Tyrian right now. As unpredictable as the man is, he could read people and play off them better than even Salem herself.

"That… could work." Arthur poundered. The plan was foolproof, and even if it went wrong then it would cause protests in the communities drawing grimm in. "Yes. It would work quite well." Arthur hummed to himself and Tyrian smirked.

"Well then let's get to it and put on a show!" He cheered in a manic giggle as he pulled Arthur away from their protective corner and into the center of the dancefloor. Arthur huffed behind him, not expecting the pull. Although he should really expect everything from Tyrian.

"I told you to relax already Arthur! All we need to do is dance a bit and act all coupley." Tyrian smirked again and Arthur got some sort of primal feeling in his gut to run. As if something far more sinister than even they had planned was happening. But he ignored it, it was not the first, or last, time he would have that feeling while with the scorpion.

"It's Impossible to relax with you" he retorted harshly, shifting himself and Tyrian into a waltzing position. Slowly the music ran through the room and the many people around them began to move to the three step beat.

"Your words wound me Arthur," Tyrian mocked. "I'm the most relaxing person I know! Well besides Hazel." He held back a giggle.

"Your a caffeinated maniac trapped inside a padded room. I absolutely do not find you relaxing!" Arthur all but growled.

"A bit touchy aren't you? Was it something that Mr. Schnee said that caught your nerves?" He smirked wildly at Arthur who tried his best to keep his composure. As he tried to calm his breathing Tyrians insane smile reached his eyes. "Oh my, your heart rate picked up! I must be onto something!" Arthur started to panic.

"You did not- wait you can sense my heart rate? No, nevermind that!" He attempted to gather his thoughts as he and Tyrian glided across the ballroom floor, sliding in time with everyone around them. If you weren't right next to the pair it would be like they were just enjoying themselves and not having a frantic argument.

"Poor Arthur Watts, not admitting that old Mr. Schnee was right! What an exciting evening this has become!" Tyrians giggles seemed to pour out of his mouth.

"Would you just shut up! I've already said that to you tonight, you psychopath! Now stop talking and lets finish this stupid dance!" Arthur was pissed off now, he couldn't stand looking at Tyrians pretty eyes or his handsome face any longer. So he decided to do something about it. As the song approached it's climax he brought Tyrian into a sudden spin, catching the scorpion off guard. As he pulled Tyrian back into him, he made up his mind. Placing one foot behind Tyrians and throwing his center of balance off, he dipped the younger man. He heard people around them gasp, some of them seemed shocked, but through all the noise he heard two distinct things. One: Jaques Schnee saying " I called it!", and two, Tyrian Callows' sharp inhale of breath. He pulled them back up. Releasing Tyrians lips as he did, and then he turned and walked out of the room.

Tyrian stumbled, that was not expected at all. He knew Arthur was gay but he never dared to dream that Arthur liked him. He got over the shock, more delayed than he'd like, but nevertheless he rushed after Arthur and found the man pacing an empty hallway.

"Why did I do that? What was the logic of that? It was pointless, im pointless. For fucks sake we're both adults why couldn't I just talk to him!?" Arthur mutters to himself as he paced, not even noticing that Tyrian was right next to him. "Damnit, that was so stupid! Why is he so handsomely intimidating? What can't I just be normal-"

"Because you're Arthur Watts, inventor and doctor, smarter than anyone else i know and absolutely hopelessly in love with me" Tyrian interrupted, his voice caught Arthur off guard and he would never admit how much that genuinely scared him.

"Ty- Tyrian look, what I-" he was cut off as said man lunged at him suddenly, crowding his precious space.

"Just shut up and kiss me again" the scorpion demanded as he rolled his eyes and pulled Arthur into him. Their lips crashed together again, yet the feeling was different. Before Arthur could barely feel the kiss at all, but now he felt like sparks were flying down his spine and static was invading his mind. Arthur let himself fall mentally, his brilliant mind failing him when he needed it most, so he just let it happen. Let his body do the talking for once.

Tyrian on the other hand was practically shaking with joy, he had a crush on the doctor for a while now but he truly never believed Arthur would like him back, let alone make the first move! He could not be happier even if his own goddess showed up just then! He felt as if nothing could ruin this sweet moment of love. And he was right, not a soul came out of the party to find them and they were left alone in the hallway. As Tyrian let go of Arthur he smiled. Not a crazed, classic Tyrian smile, but a calm, genuine one. Arthur felt his heart skip more than one beat, and he was sure Tyrian felt it too. Soon enough Tyrians soft laughter bubbled out of his mouth.

"What's so funny?" Arthur asked, his usual scoff lightened just a touch.

"Well the fact that we literally waltzed into love." Arthur's eyes rolled.

"That was cheesy." He huffed as he set his head on Tyrians shoulder.

"No, parmesan is cheesy." Arthur sighed. The moment was ruined by the man who created it. And he could not help the small smile that was hidden by his mustache. Maybe tonight was worth the party.