#this is not an open invitation pls do not be weird in my inbox. for the love of god

[sxlver-sweet]

HEY BABE!! How are you ? Just wanted to speak cause I'm feeling ✨ romantic ✨

Imagine reader crushing on Mitsuya but being scared of confessing because the whole school crush already on him? So reader who saw that he was really close to a tall guy approach this guy ?? And like she ask "hum... You're hakkai right?" And Hakkai freeze the hell out of his life just for reader to say that she actually has a crush on Mitsuya because he's "perfect" and Hakkai beating the number one fanboy of ✨taka-chan✨ just finded his new bro ?? Because he has nobody to fanboy over mitsuya with all day and they become best friends and he tries to help reader with her crush.

But little did they know Mitsuya already crush on reader and see reader and Hakkai becoming closer and closer and he start to become jealous and like when he is with Hakkai he's like "oh that's new this when can you talk to a girl beside yuzuha?" Reader is just always with him but he doesn't know and it's starting to pissed him off 😩 but she's just talking about him with his best friend. And one day reader is with Hakkai on top of the rooftop during lunch talking about him and reader slips and Hakkai catch her but mitsuya only see them like hugging and that's when he has enough so he come and takes reader's wrist and drag her to reveal his feeling.

and Hakkai being the clueless clumsy person he is just "huh?"

I'm sorryyyyyy babe it's too long I just wanted to have your thoughts but I got excited😩😩

I'M SO LATE I'M SO SORRY FDSKLFSND THIS GOT LOST IN MY INBOX i hope you still want to talk 👉🏽👈🏽

but kdflskmdfl that's such a cute idea wait—

i can absolutely see hakkai finding it easier to bond with another girl over a common interest that they both feel so strongly about. it would still take him some time to get used to interacting with another girl, but i feel that more progress would be made faster. when you shyly admit to him that you actually have a crush on mitsuya and aren't just admiring him as a person like he is, i feel like hakkai would gape at you, eyes wide with shock and lips parted in a shouted, "seriously?" you latch onto his wrist, shaking his arm desperately and hissing at him to quit being so loud about it. i can imagine this being the point where mitsuya notices your close bond with hakkai, courtesy of hakkai's tall ass having summoned the attention of everyone in a two-mile radius with his screech.

at that point, all mitsuya sees is you clinging to hakkai's arm and feverishly whispering something to him, clearly flustered by his outburst. he examines the pout gracing your glossed lips as you stand there, all cute and sugar-sweet with your short uniform skirt swirling around your thighs and eyes vibrant with a sense of excitement that he can't quite decipher the source of—or, maybe, he just doesn't want to admit that the sight of you hovering around hakkai causes a flicker of irritation to stir in the pit of his stomach. maybe, he doesn't want to entertain the possibility of hakkai—who, before now, has never been able to so much as greet another girl—sharing a romantic interest in you. he'll proceed to examine you from afar, the tick in his jaw and white-knuckled fingers digging into his knees betraying the faux-unbothered expression adorning his face as a member from the sewing club grills him about fixing a button on their uniform. truth be told, he hasn't heard a word they've said.

he likely won't go out of his way to disrupt the bond he thinks you and hakkai have. he'll immerse himself in his other responsibilities as a method of distracting himself, and you'll probably end up seeing less of him. he really doesn't want to distance himself from you, but, seeing as how hakkai appears to have finally found himself a suitable partner, he deems it the only solution to handling the crush he developed on you somewhere along the way. when hakkai visits the sewing club after school, mitsuya will likely thread his burning inquiry into casual conversation so that he won’t run the risk of deterring hakkai from pursuing you. he chuckles, "ah, yeah, i've seen you around with (name). i didn't know there was a girl here you actually felt comfortable talking to."

then, when hakkai answers, "oh, yeah... she's nice," mitsuya's deft fingers twitch involuntarily and he promptly stabs his finger with a sewing needle.

the cycle of mitsuya running himself ragged trying to forget his feelings for you won't be broken until he spots you and hakkai embracing on the rooftop from the sliver of space between the ajar doors. he doesn’t even register how awkward you two looked, you clutching onto the railing for dear life and hakkai stooped over you with one arm tightened around your waist. all he noticed was that you two were close enough for this moment of be classified as intimate, and neither of you seemed uncomfortable. actually, knowing his dumbass, mitsuya will most likely just accept this as his new reality and decide to resign himself to merely watching from the sidelines—watching as fate intertwines his and hakkai's fates together in the most heart-wrenching way possible. he doesn’t want to stir up any kind of conflict, especially when he’s positive that his feelings for you would be unrequited, anyway. he would be prepared to turn his back and walk away, only to pause when he hears your voice ring out.

"thanks for catching me!" you chirp to hakkai, who immediately releases you and steps away, "that fall would've been pretty bad. anyway, about mitsuya... i was thinking of inviting him on like... a study date. is that weird?" when hakkai simply answers with a thoughtful hum, you scramble to explain yourself, "look, i just want to go on a date with him! and, i thought this would be the least awkward way to do it—whatever. the point is, i need your help with this. i'm planning on asking him after lunch tomorrow, but i was hoping that you would... kind of... ask him for me."

pls, the way your heart sinks when the rooftop doors creak open and mitsuya strolls through with a small smile curving his lips.

"why not just ask me yourself right now?"

[dantespilled]

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[meanminyxrd]

that was enough (andreil)

i decided to write a short little blip based off of some photos i took of myself and of course, as an andrew kinnie, it became andreil focused. the pictures will be attached at the end of the post! (btw this was not proof-read at all and it's really just a mess pls forgive me.)

~

after a rough game of exy, neil and andrew are the last ones in the locker room to shower. it was against a difficult team; they had won, but it was a close call. all of them had been exhausted after the game but neil and andrew had both been on press duty that night and it had been rather lengthy. the foxes had offered to stay and wait, but neil waved them off. he didn't mind dealing with the publicity. of course, with the way neil's mouth tended to get away from him, andrew decided it might be smartest if he stuck around, even if he didn't particularly want to. someone had to limit the amount of senseless shit that neil spilled to the public; although it was rather funny.

the foxes knew that, quite frankly, andrew didn't care if they stayed or not. they were also aware that even if invited to celebrate their win, the two boys most likely wouldn't join them. they preferred to spend more time with each other than the foxes. well, at least andrew did. neil sometimes was able to convince him to come socialize with them instead because it was 'interesting' and 'made them a better team'. to andrew, it was laughable, but it was always worth it to see the soft smile on neil's face whenever he agreed to something slightly outside of his comfort zone.

by the time the boys were done with the press and moving on to get cleaned up, the rest of the team had gone back to fox tower and most of the stadium had cleared out as everyone tried to avoid rush hour at the same time. only wymack and abby were waiting for them, and after a gruff reminder for them to lock up and a softer reminder to stay safe from the both of them, they were gone. just like that, it was only the two of them.

neil was now comfortable enough around andrew not to be ashamed of his body and it’s numerous scars. andrew had been seen by neil a few times now, and though it was still new, andrew wasn’t as afraid of it anymore. both boys undressed openly, seeing as though they were the only ones there. neil finished undressing first and went into one shower, and shortly after, andrew knocked lightly on the door and asked, ‘yes or no?’

neil smiled slightly to himself. they’d showered together before; well, he had showered, and andrew had showered afterwards, not keen at first on taking his clothes off in front of neil. on one hand, it seemed weird that the first place to shower together would be in the foxes locker room; but at the same time, it couldn’t have been more fitting.

he gave his affirmation, and andrew slipped into the shower with him. it wasn’t spacious by any means, and they were rather close together, but neither of them seemed to mind. neil was careful of his hand placement, and kept them to his sides while andrew just stared at him for a moment. neil was content to do the same. every time neil opened himself up to andrew like this, his boyfriend got the same exact look on his face; the same warm look in those dizzing hazel eyes. he developed this stare that at first glance would seem blank and empty; but underneath, neil could tell that andrew was taking a moment to appreciate him. he was appreciating the trust given, and cradling it to his chest like it was the best gift he’d ever received. and even though andrew would deny it, and even if neil wasn’t quite sure it was there, he still swore that he saw something akin to love in andrew’s eyes when he looked at neil like that. but what would he, neil josten, know anything about that?

little did neil know, he looked at andrew much the same way. eyes full of admiration, gratitude, and trust. it was easier for him to show it with his soft smile and bright blue eyes, and it never failed to take andrew’s breath away. which, of course, he hated. he not-so-gently cupped neil’s face and awaited a nod before kissing him. it wasn’t long, by any means; they were both really too tired to get anything serious going right now. plus, they were in the foxes locker room. but andrew couldn’t help himself when he saw neil bite his lip like that, and the latter wasn’t complaining.

at first they continued the rest of the shower in comfortable silence. andrew helped wash neil, with consent first, of course, before moving on to himself. neil, knowing better than to touch without say, was content to watch. however, andrew sent him a look as he grabbed the shampoo and paused, staring for a moment. he then suddenly handed it to neil. neil blinked emptily, not really understanding, but taking the bottle anyways. andrew mumbled out with an impatient breath an explanation.

‘you said someday you’d like to wash my hair. now’s as good a time as any. my arms are tired from playing and getting you clean.’ he kept it brief and to the point, and neil knew he shouldn’t, but he still allowed that big grin to slowly cover his face anyways. he almost couldn't believe andrew had remembered him saying something as casual as that, but he also knew about that eidetic memory of his. andrew rolled his eyes, but there wasn’t any malice in it as he closed his eyes and let neil wash his hair, relaxing against the soothing scrubbing motion he picked up.

neil finished washing his boyfriend's hair and left him to rinse it out, getting dried off and dressed. he decided at the last minute that instead of wearing his own sweatshirt, he was going to steal andrew’s, and so that's exactly what he did. he checked his phone as a few drunken texts were starting to pile into his inbox, mostly from nicky. he browsed his text messages feeling mildly amused while he waited for andrew to come out, and a few seconds later, the water shut off. neil instinctively looked up when andrew exited the shower, and his heart leapt to his throat. yeah, he’d just seen andrew, but he hadn’t seen him. it was one thing when they were pressed close together in the dim light of the showers, and another thing all together when he was just… there. almost sparkling under the bright lights of the locker room, water droplets trailing down his skin and falling into crevices such as his abs or making little puddles in his collar bones.

neil was very obviously entranced. he snuck his phone up and snapped a picture of andrew drying off. he smiled fondly at the image before secretly catching another, but it didn’t go unnoticed for long. he giggled childishly when andrew noticed, and playfully told him to, ‘smile!’ andrew responded with quite the sneer and flipped him off, but again, there was no negativity behind the action.

once andrew was dressed (now wearing neil's sweatshirt instead of his own) they locked up the stadium and headed back to their dorm. everyone was down in the basement partying still, as they hadn't been absent long, so andrew and neil had the dorm room to themselves. both of them being absolutely exhausted from their long and well fought win, however, simply headed to bed. they curled up to one another; not quite touching, but close enough to feel each other's presence. with the fatigue of a long day of exy setting in and the smell of the vanilla body wash neil kept stealing from him, andrew was fast asleep in minutes. it was surprising to neil, as usually he was the first one asleep, but he wasn’t complaining. with a crooked smile at his sleeping boyfriend, he took a couple last photos to remember the night. maybe this night hadn’t been a big thing to andrew, but to him, every little moment meant the world. every little bit of trust handed over was like winning a thousand exy games all in one sweep. and even if it wasn't all of andrew's trust, it was some. it was progress. and to neil, that was enough.

~

when i say i wrote all of that just for these 5 pictures i'm not kidding. the sleepy andrew photos were kind of second thoughts, but i literally just wrote a whole ass one-shot solely because i'm a raging kinnie who looks like andrew minyard and also happens to kin him. well. i hope you enjoyed, and as promised, here are your pictures! (don't worry, all very sfw unless ur triggered by collar bones or shoulders)

[girls-scenarios]

Red Velvet Soulmate Headcanon

Prompt: Red Velvet soulmate headcanon pls

A/N: There was another ask for a Red Velvet soulmate headcanon but I think our inbox might have eaten it? Also, I kind of just wrote about what kind of soulmate AU’s I thought would best fit them, since I wasn’t sure how else to write it. Anyway, I hope this is kind of what you had in mind, and that you all enjoy! - Admin Kiwi

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Irene:

For Irene, the world would be black and white until you meet your soulmate

Irene would be older by the time she finally met her soulmate

As a kid, she would worry that she might be broken, or that she might not have a soulmate

But it wouldn’t really bother her as she got older

She’d be too busy with work to care

For a while, she wouldn’t even be sure if she believed in the whole soulmate thing

Since she’d never seen colors for herself, people could just be lying

So she’d just ignore all talk of soulmates and focus on work and bettering herself instead

You’d meet her at time and place when neither of you would expect it

Somewhere inconspicuous like a grocery store or a park

The two of you would end up bumping into each other, causing you both to look up and lock eyes

At that moment, suddenly the world would become bright, and she’d blink her eyes, wondering if she was dreaming as she looked around in awe

Finally, she could see how bright the world was around her

And it was beautiful

“Woah, my outfit really doesn’t match.”

“Wait, does this mean?”

It would be awkward at first, with neither of you really knowing what to do

The two of you would end up laughing at the weirdness of it all before introducing yourselves and exchanging phone numbers

Weirdly, neither of you would want to leave after meeting each other

And the two of you would just get closer after that

Later, once the two of you were officially an item, Irene would admit to you that she’d thought that colors were a lie

And you would laugh, telling her that you’d thought the same way

“I’m glad they weren’t though. I love living life in color with you.”

“Yeah. Me too.”

Wendy:

For Wendy, you can hear your soulmate’s voice when they sing

From pretty young, Wendy would always be singing

She loved music, so she just couldn’t help it, even if she knew that it might annoy you to always hear her singing in your head

As a kid, she’d tried to apologize, only for her mother to laugh and pat her on the head

Telling her that wasn’t how it worked, and assuring her that her soulmate would be happy to hear her singing

You would sing too, a bit, but as you got older, it would be more humming than singing

The only times she’d really get to hear you sing would be at night

She figured you were probably singing in the shower before bed

But she would always stay up until she heard you sing before she slept

Both of you knew if was a bad day if the other didn’t sing or hum at least

And it was hard to know you couldn’t do anything

But on nights when you didn’t sing, Wendy would sing instead

Something soothing and sweet, hoping it helped you

As she got older, she decided that she wanted to be a singer

At first, she was worried that she might annoy you, or distract you

But nothing seemed to change

Sometimes you would hum to yourself, songs that you had stuck in your head or whatever she’d been singing recently

It was weird, always being able to hear each other hum and sing

But being unable to talk or ask who you were

It wouldn’t be until Wendy finally debuted as a singer when you realized who she was

She would sing her debut song to you before it was even released, practicing over and over until you knew it by heart

So when a beautiful girl named Wendy debuted with the song you’d come to love, you knew it had to be her

Immediately, you made your way to her, fighting through every obstacle until you found a way to talk to her

When she finally saw you, she didn’t know your face, but she knew you, and she’d immediately smile, opening her arms to invite you into a hug

It would be a relief to finally know who you were

“I’ve been waiting to meet you.”

Seulgi:

For Seulgi, what you write on your skin ends up on your soulmate’s skin

Even at a young age, she’d know she had a soulmate somewhere

You would know, too, because your arms would be covered

From notes to doodles to reminders, she would write everything on her arms

Mostly just because you would always draw her a little doodle in return, to let you know you saw her

As the two of you got older, the things the two of you would write to each other would change

Sometimes it would be shopping lists, or notes for a test, or lyrics to songs that the two of you shared interests in

Once the two of you got to college, you would occasionally have full conversations

Arms and legs covered in marker and pen and anything else the two of you could find

Sometimes, you would complain about work loads and stress to each other

And although Seulgi isn’t the best at drawing, she would try to doodle cute things to cheer you up

They always managed to make you smile, no matter how bad they were

Still, somehow the two of you would avoid each other

Until one day, when Seulgi would finally ask to try and meet up

I want to see you.

I want to see you too. Where do you live?

Luckily, the two of you wouldn’t be too far from each other and would agree to meet up at a nearby cafe

As Seulgi anxiously waited, she would feel her arm tingle and look down to see I see you written in your familiar handwriting

When she looked up to see you walking over with a wide smile, she’d immediately jump up and wrap you up in a hug

Happy to finally have you by her side

Joy:

For Joy, the first words your soulmate says to you would be tattooed on your body

When her words showed up in grade school, she was surprised and confused

Hey, did you do the homework? was written on her arm in black ink

At first, she’d wonder if maybe she’d meet her soulmate in middle or high school

But once those years of her life flew by, she would start to wonder if she’d missed her soulmate somehow

Of course, she still had university in front of her

But talking to and meeting new people would be kind of hard for her

And she’d worry, afraid that she’d be too shy to speak to anyone

But soon, she’d meet friends and become focused on school, almost forgetting about her soulmate tattoo altogether

She wouldn’t really talk much in class, even to the people that sat right next to her

Some people she would see in multiple classes, but unless people talked to her first, she was always too shy to say anything

And a lot of people saw her as intimidating (because she didn’t talk, and because her resting face was kind of stern)

So for the most part, she went through her university life without chatting with classmates, and without thinking of her tattoo

She wouldn’t remember until you, a classmate who had been in multiple of her classes, spoke those familiar words

“Hey, did you do the homework?”

She was so shocked at you talking to her for a moment that she almost didn’t feel the tingle on her arm at your words

You looked tired and disheveled, like you’d just run to class, and your cheeks were flushed as you apologized for bothering her

“Uh, sure,” she would say, awkward as she shoved over her book

Then her eyes would land on her tattoo, and her mouth would go dry as she finally recognized the tingle

“Wait. Are you?”

Your eyes would be wide as you looked at her and raised your hand

Uh, sure was written there in ink, and a slow smile moved across your features

“I think we might be soulmates. I’m (Y/N) by the way.”

Smiling, she would feel relieved, so glad that she hadn’t missed, and so happy not to have to worry anymore

“I’m Joy. It’s nice to finally meet you.”

Yeri:

For Yeri, everyone would have a matching tattoo with their soulmate

She would have hers somewhere where people usually wouldn’t see it

Like on her stomach or back, or even on her leg

It would be something small, too: a little bundle of purple grapes

Unique with a pink stem, instead of a normal green

As a child, she’d worry that she’d meet her soulmate and not know, because she wouldn’t be able to see and recognize the tattoo

And that scared her a lot through her younger years

But as she got older, she’d realize that soulmates just had a way of coming together, so she would stop worrying so much

A social butterfly, she’d gather plenty of friends as she grew older

People would just love being around her, because she’s the life of the party

In fact, you would become her friend rather quickly without realizing that the two of you had the same little hiding tattoo

Since she just attracts people, you would start as just another friend

But as the two of you got to know each other better, she would find herself wanting to spend more and more time with you

Still, that happened when she liked people, so she brushed it off at first

It wouldn’t be until the two of you went swimming together that you’d realize

Stopping in your tracks and staring with your mouths open as the two of you stared at the identical tattoos

“It was you this whole time?”

“You know, it kind of makes sense, now that I think about it.”

After the initial shock, the two of you would be thrilled

Because she was once afraid she’d never find you, she’d want to treasure you as much as she could

She would happily announce it to everyone she knew, always wanting you to be by her side

“You know, I’m really happy I found you.”

“I’m really happy I found you too.”

[simkjrs]

msa ch5 asks (and others)

Anonymous said: AAA FROM 'MEET ME IN THE WOODS'- i know that lyrics!!!!! nice!!

*finger guns* nice!!

Anonymous said: -also thank you for existing you beautiful beautiful person! 😘

i think i might have accidentally deleted (or answered separately?) the first half of this ask but nonetheless thank you

Anonymous said: OK first thing: the chapter was awesome! amazing job! Second thing: the entire chapter was basically deku 'mildly' freaking out while being thoroughly pissed the entire time

it really and truly was. izuku as that one macro that’s like “this string is held up through pure stress alone” 

Anonymous said: mr compress weeb confirmed

look at his custom made villain costume and tell me he isnt that kind of guy

Anonymous said: god. Msa!izuku is /fifteen fucking years old/ and he has to deal with /so much shit/. Can someone just put him to bed and let him nap for a year, maybe

yes! maybe not a year though.

Anonymous said: God bless the new chapter gutted me and the flipped me inside out showing my true form, that of a big fan. Thank you for the blessing that is MSA

this is such a gruesomely funny image. thank you

Anonymous said: hey just read msa for the around the 9th time. you ar e so good at writing, the way you write character interaction is incredible. you should be proud. this is literally the best thing ive ever read.

THATS SO MANY TIMES, IM ASTONISHED YOURE NOT SICK OF IT YET!!! i hate staring at my writing too long it starts feeling all faded out and boring!! im really happy to hear you like it so much!

Anonymous said: As soon as Izu/ku woke up on the table I started screeching simk. Not okay!!!

haha im so sorry!!!! but overhaul literally wouldve experimented on ai/zawa and he DID experiment on eri this is completely in character of him

Anonymous said: Overhaul/Skin Beast: hi yeah can I get a fucking uuuuuhhhhhhhh experiments/faces? Izuku: Experiment machine 🅱roke *flies away with eri*

completely accurate summary of the chapter

Anonymous said: every day I long to become the amount of salty msa izuku is

valid but every day i long for msa izuku to receive the love and support that he needs

Anonymous said: sweetie noooooooo

i have no idea what part of the chapter this is referring to but first of all, big mood, and second of all, valid 

Anonymous said: hello you hurting because so am i!

i am hurting. while i was writing the chapter i kept looking at the screen like “i’m doing this? i’m really going to do this?” but overhaul is like that and i cant deny him the one salient characterization point he has

Anonymous said: UNICORN DAUGHTER HAS BEEN RESCUED THANK ITS GREAT

[my longest yeehaw ever]

Anonymous said: Since I might not get any sleep tonight because of flight plans and I might forget tomorrow and the next day, Happy thanksgiving! I'm thankful for your awesome stories~

Anonymous said: Happy Thanksgiving! I remembered!

happy thanksgiving!! im thankful that you enjoy my stories <3

Anonymous said: good job! i love it. and i’m crying. where did all this blood come from?

We Are All crying blood at this chapter

Anonymous said: Just read the new chapter and all I want to do is keysmash into your inbox. The chapter! Was so good! Izuku being sassy and angry and traumatized but still trying! And Eri! I'm so glad she's with Izuku now. Deku-niisan! I don't have words! And Rappa? Rappa! Also, that poem you linked is really neat. Grow up grow strong and focus your fury. Kind of feel like this is the theme for these two trauma children. Great work!

someone in the comments described izuku as “thoughtlessly kind” and i was VERY emotional over that because it’s such an excellent descriptor of the kind of person izuku is... he’s still trying, because that’s just who he is 

deku-niisan to the rescue :^) 

i’m really glad you enjoyed the chapter! thank you!

@zintiay submitted: Normally I get really annoyed when a character refuses to use an ability that would let them fairly easily deal with those around them. In this case though, you have done a really good job displaying why he doesn’t want to use this option, as well as what it takes for him to be willing to use it, that I mostly feel sad for deku that he was forced to let Eri’s spirit possess him, instead of getting caught up in the hype of an awesome moment

Honestly though, that’s also my reaction to the chapter as a whole. It was full of interesting world building and was generally an awesome chapter, but it was also well written enough that I also feel Izuku’s emotions and mostly just feel melancholy now.(Seriously, when I look back on it, “I invite you in” opened the gateway to an awesome and well deserved ass kicking, but it’s mostly just heart breaking. Why can’t I just enjoy Izuku kicking ass? Why?)

ahaha yeah, i try to have good reasons for why characters do or don’t take certain actions, and this whole fusion thing is something he keeps REALLY close to his chest... i’m glad that carried across well! it is very sad though that he feels cornered into using this ability. 

thanks for reading!

Anonymous said: Just wanted to say thank you. I think this sounds weird, but you finishing up chapter 5 of msa actually helped motivate me and I managed to finish my essay for a class.

OH? i’m glad to hear that! congrats on finishing the essay!

Anonymous said: This chapter was so fucking perfect I'm crying diamonds. What in all heavens and hells are you, you godly creature? I am so bloody happy you exist in this world. In this time line. I love your stories so damn much!

thank you so much!! i’m really happy to hear this <3 

Anonymous said: I love how just Done with everything msa Izu/ku is with everything. The fact that the only person he treats like a Person and not another threat to his Cryptid Status is Er/i and he just brings her home. I just. I LOV UR WRITING OK

it’s because eri pings None of his danger senses and All of his “i have to do something about this” senses. izuku is constitutionally incapable of helping someone in need. 

and thank you!! i’m glad you like it!

Anonymous said: I hope you know that i was able to read about half a page before i fucking died laughing i lov msa de/ku so much

i try to serve my darkfic with a large side of comedy

Anonymous said: I have the vivid image of msa Deku running into Aizawa by accident and just slowly walking backwards before turning to the sky and yelling "I HAVE DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY! I! DO NOT! HAVE TIME FOR THIS SHIT AS WELL!!!" while Aizawa slowly comes to the conclusion that he must adopt and save this troubled child.

this is hilariously close to some future scenarios i have in mind

Anonymous said: seeing a new chapter of msa honestly made my heart skip a beat in excitement. i have SO MANY questions and thoughts about this universe, i think i could ask you questions for hours, it sparks my imagination and curiosity in the best way. but for now, i just wanted to sincerely thank you for choosing to share your story and thoughts and ideas with all of us! it's always a delight, and i don't take it for granted at all. thank you, and i'm wishing you all the best always!!

thank you so much for this message!! it always makes me happy to know that others are enjoying this story as much as i am <3 i hope the best for you as well!

Anonymous said: What I expected in MSA ch.5: PAINPAINPAINPAINPAIN What I got: PAINPAINPAIN also Izuku adopts Eri, and Rappa for some reason (or did he adopt them!?!? DUNDUNDUN)

i cant publish a chapter without doing something a little fun, right? 

also im laughing at the idea of izuku adopting rappa, a fully grown man, as opposed to the other way around. izuku would hate this concept if anyone ever said it to him.

Anonymous said: so is msa iz/uku's tragic backstory basically being a walking disaster for all of his life until the point where he would have, in canon, met all might, and the msa version of the all might/one for all is the Temple and the subsequent ShitStorm™?

nope! the temple is something else 

Anonymous said: 💖💖💖💖💖💓💖💓💓💕💕💓💕💕💕💝💝💞💝💟💟💟💟💟💟💞💝💝💝💝💝💟💟💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘❤❤❤❤💙💚💚💚💛💙💚💜💚💛💚💜💙💜💚💟💞💗💞💟💟💜💚💛💚💘❤💘❤❤❤💞💟💝❤

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Anonymous said: i was stuck in a car for 3+ hours tonight but when i saw msa ch5 was up i was so excited, i spent the whole ride reading and re-reading it, it’s fantastic and you are too! <3

wow thats some dedication!! i hate reading in the car. thank you and im glad you liked it!!

Anonymous said: simk pls tell me we get roommate shananigans it would make my entire life. just a tired teen, a middle age man literally off the street, and their prepubescent daughter/little sister/niece/etc.

oh yes absolutely. this is a vital part of the au. don’t forget the cat

Anonymous said: hi hello i just want to say that your writing is amazing and gives me life and i get really really really excited every time you update. thanks for blessing us with such good fic <3

thank you so much!! i’m super glad to hear <3

Anonymous said: so izuku not only has eri but also the guy most likely to have been in kumite from bloodsport at his place. great job kiddo. (i mean that both genuinely and sarcastically)

izuku’s existence just naturally warps the reality he lives in into a circus show

Anonymous said: thanks to that one ask i can't stop laughing at the scenario of msa izu trying to get groceries and is seen by kiri / aizawa / tbh any hero. rappa and eri is with him and izu just stares at the heroes dead in the eye and leaves the place. he swears to never return there ever again

also hilariously close to some scenarios im contemplating

Anonymous said: DID MSA!DEKU EVER CATCH A BREAK ONCE IN HIS LIFE??? DID THAT EVER HAPPEN, SIMK. OVERHAUL IS UP THERE W ENDEAVOR I CANT BELIEVE U MANAGED TO MAKE ME HATE HIM THIS MUCH SNAKDNANFKW (btw? how much of a fucking RIOT would it be if the heroes did the exact same thing in canon, and when it came to the actual retrieving eri part theyd just find someone waving frantically "SHES ALREADY GONE, YOU IMBECILES. YOU FOOLS"

overhaul is easily hatable if you just extrapolate from his canon actions. cant wait for him to get fucking clowned

i think it would be really funny but kind of depressing if the heroes did that. izuku please help them

Anonymous said: u really dont fuck around, do u, simk?? this is really a chapter that i just read i really saw him getting experimented on by overhaul for real??? I REALLY SAW HIM DISMISS IT AS IF IT WAS ANY OTHER DENIAL WEDNESDAY???? DID THAT BOY EVER CATCH ONE (1) BREAK IN HIS ENTIRE LIFE?? also DAMN! HE Really Fucking Did That HUH HE BUSTED HER OUT OMG.. CANT WAIT FOR THE SIBLING RELATIONSHIP FEELINGS THING :') (also how much of a fucking RIOT wld it be if the heroes busted eri out but (1/2)

but when they ARE actually at the 8ps hq they just?? dont find her??????and everyone there is like "SHES ALREADY GONE YOU IMBECILES. YOU FOOLS." (2/2)

i really dont fuck around!! i hope!! i decide on a track and i stick to it!! as soon as i finished the first scene i knew that overhaul was going to Do That and i spent a few days agonizing over it and asking myself if i was really ready to go all the way with this. if i was really going to write it! i did write it. i am still occasionally in disbelief. 

yes. sibling relationship all the fuckin way 

Anonymous said: Is what happened at the temple the thing that made MSA Izuku give up on being a hero?

nah izuku giving up on being a hero is more just pessimism, cynicism, and paranoia trained into him by years and years of dealing with spirits and believing that he shouldn’t exist 

Anonymous said: this is all really silly but uhh,,, isn't izuku loosing credits? has his mother been informed of his absences? does he have anyone who can help him catch up with the missed material? is our boy going to graduate?

i dont really know how credits work in japanese schools, or how the absences thing works... he’ll be fine though, pinky promise

Anonymous said: Eri pulls back and looks up at them curiously. “Deku?” They peer down at her. She’s so small! She’s so near! “You look different. You…” She reaches up, and they bend down obligingly. Her hand touches something attached to the skull above the eyes -- my horn, the kirin whispers. “You have a horn like me,” she says, full of wonder, and touches it again. THIS ENTIRE FUCKING PART GOT MY HEART BEATING SO FAST. I LOVE THEM!!!! ILOVE HOW ERIS SPIRIT IS NOT A TOTAL ASSHOLE TOO!!!

trauma kid solidarity!!!! i am so excited for these two you have no idea

i, too, love it when a spirit shows a basic modicum of decency and is NOT Like That to izuku 

Anonymous said: "neptune" by sleeping at last gives me very kiri/msa!deku vibes

cool, i’ll check it out!

Anonymous said: Angry msa!izu/ku: acts like an alley cat, threatens to break a villain's dishes, talks a lot of bullshit, also kind of sad and depressed. Angry™ msa!izu/ku: frightens the hell out of everyone just by looking at them, makes everyone question their life choices, makes them feel small and insignificant and makes fun of said life choices, not exactly human.

yeah. i love msa izuku and  his anger is Valid 

Anonymous said: This chapter: Rappa: fight me MsaIzuku: no Rappa: fight me pls MsaIzuku: no Rappa: let me fight the people around you? MsaIzuku:....... Fine

this is a really great summary of that conversation

Anonymous said: Izuku's threat to throw all of M. Compress' dishes on the floor like that is the Worst thing you can do to someone made my entire day thank you

i’m really glad because this was the funniest threat i could think of besides “i’m going to break into your home and piss on your bed” 

Anonymous said: HE'S JUST A KID SIM

you know i had to do it to ‘em picture 

Anonymous said: Msa is just so so amazing!?!? I honestly love it so much. The way you write is so wonderful and it's practically doubled by the fact that the entire idea for the au is also wonderful. Izu is amazing and I love him. Thank you thank you thank you :')

aahhh im really happy you like it!! thank you for reading & supporting!!

Anonymous said: Rappa: "let me join you" ; msa!Izuku: "absolutely fucking not" ; Rappa: "I can be ur meat shield" ; msa!Izuku: *clenching and unclenching his fist, glaring up at the god he does not believe in as he leads Rappa and Eri to his home* "I fucking hate you"

izuku’s one weakness... trying to help others

Anonymous said: iirc, guardian spirits are bound to their respective charges by proximity but can still move around, but do they have to be close by when the quirk is used? Or will the quirk not be as effective?

nah, they don’t need to be nearby, one cool effect of being bound to a human is that the human has a store of the guardian spirit’s energy 

Anonymous said: Thoughts on the game OFF? Played it recently and it gave me Msa!spirit world vibes. The use of man made substances making up the natural world (e.g drinking plastic not water) just really stuck with me as something bizarre and very second intonation like. Although if you do explore the spirit world I guess you might have something maybe more mythological in mind? (Also the soundtrack is stunningly eerie).

never played OFF but i love its aesthetic so much 

Anonymous said: I'm gonna print msa out and it eat it. gochisousama

pfft itadakimasu 

Anonymous said: Hahahah holy shit that new chapter dialed things up to, like, 22 instead of 11 holy shit izuku oh no. (“Achievement Unlocked: 5+ Levels Of Trauma Added At Once!” msa!izuku: can I get a, uuuuhhhhhhh, refund?) skin creature is super creepy and perfect fit. Btw, side thought - however the heroes find out abt this whole mess, I bet they feel really guilty (shit, izuku puts foot in mouth and accidentally says smth. Kiri: horrified izuku: makes it worse by trying to leave topic) thx I Love it. V good!

once i committed i had to go all the way...

the ensuing conversations between izuku and the heroes are probably going to be kind of funny, and also a little sad. im looking forward to it. thank you for reading!

Anonymous said: Okay, I'm just catching up on the recent chapters of msa and this is what I've been getting so far Everyone: you have to understand- Msa izuku, restrained: no

correct. msa izuku refuses to accept your terms 

Anonymous said: Ahaha, geez, MSA chapter 5 was A M A Z I N G. Poor Izuku. Geez, the scene where he's tossed into his cell and just spends fifteen minutes crying and freaking out hurt so bad. And he remembered to (try and) call for help!!! Hopefully he tries again in the future, when it'll work (hopefully). I also got very excited by the Kirin!!! Like, holy smokes!!! Someone who actually doesn't want Izuku to suffer, and is willing to take steps to make that happen!! Yes good!! Plz timewalker protect this child

thanks carwash for being like the only friend izuku has

the relationship between izuku and the different spirits hanging around his house is probably going to be pretty fun. i know i’ve pulled a lot of bullshit in the past two chapters but i still have some new fuckery to introduce. i hope you are all excited for this

Anonymous said: would any other human be able to learn to speak in the second intonation in the msa au? Did msa deku learn the second intonation from someone, or is it just something he's always known?

1) good question! i haven’t decided yet. 2) he learned from someone else! who you will find out soon

Anonymous said: me: nobody has to get owned today. please, please put down the markers and step back msa izuku: Fuck oyu.

i totlaly forgot this was a thing but you know what? yeah. im laughing this is such a fitting quote

Anonymous said: you know by far one of the best aspects of msa izuku is just. He is a constant Power Move. and yet he would probs hate that. like this boy wants to be left alone and get some fuckin peace but in all his interactions whether he intends to or not he just fuckin busts a fuckin Move and its like holy shit holy fucking shit he did that.he did That. He doesnt want to do That he doesnt even realize its happening and thats why its a fuckin Power Move. Love this au i LOVE ur work and love ur storytelling

reminds me of @salvainterra‘s description of izuku: “izuku is both an unstoppable force and an immovable object and its through this paradoxical existence that hes reached the ultimate tier of not giving a fuck. good on him”

thats the secret behind it all!

Anonymous said: I love msa chapter five but I'm so worried about Izuku. He's a single teen parent of two now and he keeps missing school, how will he graduate and get in a position to follow his dreams of being alone and doing calligraphy if he misses so much of school that he doesn't get a diploma???

he will be ok! 

hey im really laughing at this because youre really including rappa as one of the people izuku adopted?? is this a thing now?? 

Anonymous said: (in msa) I am so glad you had Izuku save Eri omg. that poor child has been through enough (but also, omg the suffering you're putting Izuku through (it's great, keep going)). I'm super keen to see where you take this!!

i know im really putting izuku through the paces. while i was writing the first half of ch5 i kept telling myself that this was all for eri’s sake but MAN that was dark

thank you! im excited to pull some more bullshit. im glad you’ve been enjoying the story so far!

Anonymous said: Me reading the new msa chapter: ‘a family can be a Kirin, a girl who can disintegrate people, a supernatural teenager, a street brawler and perpetual sadness’ seriously tho it was really great and I loved it!!!

MFLNDLFKSDJF AND PERPETUAL SADNESS IM LOSING IT!!!

don’t forget the mysterious shadow spirit who may or may not be a cat 

i’m really glad you liked the chapter!!

Anonymous said: bc of allmights style i think of one for all's spirit just being a fucking american on the fourth of july with american flags everywhere and waving a minature flag threateningly and i cant stop thinking about it....

fortunately for us, that is incorrect 

Anonymous said: "Okay I've finally caught up on the backlog of work I've got, let's check in on my favourite blog and writer SIMKJRS and see what they're up to recently." *sees that you updated like a week ago* aaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

jflskdfj glad you’re excited for this!! i know i only update like once in a blue moon, 

Anonymous said: hey i just want to say that i love everything about msa; the writing, the story, the imagery, ALL OF IT thank you for making such a wonderful gift!

thank you!! im grateful for your support <3

[astrofireworks]

okay so my club just got a rly sus email invite this morning to perform at some event on wall street next week and we were like 👀👀 that’s really sus there’s no introduction explaining what this event is about so we google it and it deadass is a dating mingle for ‘single rich asians aged 25 - 35 seeking marriage in upcoming 1-3 years’ and i just 

consider this: a binu version 

so eunwoo’s relatively good with money 

and by relatively good i mean this boy is a banker he handles money for a living 

and so he’s also relatively busy, given that, you know, he has to handle a lot of money for a living 

and he doesn’t really have time to date 

and his mum is concerned ! bc: “you know, son, you gotta get married at some point??”

eunwoo: :^( no i don’t but okay mum whatever you say

mum: “alright good and bring your brother too god knows the both of you can get out more,”

and so she signs them up for this speed dating thing 

and when he gets the invite in the mail he nearly chokes on his morning coffee 

because it says:

i shit you not my entire e-board chat collectively choked

eunwoo: oh 

wow strong hint mum thanks

but he’s also promised his mum bc he’s a good kid so 

okay so 

jinjin: “hey yall i just got this rly weird invite in my inbox this morning take a look”

“hi jinjin, we are hosting an event catering to a group of high net worth individuals and celebrity influencers aged 25 - 35. will your group be available for a 5 - 10 minute routine? location will be xx wall street, from 6 - 8pm. thanks! regards, mj.”

jinjin: “???????????????? there’s literally no introduction i have no idea what this event is”

rocky: “that’s really sus, let’s not??”

rocko: “also i googled it and get this”

rocko: “it’s deadass,,”

rocko: “a marriage-oriented dating event”

rocko: “for rich asians”

jinjin:

bin:

bin: “rich asians”

bin: “aka sugar daddies hello??”

rocko spluttering bc wow bin that’s the first thing you think of???

bin: “jk but does this at least mean we get paid”

jinjin emailing them back and getting a reply that indeed, they will get paid 

bin: :~) well then 

and so the day of the event arrives 

eunwoo and sanha arriving in suits

you know that one photo of eunwoo yeah this one 

lordt what a look

it’s a pretty big ballroom thing, eunwoo wants to say

there’s food and a bar and a stage and,,,,, a lot of well-dressed people 

sanha wondering how much money it took to host the event 

eunwoo sighing 

eunwoo mingling and talking to people and being beautiful and bored

because yeah sure, eunwoo knows and understands the importance of networking 

but networking for business

not spouse-shopping 

and the way some of these people look???

ie, cold and calculating and like they’re trying to figure out sanha’s net worth????

he’s okay if they do it to him bc he’s fairly used to it given that he’s been to a ridiculous amount of banking events but 

his brother is not something you can buy, thanks !!!!!

eunwoo is Not Interested 

bin and rocko and jinjin backstage murmuring to each other

because everyone here looks loaded af??

rocko: “do you think if we talked to them they’d be able to buy us filming equipment so we can film proper dance covers???”

bin: “wow and u snorted @ me when i mentioned sugar daddies-”

jinjin looking in slight disbelief 

eunwoo some distance off, nudging sanha: “hey buddy we’ve been here for half an hour we can lie to mum and tell her we stayed for two hours but nobody interesting came do you wanna go and get fried chicken or”

sanha: chICKEN yEs :D 

eunwoo sighing in relief bc thank god if he catches anyone else eyeing either him or sanha up and down again he might tear someone’s neck off

he knows he’s beautiful but no thanks 

but before he can turn to look for the exit, the lights dim 

eunwoo: ???? btch now what

mj: “now, welcoming our first performers of the night!”

eunwoo & sanha: ?????

polite clapping accompanying the starting notes of gashina echoing from the stage 

sanha about to ask eunwoo if he still wants to leave for chicken but his eyes go to the three guys on stage and 

holy heck 

by the way more shameless self promotion if you haven’t seen our cover of gashina here it is :~)

if you haven’t seen this clip of bin dancing to gashina don’t watch it my heart stopped about five times 

eunwoo swears his heart stopped about five times too 

because whoever that guy is in the centre ???? 👀

is singularly the most attractive person eunwoo has ever set eyes on in his life 

holy shit

the way his shoulders move???

the way his face goes from smiling and cute when his long fingers are framing his face to dead serious and rly rly hot when he does the finger gun thing??????

beep beep time to cHOKE

sanha’s jaw dropping open bc ??????? that one guy ?? on the right??????????

with his cheek bones?????? and his glare ???????????????????

lordt sanha’s pretty sure if his heart could jump out of his chest it’d run straight to that guy in the back 

his moves ??? are so smooth ???? sanha could cry?????

eunwoo being almost mournful that the song is coming to an end bc ???? he’d like to see more of that guy thanks

sanha clutching eunwoo’s sleeve: “let’s go,”

eunwoo: :~( okay yeah 

except sanha isn’t pulling him towards the exit he’s pulling eunwoo towards the stage

eunwoo: ??????

and the next thing he knows, he’s face to face with the dancers and sanha’s pulling out his Full Beam 

sanha: HI HELLO I’M SANHA i think you look really cool when you dance!!!!

rocky:

rocky:

rocky: um hi 

rocky glancing at bin in a panic bc ??? what this is his first time talking to a cute guy pls send help bin !!

except bin’s staring at someone else rip 

he looks expensive, that’s for sure

i mean, everyone in the entire hall does, but this man ?? probably an angel 

“so uh,,, nice dance?”

bin:

eunwoo:

bin:

eunwoo: wow i fked up of course it was a nice danc-

bin, blurting: “wow even ur voice is beautiful what the heckity”

bin cringing @ himself wow thanks bin !

eunwoo doing his embarrassed smile 

jinjin off to the side staring at his kids in disbelief 

binu smiling dumbly at each other and eunwoo pulling out his phone to ask for bin’s number

rocky blushing and floundering and trying to figure out a coherent response to sanha 

wow 

he didn’t expect this to happen when they accepted some sus invitation for a speed dating thing 

bonus:

mj asking for jinjin’s number bc he has to sort out payment things!!

jinjin: “but you have my emai-”

mj: “buT YOUR NUMBER!!!!” 

sadly it’s smack in the middle of finals season so alas i cannot go out to meet rich asian sugar daddies 心痛 ;A;

[smuttyfairy]

Broken Down Chlorophyll

Prologue to Frozen Water Vapor Genre: Angst

Summary: It was butterfly kisses and everlasting vows. Now it’s awkward good nights and halfhearted hugs. Minds will change, and others will not. It was bound to happen, Kris should have known. As much as he wanted you to himself, he finds you slipping from his fingers, into another’s arms. ( Kris x Reader, Chanyeol x Reader) Warnings: Implied Cheating, Toxic Behavior, Verbal Abuse Word Count: 3340

Written by: Admin Jaefairy A/N:  This is another personal story from my ChanJaebaek AU. I changed the s/o to Kris, and fiddled a bit with the story.  You guys always ask for more angst, so here you go babes. <3

You said that it was to save on the bills, but Kris knew something wasn’t right as soon as you came home. You walked into the small bedroom with your hood up, flicking the light switch off. You always wore hoodies, and Kris knew it was a comfort mechanism. From the tightly worn bandanas, to every hoodie in your closet. You had to cover your body. He remembered, when he first asked you to move in, the hesitation in your voice. You protested for a few days before Kris came to your home and packed your small amount of belongings into his car, along with you, back to his home. You broke your lease, and he gave you a roof, free of charge. Kris never wanted to fix you, that wasn’t his job. He wanted you to be somewhere familiar, with someone that loved you. For the few years you two knew each other, Kris understood your anxiety. He understood you tried to cope with it, since therapy was too expensive. You knew this was a bad idea, you could feel sooner or later that the walls of your foundation would crumble into nothing, leaving what was left of you and Kris in broken pieces. Nonetheless, he reassured you he would be there for you. You wouldn’t do this alone. He thought it would help you open up, and for a while It did. You would come home from work or classes, take off your hoodie and your jeans and walk around. You wouldn’t lay in a bed lifeless and lull into a long sleep. You would crawl into Kris’s lap while he was listening to a random album on the stereo. Your arms would wrap around his neck and you would tell your lover about anything. He’d listen, mumble something awkward and snuggle into your neck. It felt so surreal and foreign. You felt safe, that you weren’t doing anything wrong. It was nice, being so close, so loved for so long. Once a new semester started, and the leaves turned colors, things between you two seem to change. Kris picked up more hours producing for his friend Tao, and you decided to leave your job to pursue school full time for a few semesters. Staying up in the bed you shared, you would wait. It wasn’t as if Kris ignored you, oh no. He’d text you at least once an hour, the sinking feeling that would grow in your chest dissolved with each text. You knew it was a bad habit, you knew your self hate and low self esteem could ruin things if you weren’t careful. So you were careful. If you got jealous or scared, you’d bottle it up. Hiding your fears behind a heart emoji. Those night were the hardest, when you were alone in your thoughts and the bad ones kept you company when Kris couldn’t. Then you found yourself meeting someone new. Not as in a new boyfriend, but just someone new. Someone different. Baekhyun, your best friend, had a roommate named Chanyeol. You would talk to him in the hallway before physics some days. He was funny, awkward and clumsy. You both were very much alike. Messy hair, hoodies. Same taste in music, same taste in film. It was like having a twin. Baekhyun noticed how well you both complimented each other when he found out you two exchanged movies every other week. It was something to watch on Kris’s late nights, and you found a few new favorites. Suddenly Chanyeol was joining you two on hangouts, inviting you over to their apartment, and your duo became a trio. Those long nights, waiting for a text from Kris or distracting yourself from negative voices in your head become easier to bear. Some nights you’d vent to Chanyeol. You’d just type 5 pages full of texts over everything that was spilling. The way Kris would lose his patience with you, how you couldn’t figure out what major to pick, how you kept a razor in your backpack. Just in case. He would listen, and text you back everything that he was bottling up. It felt reassuring, you weren’t alone. Chanyeol would keep you company on those nights staying up was torture, you’d stay up waiting for Kris until you realized you didn’t need to. That night, it was Kris’s turn to wait for you. He got off early and decided to surprise him, but you were late. You didn’t come home til 9pm, which was weird since your school day ended about 4pm. “Is everything okay? We don’t need to worry about the electricity bill.” Kris gave a reassuring smile in the dark, trying to mask his concern. You flipped the switch to the bedroom back on, pulling your hood down. Your hair slipped out, bandana falling to the ground. “Everything’s okay.” You said before taking your hoodie off and dropping it on the floor. Walking out of the room, you took off your shirt and headed to the bathroom. The sound of the shower was heard softly. Kris leaned back, letting his head hit the wall gently. You two weren’t perfect, you had fights and arguments but they always came back from them. He could tell that tonight was going to end in a fight. As Kris got up, he heard a loud buzz. He looked around the room, stopping at your hoodie. He lifted it up, catching your phone as it slipped out the front pocket. He saw that you had 15 unread messages. The lock screen was a picture of the two of you. Kris was holding you from behind, his face next to yours. Your hair was let free, falling in front of your face. You had wide smiles. Happy ones. After three attempts at your password (anniversary, Kris’s birthday, and then finally the date you met) he was open to the home screen. You were in your black hoodie, an exaggerated frown on his face. On one side was your friend Baekhyun, hugging you. Kris had met him a few times, and knew his voice from the hour long phone calls you two would have four to five times a week. On the other side was an unfamiliar guy. He was taller than Kris and had a mop of brown hair. His wavy hair stuck out slightly, but it didn’t hide his wide ears. His lips were on your cheek, his arms wrapped around your upper body. Kris felt jealousy grow in his stomach. You never talked much about your friends, was it because you were hiding something? He tapped the yellow message button and opened the inbox. There were 9 unread messages from Baekhyun and 6 from someone named Chanyeol. *[ Byun Baek ] 4:20pm: Where did you and Chan go? I saw him pulling you away. I thought we were gonna hang out? *[ Byun Baek ] 4:40pm: Y/n, yo you guys need to come back. *[ Byun Baek ] 5:30pm: Tao and Luhan saw you guys ;) I’m soooo telling Kris. *[ Byun Baek ] 7:05pm: Where are you? We’ve been looking for you. :((( Y/nnnnnnnn <3 Call me, pls. We can talk about this. *[ Byun Baek ] 8:23pm: You haven’t been happy lately, I know Chanyeol wasn’t trying to make things worse for you. Please call me or him, I just need to know you’re okay. *[ Byun Baek ] 8:40pm: Chanyeol told me he found you. : ( I love you Y/n <3 I’ll stop by in the morning and we can talk. You didn’t do anything bad, okay? In his chest he felt something twist and break. He didn’t want to check Chanyeol’s messages, but Kris knew when he was angry, he was weak. He scrolled up, going from the first thing you said that day. [Park Chanyeol] 2:45pm: Aft class we’re meeting up w/ Baek, right? [Park Chanyeol] 2:50 pm: I can see you ignoring me.  > U <  Yah, you like pissing me off. [L/n F/n] 2:51pm: When you use that face, ofc <3 & Yeah. Baek and I were gonna gonna chill at the park. You’re invited (sorta). c: [Park Chanyeol] 2:51pm: Sorta? I’m always invited. I’m Baek’s best friend. [Park Chanyeol] 2:52pm: You’re just the shortie that gets lost in the crowd. [L/n F/n] 2:55pm: LOOK, YOU TALL TREE. We’re going to the right place, I’m gonna leave you with your family in the forest. >w> [Park Chanyeol] 2:56pm: No you won’t, you’d miss me. <3 [L/n F/n] 2:58pm: Will I? <3 [Park Chanyeol] 3:00pm: of course you will, dork. [L/n F/n] 3:01pm: Class is starting, pay attention and stop looking at me >//w//> [Park Chanyeol] 3:04pm: If I don’t? [L/n F/n] 3:04pm: I’ll get Kris to beat you up. :< You’re being mean. [Park Chanyeol] 3:05pm: I’m not afraid of him. [Park Chanyeol] 3:16pm: Hey, can I talk to you about something before we meet up with Baekhyun? [L/n F/n] 3:30pm: Yeah o.o you okay? :c [Park Chanyeol] 3:34pm: Yeah, I just wanted to talk to you! We don’t talk alone much anymore. [L/n F/n] 3:40pm: Maybe because we have more classes together this semester. o: you don’t have to find me in the hall to talk. Besides we text everyday so :P [L/n F/n] 3:55pm: I’m heading out earlier, meet me outside the cafeteria in 10? [Park Chanyeol] 3:55pm: I’ll be right behind you o: Kris heard the shower turn off and scrolled to the unread messages, a breath of relief as he heard you brushing his teeth. *[Park Chanyeol] 5:43pm: Y/n where are you? *[Park Chanyeol] 5:45pm: Hey, please come back. Please. I didn’t think that would happen. *[Park Chanyeol] 5:47pm: I thought you would have rejected me, I just needed to get it off my chest. *[Park Chanyeol] 6:00 pm: Me and Baek are looking for you. Y/n come back to campus. *[Park Chanyeol] 6:15pm: You can’t run away from me, okay? I won’t let you bottle up everything. You can do that with Kris, talk to me. *[Park Chanyeol] 6:45pm: Everytime he would dismiss you and disregard your feelings, I knew you were upset. I didn’t let you walk away without a smile on your face. I love you. *[Park Chanyeol] 7:00pm: Y/n, I know he loves you, and you love him. If you choose him, that’s fine. Just…I want you to be okay. Please come back. Please be safe. *[Park Chanyeol] 8:30pm: I see you. All Kris could do was throw the phone on the bed. He had to breathe. He had to count. If he was gonna talk to you about this, he had to be calm. He knew that he was quick to anger. Anytime he snapped during a fight, you would leave and come back a few hours later. He was always forgiving and always willing to say sorry. Kris wasn’t a complete asshole, but he could be stubborn sometimes. He didn’t notice, but once the fights got worse, you started wearing hoodies around the house with sweatpants. When you were cuddled on the couch with him, you would go to bed early some nights. Kris felt like it was nearing the end. You found someone that made you feel like Kris did at one point. The door opened slowly, you were wearing a baggy hoodie with shorts. Your head was covered with a towel. Kris turned around, anger still boiling in his chest. Your dull eyes met Kris’s. Your eyes were bloodshot and puffy. He took everything in. Kris gazed at your neck. If he didn’t see the texts, he would have thought an animal mauled your neck. The dark red bruises littered one side of your neck. You tied up your hoodie, the stare in Kris’s eyes was enough. “We need to talk.” You murmured, your teeth digging into your bottom lip. “..You don’t have to tell me anything. I saw the texts.” You looked up at him in disbelief. “Kris, we said we wouldn’t-” “Why haven’t you brought up Chanyeol? Who is he?” “He’s a friend..” Kris turned around, an irritated sigh escaping his mouth. “Is he? He seems pretty friendly with you. Why does he know about our problems? Is he your shoulder you cry on?” “He’s gonna be my new boyfriend if you don’t calm down.” You glared at the back of his head. The stress of today came back boiling up. You wanted to calmly talk about it, but there was no calm with Kris. “He’s already your new boyfriend, look at your fucking neck! Good thing I was on your mind when you wanted to cheat on me.” The sarcasm in his voice stung, and you shoved him out of the way of the bed. You picked up your phone and went to the closet. As soon as Kris saw the pile of clothes, his heart stopped. This might as well have been the end. “Baby...baby stop please.” He begged, holding your upper arm. “ Don’t talk to me..” You pulled him off, “Y/n!!” Kris grabbed you from behind. You shook in his arms, tears dropping onto Kris’s skin. “ You, baby… What happened..? You used to be so open with me…what happened?” He turned you around, pulling the hoodie down. Kris noticed how sore your lips were, and his heart began to boil again. He kissed you, holding you as tightly as he could. You kissed back for a short moment. “I don’t know..It’s not you. I get standoffish and feel like I’m bothering people after awhile so I pull myself inward.. every time I tried to tell you you’d get angry.. It makes it hard to talk to you. ” You looked up at Kris, holding his cheek. You kissed him deeply, leading him to your bed. Kris’s bed. He kissed your lips with fervor and you gently held your arms around Kris’s neck. Leaning back, Kris crawled on top. He lifted your hoodie off and accepted Kris’s lips on his neck. He kissed and licked the hickeys, as if to mock Chanyeol. You sighed, your fingers grasping the cloth of Kris’s shirt. Once Kris reached your breast, you stopped him. There was no feeling for you. You felt cold and tired. “Kris, I want to take a break.” The words hit Kris’s chest like a sharp paring knife, as if it was carving a hole in his heart. He stood up, running a hand through his fingers. You slipped your hoodie back on and texted Baekhyun. [L/n F/n] 11:22pm: Can I crash at you and Chan’s? I told Kris I need a break. [Byun Baek] 11:23pm: Shit. my ship is sailing and I get to have you stay at my place? Leggo. :D [L/n F/n] 11:23pm: Come asap. Kris’s mad. [Byun Baek] 11:24pm: Okay, Chanyeol is on his way. [L/n F/n] 11:24pm: I texted YOU. Not CHANYEOL. [Byun Baek] 11:24pm: I know, but I was so thirsty. I felt like some tea. <3 Talk to you soon, new roomie :D As you were texting your friend, Kris was trying to convince him to stay. He said he would get counseling, you said it wouldn’t help long. You would say it’s not the end, and Kris would say it might as well be.  You packed a duffle bag and placed it at the front door, Kris begging you to stay. “Where are you going to stay?” Kris asked, pulling the bag out of your hand. “I’m staying with Baek and his roommate.” You pulled it back, glaring at him. He didn’t dare touch it again. “Who’s his roommate?” “Kris, if you keep this up..” “Y/n, who is his roommate?” You turned around. Your cheeks were stained with tears. A sudden knock deferred his answer, and you walked to the door. You looked at Kris and bit down on your lip. “Kris, I’m not gonna make a decision anytime soon. I’m not leaving you, but I need some time to figure out myself. I’ve always been this way and I need to fix myself. You assumed me moving in would be a good idea and no matter how much I protested you didn’t listen. I knew this was going to happen.” Your voice choked at the last word. As much as you wanted to console your ex, you knew it was best to let him be. Anything he did while he was angry would add salt to the wound. You opened the door, Chanyeol stood there in a purple hoodie and black shorts. He took your bag, and looked beyond you for a moment. He made eye contact with Kris. An awkward tense air spread through the room like wildfire. The two made straight for each other. “You motherfucker, if you touch-” Kris moved closer to the door, his voice a lower octave and dripping with rage. Chanyeol stepped closer, accepting Kris’s challenge and cutting him off. “If you were a good boyfri-” You yelled, startling the other two. You pointed to Kris. “You. I’ll call you in a few days, I promise. Just give me some time. ” You then turned to Chanyeol, a smirk growing on the taller face. He couldn’t resist the pout on your face when you were angry. “You go to the car, I’ll be there in a minute. Wipe that smirk off your face too.”   Chanyeol nodded, a long finger trailing your neck. He looked at Kris one last time, mouthing out “I did that.” You hit his arm and pointed towards the exit. “Out, Park Chanyeol.” “Oh man, I’m gonna get it tonight.” “I wish Baekhyun came instead..” “I love you too, Y/n.” He laughed, waving at Kris with a wide grin.   You slammed the door in his face and walked over to Kris. The air between you felt larger than it was. “He’s charming.” Kris said sarcastically. “Like you can do better.” You laughed lightly, trying to lighten the mood. “I can do better than you.” He snapped, looking away from you. He didn’t need to see the tears that welled up in your eyes to know he fucked up. “I’m breaking up with you, Kris. I’ll get the rest of my stuff later.” With that you left the apartment, walked down the hallway, and took the stairs. If Kris ran after you it would be faster taking the stairs. He ran out the apartment building and into Chanyeol’s silver Mazda. When you slipped on your seat belt, Chanyeol wasn’t joke and giggles. He could tell the mood in your aura. He rubbed your thigh and drove towards the apartment. As you got closer to the apartment, you opened your mouth. “Hey Chan?” “Hm?” He drummed his fingers on the wheel as the light turned red. “If you ever want to be a homewrecker again, give me a heads up.” You chuckled softly. “How can I wreck my own relationship?” He gave a mischievous smirk, and it melted you. You didn’t want to admit it, but Chanyeol had a way of making you smile like no one else did. “Who said I was gonna date you?” You smirked, watching the cars pass by as Chanyeol drove through the now green light. “Your neck.” “….Did I ever tell you how cute I think Baekhyun is?” “Hey, I call dibs on Baekhyun.” “You’re gonna have to share.” “We can arrange that.” He grinned at you, turning onto his street. “What?” You bursted out laughing. “What? I thought it was a good idea..” He rubbed your thigh, smiling warmly at you. Your cheeks got warm and you found yourself turning away, hiding your face. The sudden exchange made your heart flutter, and relieved some tension. As Chanyeol drove into the parking garage of the college apartments, you felt at ease in his presence. You were ready to end this chapter, and start a new one.