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[ppg-villains-defense-lawyer]

With how wonky FFN has been this last week, I was a little afraid about posting a new chapter today. But at the same time, I don’t know when it’s going to get fixed and the chapter was ready, so... hopefully it will all work out

[aishangotome]

Minamoto no Yoshitsune: Chapter 12

Chapter 11

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Yoichi: Then, how about having Yoshino treat it?

Yoichi: That wouldn't be a problem, would it?

Yoshitsune: What?

Yoshino: Huh?

My voice and Yoshitsune-sama's overlapped perfectly at Yoichi-san's suggestion.

Yoshino: Treat it... You mean me treating Yoshitsune-sama!?

Yoshitsune: Yoichi, what are you saying? There's no way I can let her do that.

When I looked at Yoshitsune-sama, he had a rare look of confusion on his face.

Yoichi-san pointed a finger at Yoshitsune-sama.

Yoichi: If you leave that wound alone, someone might notice it.

Yoichi: There's a limit to what you can do to treat it yourself.

Yoichi: The best way to deal with it without the vassals noticing is to ask Yoshino.

Yoshitsune: I'm holding Yoshino as a hostage. I didn't bring her here as a healer.

(I was surprised, but...)

(If we don't do anything, the wound could get worse, right?)

I made up my mind and spoke.

Yoshino: Yoshitsune-sama, please let me treat it.

Yoshitsune: Yoshino.

Yoshitsune: Do you understand what you're saying?

Yoshino: ...I do.

Yoshino: You have helped me many times, Yoshitsune-sama.

Yoshino: Precisely because we are enemies, I think this is the last chance I have to repay your kindness.

I looked at Yoshitsune-sama's face with a bit of nervousness.

Yoshino: So that I won't have any regrets... Please allow me to act as your healer now.

(Because if we go to war, we will fight and hurt each other.)

Yoshitsune: ...Very well.

Yoshitsune: As a patient, I will allow you to treat me.

Yoshitsune-sama looked directly into my eyes.

Yoshitsune: Thank you for your offer, Yoshino.

(Thank goodness...)

--CHOICES--

Sincerely...

Please leave it to me

I hope we can get along well

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Yoshino: Yes, please leave it to me!

Yoshitsune: I'm the one who should be asking you for that favor.

Yoichi-san, who had been watching, grinned.

Yoichi: Well then, I'll keep watch in the hallway. Call me if you need anything.

Prompted by Yoichi-san, we headed to Yoshitsune-sama's room.

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(So this is where Yoshitsune-sama lives...)

The setting sun began to color the room, which was beautifully decorated with fine furnishings.

I naturally straightened my back in Yoshitsune-sama's room, which I was visiting for the first time.

Yoshitsune: Then, may I treat you?

Yoshino: ...Yes.

Yoshitsune-sama casually opened his kimono.

His toned body came into view, and for some reason, I felt like I had seen something I shouldn't have.

(This is not the time to be flustered. I need to focus on the treatment.)

(But still... what a terrible wound.)

The wound was deeper than I thought, and it must be quite painful even with the slightest movement.

I carefully washed the wound, applied medicine, and wrapped it with a fresh cloth.

Yoshitsune: Nn..

I stopped my hand as Yoshitsune-sama slightly furrowed his brow.

Yoshino: I'm sorry, did that hurt?

Yoshitsune: ...No, it's fine.

Yoshitsune-sama answered calmly, but there was a thin layer of sweat on his forehead.

(It must really hurt.)

Yoshino: I'll finish soon, so please bear with me a little longer.

The treatment was soon finished, and I started cleaning up.

Yoshitsune-sama, who had put on a new kimono, was expressionless as usual.

(It will take some time for Yoshitsune-sama's injury to fully heal.)

(To think he was trying to endure such a terrible wound without anyone knowing...)

There is a line between us that must not be crossed.

Yet, the rising impulse opened my lips.

Yoshino: ...Yoshitsune-sama.

Yoshitsune: What is it?

Yoshino: Please, don't push yourself too hard.

Yoshitsune: .....

Yoshino: We are enemies. No matter how hard we try, that cannot be changed.

Yoshino: That's why I couldn't wish you safety when you went to the battlefield.

Yoshino: But now, seeing you injured in front of me... I regret it.

Yoshitsune: ....Yoshino.

He looked down at the arm I had just treated.

Yoshino: I want you to take better care of yourself, Yoshitsune-sama.

Yoshitsune: I cannot do that.

Yoshino: Why...?

Yoshitsune: Because I cannot defeat Lord Yoritomo unless I risk everything.

Yoshitsune: If I lose, everything will be taken away. I've had enough of that experience once.

His voice was filled with unwavering determination.

(I... I'm sure no one can stop him.)

Yoshino: What happened between you and Yoritomo-sama in the past...?

My reason whispered that I shouldn't ask, that I shouldn't pry.

But the impulse to know overwhelmed it like a storm, disturbing my heart.

Yoshino: Why do you two have to fight so hard, even if it means suffering so much?

Yoshitsune: ......................

(...The silence is as heavy as lead.)

Something contradictory, like a frozen flame, burned in Yoshitsune-sama's eyes.

After a while, Yoshitsune-sama opened his mouth.

Yoshitsune: Once, my father--that is, the leader of the Minamoto clan, who was also Yoritomo-sama's father,

Yoshitsune: Was defeated in battle by the Taira clan and executed.

(That's...)

Yoshino: ...Even I, who am ignorant of current affairs, have vaguely heard about it.

Yoshino: The Taira clan, who defeated the Minamoto clan, flourished for a while, but were eventually defeated by the Minamoto clan again.

(But, I see.)

(You both lost your father in such a terrible way...)

I hesitated but continued to ask questions.

Yoshino: At what age did this happen to you, Yoshitsune-sama?

Yoshitsune: I was so young that I don't remember. So I didn't learn the details until much later.

Yoshino: At such a young age...

Yoshino: You must have gone through a lot of hardship.

Yoshitsune: For me and Yoritomo-sama, the sons of a defeated commander, it was fortunate that we were not killed.

Yoshino: ...To think that even children would be killed if they lost...

(Is that what it means to be born as the son of a samurai leader?)

Terrified and saddened, I bit my lip tightly.

Yoshitsune: In my case, my life was spared because my mother became a concubine of the leader of the Taira clan.

Yoshitsune: I've heard that my mother was a great beauty, but I don't remember her face, just like my executed father.

Yoshitsune: I was separated from my mother and confined to Kurama Temple.

Yoshino: Kurama Temple...

Yoshitsune: I've talked about it before.

Yoshino: Yes, when we met in the garden at night.

**Flashback**

Yoshitsune: Before I could even remember, I was left at Kurama Temple.

Yoshitsune: I don't even remember my parents' faces now.

Yoshitsune: I grew up not knowing my origins, but I could sense that I was shunned.

Yoshino: It's surprising. I never imagined Yoshitsune-sama had such a past...

Yoshitsune: Really?

Yoshino: ...Yes.

Yoshitsune: I learned later that there were various reasons for it.

**Flashback over**

(At that time, I wondered why Yoshitsune-sama was shunned.)

(He was treated like a plague because he was a child of the Minamoto clan.)

(He was still a young child, unable to rely on anyone, and on top of that, he was targeted by ayakashi...)

My heart ached terribly when I thought about Yoshitsune-sama back then.

Yoshitsune: In my life at Kurama Temple, where I had no place to belong,

Yoshitsune: I eventually met a yamabushi who had ties to the Minamoto clan and learned of my origins.

Yoshino: ...How did you feel?

I asked timidly.

Yoshitsune: I was surprised but also convinced.

Yoshitsune: I was sure that my place was not there, so I decided to leave the temple.

Yoshitsune-sama slowly spun his words as if remembering the past.

Yoshitsune: The Oshu Fujiwara clan accepted me, who had nothing.

Yoshino: That's why Yoshitsune-sama is based in Hiraizumi, Oshu.

Yoshitsune: That's right. I made many connections here.

(And it became an important place for Yoshitsune-sama.)

Yoshitsune-sama's tone softened a little when he talked about Hiraizumi.

Yoshitsune: But I will leave Oshu again.

Yoshitsune: Because I learned that my half-brother, who was exiled to Izu, was planning to raise an army.

Yoshino: ...Yoritomo-sama was going to fight the Taira clan again.

Yoshitsune: Yes.

Yoshitsune: So I rushed to Yoritomo-sama and fought the Taira clan together.

Yoshino: But why did you do that, even though you had never met Yoritomo-sama before?

On the battlefield, you're always close to death.

I've only been on the battlefield once, but I've learned that all too well.

(Even though he's your brother, to risk your life for someone you've never met...)

Yoshitsune: I wanted to meet someone with the same blood flowing through their veins.

Yoshitsune: I felt that if I did, I would know who I was.

Yoshino: Yoshitsune-sama...

I was startled by his slightly lower voice than usual.

(I see. For Yoshitsune-sama, who had a lonely childhood, blood ties were very important...)

Yoshitsune: I was happy when I met Yoritomo-sama.

Yoshitsune: Even though our personalities were completely different, I felt like we had something in common...

Yoshitsune: Ah, I truly felt that this person was really my brother.

Yoshino: And then you two started fighting together.

Yoshitsune: Yes.

His long eyelashes drooped melancholically.

Yoshitsune: It was a foolish decision, looking back now.

Yoshitsune: I respected Yoritomo-sama, who had everything I lacked, and fought on the battlefield, wanting to be of help.

Yoshitsune: Before I knew it, there were people behind me who admired me as a commander.

Yoshitsune: A great number of comrades who believe in me and follow me.

(Yoshitsune-sama was born with a different soul.)

(For Yoshitsune-sama, the bond with his vassals might be more important than anything else.)

(But Yoritomo-sama...)

Something we talked about at the festival the other day crossed my mind.

Yoshino: After the war with the Taira clan... you said you were banished, Yoshitsune-sama.

Yoshitsune: Yes.

Yoshitsune: When I was abandoned by my blood brother, it was a shock like being thrown into the bottom of a valley.

Yoshitsune: But even more than that...

Yoshitsune: I couldn't forgive the fact that my vassals, who had fought so hard in the war, were trampled and killed by Yoritomo-sama's orders.

(Ah...)

Yoshitsune-sama's fists were clenched so tightly that his knuckles turned white.

(Yoshitsune-sama is always so straightforward with people...)

(He must have been deeply hurt when he became enemies with Yoritomo-sama, whom he respected.)

(But...)

I hesitated as I looked at Yoshitsune-sama.

Yoshino: I haven't been involved with the shogunate for very long.

Yoshino: But I can't believe Yoritomo-sama would do such a thing for no reason.

Yoritomo-sama has two sides to him, and it's hard to grasp his true intentions, but I know now that he is also a very fair person.

(What could have caused the two of you to drift apart...?)

Yoshitsune: The time for thinking about such things is over.

Yoshitsune-sama answered coldly, as if facing the question he had asked himself hundreds of times.

Yoshitsune: I know. He would sacrifice ten thousand lives for a hundred thousand.

Yoshitsune: But...

Yoshitsune: If those ten thousand include the people I hold dear, I must take up my sword.

Although his expression didn't change, Yoshitsune-sama harbored deep anger and sorrow.

Yoshino: Aren't you... scared?

(To fight against the brother you once respected, carrying the lives of everyone on your shoulders.)

(To engage in a life-or-death struggle on the battlefield.)

Yoshitsune: I have never felt fear, not even once, in the midst of the harshest battles.

Yoshino: Not even once...?

The image of Yoshitsune-sama, with his overwhelming power and fighting like a demon of war, vividly resurfaced.

(Is that why he fights so recklessly?)

Yoshitsune: Even when I was on the verge of death, the feeling I felt was not fear.

Yoshitsune: It was only the intense lingering attachment that burned through my body that kept me alive.

(His eyes... He's serious.)

Yoshino: That's why you rose again, Yoshitsune-sama, and challenged Yoritomo-sama to battle...

(Just for the vassals who believe in you.)

Before I knew it, my eyes were burning with tears.

I don't know what emotions caused it, but I couldn't look away from Yoshitsune-sama.

Yoshitsune: Death comes to everyone eventually.

Yoshitsune: That's why I don't hesitate to burn this life.

Yoshino: But then, where is your peace and happiness, Yoshitsune-sama...?

Yoshitsune: It's enough for me if the people around me are happy.

(Why...?)

Yoshino: That way of life... is too sad!

I clenched my fingers tightly, trying to hold back the overflowing emotions.

(I... I mustn't shed tears.)

(Because we don't have that kind of relationship.)

My palms, where my nails dug in, hurt, but my chest felt like it would burst even more.

(...Why do I feel this way?)

Yoshitsune: I don't feel sad. At least not now.

Yoshino: Huh...?

My bewildered figure wavered in Yoshitsune-sama's eyes, which seemed to draw me in.

Yoshitsune: People say I have a talent for war.

Yoshitsune: But that's probably because I was born incomplete in some way.

Yoshino: N-no way...

(I wish I could deny it.)

I was afraid when I saw Yoshitsune-sama fighting, but through unexpected events, I gradually got to know him...

And I learned about his incredibly sad past.

(That's why I realized it.)

(Yoshitsune-sama... is indeed someone who lacks something crucial.)

(Even though he lacks it, he is strong, straightforward, and beautiful.)

Yoshitsune: Now I think this way.

Yoshitsune: I must have been born incomplete to protect the things I hold dear.

Yoshino: ...Yoshitsune-sama, is that okay with you?

Yoshitsune: ––It doesn't matter.

His voice, quiet as the wind before a storm, made my skin crawl.

Yoshitsune: This life, this body... even my soul, is not mine.

(Yoshitsune-sama and I are too different in our origins, our lives, and our ways of thinking.)

If we had lived normal lives, our paths would never have crossed.

(But we met. In the worst possible way, as enemies.)

Yoshino: ....Yoshitsune-sama.

I slowly exhaled and calmed my heart.

Yoshino: I understand your feelings. There's nothing more I can say...

Yoshino: But please, just this one thing. This is a request from the healer who treated you.

Suppressing my personal feelings, I searched for the right words.

Yoshino: Please rest for a few days. Please don't push yourself too hard, at least during that time.

Yoshino: And... could you please let me see how your wound is healing for a while?

(I don't intend to forget my position, but I want to take responsibility for the treatment I've undertaken.)

(Besides, there's probably nothing more I can do for Yoshitsune-sama.)

Yoshitsune: ......

Yoshitsune: Yes. I'll leave it to you.

He gave me a gentle smile, and my heart ached sweetly.

Yoshitsune: Let me thank you again. You saved me by treating my wound.

Yoshino: No... I'm glad I could be of help.

Yoshitsune: Yoshino.

Yoshino: Ah...

His hand reached out and touched mine.

Yoshitsune-sama gently unclenched my tightly clasped fingers.

Yoshitsune: I only know my own way of life.

Yoshitsune: So I will continue on this path.

Yoshitsune: But I won't forget that you treated me today.

Yoshitsune: That I felt your kindness--your single-minded devotion to someone--was beautiful.

(Please... don't say such things.)

The doubts and emotions that arose made me feel like I couldn't breathe.

Yoshino: I haven't done anything that great.

Yoshino: I can treat your physical wounds, but I cannot erase the sadness of your past.

(If we weren't enemies, I would be thinking about things I shouldn't...)

Yoshino: ...I think I'm half-hearted.

Yoshitsune: There's no need for you to feel that way.

Yoshitsune-sama quietly denied my words.

He held my hand, and the warmth of my skin, which I couldn't hide, must have been conveyed to him.

Yoshitsune: You are grieving for me now, facing me with sincerity.

Yoshitsune: Precisely because I am your enemy, you should know that there is no flattery or ulterior motive in my words.

Yoshitsune: You are beautiful, Yoshino.

He pierced the center of my heart directly, and I gasped.

Yoshitsune: Like a curse engraved on my soul, I will remember it even when you and I become enemies again.

(...This is cruel.)

(I can't think of Yoshitsune-sama as an enemy.)

(I can't leave this person alone. I don't want to leave him alone, but--)

Yoshitsune: Let me walk you back.

As he slowly let go of my hand and tried to stand up...

Yoshitsune: Ugh...

Yoshino: You mustn't move. Please stay still...

I gently pushed Yoshitsune-sama back and placed my hand on his through the bandage.

Yoshitsune: ......

Yoshino: Does it still hurt a lot?

Yoshitsune: ...No.

Yoshitsune-sama muttered as if caught off guard.

Yoshitsune: ...Even though you're just touching it.

Yoshitsune: The pain has strangely subsided.

Yoshitsune: I didn't sense any magical power, yet what did you do to me?

Yoshino: It seems that placing a human hand like this on a wound soothes the pain, that's why it's called "teate" (treatment).

Yoshitsune: I can hardly believe it.

Yoshitsune-sama looked unconvinced, then...

Yoshitsune: I don't think it would feel like this if just anyone touched me.

Yoshino: Yoshitsune-sama...?

His elegant fingers touched my cheek, and my heart leaped.

Yoshitsune: You have the power to heal people.

Yoshitsune: ...You are completely different from me.

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Chapter 13

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[crychan]

Serizawa’s own wiki page contains a lot of un-cited information, specifically in the history section. I'm hoping to write an accurate character analysis on Serizawa, and I'm finding it difficult to when his own wiki page seems so different from the canon I read. So let’s go through his wiki, line by line, and then compare it to the actual events of Chapter 89 and Episode 12 of MP100 II, where his history can be found.

The history section of the wiki used to say:

“At age 12, Serizawa became so overwhelmed by fear of his own psychic powers that he refused to leave his bedroom for fear of hurting others.”

A nice sentiment, but it's just straight up not true. While Serizawa is a kind and empathetic person who could reasonably choose to lock himself up to protect others, his decision ultimately stemmed from being extensively bullied, outcast, and punished for the problems that his powers caused. 

It’s pretty well insinuated that he did it out of shame.

It’s only briefly mentioned that he cares about not hurting people. 

Him being bullied and ashamed is the main topic that Suzuki talks about in his backstory. While it is Suzuki saying this and not Serizawa, I don’t believe ONE intended for Suzuki to be wrong in his assessment, so I consider it true, even if it didn’t come from Serizawa himself. Furthermore, while Serizawa does argue with Suzuki in these scenes, we know that Serizawa says these kinds of things when he’s confronted with harsh truths about himself. It’s the same reaction he gives Mob when confronted with the truth of his relationship with Claw and Suzuki:

This is because he can't continue to delude himself or ignore the obvious issues in his life that he has been unable to solve.

“Lacking guidance and companionship, and not helped by the counselors his mother had hired, Serizawa remained in his bedroom for 15 years.” 

Kind of true. Doesn’t mention that the counselors often thought he was delusional, which I think was a major problem that reinforced his seclusion. He was constantly told that there was something wrong with him. What's worse, the doctors even disagree with him on what is wrong. No, the problem is not that you have powers, it's that you think you have powers, you're delusional. Nobody listens to him, nobody understands him.

What’s key here is that he desperately wanted to be understood and accepted. Specifically, he seeks companionship without judgement or shame, which he accepts in the form of other espers, i.e. people who can understand him, his powers, and his problems, at least better than normal people can. He has grown up being misunderstood and rejected by normal people.

“His self-imposed confinement lasted until he met Toichiro, who coaxed him to leave by offering him an umbrella and encouraging him to view it as an extension of his room.” 

This omits important information. [Toichiro] Suzuki initially offered to teach Serizawa how to use his powers. Serizawa, however, was still scared to leave his room, so Suzuki tried to help him further by offering the umbrella.

“Serizawa followed him, hoping to learn to control his powers and rejoin society.”

Pretty much true given what I previously said. Bad wording and the wrong order of sentences leaves this inaccurate.

“Instead, Suzuki exploited Serizawa's power to further the aims of Claw, leaving him and his well-being utterly dependent on both himself and the umbrella.”

Again, bad wording that omits/obfuscates vital info.

Serizawa has no self confidence due to his past, and Suzuki exploits that by giving him an environment free of judgement or rejection in exchange for compliance. Suzuki nurtures and encourages Serizawa and his abilities like good people should have done, for an evil goal. Serizawa is desperate to leave his room and rejoin society, and Suzuki convinces him that it's possible through him and Claw.

Serizawa might feel conflicted about serving Claw, but his desperation for love, acceptance, and companionship are what motivate him suppress his morality and join Suzuki. Serizawa becomes dependent on Suzuki because he gives him everything that he wants, as long as he follows his orders. He works for Claw and follows Suzuki's orders (despite any guilt he may feel) because he is convinced he can’t rejoin society, control his powers, or be happy without what Claw and Suzuki provide him.

“Serizawa convinced himself that Claw was a company, that Suzuki was its president, and that he himself was an employee.” 

Weird wording, because Claw is an organization/company, Suzuki is the president/boss, and he does work for him as an employee, so there is no convincing needed. It’s not a delusion to see it this way. Serizawa simply refers to this structure for his own sake and understanding. It feels more normal for him than considering himself a terrorist.

He is aware of his actions and crimes, as well as Claw’s true purpose, but is able to delude himself of guilt with Suzuki’s encouragement and his own desperation for normalcy/companionship. He tells himself "the President trusts me," and always falls back on the President's words when he feels conflicted:

All in all, Serizawa exists in an environment where love is contingent on following others, even to the betrayal of his own morals. Despite providing him the love and acceptance he desired, it required suppressing his true feelings and agency. It gave him something new to be insecure about.

Okay, this essay is great and all, but why don’t you just… edit the wiki?

As of jan 17th: I DID!!! :D

As well, I also wanted to write this for a long time, because he is my favourite character and I wanted to understand him better, so doing this was fun for me and hopefully shares a better understanding of his character with others.

Final Comments on Serizawa’s Character:

Being raised from a young age feeling like something is wrong with you, and doing things that go against your wishes, these are the two powerful forces in Serizawa’s life. They have a large impact on his character.

As a result of his upbringing and life, Serizawa is incredibly insecure about himself. This can manifest in numerous ways, like feelings of self-doubt, a fear of rejection or failure, or a need for external validation. In my opinion, Serizawa likely feels all of these things. The idea of speaking up for himself, or even being himself, are likely both frightening to him. Insecurity can result in people pleasing and social withdrawal, both of which Serizawa does, to mitigate chances of rejection.

Reigen’s support for Serizawa’s independence/agency is the entire point of the OVA, and I could write a whole second essay on it. But essentially, Reigen has become a good force in helping Serizawa overcome these difficult aspects of himself as he enters a safe, accepting environment where it is no longer necessary to be obedient to survive. Furthermore, he is now in an environment that encourages his independence in whatever capacity he is comfortable with, such as night school, making new friends, and taking initiative on the job. Serizawa is noted to deeply admire Reigen for being a person who does not judge him or make him feel ashamed of himself, and constantly encourages him to chase what he wants. This is how he differs from Suzuki. With Reigen, love and acceptance are now unconditional, and he will always be welcome at Spirits and Such. In turn, Serizawa wants to stay at Spirits and Such for as long as Reigen will have him, because it provides him with love and acceptance without betraying his freedom.

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk! :)

[pendragon-writes]

Chapter 3: Interrogation

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You entered the viewing room of the interrogation room where Hank was currently interrogating the Deviant. With you stood Gavin, the android, whose name you still haven't learned, and another officer. Each question he asked was left unanswered, leaving the Lieutenant frustrated.

After a little while he gave up and entered the room where you were all watching. "We're wastin' our time interrogating a machine, we're gettin' nothing out of it!" he complained, sitting at an unoccupied chair. " Could always try roughing it up a little." "After all, it's not human…" Gavin suggested. "Androids don't feel pain." The Android answered. "You would only damage it, and that wouldn't make it talk." "Deviants also have a tendency to self-destruct when they're in stressful situations."

"Okay, smartass." Gavin started, getting off the wall he was leaning against. "What should we do then?" "I could try questioning it." Gavin laughed at this, but neither Hank, the officer, nor you were laughing at this. "I say go for it, what do you think Hank?" you asked him. "What do we have to lose?" "Go ahead, suspect's all yours." With that confirmation, the android left. "So, how'd you get an android? You're the last person I would suspect of having one." You asked him. "He's not mine. Just showed up at Jimmy's and now I'm here." "That makes sense."

 The android walked up to the one-sided mirror and started...

Checking itself out.

"What the fuck is it doing now?" Hank questioned. "I think he's checking himself out." You answered, just as confused as he was.

He walked back to the Deviant and began the interrogation. "I detect an instability in your program." "It can trigger an unpleasant feeling, like fear in humans." The deviant stayed quiet. You turned to Hank to finally ask the question that had been plaguing you. "Hey Hank, what's its name? The Android." "Hm, oh he told me it's Connor." You hummed in response and tuned yourself completely to the interrogation.

◤Connor's POV

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◯ Wounds ✖ Name

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"You're damaged." I pointed out. "Did your owner do that? Did he beat you?"

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△ Comfort ❏ Reassure ◯ Threaten ✖ Blame

△ Comfort ❏ Reassure ◯ Threaten ✖ Blame

"You're accused of murder." "You know you're not allowed to endanger human life under any circumstances." "Do you have anything to say in your defense?" The deviant still didn't budge but its stress levels increased by a little bit.

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△ Sympathize ❏ Threaten ◯ Probe Memory ✖ Trust

△ Sympathize ❏ Threaten ◯ Probe Memory ✖ Trust

"If you won't talk, I'm going to have to probe your memory," I explained. This triggered the deviant as it shot its head to look at me. "No, please don't do that!.."

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It then looked in the direction of where the officers stood before turning to me. "What..." "What are they going to do to me?"  I stared long and hard at it with no response. "They're going to destroy me, aren't they?" he asked frantically.

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◯ Lie ✖ Truth

"They're are going to disassemble you to look for problems in your bio-components." I finally answered.

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"They have no choice if they want to understand what happened," I told it, in a more aggressive demeanor. "Why did you tell them you found me?" it asked. "Why couldn't you have just left me there?"

◯ Lie ✖ Truth

◯ Lie ✖ Truth

"I was programmed to hunt deviants like you." I quickly responded.

ʟᴇᴠᴇʟ ᴏꜰ ꜱᴛʀᴇꜱꜱ 59%

"I just accomplished my mission." The deviant turned its head again to look at me. "I don't wanna die," It pleaded. "Then talk to me." The deviant stuttered to respond. "I can't..." It looked down in shame.

ᴄʜᴏᴏꜱᴇ ᴀᴘᴘʀᴏᴀᴄʜ

△ Pressure It ◯ Probe Its Memory ✖ Convince It

△ Pressure It ◯ Probe Its Memory ✖ Convince It

△ Understanding ◯ Threaten ✖ Order

△ Understanding ◯ Threaten ✖ Order

"You're a machine, you were designed to obey, so obey!" I shouted, slamming the table.

ʟᴇᴠᴇʟ ᴏꜰ ꜱᴛʀᴇꜱꜱ 66%

"Tell me what happened," I ordered.

△ Sympathize ◯ Comfort ✖ Indifferent

△ Sympathize ◯ Comfort ✖ Indifferent

I looked down at the table and spoke in a softer tone. "Listen," "I'm not judging you." "I'm on your side." I tried to persuade.

ʟᴇᴠᴇʟ ᴏꜰ ꜱᴛʀᴇꜱꜱ 59%

"All I want is the truth." It stared at me in judgment and anger.

△ Protect ◯ Terrify ✖ Warn

△ Protect ◯ Terrify ✖ Warn

"Confess and I'll protect you." "I promise I won't let anyone hurt you."

Level of Stress 52%

I waited for a few seconds and it finally confesses. "He tortured me every day..."

 " I did everything he told me, but... There was always something wrong..." "Then one day," "He took a bat and started hitting me..." "For the first time, I felt..."

"Scared..." "Scared he might destroy me, scared I might die..."

Hank^

(Y/n)^

"So I…" "Grabbed the knife and I stabbed him in the stomach…" It explained. "I felt better…" "So I stabbed him again." "And again!.." "Until he collapsed…" I tilted my head a bit at this. "There was blood everywhere."

△ Writing ❏ Statuette ◯ rA9 ✖ Attic

△ Writing ❏ Statuette ◯ rA9 ✖ Attic

"Why did you write 'I AM ALIVE' on the wall?" "He used to tell me I was nothing…" "That I was just a piece of plastic…" "I had to write it…" "To tell him he was wrong…"

△ Statuette ❏ rA9 ◯ Attic ✖ Trigger

△ Statuette ❏ rA9 ◯ Attic ✖ Trigger

"The sculpture in the bathroom, you made it, right?"

◤ (Y/n) POV

Connor continued to interrogate the deviant. I looked at Hank to see a proud grin showing on his face. "You look proud," I whispered. "I am impressed, but don't mention that to anyone," he whispered back.

After some more minutes, we got confirmation that he was done. We got off our chairs and entered the room. The officer (Chris) who was previously with us moved to the deviant. "Chris, lock it up," Gavin instructed. I leaned on the wall next to the door and continued to watch. "All right, let's go." This seemed to trigger the android as it swiped him away. "Stay away!" "Don't touch me!"

Chris ignored it and continued trying to move it. "The fuck are you doing?" Gavin questioned. "Move it!" "Okay," Chris muttered. "Come now. Don't be difficult, it'll only make things harder." Once again the android didn't budge and started moving away as he continued to try to move him. It kept begging him not to move it.

"Chris just stop you're gonna make things worse." I bugged in, getting off the wall. "You shouldn't touch it. It'll self-destruct if it feels threatened." Connor warned. "Stay outta this, got it? No fuckin' android is gonna tell me what to do." Gavin bit back.

You don't understand. If it self-destructs, we won't get anything out of it!" He pleaded. "I told you to shut your fuckin' mouth!" Gavin shouted. "Chris, gonna move this asshole or what?" "I'm trying!" He replied, a strain in his voice as he continued trying to move the distressed android. When it seemed to be enough Connor made a move to stop Chris. "I can't let you do that! Leave it alone now!" He ordered, pushing Chris away. "I warned you, motherfucker!" Gavin spoke angrily, with his gun now pointed at him.

"That's enough!" Hank spoke. "Mind your own business, Hank." I sighed at Gavin's response and pulled out my own gun, pointing it straight at his head. "He said… That's enough." Hank also pulled out his pistol and aimed it at him. With two guns now pointed at him Gavin frustratingly put his gun down. "Fuck," "You're not gonna get away with it this time…" He threatened us, pointing at us. He turned to Connor and moved closer, but he didn't say anything as he walked away and swore under his breath.

[kinda-neutral-thingy]

What is it like to be JoJo's best friend? (Parts 1-3)

Gn! Platonic! Reader

Warnings: Y/n usage, grammatical mistakes, spoilers

Notes: It's already 12 a. m. and I'm writing this. Enjoy!

Jonathan Joestar

Oh god where should i start

I think we all agree that he is a wonderful friend

He's very worried about the well-being of his close ones, so expect his concern even when you were just absent for a couple of days

If you're sick and he isn't allowed to enter your room he will stand near your window and talk to you loudly enough for you to hear. This is how he tries to cheer you up

I also think that he will invite you to any interesting events (or just ordinary walks)

New fair in town? He's already laying out his plans and expectations about it for you. The traveling circus has arrived? He leads you by the hand to its show

You will definitely become friends with Erina!

Also, if you don't mind, he will talk about his concerns about his father, Dio and other problems of his. He really needs someone to talk about them :[

But besides, he will definitely listen to you and your own ramblings and can give a couple of tips on solving any kind of situation

Also imagine studying in the library with Jonathan, I think it would've been very cool :0

When the whole situation with Dio happens, he will definitely not want to put you in danger and will insist you to NOT follow him to the town

But if you somehow got through with them there, he will be hella scared

"BUT I TOLD YOU NOT TO FOLLOW US! I WON'T FORGIVE MYSELF IF SOMETHING HAPPENS TO YOU, YOU CAN'T FIGHT AGAINST DIO!" He will tell you this even if you are a two-meter jock with knowledge of hamon

After Dio is defeated and he's marrying Erina he'll definitely want you to attend their wedding

As they leave for their honeymoon, Jonathan and Erina approach you.

JoJo says how grateful he is for all the years you supported him and what a great person you are (not that he didn't tell you this before-)

You also tell him how important he is to you, and that you are glad that he finally found his own happiness

But while you were talking to Jonathan, something seemed to besqueezing your heart like some metal tongs. You had the feeling that you were seeing your friend for the last time

But that always happens when a new chapter begins in life, of course Jonathan will be fine. He may change, yes, but you will still see each other, go for walks and talk about everything, maybe a little less than usual. Right?

Joseph Joestar

Wow, looks like you won't get a moment's rest

This Joestar's head is constantly full of ideas for some kind of fun, from going to an exotic restaurant on the other side of the city to pranking someone. Of course you're coming with him

(Basically like his grandfather, but far more insisting and constantly annoys you until you agree)

"Y/n, I know what we're gonna do today!"

If you go to the same school then oh my god how many things will he drag you into

He is a master at coming up with spurs and new ways of cheating tests despite being a smart student, therefore, each test for the two of you is just a field for testing his new ideas

Both of you are viewed as chaotic and restless, even if you may be a pretty calm individual 💀

You definitely have sleepovers. Basically you just sit up late and read comic books/talk, or maybe play board games

He is probably that one guy who turns off the light in the room and tells various scary stories in complete darkness (As a result, it seemed to one of you that something grabbed their leg and you began to push each other and shout in a panic)

He also tests his puns and "Your next line is..." technique on you

Jokes aside, you are quite a helping hand when you do not get involved in some kind of adventure

Shows off his hamon in front of you. If you ask him nicely, he may try to teach you (Spoiler: it didn't work)

Maybe you two went to the lab to get the Speedwagon, but when it came to the other Pillarmen, Joseph just said "nope, you won't go with me, you can't even catch up me ;]"

I have a feeling that when he shows up for his own funeral (which you most likely will attend) you will definitely try to initiate his second funeral, this time- the real one

Get ready to see Holly often, as Joseph loves to take her with him on walks, including to your meetings

If you have a Stand, then maybe he will take you with him and the Crusaders on a mission, but your Stand and you yourself should be quite strong

In the end, you value each other very much and, at the end of your days, often remember your adventures. Joseph always appreciated you very much, but he began to actively tell you about it only in his old age

Jotaro Kujo

Chances are you've known each other since childhood

You know Jotaro well enough to read his body language and see through his facade

You are not as hurt by his phrases and indifference as it could be because you know what he really means and why he does it

He certainly does not voice his attitude towards you, the most he can say is calling you "friend" when talking with his mother, he rather shows it by actions

You also have sleepovers, you just watch various films all night and eat snacks that you bought and/or were prepared for you by Holly

He makes mental notes about your hobbies, and when you mention something you're interested in lately for your next sleepover, he pulls out a movie cassette related to that interest

"You said something about this kind of thing, I came across this cassette related to it and decided to take it."

In high school, when girls hit on him, he doesn't want you to feel uncomfortable or, even worse, get bullied by them, so you meet at a point where most of the girls are already away from Jotaro

I also think that you are one of the few who can have minimal physical contact with JoJo (aka hugging or fixing his hair when it gets messy)

Sometimes he gives vent to emotions around you and can laugh heartily at your joke

When the main events of SDC happened, he didn't even think about taking you with him, even if you also have a Stand. Like all his ancestors, he doesn't want to put you in danger. He simply disappeared without explanation and only reappeared after more than 50 days

Perhaps you can talk to him about what happened on his journey, but in any case, you will have to be with him, now he needs it more than ever

One sleepover, while watching a movie, you feel like something hard is resting on your shoulder. At first, you think that Jotaro just fell asleep while watching, which happens often, but looking at him, you can see that he just stares at the floor without blinking.

After a heavy pause, you finally say "You know... You are the strongest person I know." He does not turn his head, but you still notice that he is listening to you. "And I know your friends were the same." Jotaro's gaze shifted back to the TV, and after a while, interest in what was happening on the screen became quite visible

You're not sure if you said the right thing, but you hope your words helped at least a little bit

[cosmiccandydreamer]

Stability Chapter 7

Otis Driftwood x Reader

( I don't own these gifs)

"I'll never be your beast of burden

My back is broad but it's a-hurting

All I want for you to make love to me

I'll never be your beast of burden

I've walked for miles, my feet are hurting

All I want for you to make love to me"

Otis heard you before he saw you, dancing and singing in your cut off shorts and tired shirt. Your walkman swung dangerously back and forth on your hips as you sang to the rolling stones song while you washed your car. It was a super hot summer day in the unforgiving heart of texas. The car was your baby. It was a gift from Otis for your birthday, you had fallen in love with it when they towed it to the house after the last group of victims was captured. You told him you always wanted one of these so he and Rufus secretly fixed it up for you. He still insisted you go everywhere with him in his truck but you convinced him to let you drive yourself once in a while ( but not too far ) Spraying the hose over the hood you leaned over to get the farthest part, your ass poking out in the air.

"Am I hard enough?

Am I rough enough?

Am I rich enough?

I'm not too blind to see"

It was obvious the music was so loud you didn't hear him as he dragged a screaming victim toward the shed in the back. He stopped dragging her for a second to watch you and laugh softly. Well, that's adorable and hot as shit he thought to himself. The poor girl he was currently dragging took this opportunity to claw and bite at his hand in an attempt to get away in. For A split second she did, She wiggled out of his grasp and tried to take off towards the road. He quickly grabbed her and threw her on the ground pulling her by the hair back towards the house. All this while you were none the wiser, enjoying your song on your headphones. He resumed his spot leaning against the house staring at you.

"I'll never be your beast of burden

So let's go home and draw the curtains

Music on the radio

Come on baby make sweet love to me" 

 

You sang the last part a little louder using the sponge as a microphone. You were getting into this what you assumed was a solo performance. Swinging your hips back and forth you grabbed the hose and sprayed all over the trunk of the car. He was thrusting the girl back and forth by her hair to shush her as he leaned against the side of the house watching you. "Damn bitch shut the fuck up!, I'm trying to enjoy the view". He looked toward her in disgust that she would dare shrek and distract him. "Mister please let me go, I won't tell anyone". " I SAID SHUT UP" 

He suddenly heard the music better now, he looked up to see you with your headphones down now around your neck the music softly playing in a muffled tone. Staring at him with a smile slightly leaning against the car. " Whatcha doing there is handsome?". " Watching you " he smirked. 

"Am I hard enough?

Am I rough enough?

Am I rich enough?

I'm not too blind to see"

"Oh are ya now? So ...what are you gonna you do with her?" You pointed with the sponge at the dry heaving girl still on the ground with her hair in his fist. "Ah I don't know" he looked down at her then back at you " any ideas?" He lifted an eyebrow at you. "Maybe a few" you bit your lip a little tilting your head to the side. " I was going to tie her up in the shed and try that experiment I was running with you the other night but I don't think she's gonna survive. She also won't stop squirming", he chuckled and thrust her a little bit more back and forth. She muttered something inaudible. "That's fine," you said, tossing the sponge into the bucket. " We can tie her to the bed after she might stop squirming then." You flashed him a wicked smile.

 He winked at you, "my god woman you are wicked...have I told you I love you lately?" He asked, clearing his throat, the bulge that started to grow in his jeans was becoming more and more distracting. "Hmmm" you replied " maybe but you can show me how much you love me later" you leaned on the hood of the car allowing for him to get a good view of your shirt.

 He hastily sucked in the air standing up quickly, "hold that thought" he says turning back toward the shed. "Hey! " You shouted he turned back to you real quick, spinning the poor girl as well, her feet and legs dragging.  You took the soapy sponge and tossed it at him, smacking him in the chest soaking his white shirt. He cursed under his breath then laughed, wiping his face with his other hand. "You are gonna pay for that as soon as I'm back from tying this bitch up". He looked back at you one more time while heading back to the shed. 

Oh, little sister

Pretty, pretty, pretty girls

Ooh, you're a pretty, pretty, pretty, pretty, pretty, pretty girl

Pretty, pretty, such a pretty, pretty, pretty girl

Come on, baby, please, please, please

 

"God I hate this fucking song can you change it?"... "OTIS hello?". Baby sat up from the floor of the van and snapped her fingers at Otis. "Hey get your goddamn fingers out my face woman the fuck is wrong with you" he angrily swatted at Baby's hand as she attempted to snap in his face again. " I said I don't like that song so change it" "I don't give a flying dick what you like, I'm drivin' and we're leaving this song." She slumped back angrily onto the floor. Earning a chuckle from her father Spaulding. "S'not funny daddy" she snapped at him crossing her arms. "Oh lighten up there kiddo you know the rules, the driver picks the music". 

Spaulding had finally met up with both of them at the motel. Although it had taken him a while due to some personal delay he arrived there in the nick of time to help finish off torturing the poor victims. After killing the rest of the family the daughter of Roy and Gloria was left to wear her father's skin on her face and be hung up behind the door to scare the unfortunate housekeeper when coming to assess the room. unable to get her father's skin off and running in a frantic the daughter unknowingly ran into the highway to be hit by a semi-truck. Using the van they stole from them they attempted to meet you at the next stop. 

Otis only hoped they weren't too far behind you. Suddenly Baby perked up and glanced at the passing billboard." Just in case anyone's interested, I think I'm gonna be wanting some ice cream in about 10 miles" she excitedly looked back toward her father and then to Otis. Otis looked over at her and repeated her [in a mocking tone]  "I think I'm gonna be wanting some ice cream in about 10 miles." Baby looked back at home with an angry expression "Hey DON'T you fucking imitate me, it's fucking rude!"

Otis:" Fuck you", Baby: "Fuck you! "Two fucking seconds for the kid, is that gonna kill you?" Spaulding interjected getting real sick of the interaction between the two of them.

"Yes, it is going to kill me! I have calculated the time, and two seconds is the exact amount of time that is a hazard to my fucking health!" Otis replied visibly getting more and more annoyed with the idea of stopping. " What the fuck is your problem? I'm in and out in two seconds!" Baby snapped at him. 

   

Spaulding laughed a little "You know? I think I'm gonna get me some tutti fucking fruity." "Tutti fucking fruity, that sounds good!" Baby said nudging her father. "I'm glad that finding y/n doesn't mean shit to either of you now I know who is taking this seriously" he gripped his hands on the steering wheel in anger. These fucking idiots he thought to himself. " Wow excuse you…. How dare you imply I don't care about finding my BEST FRIEND. You know she meant the world to me before She meant the world to you, she was my best friend before she was your wife ok? I met her first… don't think because I'm not sulking like you I don't worry about her. But she's stronger than you give her credit for and you've been treating her like a child!!!". Otis didn't respond to her, he was getting madder by the second. He simply gripped the steering wheel until his knuckles turned white.

 "I suggest we go see Charlie lay low there for a night before heading to the next motel," Spaulding said looking over at Otis. " Why the fuck would we do that?" Otis asked, slightly gripping the steering wheel even harder. Being away from you this long was not good for his mental health. It was throwing him off his game. It was making him anxious and nothing made him anxious. This was a very foreign and uncomfortable feeling to him. He wanted to get rid of it and to do that he had to find you. He only anticipated being away from you for maybe 12 hours and even the thought of that made him very uncomfortable. 

It's now been days this is unacceptable he needs to find you. "Look I saw on the news that the police are already on your tail. It's best that we throw off their scent a bit and lay low one more day can't hurt y/n is a smart girl she's gonna be alright". Otis didn't reply, he simply looked at the long stretch of road. Spalding continued, "I would hate to lead anyone to her Otis, Baby is right we care about her too but she's tough and smart I'm sure she's seen the news she will get the idea why we aren't there". "I don't trust that fucker Charlie" Otis finally replied with a sigh. Spaulding chuckled "yeah welp get over it". 

They drove through the rest of the afternoon only stopping for ice cream of course to prevent any distress from Baby and Spaulding. Pulling up to Charlie’s fun town, Otis’s annoyance grew more by the second. He hasn't been back here in years, he used to come on occasion to enjoy some of the girls here, but that quickly changed when you came around. He didn't like or trust Charlie, he had an inkling that this man was only out for himself no matter what Spaulding said. 

[msmarvelwrites]

The Winter Ghost - Part 7

Info: A Devastating car crash causes you to lose your memory and start over. The only thing left in the wreckage was the horrific nightmares which plagued your mind. If you knew what today would entail you would have just stayed in bed. But you didn’t and because of that, everything you knew was about to change.

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x reader

Warnings: swearing, angst (i think thats it)

W/c: 2k ish

A/n: I’m really sorry... But thank you to @cutie1365​ for all her help! Girls a rock start honestly. Go give A Kid From Queens a read. Seriously, you wont regret it! 

The early morning sun streamed through the windows, burning at the corner of your eyes. A groan escaped your throat as you shifted out of its glaring view. Your head ached with the memory of another nightmare. 

        You picked up your phone on the nightstand and typed in your password. Absentmindedly you scrolled through your messages with Bucky. 

You: Hey.                                                                              4:15  pm   (read)

You: Wanna watch a movie later?                                      8:25 pm   (read)

You: Hey, u still up?                                                           12:45 am   (read) 

The next week was a complete blur. You would have loved to relive the blissful moment you had shared with Bucky, but the night after, he disappeared. You knew he hadn’t left on a mission as the rest of the team would recall seeing him around. You felt foolish looking for a man who so obviously didn't want to see you. Or maybe he was just busy, you would try to reassure yourself. But as the days drawled on, you found it hard to keep convincing yourself of that. Maybe you had come on too strong? Maybe he didn't feel the same way and you completely read the situation wrong? I mean, you practically threw yourself at him, right? God, you felt stupid. And what was worse, the nightmares only got worse in Bucky’s absence. Almost every night he would lay by your side, petting your hair and reassuring you. You didn't really realize the effect he had on you until it stopped.

          A few nights later, Steve, T’Challa and Bucky were to leave on a mission to interrogate Zemo. Steve explained he was apprehended about a year ago and was held up in a maximum security prison. You didn't ask where, worried if you knew you might use your newfound ‘gifts’ to tear him a new asshole.

        The night before they left there was a soft knock on your door. You looked up curiously, hoping for just a split second that maybe it was him… You crossed the room slowly and creaked the door open.  As the hallway light poured into your dimly lit bedroom you saw Bucky’s disheveled form. He looked like hell. You didn't think he would have already been sleeping, not that you minded an impromptu visit from your favourite Super Soldier, but his worried eyes concerned you. 

           “Can we talk a sec?” He asked, his voice confirming he was indeed in crisis. You nodded slightly and let him in. He walked towards your bed, instantly taking a seat and waiting for you to join. He really looked terrible. You could tell he was a wreck. Good, you thought. The man had literally kept you up for nights worrying, wondering if you were the cause of his sudden cold shoulder. 

         “I think that's a good idea.” You spoke sternly, surprised with how calm your voice came out. To be fair, you had practiced this conversation in the mirror a few times. As long and Bucky stuck to the script, you'd be fine.  

          He smirked slightly, tapping the space beside him. As you got closer, you realised what bad shape the guy was really in. Dark circles blossomed under his once blue eyes, now dark and stormy and bloodshot. His usual scruff was now almost a beard and looked unkempt and overgrown. 

           “Listen, doll. There's somethin’ I've been meaning to say… I was just tryin’ to find the right words but then, last week, you kissed me and-” You didn't let him finish before interrupting. 

            “You kissed me?” Your words were harsh and you could tell they hurt Bucky. Maybe ease up a little, you thought as you took a deep breath. In all your time practicing what you were going to say to Bucky, him looking like a complete and utter wreck was never part of the picture.

         “What? Course’ I did. But that's not what I came to talk to you about.” He sighed, taking another long inhale and holding it a few seconds, before drawing it out slowly. “Y/n, I need you to understand, the person I am now, I wasn't always this way. I was broken and put back together so many times I had forgotten who I was.” He started. Bucky had told you about his past with Hydra before. Many nights you stayed up listening to him recall the few memories he had from his time. It made you somewhat thankful that yours hadn’t come back quite yet. 

          “I know, Buck. It’s okay.” Your voice droned out softly as you reached a reassuring hand and placed it on top of his metal one. He flinched away, resting them in his lap. You felt your heart pang with sadness at his actions. 

        “It's not okay, Y/n. It’s never been okay. I’m broken and you're just starting this new chapter…  Dammit - I don't even know how to…” He rubbed his face in frustration, all the while avoiding your worried stare. 

          “You know you can talk to me, Buck. About anything.” He spoke quietly, careful not to set him off. He nodded his head from behind his hands and finally removed them, placing them back down in his lap. 

         “I don't wanna’ screw this up, Y/n. Whatever this is. You’ve been such a good friend to me and…” He began again but his words melted away into the background. Friend. Such a good friend. Oh God, he was letting you down. You should have seen this coming but with Bucky, it felt different. You’d never been kissed like that. You didn't ask for any of this to happen. I mean, you had enough on your plate right now as it was. Why didn't he stop you? God, he could have stopped all of this. Instead of ignoring you all week and making you feel like a crazy person. Maybe you were. 

        “Why have you been avoiding me?” You interjected, not sure what part of his explanation he had even gotten to. He paused, looking at you with sympathy. He pities you, you thought, feeling your gut sink and tears well in your eyes. 

        “Look, Y/n… I got carried away with you that night. I should have stopped, I should have done a lot of things. I thought something terrible had happened to you and I just… I’m so sorry, doll. For everything.” His eyes burned into you, but you couldn't bring yourself to meet his gaze. You were so embarassed. God, you must look so stupid right now. Slowly, you took a breath and looked up at him. He looked you over, trying to gauge your current state. 

        “Ya- no, I get it. My fault, honestly. I read the situation wrong. Sorry.” You croaked out, forcing yourself to look at him in his mind melting eyes. Fuck, he was beautiful. Even completely sleep deprived the man could easily be the most attractive person you’d never seen. What an asshole. 

       “I just think it would be best, for both of us if we stayed friends.” He half heartedly smiled at you, watching as you nodded slowly. 

         “I think you should go, Bucky.” You whispered over a sob that forced its way out of your throat. Don't you dare cry in front of him. Don't you dare let him know he broke you. You shouted to yourself. 

“Doll-”

        “Don't- just… I’m fine. Really, I’m fine. Just, please leave now.” His head hung as he let out a defeated breath. Slowly he stood, crossing the room, but pausing when he got to the door. 

        “I leave on a mission tomorrow morning. It’s just recon, but I don't know when I’ll be back. Just take care of yourself, Y/n.”

          “I think I’ll be fine, Sargeant. Thanks.” You scoffed. And with that, the door shut, and you were left alone again. 

                Next morning came on quickly. You had spent most of the night staring at the ceiling and over thinking everything Bucky had just said. At least he was honest with you. You thought. After a week of ignoring you…

        Finally you pulled your ass out of bed. You hadn’t slept a blink all night, but there was no use trying now. You shuffled across your room and into the bathroom. 

        “Ugh,” You signed, looking at your messy hair and dark circles under your eyes. I think the only thing to really bring you back from the dead now was an I.V drop filled with coffee. 

        After throwing your hair up into a messy bun and blending out your under eye bags with concealer, you headed downstairs. The compound was strangely quiet. Granted Steve, Bucky and T’Challa had all left by now. It felt strange to not see them hovering around the kitchen. Instead, Natasha and Wanda sat on either side of the island chatting quietly until you walked it. Wanda’s head snapped up, alerting Natasha of your presence.

         “Morning, Y/n.” Wanda smiled warmly at you. 

          “Hi.” You mumbled, ransacking the kitchen for something to tide you over. You honestly couldn't remember the last time you had really eaten something. When you finally found the hidden box of fruit loops at the back of the pantry. These were you and Wanda's contraband and needing an appropriate hiding spot as such.

          “You know what would pair beautifully with those?” Nat asked, lifting her mug and pointing it towards the full coffee pot on the counter. You paused for a moment, finally letting the rich smell of the brewing beans envelope your senses. 

          “You didn't…?” You gasped, momentarily feeling a little better. 

          “You're right. I didn't. Bucky went out to the market early this morning and picked up a bag of real coffee beans for you.” She smiled knowingly at you.

           You huffed, suddenly a little less excited. It was pity coffee. Natasha looked you up and down trying to get a read on your mood. She carefully poured you a full mug of deliciousness, passing it to you. As you lifted it to your lips your mouth watered, feeling all your problems melt away. The first sip reaffirmed that sentiment. 

      “Fuck, thats good.” You moaned, swallowing the substance slowly. Wanda giggled at your reaction while Nat rolled her eyes. 

       “So, what's the plan for today?” You asked over a mouth full of cereal. 

       “Nothing crazy, Wanda and I are going to go train for a bit, if you wanna’ join in?” Nat offered. Working out with the former assassin and super witch didn’t really strike you as a relaxing day, but you figured it would be a good way to get your mind off Bucky. 

       “Yeah, that sounds good. Maybe we can have a girls night tonight? I could really use it.” You shrugged casually, trying not to meet Nat’s suspicious gaze.

        “Ugh, yes please! Three against one, Shuri will have to watch a sappy eighties rom-com with us!” Wanda exclaimed, setting her cereal bowl in the sink and giggling her melodic laugh. 

        “We can do girls night, plus one boy. I think Sam's landing in Wakanda tonight. He’s been on a recon mission for the last month and a half, and knowing him, ittl’ more than likely be four against Shuri.” Nay laughed, poking Wanda in the shoulder and reminding her of the return of their friend. 

        “Oh right! Y/n, you’re going to love Sam.” Wanda exclaimed. You smiled dryly, trying and failing to look as excited as your friend. After the overwhelming week, all you wanted was to drink your weight in tequila and forget Bucky existed. Maybe a change in faces was just what you needed, however. 

         “Can’t wait.” You forced an enthused smile as you followed Nat and Wanda to the Gym. 

           You had at least a week before Bucky and the guys returned. Surely that was enough time to mend your bruised ego and move on. Though, something sinking deep inside of you felt otherwise. 

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A/n: It’s the ruining a perfectly good fluffy moment between y/n and Bucky for me. I’m so sorry. I cant tell you it gets better, but it does get juicy! 

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@kalesrebellion​ 

@projectcampbell​

[drshojo]

The World, My Childhood And My Hero Academia: Vigilantes

Hello friends!  

Its Dr. Shojo coming at you with a post that will be divided into three parts!

Part One: The world as we know it! 

The world has changed a lot since we last connected. For starters, TOILET BOUND HANAKO KUN HAS NOT ONLY A PHYSICAL RELEASE BUT A GORGEOUS ANIME! And not only that, but MY NEXT LIFE AS A VILLAINESS: ALL ROUTES LEAD TO DOOM! IS GETTING AN ANIME AS WELL! The last time I wrote about Katerina there wasn’t even an official English translation of that long-ass light-novel-title. And now?

A WHOLE ANIME. A BISEXUAL HAREM AWAITS! I am JAZZED!

Do you think it’s my fault? No matter, I’ll take all the credit. All the manga I talk about are getting anime adaptations. I’LL DO MY DUTY AND TALK ABOUT SOME MORE!

But first. Let us address the Covid-19 shaped elephant in the room

I deeply regret that it took a whole-ass pandemic to get me back to writing. In my defense, I bought an iPad and started drawing like 900 kokichi oumas. I was really busy with that. And then I started reading fanfiction. Then that got me thinking about how fanfiction such an interesting look into how people interpret fandom, use it for wish fulfillment and escapism, and good god is everyone OK cause that bulimia fan fic was super detailed....and I am officially on a tangent. Off track. Ahem.

We are all staying inside a whole lot more which means y’all probably need some reading material and Dr. Shojo has your back! Go read “Horimiya”! It’s amazing! Ahhhh, my work here is done! I'm serious, if you’re here for a Shojo rec, that’s it! There's also like 8 million more Otome Isekais to check out now. It’s like they’re multiplying like rabbits..............

As a Doctor, I must advise you to stay inside and read some manga and practice social distancing. Embrace your inner hikikomori. 

Allright? All good? Okay now one final disclaimer:

This post is going to be talking about something a little different than usual and I want to start by giving you some context about who Dr. Shojo is in real life. 

Part Two: Dr. Shojo Exposed 

You see, when I was little I was obsessed with Japanese media. This doesn't surprise you at all I can tell. Probably because I walk around calling myself Dr. Shojo and shout about manga that you should read.

Anyways, the reason why I was obsessed wasn’t because of the big eyes or the spikey hair or the interesting new culture. It was because it tended to have more character development and overarching plotlines than the media I was used to in Canada. Dexter’s Lab, Magic School Bus, pretty much everything I saw on TV was episodic in nature, so imagine how much my mind was blown when I saw Naruto and Card Captor Sakura, heck, even Pokémon had the Indigo Plateau! Here were kids that were learning more and more each day and got to see enemies become friends and vice versa. They lived and grew older just like me. Except they were cooler than me. And had more interesting lives than me. I gotta tell you, I was so sad when I was 12 and Kero didn’t tell me I had latent magical powers. But there was magic in my life and it was the magic of a complex narrative story. And not only that, it had a sense of movement and had cool costumes. I was hooked immediately.

Also, fun fact, at that age I happened to be a complete and utter tomboy! I loved pretending to fight my friends in the playground and was really worried that puberty would ruin my life because being a girl sounded so CUMBERSOME.

Which leads me up to my confession. Before I became Dr. Shojo, I was in fact......Dr. Shonen.

Bleach? Naruto? One Piece? I've read every single chapter there is.  

Hundreds of hours of watching fight sequences. Another fun fact, I only got into shojo because my aunt bought me volume 7 and 8 of Fruits Basket thinking “all mangas like the same right? Kids love comics?” It’s a tribute to how episodic western media was back then that she thought buying volume SEVEN and EIGHT was a REASONABLE PLACE TO START READING.

Now you might also say, Hey! Dr Shojo! Cardcaptors was a shojo! And you are right! but back then the anime was marketed to boys over here in the west and they actualy like, edited out episodes that they thought wouldn't interest boys?! Second fun fact, Once when I was in Grade 3 I was told I was not allowed to join a club under the stairs cause I was a girl and it was BOYS ONLY. The point of the club? To talk about how great Cardcaptors was! I Kid you not!

So anyways, your pall Dr. Shojo loves Shonen manga to this day!

The only reason I made this Dr. Shojo blog specifically about shojo is because, being a tomboy with no female friends, reading shojo manga was the first time I really thought about what it meant to be a girl and fall in love. And y i k e s. Shojo manga, like most media, fails miserably most of the time in displaying real world relationships. Or at least, it  doesn't prepare you for how disappointing everything can be. When I had my first kiss, I was thinking about how it didn’t feel at all like how I felt reading Zen and Shirayukis kiss in Akagame No Shirayuki Hime. Those were formative years, and shojo was one of the only places I saw romance being talked about for younger audiences. I liked reading romances where no one had any sexual experiences and were figuring out what love meant to them. But let’s shelve this topic for now.

The point is that gender roles are dumb and if you have an open mind there's a world of stories out there for you. Take this time inside to read something you wouldn’t normally. Critically think about the ways that the worlds you see in stories and how you experience the world differ. What are the messages a story is trying to tell you? And why do you like the stories you do? Reflect on how the stories you tell yourself color your view of the world. Even mindless entertainment leaves an impression on us. Anyways.

Whilst you're doing that, I'm going to absolutely lose my hecking mind over the Shonen Jump series MY HERO ACADEMIA: Vigilantes!

WARNING: SPOILERS AHEAD!

Part Three: I downloaded the one month free trial of the Shonen Jump app and made you read all that, so I can tell you that today Dr. Shojo is going to rant about a spin-off of a shonen manga

THAT’S RIGHT, OF COURSE I READ HERO ACA AND YES I DID PICK UP THE SPIN OFF SERIES. SHONEN JUMP LETS YOU READ ALL THE NEW CHAPTERS FOR FREE ON THEIR APP. KIDS, IF YOU LIKE SHONEN AND YOU’RE PIRATING ON A SCANLATION SITE STILL GET OUT BECAUSE YOU DON’T NEED TO SEE THOSE WEIRD PLASTIC SURGERY AND DENTISTRY ADDS ANY MORE.

SHONEN IS HERE AND ITS LEGAL AND ITS FREE FOR YOU. GET OFF MANGA FOX OR MANGA ROCK OR WHATEVER THE KIDS ARE USING THESE DAYS.

OK, so by this point in the article you have learned two very important things about me: 1) I love Shonen manga and 2) I read a lot of fanfiction.

Specifically, I read an absolutely biblical amount of My Hero Academia fan fiction and let me tell you, A solid chunk of it is vigilante/ Deadpool / criminal with a heart of gold themed.

So when I saw Hero Aca had a spin off, and it was about vigilantes, I was NOT SURPRISED IN THE SLIGHTEST. Ao3 sure is powerful.

Now, if you will permit me a tangent in a post full of tangents—HOLY CRAP, THERE ARE TOO MANY VIGILANTE AUS. I CAN'T KEEP TRACK OF EM. IT’S THE ISEKAI PROBLEM ALL OVER AGAIN. I GET AN EMAIL A FIC HAS UPDATED AND I’M LIKE IS THIS THE FIC WHERE DEKU HAS AN ABUSIVE MOM OR THE ONE WHERE HE HAS SPLIT PERSONALITY DISORDER OR THE ONE WHERE HE’S VIGILANTES WITH HITOSHI. OH WAIT, nvm, it’s the one where deku has a healing quirk.

OH WAIT WHICH OF THE 6 DEKU WITH HEALING QUIRK VIGILATE AU FICS IS THIS ONE?! ARGH WHY DIDN’T I WRITE A DESCRIPTION IN THE BOOKMARK FOR THIS!

My gripes aside, there's a reason why there's such an abundance of vigilante story telling—

Deadpool made like an absolute buttload of money and people love sass and memes.

People have a desire for a story in which they see themselves. Or, how they think of themselves.They like a story about someone who maybe came from nothing. Someone who has less money, maybe someone who is unlucky and had some bad breaks. Someone who never learned they had magic, never got their Hogwarts letter, never saw Kero, someone who never got that God-level quirk from All Might. And if your on Ao3 They want someone who also has seen a lot of memes and kind of wants taco bell and is also questioning their sexuality a bit?

Enter our new hero VIGILANTE DEKU.  

But the cannon can't do this, cause hey, Deku is the chosen one. Albeit, chosen by All Might, He’s got his own thing to do. But how can we still cash in on a vigilante story?

And thus enter our New-New hero KOICHI HAIMAWARI—code name Nice Guy and then later The Crawler. True to his relatable roots. He’s just a dude in an hoodie who can go about as fast as a bike.

First off, I love Koichi. He wants to be a hero and fight crime, but most of the time he has to run away because at the end of the day he's just a dude.

He’s cute but not wildly good-looking, A bit of a nerd but not like an extreme okaku. He’s got a part time job and hates violence.

And this is where Koichi really shines—in every day stuff. He helps out wherever he can. Often, that just means listening to people complain and maybe helping his friends out with whatever they’re going through. He’s the kind of guy who smiles, not because he's especially brave, but because he just takes things one at a time and doesn't sweat the past. I think it’s really telling that he missed getting into hero high-school because he skipped the entrance exam to help someone. He’s the kind of person who lets us experience the superpower of human decency and empathy. And you know what? That’s something the world need desperately.  

This theme of human decency is really the driving force of Vigilantes—it’s a manga about how the laws are there for a reason but sometimes they unfairly impact the poor and vulnerable. It's about how a lot of criminals are just people who fell into bad social circles or on bad times. People have the capacity for cruelty and violence but that’s never all they are.  

Now, speaking of crime, the entirety of Hero Aca falls into some murky water when it comes to its evil doers. Much of the fandom has a huuuuuge problem with how much the franchise is willing to sweep under the rug in the name of redeeming their baddies. RE: people getting mad about forgiving Endeavor’s child abuse, or Bakugo’s suicide baiting. Or Mineta’s blatant sexual harassment.

But this theme is in Vigilantes even more than it ever was in the main series. To start off with, there’s this guy who tries to rape Pop Step early on, and the later he later winds up befriending everybody. It becomes a running gag that each new villain winds up befriending the other villain guys and then they all open a cat café together.

Using jobs as a way to lift people out of lives of crime is great and all but in the story there is no nuance or consequences for past wrong and well.....it feels very weird.  It's like Vigilantes plays at having an opinion about moral ambiguity and the complexity of human existence and then just.......lets everyone get along because who has time to get into all that. Make of that what you will but it sits weird for me personally.

Anyway, let's move on and talk about POP STEP our main girl!

I love pop stars and I love vigilantes and a guerrilla performer is defiantly a character I could get behind. And I think they do a good job with Pop. She is actually kind of shy, but has this secret edgy persona she puts on when she performs. She is every girl on tumbler in the early 2000s. I also looooove that they make her not that great a singer. SHE’S GOT PASSION AND CHARISMA and maybe not born talent but like why should that stop you! Talent can be earned through practice and this is a great lesson to show people.

Unfortunately, Pop is also a great example of everything wrong with romance in Shonen.

It’s established early on that Pop loves Koichi because she is the girl he rescued all those years ago and yada yada yikes we’ve heard this one before. Many times before.

Sure, it's fine that they’ve met before, but gosh am I sick of damsels in distress. It's like she can't love him just because she respects what a great guy he is in her life and in the community at large, no no, she just needs to be rescued on top of that. And LOLOLOL isn't it funny he never noticed she was a girl because she was a child with short hair?! Once he realizes she has boobs now they will for sure fall in love! That’s how love works!

She's just with him all the time—nothing romantic ever happens she just gets a little tsundere.

I am never ever going to believe Koichi likes Pop because he spends like sooooo much time with her and they never have like, a moment. The first time he considers her is when Makoto is like, ‘hey I would love to get together with you, but have you thought about if you are crushing on Pop’. (Also this entire plot point is suspect—she's arbitrarily falling for Koichi cause he.......is the protagonist?)  

Say what you will about shojo, they give you the emotional conversations, the moments where you think.....ahhh I can see why she is falling for him. They give you context! Shonen likes to just say HERE’S A GIRL YOUR AGE. YOU CAN DATE LATER WHEN THE ADVENTURE IS DONE.

Just when they might get together, Pop suddenly turns evilllllll. The evilllll beeeees made her eeeevilllll (and more sexy).

*Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

Because why on earth would they get together if Koichi didn’t get to rescue Pop one more time?

I’m tired. These troupes are tired. I’m sure you are too. HOWEVER! If your still with me, Let’s move into why I'm really writing this post. Let’s get to the part that got me screaming to my friends, who by the way, don’t even care bout Hero Aca….but listened anyways. May you all find nakama like these my friends.

Anyways,

HOLY FUCK ERASERHEAD’S ENTIRE BACK STORY IS IN THIS AROUND CHAPTER 60 AND IT IS WONDERFUL AND ABSOLUTLY HEARTBREAKING AND IS ONE OF THE BEST CHARACTER BACKSTORIES I HAVE EVER SEEN AND IS THE REASON WHY THIS SERIES IS A MUST-READ FOR MAIN SERIES FANS.

AND BY ALMIGHT.  

WHY. IS. IT HERE.  

I present to you my late night text messages to my friends

ALSO, AIZAWAS TEACHER IS PRINCE?!?!?!

AHEM, so as you can see, I kinda lost my shit.

And now, I would like to formally defend my claim that DESPITE HOW AMAZING IT WAS, ERASERHEAD’S BACKSTORY HAD NO BUISSNESS BEING IN THE VIGILANTES SPIN-OFF MANGA.

Eraserhead, aka Aizawa Shouta, is a side character who is working with the police on some crime stuff. He is not a main cast member in this spin off. He’s a guest character that fans of the main series will be like OH COOL. GRUMPY CAT MAN LIKES CATS ON HIS OFF HOURS TOO. LOVE THAT FOR HIM.

So, my imagine my absolute surprise when Aizawa runs into Koichi and the following happens:

It starts to rain, so, like in any good manga, this means some great FORCED BONDING TIME

Except no. It doesn't because rather than start talking, Aizawa JUST STARTS REMEMBERING—ABSOLUTLY SILENTLY TO HIS OWN PRIVETE SELF—HIS ENTIRE TRAGIC BACKSTORY.

AND THIS GOES ON FOR CHAPTERS.

THIS GOES ON LONGER THEN ARC ONE IT FEELS LIKE.

I LOVE IT, BUT KOICHI IS ABOUT TO JOIN ATSUSHI NAKAJIMA IN THE DUBIOUS CATEGORY OF “PROTAGONISTS THE SERIES FORGOT ABOUT IN LIEU OF COOLER SIDE CHARACTERS”.

AND LO IT HAS NO BEARING ON THE REST OF THE PLOT, CHARACTERS, OR STORY

What the ever-loving-just WHY?

WHY?

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?

SURE, IT’S A COOL TIE-IN.

YES, OF COURSE I LOVED IT. I SHIP ERASER MIC, I DREW THIS FOR HECK’S SAKE:

AND YET I AM ANGRY.

I AM ANGRY BECAUSE MY FRIDAY WAS RUINED BECAUSE VIGILATES SUCKER PUNCHED ME WITH AN AMAZING STORY THAT REALLY WASN’T PLOT RELEVANT AND PROBABLY SHOULDN’T HAVE BEEN THERE.  

IS THIS WHY THEY TOOK LIKE NEXT-TO-NO CARE WITH POPS ARC?!?

I mean its ongoing, so it’s too early to say but—

In conclusion—

Excuse me one more,

AIZAWA WAS TAUGHT BY PRINCE!?!??!?!?!?!? PURPLE RAIN PRINCE!?!??!?!?!? WHAT!??!?!?!

It’s so ABSURD that I HAD TO WRITE SOMETHING ABOUT IT. I HAD TO WRITE PARAGRAPHS TO JUSTIFY YELLING ABOUT THIS ONE THING. WHAT THE ABSOLUTE—

Ahem,

Anyways, I hope you liked this weird rant/personal-story/random-diatribe in three parts.

If you’re reading this, thank you, stay safe, and I’ll be back with more shojo manga next time.  

Ciao!

Dr. Shojo

(aka Dr. Shonen)

[stimmypaw]

stimmypaw reads the apprentice’s quest, a blog post

A big one, just a bunch of thoughts as I’m reading it, of course, lots of spoilers for the first book in the Warrior Cats series A Vision of Shadows. This will be covering just the first book tho, it’s all in the Read More, let’s gooooooo!!!!

Vision Of Shadows time

Lots of new cats!!! I don't remember these guys as kits or anything wrow!!! I like their names but itll take a while to get used to them

Also cant believe they printed stormcloud's dead name

Omg there's a cat named beepaw

I love these cats all of them so much im going 2 cry

All new names are perfect

I FORGOT HOW GORGEOUS THE CAT VIEW IN THE RECENT BOOKS WAS, LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT

I'm glad leafpool smokes weed

I love reading from Jayfeather's point of view, his grumpiness hasn't grown on me ever but thats just me, I still enjoy it lots he's great and its fun

Firestar and Leopardstar's characterizations are On Point i love it

OOF i feel so bad when jayfeather is mean to others, poor kestrelflight, I love those two

Lovely Jayfeather moments now its time for the first chapter

I like this duo! Also I didn't think I'd ever say this but shut up squirrelflight one can have fun AND learn with their mentors

Sparkkit sounds nice she makes jingling bell noises when she walks around

Alderkit is chadphobic /j

I can see Alderkit taking deep breaths to relax its rotating in my mind its beautiful

God this first chapter feels so good and comfortable, like eating noodles and chicken nuggets. I am so so deeply in love with it, its gorgeous!

Sparkkit is so perfect too, and Graystripe remembering Firestar aaaaaa

DUSTPELT SAID WHAT? PHDHAHAHHA OH NOOOO I don't remember their relationship much, must have been fun, I love young little creature squirrelflight I MISSED HER SO BAD WOW

I started reading the second chapter and died, I think ill take a break now 2 sleep heehhee

I love them describing twoleg stuff its always so fun and alien, like watching an animal planet show about funny sea creatures.

Also I have determined sparkpaw is my favorite, might be my favorite cat ever next to hollyleaf??? I really identify with her and also she's autistic i have decided that

Alderpaw baby noooo hhhh their mentor at least is trying to show its okay, he seems very emotionally distant so far and alderheart feels very emotionally needy, actually both of them do, did I mention I love Sparkpaw??? I might be imprinting myself 2 much on her

I love how like, its clear both of them are absolutely anxious and worried about others opinions on them, which is clearly something they got from being Firestar's grandkids, deputy kids and leader kids. And bramblestar too, I recall him being quite the anxious lad ahhah. Sparkpaw will be showing confidence and being loud but the second anyone isn't approving of her or she does something "wrong" she gets small and quiet, and she ended up setting a high bar for herself by being good at hunting and fighting so I'm curious to see how that will go. Also there's nothing wrong with being guided through a crowded place to meet others Sparkpaw!!! I bet the two of them would be stuck without not knowing how to talk to others had Needlepaw not shown up. I love them, my gf is mocking me saying I'm a Sparkpaw kinnie.

Apprentices will like learn about a thing and tell everyone about it all the time and assume its always true in every situation and thats valid I love kids like that. Also in my head Needlepaw kinda looks like a porcupine. Oh boo she's fatphobic >:(

I love apprentices they are so fun and silly, just making fun of the leaders like its nothing. The way they are clearly learning and absorving everything their warriors say and do like sponges its just ***chefs kiss***

Omg shadowclan is just full of 12 year olds help

And then the old person said "it sure is hard being old!" And everyone clapped

Shout-out to pretty Riverclan apprentice #481977 I love her

Leafpool: 👁👁

Alderpaw: I knew it im cursed and awful and terrible and I will never amount to anything

I wish the cats didn't seem to be giving up on him so easily though

Ah yes the classic thunderclan move "you suck, into the medicine hole you go"

The way sparkpaw changes the things she says and how she does when it isn't the status quo around her oooooooooooooyeaaaaaaa I love 1 autistic cat

Alderpaw considering your problems lesser than other cats won't help you deal with them better bro

I love Needlepaw's excitement about Alderpaw being a medicine cat apprentice, and her sarcasm, she feels like a preppy teenager

Ahhh this is so good, I am so thirsty for family moments like this, just Alderpaw bonding with grandma, I’ll definitely want to draw this one it’s so sweet.

Oh to be young and silly.

I really am enjoying like, Alderpaw’s struggles to seeing how he fits in the clan, how he fits in himself, how he wants to be seen and what he wants to be, it’s really good. I Am Engaged(tm) With This Plot.

SPARKPAW NOOOOOOO but also Yes I want her to be shown vulnerable and weak please 

POP, god watching this stuff always awful, the cats must have thought he broke her ahahah

Also, really great that they learned from Dovewing and now like leave choices and discussions about prophecies between adults

And plus Brambles seemed to take the time to explain stuff to him, seems he wont be going alone either the 1 thing is that he will be the only one knowing what the journey is really about, why though??? I didnt read Firestar's Quest or whatever why does Skyclan need to be secret??? Seems quite silly really!

YESSSS SANDSTORM GET HIS ASS FIGHT FIGHT LOVE THIS LOVE SANDSTORM

I could feel squirrelflight nearing explosion here, this was very fun, i wish they werent hiding this though!!!

The secret thing is showing to be a plot point so I am once again Very Engaged

Also, wonderful dialogue bit, someone asked Bramblestar why an Elder is going and:

Lovely perfect perfect

I miss you dovewing

SQUIRRELFLIGHT LOVE YOU

Oh boy this is it

Traveling book moment

Graystripe: Soooo you're excited to go on the journey to the old territories and Skyclan?

Sandstorm: Yes! It's been ages and-

Graystripe: I'm sure the tribe will love the visit too

Sandstorm, groaning: Oh noooo I forgot about how the tribe is in the way of every journeyyyyy noooooo they're such a racist caricature, please tell me you have a plan

Graystripe: Yes don't worry about it the writers forgot about the tribe in my comic book so you can just use the excuses i did to actively avoid it

Sandstorm: Oh thank Starclan

Sparkpaw's desperation to prove herself oof, her anxiety with understanding the prophecy, oh boy, and Alderpaw feeling too overwhelmed by the questions and not managing to talk!!!! I am so glad they are both autistic

Hoping "Being Leader" wont mean theyre putting nonsense responsibility on the apprentice again

Ah good Sandstorm is on the lead again, as she should, she should have been leader she would have been great

I can't believe Alderpaw thinks I look stupid and diseased :( /j

Everything about this twoleg scene was scandalous I loved it, Sparkpaw just toppled over a trash bag and they are eating from it, iconic, also did those twolegs throw out a whole turkey? Damn

Its not that Sparkpaw is freakishly good at hunting she is very hungry and constantly on the watch for things to eat

BRO Ive never been in a road where the drivers are this wild, throwing bottles out of the car????? Ive seen Fruit being thrown like once or twice, what the fuck!!! I'm glad they are going to wait until the morning to continue

Okay I was not expecting Needlepaw to show up this girl is chaotic I love her

ACTUALLY YEAH WHY DIDNT THEY TELL THE OTHER CLANS ABOUT THIS SINCE THE PROPHECY IS ABOUT ALL THE CLANS???

Needlepaw is like Rono from Bambi 2 if he wasnt a mean bully and thats very epic

Very curious character though, how come her mentor isnt teaching her the warrior code properly? Is that an issue with all apprentices?? Is the clan overwhelmed by 12 year olds and they won?

Having lots of fun trying to play the game "what animal are they describing this time" the erins made here, im glad they're in a farm. Worried about Sandstorm though :c

Fuck im worried about sandstorm a lot, her wound hurt on Me

Yeah water is good youre right sandstorm

Aw man I hope she's okay let her at least survive to meet skyclan please

NOOOOOOOO SANDSTORMA A AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Sandtteooonrjrbbbmmnnnnnnnnnn

I am so sad

Alderpaw denying it, Starclan shining upon their vigil, everything crushed me i cried

Alderpaw considers Nihilism

Haven't seen a cat thank starclan for prey in a while its

Oh look they time skipped a journey! They don't tend to do that thats nice

I'm so excited to be meeting The Skyclan that everyone in the fandom knows now

So far they seem kinda mean but thats most clans at first glance really

Okay somethings up

I uh have heard of Darktail pretty sure he's a bad guy so yeah something really bad happened to Skyclan

Am worried

Darktail sounds like an evil himbo* i may be enjoying him actually

*himbos are usually nice by default so he's just evil and stupid and strong

Does needletail know these cats already?????

Ah

Shit

Oh okay fuck

I've been quietly reading the rest because I am just concerned and I want them to be okay as quickly as possible

Waterfalls are a classic nice

Oh boy time for our unlikely duo of Alderpaw and Needlepaw to get out of a Mess!

I did not expect this to end up with the two of them journeying into parenthood, but I'm happy it did

Well actually I'm very unhappy theyre so lost and there's no sign of Skyclan I am very worried for everyone involved Sparkpaw must be feeling awful!

Twigkit is a great name

Yeah this ended terribly

Overall! Frigging loved it this book was GOOD and a great start for the series I am very excited to read the rest, SO WORRIED ABOUT SKYCLAN THO AAAA the characterizations were great the characters were great the pacing was fun and I didn't get bored once!

I think o only wish I had read this sooner really so I could look up others thoughts without getting heavily spoiled about the last books, I can watch a few videos already though thats a start ahhaha. But yeah it was great and it felt very good to read, haven't swallowed up a book so quickly in a very long time!!! Very happy I finally got my hands on this 💕💖💕💖💕💖 cant wait 2 start the next one

If you read all this, hope you had fun hahaha, ill be making more of these cus theyre fun and I like talking about warrior cats thats just my thing

Til next time