#this is just the negative human experience truly 🙏

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Why Kokushibo is a mood for me + art!!

@linkspooky inspired me to write about Kokushibo/Michikatsu.

(Warning! I'll be placing some personal negative experiences here, so, if this may upset you, please click off.)

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Dammit. This Kokushibo-guy is a real relatable one for me in Demon Slayer. Gotouge sure hit me where it hurt with this one 😭.

I mean, look at Koko's face. He looks like he's about to burst into tears in some panels. And not in a loud crier style. In the silent tears style. And yes, that's how I cry most of the time, especially when I'm upset over something that's truly troubling me. Especially the fourth one.

Then he actually cries in this panel and it just hurts so bad 😭😭😭.

That face just gets me. Its quite authentic, as I think Koko-boy actually had some remorse after cutting Yoriichi's corpse and acknowledged that was overkill and irrational made worse by the proof that Yoriichi still loved him by keeping the flute, which got cut, too. That's a face of regret and realization.

As they say, regret comes last.

Koko was also so pretty as a human 😍 🙏🥺. Look at his lovely sad eyes 😞 🥺.

Dammit. Characters with the "sullen, sad, deep" eyes have a special place in my beauty standards. Koko, of course, is no exception ❤️.

Koko is also a mood because I'm also jealous of someone, just like him being jealous of Yoriichi. I won't be leaking anything much, but I envy that person because he literally had so many nice things back then, such as video games, devices, and stuff kids during that time had. I never had most of those; I only had books to entertain me.

To make matters worse, I HAD TO PRETEND TO BE HAPPY with what I had for years until I even got a taste of the awesome things that certain person had. It's only now I realized I missed out. And now, I just feel even worse.

And if things couldn't get even worse, that person and I currently have a healthy, functional, affable relationship. He's also a close family member. I just keep feeling even more terrible each time I feel envy towards him because we already are happy like this and relaxed and I don't want to ruin anything good. I never envied him to the extent of hatred like Kokushibo, but the feeling is STILL THERE.

I just want to tell him about this, state my trouble so we can work it out together or something, but at the same time, I feel it'd be best to keep quiet in order to avoid destroying an already healthy relationship just because I'm JEALOUS. I don't want to drag him into my problem.

In short, "that's a mood Koko..."

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After all that, I'm still confident enough to say...

...Koko still looks like a spider.

Look at his fangs, bruh 😂. They look like a tarantula's 🕷 😂.

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Can I get L, J, N, R, and Z for Kirya? Thanks 🙏

L —  Loathe: What qualities does your OC loathe in other people? Do they tend to be judgmental of others, even when it isn’t warranted?

Generally, Kirya is far from judgmental. He's been through enough messed-up shit (and came out just as awful) that he doesn't have any room to talk, after all. He's laid-back enough to put up with a lot, and his general levels of apathy mean that he usually doesn't care what the people around him are doing. One thing that he genuinely dislikes in others, though, is ungratefulness— or worse, squandering the opportunities they have for themselves. Kirya values self-awareness, so when people are willfully oblivious of how good they have it, it gets on his nerves more than he likes to admit. He's willing to recognize suffering in forms other than what he experienced, sure, but when someone legitimately has it good and still can do nothing but complain, he hates to hear it.

J — Jealousy: How often does your OC get jealous of other people? Do they keep their jealousy in check, or does it influence their behavior?

Kirya's jealousy (if it can even be called that) is a strange thing. He's aware that he's had a far worse life than most people, and that the things he's been through just plain suck. However, at the same time that he's permanently, acutely conscious of the differences between himself and others, he doesn't exactly covet what those others have. It would have been nice to have had things easier, but no amount of wishing will change anything— so Kirya doesn't bother with it. Every so often, though, when he sees someone who's truly normal, and happy because of it, he feels a little pang of longing for that kind of peace.

N — Negative: What does your OC believe is their worst flaw?

Kirya believes he's a monster, plain and simple. Because of the Half-Aether experiments, he's been warped into something that will never be human again. All too aware of his capability for violence and tendencies to lose control, he views himself as a beast that's only good for killing, and one that needs to be controlled. Even in front of others, he's perfectly content to write himself off as an abomination in front of others (it's right in the name, y'know?), but his self-loathing is so effortlessly casual that most people won't pick up on the intensity of it. And yet, the permanent reality is that Kirya despises himself for everything he is— he's just learned to live with it, hating it or not.

R — Respect: What qualities does your OC admire in other people?

On a surface level, Kirya likes people who are strong. However, the deeper reality of it is that he admires usefulness. He's most impressed with people who have a clear purpose, know what it is, and are good at fulfilling it— although, since most of his time is spent around the other members of the Guard, that generally translates to appreciating strength. Though he's not fully aware of it, he also very much admires people who can be gentle. Softness is one thing that's forever out of his reach, so a part of him remains forever in awe of those who can manage it.

Z — Zealous: Does your OC have any guilty pleasures? If so, what?

Answered here!